_______Song for The Broken Heart

Waiting for a Bus...

2007-04-10T11:56:00.000+07:00

You know, love is just like someone waiting for a bus.
When the bus comes, you look at it and you say to yourself "eeee...so full...cannot sit down. I'll wait for the next one." So you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.
Then the second bus came, you looked at it you say, "eeee...this bus is so old...so shabby!" So you let the bus go and again, decided to wait for the next bus.
After a while another bus came, it's not crowded, not old but you said, "eeee...not air - conditioned... better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.
Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late. You panicked and jumped immediately inside the next bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus! So you wasted your time and money waiting for what you want! Even if an air - conditioned bus comes, you can't ensure that it won't break down or whether or not the air-conditioner will be too cold for you.

So people... wanting to get what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance right? If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you, just get off the bus! It's as simple as that! Life really isn't fair. The only best thing to do is to be observant and open while you scrutinize the bus. If it doesn't suit you, get off. But you must always have an extra something, which you could use for the next bus that will arrive. But wait...I'm sure you have this experience before. You saw a bus coming (the bus you want of course) you flagged it but the driver acted as if he did not see you and zoomed pass you! It just wasn't meant for you!
The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting for a bus you want. Getting on the bus and appreciating the bus by giving it a chance depends totally on you. If you haven't made any choice, walk! Walking is like being out of love. The good side of it is you can still choose any bus you want... the rest who couldn't afford another ride would just have to be content with the bus they rode on, ugly or not. One more thing... sometimes it's better to choose a bus you are already familiar with rather than gamble with a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But then again, life wouldn't be complete without the risks involved.
There's one bus that I forgot to tell you about - the bus that you don't have to wait for. It will just stop on its own and will ask you to come inside and take a free ride for the rest of your life.
You never lose by loving...you always lose by holding back...

My Love will never ask anything

2007-03-23T09:52:00.000+07:00

My Love will never ask anything

love sometimes made me looks like a fool
forgive me for being fool
but falling in love had pushed me to be brave and consistent..
be brave in facing the worst thing will happen
be consistent in keeping the shape of my heart
will every lover feel the same I do feel right now?
I love not only a half of who she is..
I love her in and out..
I really want to spend my life in taking care of her
I don't give a damn even she doesn't feel the same
I just care about her happines
I wanna make her has a happy life everafter..
even her happines is not with me
I will never ask to be loved
I will never ask her to care about me
but I also will never ask to be hate
I will only ask.."was it wrong to be in love?"
if the answer is "it is wrong to be in love..
then there won't be a love song
then why god creates such this feelin'
then why there's cupid in greek myth
My angel,..would you don't worry about me leaving you
coz' I will never leave you at once..
even I can't be beside you,..but I will be there for you
I'll be walking after you,..
when you found someone that you really love..
I'll be there to fight for your love..
to make your wish come true
I am not an angel,..but I could be one
if you ask me to..
don't think of me,..
I won't be hurt if you are so happy
what may come..I will always be the same
to love you with all the love I have inside
to give you everything I have in life
don't think of me,..
I am a happy man to love you

the Wise Old Man

2007-03-02T14:42:00.000+07:00

May the wisdom inspires us to ‘age’ gracefully and hopefully - writing of Musique-L’Amour rêve (André Gagnon), translated by Penny Harvey

A man of 92 years, short, very well-presented, who takes great care in his appearance, is moving into an old people’s home today.

His wife of 70 has recently died, and he is obliged to leave his home.

After waiting several hours in the retirement home lobby, he gently smiles as he is told that his room is ready.

As he slowly walks to the elevator, using his cane, I describe his small room to him, including the sheet hung at the window which serves as a curtain.

-"I like it very much", he says, with the enthusiasm of an 8 year old boy who has just been given a new puppy.

-"M. Gagné, you haven’t even seen the room yet, hang on a moment, we are almost there."

"That has nothing to do with it", he replies.

"Happiness is something I choose in advance. Whether or not I like the room does not depend on the furniture, or the decor – rather it depends on how I decide to see it."

"It is already decided in my mind that I like my room. It is a decision I take every morning when I wake up."

"I can choose. I can spend my day in bed enumerating all the difficulties that I have with the parts of my body that no longer work very well, or I can get up and give thanks to heaven for those parts that are still in working order."

"Every day is a gift, and as long as I can open my eyes, I will focus on the new day, and all the happy memories that I have built up during my life."

"Old age is like a bank account. You withdraw in later life what you have deposited along the way."

So, my advice to you is to deposit all the happiness you can in your bank account of memories.

Thank you for your part in filling my account with happy memories, which I am still continuing to fill…

Remember these simple guidelines for happiness.

1. Free your heart from hate.

2. Free your mind from worry.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

listening to..

2007-02-28T10:49:00.000+07:00

now i'm listening to

TITLE: I Know Him So Well

ARTIST: Tim Rice, Benny Andersson and Bjorn Ulvaeus
Lyrics and Chords


[Chess]

Florence:
Nothing is so good it lasts eternally
Perfect situations must go wrong
But this has never yet prevented me
Wanting far too much for far too long
Looking back I could have played it differently
Won a few more moments, who can tell
But it took time to understand the man
Now at least I know I know him well

Florence: Wasn't it good
   Svetlana: Oh so good
F: Wasn't he fine
   S: Oh so fine
F: Isn't it madness
Both: He can't be mine
F: But in the end he needs a little bit more than me, more security
S: He needs his fantasy and freedom
Both: I know him so well

Svetlana:
No one in your life is with you constantly
No one is completely on your side
And though I move my world to be with him
Still the gap between us is too wide
Looking back I could have played it differently
   F: Looking back I could have played things some other way
Learned about the man before I fell
   F: I was just a little careless maybe
But I was ever so much younger then
   F: Now at least I know him well
Now at least I know I know him well
   F: I know I know him well

S: Wasn't it good
   F: Oh so good
S: Wasn't he fine
   F: Oh so fine
S: Isn't it madness
Both: He won't be mine
Didn't I know how it would go
If I knew from the start
Why am I falling apart

S: Wasn't it good, wasn't he fine
F: Isn't it madness
Both: He won't be mine
F: But in the end he needs a little bit more than me, more security
S: He needs his fantasy and freedom
F: I know him so well
S: It took time to understand him
Both: I know him so well

2007-02-02T15:04:00.000+07:00

Datang Dan Pergi Mu

Tanpa permisi ....
kau masuki khayalanku
menghias alam dunia dibawah sadarku
berlari mendekat dipelupuk mataku
dan tanpa kau sadari ...
namamu sudah terukir dihatiku

Dan kini ....
saat ku tau kau pergi
hatiku perih

Kau pergi membawa cintaku
kau pergi membawa jiwaku
kau pergi membawa rasa dan rinduku

Tak ingin ku buka mata ini
yang jika ku memandang
tak ada kau disampingku

Aku yang lemah ...
tak tau harus bagaimana ????
salahkah aku mengharap kedatangan
cintamu .....???

*SaMuRaI_X

2007-02-02T13:51:00.000+07:00

Merpati Khayal Dan Kura - Kura Mimpiku

Dalam harap yang tak bertepi
kulayangkan pesan lewat merpati khayalku
'tuk membawa kembali kepingan hati
yang dapat mengisi
potongan puzzle mimpi yang selalu kuteriakkan

di malam tak bertelinga
di teriakan tak bersuara
rindu di hati

Dalam dingin malam berangin
kulayarkan ingin tuk bertemu
lewat kura-kura danau
yang berenang meriakkan air
dalam kabut sungai mimpi

Dipandangi pepohonan dengan ketiadaan matanya, dan
dielus angin dengan ketiadaan tangannya.

*Mr $angkot

2007-02-02T13:37:00.000+07:00

Love Is Blind

Aku mungkin tak mampu memberi semua yang kau pinta
Aku mungkin tak mampu membuat dunia selalu indah buatmu
Aku mungkin tak mampu mengajak bulan tersenyum padamu
tapi ku minta...percaya padaku...

Aku mampu menunggu bila memang takdirku
Aku mampu mencintaimu sepanjang waktu
Aku mampu membahagiakanmu sepanjang hari jika memang surga menetapkan jalan itu
Aku mampu mempercayaimu seorang diri meski seisi dunia menganggapmu pembohong
Aku mampu berada di dekatmu walau seisi dunia beranjak pergi meninggalkanmu
Aku mampu tetap tersenyum padamu walaupun seisi dunia memandang sinis terhadapmu
Aku mampu membelamu meski seisi dunia bersikeras bahwa kau yang bersalah
Percaya padaku...

Aku mampu melakukan semua itu...
walau seisi dunia mengatakan aku bodoh, tolol, naif dan buta...

if love is blind

*Mr $angkot

2007-01-18T09:46:00.000+07:00

Your EQ is 140

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2007-01-11T12:13:00.000+07:00

starting this year...

this year resolution
1. try my best to speak english fluently and good written.
2. try hard to expose about myself
3. change myself
3. wanna be a better person
4. being colder
5. be happy

Am I in Love?

2007-01-11T11:15:00.000+07:00

Am I in Love?

Why do I keep thinking of you?
Even though I know
That you keep thinking for someone else,
Why do I care for you?
Even though I know
That you haven't care for me.

I don't even know
What this is am feeling
I don't even know
What's the real meaning of this?
The only thing I know,
Am happy when I am with you.

I think I'm fallen to someone
Who don't deserve to be loved?
I'm fallen to someone
Who don't have a scheme to catch me when I fall?
Knowing you makes me live
In this messy life
But having you
Will make my world go round.

Tak Pernah Menyesal

2007-01-09T11:31:00.000+07:00

Quote from forum but that's like my mind to some1

Tak Pernah Menyesal

Aku dihimpitan kerinduan dan keraguan.. Perlahan-lahan waktu mulai berganti.. Segalanya berjalan sungguh cepat.. Seperti kereta senja yang melaju tanpa henti.. Aku bahkan tak tahu sudah seberapa jauh rel-rel itu bergerak maju..

Entah mengapa tak sebegitu mudahnya aku mencari.. Entah mengapa tak sebegitu mudahnya aku berpaling.. Entah mengapa tak sebegitu ringannya aku berjalan.. Meski hati sudah tak mampu lagi merebakkan isi bebungaan di indahnya bukit berpelangi..

Aku tak lagi menangis.. Mungkin karena kekeringan itu telah merampok semua air mataku.. Aku tak lagi tersedu.. Mungkin karena butiran kesedihan sudah habis teruapkan asa dan sang waktu.. Namun satu hal yang masih terpatri jelas..

Kehadiranmu..

Sosok indah yang entah darimana datangnya.. Seolah segalanya begitu sempurna.. Hingga boleh aku merasa secuil kebahagiaan yang mungkin tak lama.. Namun aku pernah bahagia.. Aku pernah begitu bahagia.. Teramat sangat..

Mungkin kau hanyalah manusia biasa.. Namun kau begitu sempurna untukku.. Begitu hidup.. Begitu nyata.. Milikku yang nyata.. Meski kini kau menyisakan guratan-guratan yang kau ukir dengan belati tajam cintamu.. Namun aku masih merasa bahagia.. Masih merasakan..

Cinta..

Pernah aku begitu ingin membencimu.. Karena begitu dalamnya cintaku untukmu.. Pernah aku begitu ingin mengoyakmu keluar dari ruang hampa hatiku.. Karena begitu besar kau menyesakkan dadaku.. Pernah aku begitu ingin membunuhmu dari hidupku.. Karena begitu dalamnya luka yang kurasakan atas kepergianmu..

Namun.. Cinta memampukan segalanya.. Ketika kepedihan dan luka itu justru membuatku makin mencintaimu.. Apakah ini yang dinamakan cinta sejati?

Mungkin segalanya tak seindah dulu lagi.. Melihat dirimu kini.. Aku benar-benar tak pernah merasakan sesal.. Tak pernah sedikitpun aku menyesal.. Karena yang terindah pernah mengisi hatiku.. dan dia terus bersemayam dalam kerinduan terdalam di dasar ketulusanku..

Tak ada sedikitpun sesalku telah bertahan dengan setiaku.. Walau di akhir jalan kuharus melepaskan dirimu.. Ternyata tak mampu kau melupa dalamnya cintaku yang hebat.. Hingga ada alasan bagimu tuk tinggalkan setiamu..

Demi nama cinta telah kupersembahkan hatiku hanya untukmu.. Telah kujaga kejujuran dalam setiap nafasku.. Karena demi cinta.. telah kurelakan kecewaku atas ingkarmu.. Sebab kumengerti cinta itu tak mesti memiliki.. dirimu..

Andai saja bisa kau pahami layaknya arti kasih sejati.. Karena cinta yang sungguh tiada akan pernah mungkin bersyarat..

Cinta itu memang takkan pernah mungkin bersyarat.. Seberapa dalamnya aku mencintaimu.. Aku lakukan itu bukan sebagai pengorbanan untuk mendapatkanmu.. Tapi aku lakukan itu karena ketulusanku.. Karena aku mulai memahami apa itu cinta.. Hanya demi cinta.. aku mampu menjadi seperti ini.. Karena cinta.. aku pun menjadi dewasa..

Ternyata tak mampu kau melupa dalamnya cintaku yang hebat...

Dan aku benar-benar merasakan luka dibalik semua itu.. Meski harusnya aku tertawa karena merasa begitu besar arti diriku untukmu.. Namun.. aku benar-benar merasa luka.. Karena aku juga merasakan kepedihanmu dan betapa besarnya kau berjuang.. Apakah ini yang disebut belahan jiwaku? Bahkan kau pun merasakan hal yang sama..

Tanpa banyak kata-kata.. Tanpa banyak bicara.. Kita bisa saling memahami.. I wonder why..

Begitu sempurna kah aku di matamu? Seperti sesempurna aku menilaimu? Hingga kau terjebak dalam keadaan yang sungguh menyedihkan? Oh Tuhan.. Mengapa harus seperti ini kisah cinta kami berjalan?

Hanya cinta sejati yang bisa memberi tanpa harus menerima.. Dia membawa damai dan bahagiakan jiwa untuk semua manusia.. Hanya cinta sejati yang bisa bertahan tanpa mengenal waktu.. Takkan pernah sirna bagai karang di samudera akan abadi untuk selamanya..

Seperti itulah cintaku untuk dirimu.. Tulus dan apa adanya.. Datang dari sebuah rasa.. Sucinya hati.. atas nama cinta sejati..

Dan bila engkau telah mengerti berapa besarnya artinya cinta.. Hingga setiap nafas yang mengalir di tubuhmu mengandung cinta dari Yang Kuasa..

Apakah yang kini aku rasakan adalah cinta sejati? Mengapa aku tetap begitu mencintaimu ketika torehan belatimu itu mulai menggores rapuhnya hatiku? Mengapa begitu berat bagiku untuk melupakanmu? dan yang kuberikan semuanya justru hanya yang terbaik untukmu? Meski kita tak lagi saling memiliki..

Namun apa yang kuberikan padamu tetap yang terbaik dari diriku..

Dan aku pun tak mengerti mengapa itu pula yang membuatmu makin tak bisa lepas dari diriku.. Aku benar-benar tak mengerti.. Tak sedikitpun aku mengerti..

Tiada pernah aku merasakan lagi indahnya mawar merah menghiasi taman hati.. Bahkan sejuk air membasahi relung jiwa.. Seakan semua sirna dari hidupku.. Hanya kamu yang bisa membuat aku mengakui ketulusan cinta.. Hanya kamu yang bisa menenggelamkan kejemuan dan rasa hampa..

Aku sadari itu.. Hanya kamu yang bisa.. Namun apakah aku harus terus berhenti berjalan? Ketika Tuhan memberikan jalan yang berbeda..

Aku bertanya selalu padamu.. 'Tell me what to do..' tapi yang kau katakan.. 'Aku lebih butuhkan jawaban itu darimu.. tell me what to do..' Dan aku pun tak tahu harus membanjir seperti apa lagi..

Ada doa.. ada lara.. Ada tangis dan nestapa.. Meragu melebar jiwa.. Kadang sendu kadang ceria.. Tatap angkuh penuh cela.. Tiada lagi kubermanja.. Berkeping hati berbudi.. Kalang di matamu..

Bagai bala singgah kini.. Sesat pandanganku kini.. Sumbang suara-suara cinta.. Telah berada-ada..

Lelah sudah kutersadar diri.. Warna cinta membaur berganti..

Kelam kini menghantui.. Kucari sepi hidupku.. Namun tak juga kujumpa.. Tak daya kukejar hari.. Ada doa.. Ada lara.. Ada tangis dan nestapa.. Telah kau beri sepi tiada bertepi..

Aku pun merasakan lelah.. Ketika semua tak juga ada titik terangnya.. Semula yang kupikir sebagai cahaya penuntunku untuk keluar dari lingkaran cinta ini.. Kini semakin memudar dalam kabut kegundahan.. Sepi.. mungkin memang itu yang kurasakan tanpa kehadiranmu..

Sesat pandanganku kini.. seperti tak bisa lagi melihat warna-warni dunia.. Dan aku benci merasakan seperti ini.. Aku terluka merasa seperti ini.. Mengapa Tuhan ciptakan hati ketika hati itu justru tersakiti dan terlukai.. Apa aku dan manusia lainnya hanya bisa berpasrah diri dengan hidup seperti ini..

Aku tahu DIA sang pemberi hidup takkan meninggalkan aku sendiri.. Namun mengapa derita ini membuat siksa batin tersendiri untukku? Harus bagaimanakah aku melaju dalam roda dunia yang tak mau menunggu..

You said my love is all you need to see you through.. But I know these words are not quite true.. Here's the path you're looking for an open door, leading the world you long to explore..

Go.. if you must move on alone.. I'm gonna make it on my own..

Kiss me good bye.. Love's memory.. Follow your heart and find your destiny.. Don't shed a tear for love's mortality.. For you put the dream in my reality..

As time goes by I know you'll see this of me.. I loved you enough to let you go free.. Go.. I will give you wings to fly.. Cast all your fears into the sky..

Kiss me good bye.. Love's mystery.. All of my life I'll hold you close to me.. Don't shed a tear for love's mortality.. For you put the dream in my reality..

You put the dream in my reality..

Kehadiranmu benar-benar menjawab mimpi yang selama ini aku rindukan.. Dan aku bahagia.. mimpi itu pernah kurasakan.. sebagai sesuatu yang nyata.. Dalam hidup ini, aku bahagia pernah jadi sesuatu dalam hidupmu.. Dan aku bahagia pernah mengukir kisah terindah dalam hidupmu.. Kenangan terindah.. Cinta terindah..

Aku mungkin hanya gadis yang lemah.. Gadis yang berusaha mencari ketegaran di balik senyuman sahabat-sahabat yang dengan tulus menyayanginya.. Gadis yang berusaha meraup kedewasaan di balik rasa pedihnya.. Gadis yang melanglang buana dan berusaha mencari jalan pulang.. Gadis yang tak juga tersesat tapi tak juga menemukan arah..

Aku hanya gadis yang mencari makna diri..

Kesunyian ini lirih kubernyanyi.. Lagu indah untukmu.. Aku bernyanyi.. Engkaulah cintaku.. Cinta dalam hidupku.. Bersama rembulan aku menangis..

Mengenangmu.. Segala tentangmu.. Kumemanggilmu dalam hati lirih..

Engkaulah hidupku.. Hidup dan matiku.. Tanpa dirimu aku menangis.. Mengenangmu.. Segala tentangmu.. Kumemanggilmu dalam hatiku..

Aku bernyanyi.. Mengenangmu.. Segala tentangmu.. Kumemanggilmu dalam hati lirih.. Kumemanggilmu.. Dalam hati.. Lirih..

Kukenang dirimu..

Jujur dari lubuk hati terdalam.. Kepedihan itu masih bisa kurasakan.. Bahkan bila hatiku bisa.. Dia akan menangis bersama rebahnya tangisanku.. Aku masih mencintaimu.. Entah sampai kapan.. Entah berapa lama lagi.. Namun aku masih mencintaimu..

Tuhan.. Sampai aku pun tak tahu apa yang harus kukatakan pada-Mu ketika aku bersimpuh di hadapan-Mu.. Tak sanggup lagi aku berkata-kata, karena memandang wajah-Mu saja aku sudah merasakan kerinduan yang dalam untuk terbebas dari semua ini..

Tuhan.. Sampai aku pun tak tahu jalan mana yang harus kupilih ketika aku berusaha berjalan sendiri.. Karena yang aku inginkan hanya berjalan bersama-Mu.. Karena aku yakin hanya Kau lah yang selalu setia.. Hanya Kau lah yang memampukan segalanya..

Sebuah perahu merapat ke dermaga.. Membawa sebuah kisah yang abadi tak pernah usai.. Hingga jelang masa berpadu alir.. Tentang sebuah cinta yang melebur tanpa bersanding dalam sebuah lingkaran..

Perahu itu tak pernah tinggal.. Yang dia tinggalkan hanyalah kisah.. Yang makin lama meruah ke sudut-sudut penjuru bumi.. Lorong-lorong tersempit dan celah-celah tak terdaki.. yang akhirnya menjadi suatu simphony yang berpadu dalam semilir angin..

Serukan satu kisah atas nama cinta.. Dari seorang gadis dan jejaka, yang terpisah karena dunia dan nirwana.. Dari sebuah bintang dan segenggam cahaya.. Yang terikat oleh benang merah yang menyibak tirai pemisah antara langit dan bumi.. Yang merasakan indah dan manisnya cinta.. namun juga pahit dan lukanya..

Perahu yang membawa hati mereka berdua pergi.. Dari satu sisi ke sisi dunia yang lain.. Yang akan tetap melebur cinta mereka dalam heningnya lautan luas tiada bertepi.. Namun raga yang terpisah jauh oleh jarak dan waktu..

Karena hanya mereka berdua saja yang akan tahu..

Aku hanya sinar yang melintas sekedip.. Bagai kunang-kunang kecil dan engkau sayap-sayap yang meranggas seusai sekepak kau mengudara membawa hatiku semua..

Cinta adalah rasa yang pertama dan terakhir untuk merangkum kerinduan, kepasrahan, dan maafku..

Mungkin tak sebanding dengan kisah-kisah cinta abadi yang lain.. Namun, aku belajar dari semua yang aku alami.. Aku menjejakkan kakiku lebih tinggi di tangga yang menuntunku menuju ke matahari..

Apakah kau disana saat ini juga sedang berusaha menapaki tangga itu..

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Untuk seseorang yang begitu banyak memberikan arti dalam perjalanan hidupku..
Aku banyak belajar karenamu..
Bertumbuh jadi makin dewasa karenamu..
Bangkit dari kesakitan dan keterpurukanku juga karenamu..

Thanks for being the best.

2007-01-05T15:48:00.000+07:00

The Mistake You Cannot Forget

You say you cannot forget
And you aren't ready to forgive
But I need your friendship
More than you'll even know
I need you there to live

Without you by my side today
Life's been going, oh so slow
I miss your calls
Our endless talks
The places we would go

You can't even bear to look at me,
And I know my mistake
For because of one night,
And a few thoughtless actions,
When you saw me you ran and hid

I know we cannot take it back
As much as we would like to
But we could forget
And start all over
Just friends, that's me and you

If time is what you need,
Then I guess that's what you'll get
But I need you there for me soon,
My friend,
I hope you will forget.

Sorry

2007-01-05T14:17:00.000+07:00

Sorry

Just look at me now
Because I'm tired of yelling
Look at me now
It's only me I'm selling
I'm not willing to trade
My life to make the sale
You turn me around
You put me down
Look at me now

I'm hanging out my heart to dry
For the last time
I'll tell you the reason why
It's for the last time

Laid-back uptown turnaround people - lie
Laid-back uptown turnaround people - wear disguises
Sorry, a word they only use too late
Sorry is a word that only ever means forgive my yesterdays (Sorry)
Laid-back uptown turnaround people - lie (uptown people lie)
Laid-back uptown turnaround people - wear disguises
And sorry that's a word they only use too late
Sorry is a word that only ever means forgive my yesterdays (Sorry)

Here I am loving you
You're laying there so quietly
I can feel your breath upon my skin
Afterglow came suddenly
With you it always did

I'm hanging out my heart to dry (Look at me now)
For the last time
I'll tell you the reason why (Look at me now)
It's for the last time
Laid-back uptown turnaround people - lie (Look at me now)
Laid-back uptown turnaround people - wear disguises
(Look at me now)

They say sorry that's a word
They only use too late
Sorry is a word that only ever means
Forgive my yesterdays (Sorry)

(Uptown people lie)
Laid-back uptown turnaround people - wear disguises
They say sorry (laid-back turnaround people)
That's a word they only use too late (uptown people lie)
Sorry is a word that only means forgive
(laid-back turnaround people)
(Sorry)

*moody Blues*

Bad Day

2007-01-05T13:11:00.000+07:00

yesterday and today is my bad day,
yesterday i makes 2 people got angry,
and today i make my boss angry
coz i' m mistake write the name in the email
do you want to know what i wrote?
yesterday i think i finished my work with "Almarhumah Ibu Suhati"
so...today i sent email to my bos (Sehati)
and i don't check the message again
and then the bom was exploded
coz i add "Almarhumah Ibu Sehati" to her name
she thought i wish her go to die

*sigh...now i can't thought what will happened to me again
i wished i will lucky from now on hehehe....

2007-01-03T15:14:00.000+07:00

happy new year all

2007-01-03T13:48:00.000+07:00

Don't Know Much

Look at this face
I know the years are showin’
Look at this life
I still don’t know where it’s goin’

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

Look at these eyes
They never seen what mattered
Look at these dreams
So beaten and so battered, hoo¡ooh¡

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

So many questions
Still left unanswered
So much
I’ve never broken through

And when I feel you near me
Sometimes I see so clearly
The only truth I’ve ever known
Is me and you

Look at this man
So blessed with inspiration
Look at this soul
Still searching for salvation

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
That may be
All I need to know

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
That may be
All there is to know, whoa¡oh¡oh¡oh¡ah¡

*Linda ronstadt featuring aaron neville
(barry mann/cynthia weil/tom snow)

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

2006-12-18T15:06:00.000+07:00

Your Birthdate: August 18

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.
In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with.
You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending!

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

How Peaceful Are You?

2006-12-18T15:05:00.000+07:00

You Are 62% Peaceful

You are a very peaceful person. All is good in your world, no matter what's going on.
Occasionally you let your problems get to you, but you generally remain upbeat.
Your inner strength is inspirational - much more so than you may realize.

How Peaceful Are You?

2006-12-13T11:06:00.000+07:00

01. What time is it now?:
:12.59 pm

02. What are you doing?:
: chatting, browsing and definitely updating my blog

03. Thinking of Anyone?:
: haha...u remind me of that!

04. Are you Happy/Blur/Sad etc?:
: BORED / CONFUSED!!

05. Why?:
: must to learn textbook coz *hate textbook

06. What is the last thing you ate?:
: dun have ate anything, now i'm hungry

07. Last thing that you've heard that made you cry?:
: -

10. Whats the last movie that made you cry?:
: -

12. Who do you wish to be by your side?:
: family, friends, my inspirator, motivator, and those I care most!

13. Regret anything in this month?:
: yap

14. Did you fall in love/out of love in this month?:
: hm...yap...

15. Who was the last person you talkedto?:
: fara on ym

16. Who was the last person you hugged?:
: -

17. Who was the last person you sms?:
: tc

18. What did you dream of today?:
: -

19. Who can make you laugh?:
: don't know

20. Who always takes care of you?:
: -

21. Anyone you know is in pain?:
: You'll grow stronger :)

24. What happen?:
: What we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday;
: and our present thoughts build our life tomorrow.;
: Our life is the creation of our mind;

25. What do you wanna do before you die?:
: make people around me happy

26. What song is stuck in your head?:
: The Next Time I Fall - Peter Cetera

27. What song are you listening now?:
: The Next Time I Fall - Peter Cetera, then
: Dreaming of You - Selena

28. Worried about anyone?:
: sometimes

29. What age do you wanna get married?:
: hm...when I find my One

30. How many children do you want?:
: like my one wishes

31. Where do you wanna go for Honeymoon?:
: Anywhere

32. Any plans in this 2 month?:
: Job Interview, Exam, FYP, xmas and valentine's gifts and cards...

33. Describe a perfect wedding?:
: Happy and everlasting couple :)

34. Describe a perfect Date?:
:

35. Where would you like to go for Holiday?:
: Anywhere

36. Do you play instrument?:
: -

38. Do you have a band?:
: -

39. What song do you want to listen to?:
: the one that suits my mood

40. Wish you could die?:
: Life is too beautiful to let go. *Life must go on...

41. Do you give up easily?:
: At times life can be rough for sure...but well, I shall commit to what I said and promised. Go for it!! *but sometime i can give up too

42. Do you know anyone that acts like a kid?:
: Of course...

44. Do you know anyone that is rude?:
: Interesting personality, but can be tough to understand at times

45. What's the sweetest thing anyone ever done?:
: must to answer?

47. Any sweet unforgettable memories with your Ex?:
: why not?

48. Honestly.. Which Ex did you love the most?:
: Aiyoo...let bygone be bygone

49. Who do you want to be hugged by?:
: the one who give the warmth ^.*

50. Are you enjoying life?:
: YUP....

2006-12-13T09:19:00.000+07:00

If dreams were given to a lonely man
and a lonely man's dreams came true,
I'd force myself to sleep all the time
just so I could dream of you

If wishes were given to a lonely man
and I was given just two,
I'd wish for you to always love me
and the other I'd give to you

If my tears could write a love song
I'd write a love song for you,
It would explain just how I feel inside
and how much I love you too

But, dreams are only dreams
and wishes seldom come true,
My tears can't write a love song,
but when they fall, they fall for you

2006-12-13T09:09:00.000+07:00

*quote from bulletin board fs

Message: Once you opened this bulletin, you have to re-post this with the color that you are and in 1 min. or youre going to be single till you die! uh oh.

W H I T E
Don't really care of loving life
Have good, if don't have also no
problem

R E D *my fav. colour
Confused about someone

B L U E
taken & Loving it

L I M E G R E E N
taken and love the person to death

PURPLE *like this colour too
Single and Loving it

Y E L L O W

Single, not hating it, not loving it,
just
waiting

G O L D
Likes more than 1 person

M A G E N T A
Heartbroken

G R E Y
like someone who hates you.

P I N K
robbed a liquor store and told them to
give me the
beer!!!

T U R Q U O I S E
Like someone who is taken

O R A N G E
Like someone but dont know if they like
you

S I L V E R
you're thinkin about just giving up

B A B Y B L U E
You are still thinking if you like that
some1 and
aren't sure yet

T E A L
Like someone who likes you back but
arent going
out

B L A C K
mutha fucken pimp!

you like someone, they like you, but it
cant happen.

C L E A R
You can't see me. I'm an invisible
ninja......... lol

repost tis as de colour tat u chose....

Could You Be The One For Me?

2006-12-08T14:30:00.000+07:00

Could You Be The One For Me?

Could you be the one for me?
Could you be my find?
Could it be, after all this time,
Fate is going to be kind?

Could you be the one for me,
The one to help me forget
The man that broke my heart, my soul
The man that haunts me yet?

You tell me that I'm beautiful
Something I've never heard
But the one still lives here in my mind
That couldn't spare a kind word

It's going to be hard to forget
And pick up the pieces he left
Could you be the one to teach
How to love again and forget?

Could you be the one to come
And mend my broken heart?
Are you willing to piece together
What another broke apart?

It won't be an easy job, you see
My road has been long and rough
And the heart that was once so soft
Is now shut, locked, and tough

But I can feel my heart open again
It's opening for you
Just come in, and love me back
That's all you have to do

I must ask you one small thing
Before we kiss and part
Please be nice and kind to me
I'm tired of broken hearts

*LoveBug

I Can See The Pain

2006-12-07T15:18:00.000+07:00

like my stories

I Can See The Pain

I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall

I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new

Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever

Two years and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my like ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see

We decided to go out and make it all all right
It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't

I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see
That love will stand the test of time and never fall

*Nikki

2006-12-07T15:10:00.000+07:00

Seek Not My Heart

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart.

*Kit McCallum

2006-12-07T09:28:00.000+07:00

To the persons who were sad because of losing the important people

In My Mind

Somewhere in my dreams tonight
I'll see you standing there
You look at me with a smile
"Life isn't always fair"

You say you were chosen for his garden
His preciously hand picked bouquet
"God really needed me,
That's why I couldn't stay"

It's said to be that angels
Are sent from above
I've always had my angel
My brother - whose heart was filled with love

Wherever the ocean meets the sky
There will be memories of you and I
When I look up at that sky so blue
All I see are visions of you

"While there's a heart in me, you'll be a part of me."

*Jenn Farrell*