It’s going to be Vegetables and Prawn Stir Fried + Carrot and Corn Soup tomorrow.

I’m very tempted to try my hands on Japanese Potato Salad this weekend.

*Short pause*

Okay, I just got back getting some of the prawns out. My fingers are frozen now and I killed a few prawns in the process, some with heads off, some with tails off because I forced them apart from the group of frozen prawns. I cannot wait anymore, I need to sleep. Hah!

They are still prawns anyway so…I guess it’s okay.

I have never deep-fried in my life because I have a phobia with “jumping oil” and simply because I don’t know how to deep-fry. I don’t know when I’ll get to that part to learn how to deep fry. I think it’s easy, but I don’t really fancy fried food. kononnya sangat healthy.

One of my favourite food…tofu, which I think I’ll have it tomorrow. Cheap and nutritious.

Alright….time to go stretchy stretchy.

I was out today to meet a friend, who needed a listening ear and I went intend to be all ears. In the end, it ended up me leaving (I didn’t had any choice) because she wanted to meet a guy. It made me feel like a time-filler, a back-up plan, disposable at anytime, not really a friend.  I won’t treat my friend that way. I mean if I’ve dated my friends, I will go out with my friends. And not going out with friends but heart is with another person. I’d rather you not going out with me then. Walking alone would have been much soothing for me than to know you need me when you think you need me and I can be disposed of when you don’t need me.

I walked to the car park. Face black and all. Held on the steering wheel very hard too. Drove with a black face and stubborn hands to the saloon to get my haircut.

When I came home after the haircut, I charged to the kitchen and whipped out a meal. No time to think. Just want to cook. Washed the unwashed rice cooker harder than I usually would. Still angry ma. Just want to cook. Still disappointed. I bought kimchi from Jusco because the lady was giving out food sample and when I tasted the kimchi soup, I immediately fell in love. Had to get one. Then, I was compiling my mind for list of food available in the fridge so I just decided to cook kimchi soup with tofu and beef.

I didn’t know how much kimchi I should put, not sure if water is too much but I wanted more soup hence I measured two big bowls. It didn’t taste right so I added a little bit of miso paste (while cooking and googling with my iPhone for this miso tip), added tofu. Marinated beef at a very last minute because I was thinking the kimchi would give flavour to the beef but then Iris suggested I should marinate so ok lah, I marinated it. Not sure if the beef would smell too beef-ish (I think there’s no such word, so pardon me) so I added ginger at a very last minute.

Let it boil some more. Tasted the soup. Very nice wor.

The only fail part is I cooked the beef for too long, a bit tough but it was still okay lah, edible.

Only after I finished dinner did I feel better.

Mega sale has started but my heart is not really with the clothing stores now. I like to do groceries now and enjoying every moment of it. I’ve been doing groceries 2 days already. I like to go to the vegetables section and my mind will start wondering what I should get, what I should cook. I’ve seen ladies buying vegetables and there were a few men too. They looked like they were more experienced than me in getting the good stuff. I am very impressed.

Tomorrow I have this desire to go to pasar pagi to get pork and chicken to make soup. This is so not me. I would always go with my mum and she’ll pick those stuff and I’ll carry for her. So I’ve not really picked chicken or pork at a pasar pagi on my own and I’m not sure how to pick a chicken that is good because they look all chicken to me. But my mum would know which to choose from. So I guess experience matters in this case. I shall learn.

I’m getting domestically-inclined. My mum would be proud because she has been nagging me for ages to learn how to cook.

Cooking must be from the heart, it cannot be forced.

时光机

甜甜的

说了再见

It’s Jay Chou on my playlist tonight.

Doubled my crunches from 20 to 40 this morning. Rasa mahu mati. Haha. Because my legs are also aching from the swimming I had last night. This is what happens when I don’t exercise often.

Received a letter that gave me another heartache. Thinking it has been solved but I don’t know why it’s back now. Made a few phone calls but I still can’t get a definite answer yet so I’ve got to wait. Lesson learnt again and again. NEVER EVER BORROW YOUR NAME TO SOMEONE FOR SOMETHING YOU DON’T OWN…NO MATTER HOW CLOSE, not even when he says he can die for you or he will love you forever. I’ve not forgiven myself yet for being so kind-hearted. I’ve learnt this lesson very well but even though I’m not repeating it ever again, I’ve got some shit to clean. One small shit which I think I can clear in due time. One big shit which is more complicated.

The good side of things…maybe it’s a good thing it is happening now and not later in life. Not like I’m very young but I think I still have the life to deal with it.

It’s Friday again tomorrow. I’m thinking of green tea ice cream with cornflakes.

I did my sit-up (only 20 times though) after waking up and can only stop till 20 because I’m starting to feel the pain and was running late. Tomorrow I shall increase the numbers. Cleared up some work today and I’m very pleased. Came home and went swimming. 5 laps and I was feeling tired already. There was a girl who was there earlier than me, she was already swimming non-stop like she’s never out of breath while I took 3 breaks in between the 5 laps. When I left, she was still swimming like she’s never out of breath. I’m impressed!

Cooked because it was just me tonight. I just made do with whatever I have. Leftover soup, added some vegetables and mee sua and I call it dinner.

Because I was such a darling today, I rewarded myself 2 episodes of “Bread, Love and Dreams”. Love, love, loving it!

I liked my day very much. Hope you did too.

I’m so going to have a good night’s sleep tonight.

I like my day off. I didn’t do any office-related work which was good. I thought about it though but quickly pushed it out of my mind.

Went to the management office, paid my bills, went to buy vegetables, went to get toiletries, surf information on yoga and I like the Yoga Journal. Loads of information so I think I’m going to pick a pose and slowly master it. I tried the “Child Pose” today. Cooked dinner: Steamed fish, Stir fry four-angle beans and carrot & sweet corn soup. This time soup is with too much water so the taste isn’t as strong and thick.

When I pick something to learn and grow on, I think I feel better and it keeps my mind off the dangerous zone, into thinking the unnecessary. So at home, it’s going to be learning yoga and cooking. At work, it’ll be learning whatever I need to learn and above all, just to be more confident.

I’m all ready to go to work tomorrow. Yee-ha!!!