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Cloudy Sunday

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 05:38:00 +0000

This cloudy Sunday don't make me weak. In the morning, me with family were going to one of the greatest spot in this city, Manahan Park. Right 7.00 a.m, we took there, feeding our baby with mush and breakfast with sun soup (is it right to spell: sup matahari?). It's very crowded, we must walk inch by inch, touch each other, well..we have to be in patient exercise in the early morning. That's good :)

What d'you guys do in this Sunday?

Just Tired

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 01:48:00 +0000

I was tired for everything. For those unfinished problems, or difficult peoples, ohm..I was close to make my mind in a bad prejudice. It's not good. I need something fresh, not just attacked by ideas I conquered long ago. I hope not.

On my to do list, there are several things that I must erase it immediately. Might they just wasting my time, or sucking off my energy, I must don't give a care. Too much intens right now that force me into this puzzlement. May be I'm not a goal-oriented anymore, but everything should be done before New Year! Damn, it least than one month ahead.

By the way, to attribute my educational results in internal factors that I can control is likely my major motive. And believe I can be effective agents in reaching desired goals was another one. Also interested in mastering a topic, rather than just rote-learning to achieve good grades, make a peculiar step in my day by day life.

But is it important right now? While everything seem unclear and my mind like got bombed with sorrows? Hey, you still have this free oxygen, don't you? Yea, who said it's for sale for God sake. Sorry, I'm gonna be swept off feet here...

Ok, next question is, how do I get motivated? It may be different for us all, but we have all got one, haven't we?

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Start Up a New Toy

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 06:52:00 +0000

I've working on physical model test for one month and I found many things are new here. On the first order, our attention is about to overcome the rate of sedimentation into the Wonogiri reservoir. One of the actions is building a sabo dam or check dam on the certain river which might have reasonable contributes to supply sediments into the reservoir.

According to inception research, upperstream of Keduang river has a suitable place for sabo dam. And hydraulic test are required for clarifying the appropriateness of its hydraulic design with main objectives are: to study hydraulic performance, to obtain flow parameters, to study the problem encountered and to confirm the effectiveness of the design of the sabo dam.

One of the items of observation is carried out local scouring on the downstream riverbed of the sabo dam and also on the new bridge foundation. Here's my task, to simulate the sediment transport beyond sabo dam, therefore the model can be applied on the real world.

ANSWERS is the software to simulate the behavior of watersheds having agriculture as
their primary land use, during and immediately following a rainfall event. A distributed parameter watershed model incorporates the influences of the spatially variable, controlling parameters, e.g. topography, soils, land use, etc., in a manner internal to its computational algorithms. Those factors influence sediment transport on the watershed. I think that's a phylosophy of ANSWERS.

Can't wait to share what happen next.

Reasons

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 02:12:00 +0000

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

As Oasis blow off Don't Look Back in Anger on my earphone, I try to recollect my lost memories that influence what I've got today. Several photos, pieces of writings, nostalgic songs and glances of fine remembrances, freshly wrap around my head. Honestly, I hate to be a man who ever was, and the other way, sometimes I miss my youth time very much.

Teenage angst has paid off well
Now I'm bored and old

Cobain probably could read my mind. He sang about discomfort of being old, but still have a little youth enthusiasm which brought him to express it on brilliant way. Same with my life. However I do these days, those are a cumulative of what I did yesterday. A friend told me that I'm too mousy, I accept that, and inch by inch it'll become a psychological walfare for my life. The good news is, I'm not a fragile people. So I attempt to strenghten my other potential talent which could conceal it and blotting out those. Writing is also can be an aid. I guess that's my reason to write in this blog again. To heal the past...

Do you agree if someone say that 'writing is healing'?

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When Quite is Better Than Crowded

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 02:09:00 +0000

I really enjoyed while bustling with friends and make ambience lively. Sometimes being together is so much fun. Many things would come out, such are new gossips, news (good and mostly bad..), ideas or just cracking jokes and jested each other. In fact, I think it's good for our health, in cases where somebody get hurt and lonely, it will increasing the production of dangerous hormones that have a direct impact to mental condition. If ever someone told us about the badness of being crowded, we'll think the same thought: that's not a leg to stand on.

But it's true due to my own argument, or anybody else who made a similar opinion, but sometime it's not usually, relative to up and down motion of our life. Stresses and pressure have not been so intense nowadays. Life's such not enough to be plotted on 24 hours. There's no distinct boundaries among countries. And so many miracles on these years than hundred years on ancient time. This wrought out massive confusion, and if we were lucky, might we living at desolate spot in the noisiness of the world.

It's undeniable if we as a human needs comfortable matters. That's why we strongly must have a religion. Umm, I don't wanna write about it, I just want to share this isue: why mostly religion require quite and solitude atmosphere on its activity? It should have a fervent reason, shouldn't it? For me, it's simple. It's about the way to communicate to The Almighty Creator, to hear my own underconsciousness-voice, to pray my hopes, and to simmered down my will.

What's the point? I think we need more quiteness for our spiritual live, so we can learn for 'what should do and what shouldn't do' in our life.

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Grateful for Luck

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 02:47:00 +0000

When I was in my lovely childhood, everything seem colorful. Everyday was a great time for exploring some challenges or just disseminate imaginations on every single moment. I've forget some, but still intend to one or two moment that I should call it 'a gigantic moment'. A funny thing is, I did not rightfully proud at all when my parents showed my elementary report book, damn..I was always got rank 1! Do I ever imagine for what I would gonna do to that excitement? I mean if I already have the awareness? Oh my,..swear I'll scream around neighborhood and tell people so they know that I was great,..as great as Gaban, or Sharivan (my childhood role model).

Now, I realize that my life was kinda like roller-coaster. Truly, I never expect to what I've got trough today, and I feel grateful. Somebody said that I was lucky, but I think: life is such a group of luck, isn't it? How good we read the sign effected to how long we could hold out throughout this life's irregularity. At least that's my point. D'you have one?

Take My Own Side

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 23:19:00 +0000

Remember when I had been obsessed with something. Actually I didn't know what the point is, otherwise I took a thousand ways to satisfied my will. Sometimes I no longer feel secure in who I am and start comparing myself with others, or no longer have time to maintain a good relationship with my families, friends and colleagues. All in all, I put my life off balance.

Now, the circumstance changes dramatically and gives me no option. I see a clearer path right now and don't want to waste it no more. In fact, I'm young, spirited and a bit genius (as my under-consciousness mind say). I have no problem with my health, instead still smoking a few, and hey is health more important than wealth? At least that is my argue to overcome my pessimist-side.

Some suggests to picture my mind as a blank canvas or a dark sky. I take that and hope my world would more colorful. Like Remy (Ed Harris) on Gone Baby Gone said: 'You must take a side!' . Yes, I take my own side right now.

Hiatus on Facebook

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Tue, 14 Jul 2009 02:54:00 +0000

If you've read my previous post about facebook, you'll notice that I would become like those who addicted to the application. Not far of it, immediately but not take a long thoughts, you are true.

In the beginning, I threw up a lot of statuses and commented all friend's status. It's really fun to have a feedback and sink on this virtual communication. Swear to God, procrastination was a very best buddy at that moment. Don't ask for my work productivity, it's far far away from perfect. Moreover, never ever take a look at my desk, cause it's clean! No books, no job list or even small notes about 'to do' list. Yes, that's all my confessions...

Nah, in the middle of the adventure, it was a little bit boring. Spent hours just for being fetch up in front of monitor, type this and that, laugh and mad... This is not my real life, I want to believe (just like Mulder said to Scully on X-Files) that I was a real human being. Not through this way.

That's why I do need some breaks. Hiatus...
But blogging? Hey, I feel a new passion here. Reborn!

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Express Weekend (2)

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 07:36:00 +0000

This is continuance post from the first one.

My trouble had not disappear yet, as the mission was going not too good. I faced with fact that at the moment was a holiday season. People go abroad for their families or take a refreshing vacation somewhere. They extremely need mass transportation as train, bus or anything move and took them to destination place. And you should know that train in Indonesia was a perfect mass transportation ever!

Two days after my arrival, I rush to station for tickets while I still praying for not ran out of it. But fate has been given. I can't believe for I was just heard from the girl behind the counter: 'Tiket habis pak, sampai 4 hari ke depan'. What?!

My head spinning around. How to make it real? I guess some options:
1. We took economic class train, and it means my daughter would really tortured there.
2. We go by bus. Sounds good, but it won't guarantee to have a nice and comfortable bus.
3. Wait till the ticket available, it means I miss my presentation at the office for 4 days.
4. Go by....what?!

And I don't know, that idea was just popped out. Travel! Yea, are there any Travel Agency in Cirebon? I'm not sure but I'll try to find one. By asking some people, most of them are merchantmen, I finally found the agency and you guess what? Fortunately there are still some quotas for us. That's it. The problem was solved, and here I am now...walking down in Solo again. I will miss Cirebon!

Express Weekend (1)

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 03:32:00 +0000

Let me make this thing more clearly. I'll tell a short story 'bout what I did in the last weekend. As you know (do you?) I've been alone for a week because my wife and my daughter went vacation to Cirebon. So, on Friday night I went by train in order to picked up them back to Solo. No, not I, I mean WE . Fortunately, my parent in law, cousin in law, uncle and aunt in law and grandma in law (is that true? I'd confuse to mention their status in English), with two noisy little kids..you imagine that. I was look like a disoriented skinny guy and stupefied in a crowded railway station.

Situation got worse when we ran out of ticket for Senja Bengawan. Thus, we didn't have any options except must went by Gaya Baru (in fact, that train was extremely full of passengers from Surabaya), and honestly I did not like it at all. But for goodness sake, I'll do everything to go altough must get through of this. What else? I'd miss my family much!

So, that painfully journey was happened to me. I can't sit, can't move or even stretch my back, but Alhamdulillah I still can breath...

Seven hours later, at last I and my cousin in law arrived at Cirebon raiway station. With painful bones and annoyed heart we dragged our feet walked down through that quite and cold dorm. And finally, yea finally.. I can laid down my body at a taxi cab.

Every single pain was dissapear when I saw my one year daughter slept. Yes, she's so beautiful...

to be continued

No Breakfast...

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 04:14:00 +0000

This is the fourth day for being a bachelor again. Last night I watched Valkyrie from video rental and I decided to not borrow more than one movie, unless I'll broke my own health and flunk alone like poor loser. Hey, I've slept late for 3 nights! Influenza is coming easier to my condition right now, I realize that as I believe luck come easier for an optimistic man (is that so?). Plus what I did in the afternoon was totally neglect all sentiment, I played futsal with workmates for one hour. Call me freak and I'll nod perfectly :)

And as I thought before, I woke up lately this morning. No breakfast on a table, dirty dishes and smell of coffee still breeze..

Oh, this gonna be a long long day ahead.

Alone for a Week?

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 01:34:00 +0000

I've never imagine to be a single parent. How could I take care a kid while I spin like blended avocado on my own life? No no, that was an extreme one. What I'm talking about is being alone when your family were not at home for some purposes. It mean you'll eat by your self, clean the house by yourself, wash clothes by yourself and of course you'll sleep alone... in Bahasa this situation is like famous song: makan makan sendiri, nyuci baju sendiri, tidur pun sendiri.. :)

My wife and kid went to Cirebon and as a plan they'll stay there for a week. This was not easy for a first time, but let see what can I do in this lonely week!

My Fave Software

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 08:24:00 +0000

I've been working at Experimental Station for River for almost 3 years, and I think there is no reason to not use one of most powerful hydraulic software like HEC RAS. My first experience was when I tried to simulate water profile level at Pulubala river system. As a first case, I consider to not to be afraid to the result, or focusing too much on perfection. While the program running and not meet any errors, I'll shout hooray! Till now I have performed several projects on various type of river to simulate.

And at recent times I often ask to myself 'how to make my model run perfectly?'. Thus, I studied the user guide, hydraulic references and also practicing the examples. Within months I make any types of model and run it in different input. And then I think, well..this is a great tools! When I want to know how high the water profile is in a channel, I just run it. Excel is not necessary anymore :)

I use HEC version 3.1.3 right now. I know there is beta version (4.0), but when I like one tool, I prefer to enjoy it first and stick with it.

D'you have your own fave software?

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Have a Cold

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 07:13:00 +0000

It's very annoying to go through the day with mucous in my nose. I get headache when I looked down and my eyes sparkle like fireflies. I guess it start on Sunday when I brought my family went to Klaten to celebrate our daughter's first birthday. As I drove with motorcycle, my wife went by bus because she must handle our angel.

And it happen. The night after we arrive at home in Solo, my wife tattooed my back with balsam (commonly it said 'kerokan').

Till now, Tuesday, this cold still gripping my days.
Hope tomorrow will be okay.

How Facebook are You?

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 04:43:00 +0000

It has been a while when I registered on Facebook, and I hate to tell: this stuff was awesome! This exactly not like friendster, that I had sick of, nor other social network applications (except blogger if you think so), but in this past weeks Facebook had extracted me a lot..both in my off-line or on-line life.

I read this once: Social scientists have a name for this sort of incessant online contact. They call it “ambient awareness.” It is, they say, very much like being physically near someone and picking up on his mood through the little things he does — body language, sighs, stray comments — out of the corner of your eye.
Sorry I forget the source...

It's true due to my experience. I often spent a whole days just for checked my status, my friend's status and even someone's status who absolutely I don't know what he/she comes from anyway. I got crazy when my status had a lot of comments and fiuh..I feel like lost on outsoar. In a maximum stage, it will be have a direct impact to my feeling in that day. Although I don't have any idea to share with, but that blank plain label on 'what's on your mind' always tease me and seems like an old beggar who ask me to fill his hand.

I don't know when it will be over. With sick of checking status and unfulfilled hunger of existence, I think it needs no more time to say 'boring' to Facebook. Next month? Years? You guess one.

About Me and My Talent

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Tue, 12 May 2009 22:11:00 +0000

Once I thought that wouldn't it be great if I had a 'magic boss' standing on my shoulder telling me straight what I am good at and what I shouldn't waste my time with.. Well, now I realize it's ridiculous as I know there's no magic boss around (actually I hate it *lol*).

It goes without saying though that-and seems everyone would too-I am more likely to enjoy my work and get the kind of success I want, more easily, if I just putting my natural talents to work. My problem then was that, like most spirited employee, I could actually do almost anything I turned my hand to. The problem was not in having few choices, it lay in having too many; what I lacked was a clear focus on expressing my own core talents. The moral of the intermezzo is clear but it does throw back the question: How do I find out what my talents are?

There are certain things that you can do or that you can learn to do that can make you extraordinarily valuable to yourself and to others. Your job is to identify your special area of uniqueness and then commit yourself to becoming very, very good in those areas. (Brian Tracy)

What a great quote! Write on your notes if you like, hurry! :D

And now I stunned when I remember a straight simple question, but I make this most important: What do you do easily and well that is difficult for other people? It's amazing to know that I could write a list in just a minutes! Because it's easy. This is some examples of my list:
- I can draw easily
- I love to read, can read very fast and take in information quickly that way
- I can play various of music instrument (guitar, bass and drums)
- I'm exiting while playing with children
- I have great visual sense of style and creativity
- I often addicted to make mistakes, cause it can open other possibilities
- I can write blog in English!

The interesting thing is that I don't regard any of those as special talents. I thought those are simple for everyone in this modern age. But then I've noticed that when I'm working in a team with people who can't draw, slow readers, creepy with children, not know how to play guitar, and wonder 'how could you write in English? How much did you pay a translator?', amazingly they become real talents.

Otherwise, when I meet people who can express themselves verbally, speak easily as they want to and act naturally in any condition, I am in awe because I have to work really hard at it.

Well, God does not play dice with the universe (Einstein). He took a special ability for each of us to complete each others, so we can make harmonize this world to a better world. I hope so.

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Morning With Mercy

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Tue, 12 May 2009 01:56:00 +0000

Oh, this morning like the saddest movie of the century but without roll of tissues. I woke up about to late and fortunately a cup of warm tea able to brought over my mind. My unconscious eyes looked at the window when the sky got darker and spattering raindrops to make this morning drizzly. It's wonderful time..

I walk lazily to backyard and just plunged in thought while cloud march each other from north to south. I've seen those before, but I can't remember clearly. It's like recurred melody that sang when we got impressed to something. This astonished feeling might pass just seconds away, but its effect transpire hour by hour. Amazing, that's only word I have.

Alhamdulillah, thank God for blessing this morning with his mercy.

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Feeling Good!

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Tue, 05 May 2009 01:39:00 +0000

Hey, it's a beautiful day, isn't it? I try to roll out this passionate feeling as I had done with my first band concert. D'you know the best part of it? I decide to think nothing. All of my brain cells commit to be like snail in a jar of sticky mucous. Ah, there is a job, but I may not call it job. Job is suck and you know, I think we must erase that word forever from that dusty dictionary. I choose to look at Jim Carey when he act disgusting in I, me and Irene, instead get drunk with emerics! So, where the hell this talk will end to? I suggest to make bold point in this word: JOB, yaks!

I remember when I took my first job as an internet operator on a small rental. It's two shift job and I take night shift from Monday till Friday and day shift on the rest. Let me convince you, it was a boring boring job. Being stuck for 9 hours and always (I hate it much!) see that grim face of my colleague. She was a cleaner than a co-worker. She wrecked down everything I did good and got angry like God Hera lose her fave g-string! I swear to God to not meet her again, but when I knew the rental was not exist anymore..suddenly I miss her. I miss her cause there are two words I don't say yet right in her face..'you suck'.

Am I feeling good already? A little for sure. Actually, I still looking for someone who I want to give my two words to. Ah, that's good to liberate evils from this head..

Now, I'm ready for next task.

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Salute for Everyone on the Launch of CRBOM! (2)

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Sun, 03 May 2009 03:39:00 +0000

This is a second chapter from the first one. In early post I have mentioned that we had a trip which called Field Trip on Friday, 31 May 2009 (Mr. Nielsen-ADB's official-hates the banner on the bus that write 'Study Tour' instead 'Study Visit', he said it's like a group of high school students!). Well, there are 5 places to be visited and I had written in the early post that we have visited an underground river in Wonosari, Special District of Yogyakarta.

Next, after lunch break, we landed on Sand soil Irrigation System in Samas Beach, Bantul. Actually it's a weird farm. You see, farmer plant onion, eggplant, cucumber and other kinds of plants in the sand soil that we think it's impossible to do. I have no right to explain further, but I can describe it in short expression: it's simple. We just dam a river about 30 km away and distribute its water through underground pipes and we build a hundred of well to suck it, and yes, the soil become wet and we were able to plant some kinds of vegetables.

Hmm..it's lunch break

Everyone amazed

How it can be?

Not satisfied yet, but the time is running out. It's 5 pm and we must on the bus again otherwise we could be late to have dinner and watch Sendratari Ramayana in Prambanan.

Actually it was a great dinner. We enjoyed the food with fantastic view of Prambanan Temple. Too bad that I can't provide it because there is not enough light to support the pic..:(

After that, right about 7.30 pm the show would be held. We walked to indoor dancing arena beside. I see that everyone were prepare for unexpected thing here..

And some pics that I think the best of all..

Ok, the Field Trip was completely done and everybody seem happy. It's time to go back home because tomorrow's program await us..fiuh.

And finally this is a last pic of Workshop..

See you guys!

Salute for Everyone on the Launch of CRBOM! (1)

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Sat, 02 May 2009 03:07:00 +0000

I start with say hello to all fellow readers. This is a very busy week as I thought, but in the end it's just an equal revenge if I have sufficient time to write just a few words to describe.

It was a hard week actually. Start with Monday till Friday that I with all comrades had fought with chaotic circumstances, little confuse..but it paid off after all. CRBOM is the starting point to what it's all about. It's an agency which established by Ministry of Public Works, Indonesia, as a member of the Asia-Pacific Water Forum (APWF) network of regional water knowledge hubs. As a plan, it held in Solo City during five days but the core of the agenda was held on Tuesday, April 28th, which a formal ceremony of CRBOM consisted.

Unfortunately, the Minister did not show up so Mr. Iwan Nursyirwan who is a Director General of Water Resources hit the gong loudly. Congratulations!

We would thank to Mr. Wouter and all ADB's coleagues, all participants-especially from Viet Nam, India, Bangladesh, Malaysia, Thailand, Laos, Cambodia, Korea, Philippine and Afghanistan (sorry if I've missed one..). Also for delegation of donor countries such are Netherland and Japan. We appreciate and hope this brief companionship of brotherhood would continue, as well as our spirit to share knowledge about water resources in the region, and surely it could possibly make this world better.

After a long long presentation from each envoys, and tight discussion between others, three days is like a prosaic-monotonous time for all of committees. The committees are from Balai Sungai Solo, BBWS Bengawan Solo and Jasa Tirta. In Balai Sungai itself, there are almost 40 persons who came up and support the event. We actually were the ideal combination of old-young generation. The wisdom of the old with the youth spirit have made precious experience, as it was our first time to organize such kind of event, and fiuh..we made it up!

As in a schedule, Thursday was a Field Trip program. We would visit Flood Warning System in Solo, Colo Weir and Gajah Mungkur Dam in Wonogiri, Underground River in Wonosari, Sandsoil Irrigation System in Samas Beach and well..watching Sendratari Ramayana in Prambanan, Yogyakarta. The last one was not a study visit I guess, may I say that it was a cooling down agenda? :D

First, we visit Flood Warning System..

Then visiting Colo Weir..

Uups, where is the weir in the last pic? Oh, I afraid that's just for fulfill our narcissism desirability (what an amusing reason!). You see, I'm wearing hat and squat in the middle with handy cam. There is Mr. Wouter in left side and some Philippine's participant, and of course the committees with the red id card!

After a half and a hour journey, we landed on Gajah Mungkur Dam in Wonogiri, one of the biggest dam in Indonesia.

Just like Hollywood, isn't it?

From the giant Dam, we spin around Wonogiri through mountainous area and would to see an unusual river in Wonosari. The river was flow about 1oo meters below and we must go down by elevator (exactly it was a heavy steel cage hanged by a couple of cabels..and it takes 5 minutes to go down. How frightening!).

Where's the river? Down there?

Who's the first! Who's the first!

Queue please...

Where's the river now? Ups, we just modify it and..well you know, for water user efficiency.

Where were we go next? I think this was enough and I'll post it in the next chapter..

See you.

Google's Impact Opinion

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 12:04:00 +0000

I assume that you have already know 'bout internet, so I'm not going to roll out those incomprehension stuffs which probably could stir up your leisure time. No, of course, I'm just kidding you. Because what I want to discuss now is something that always help me out, care to support what I'm doing and gives numerous selfless assists for my on-line days. In other word, it is impossible to live normally (as a net geeks) without its attendance. Yes, you right, this one is the most popular search engine in internet, it's google.

Once I had a problem to solve, just type a keyword on its plain search box and whuups, google sort it up. Although yes there are always some grieves in the beginning, but in the next three seconds, I found it easily to figure out and be able to make one conclusion about the problem I had before. For an experienced surfer, it's more easy to not get lost in the sea of ads. But for newbies (truly me..) it's nothing to lose to get some excursions before I get my eurekas :).

The success story of Google identical to century kids miracle. Young, idealist, open-minded and long-term business oriented. By the fact, eleven years ago, Google didn't exist. Eight years ago, it didn't have a business model. Now, it has a $10 billion revenue run-rate, $10 billion in cash, $4 billion of operating cash flow, 8,000 employees, dominant global market share of the fastest-growing and most profitable advertising business in history, and $120 billion of well-deserved market capitalization. Are those just useless fiddlesticks or kind of celebrity's malodorous rumors?

I have no lamentation during sticking around with google, instead I get more and more gratification. And I extremely amazed when I found people hate this tool, so busy to curse out and try hard to ignore its positive effect. I'm not trying to be partiality, just curious if anybody has any perspective other than the very good experiences most of us have had with Google.

Google IS the internet. Could it have much more of an impact than that?

Second Experience About Changing Template

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Fri, 17 Apr 2009 02:19:00 +0000

Finally, after some quite days, here the story how it goes..

Bunches of HTML code and dozen of Web Coding Software had cramped my two whole nights. Substantively I didn't know what I'm looking for. It is likely I want something new for my blog's template. Two months is not well enough for me to stand along with white minima template, so this is my second experience about changing template after previous one.

I knew Woork since first time I decided to be a blogger. Woork is a good sample how blogspot platform can be an awesome one and I love all designs that always give priority to simple, neat, clear and proffesional style. Like this one, Typoork.

I don't promise that this style would accompany along my whole blogging days, but I can convince myself that it could make me feel comfortable, ease and pleasure while I'm blogging.

What do you think?

More Sensitive

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Sun, 12 Apr 2009 06:03:00 +0000

After I posted this, suddenly it makes me more sensitive. For remembered what other had suggested, I've changed the way of organize my works to this single step: consciousness. This is a hardest part to apply because I rarely connected my soul to what I see in reality. Sometime it works, but so many distractions banished all the good times. Such as writing, it would be a major point for me.

Whatever it looks like, job is a job, something which could makes us visible by others. A simple job can not be compared with an important job that we can't enjoy it. I'd like to share my experience about how to tolerate with 'cover-judgment'. I was once a band player. I played drum with my first band that called 'biscuit'. It's a grunge band. We have played for almost all of the Nirvana's songs. Every time we showed off, noisiness and kind of spasmodic sounds tailed after, and always make a quite opening stage to become a chaotic one. We naturally enjoy those moments just because we did not give a care to what other said about our music or how we played. For me it's a wonderful time. I've not presume to be an idol just because I'm not a leader, I'm just a skinny drummer who stuck in a big cold drums. But slowly it makes me understand that a little job can harmonized a complete task. Yea, a great music is no longer great if there is no great drummer. Haha, at least that's what I'm thinking. I acted like a most important man on the band and played as good as I can. Honestly, I thought that biscuit was the best grunge band ever!

More messiness means more success: that's our slogan at that moment. And the result is really nuts! We've become more popular and people started to play music just like we did, make a stage's style like we did, and even wear a costume just what we did (not all of it if you think so, not for underwear!). For almost two years we did it, we've sailed through a massive alteration in this city and no one would expect that our music was no longer heard. And all of it started with this feeling: bored. Since that, we played with no excitement, passion or significant motivation which brought this band to meet its dead...

Bore makes our consciousness sneak off. We will try hardly to search other options which more passionate and use them to kill its feeling. As long as we can not fight to reduce the vacillations, we would still fetched up.

I hope I don't meet that feeling.

Your opinion?

Monthly Review: Still a Dilemma

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 06:55:00 +0000

As a religious person, I must confess here that I'm not a good yet and also often neglect God's commandment. I know it's wrong but instead I become a better one, I constantly disregard them and here I am, still alive with hunger of something. Bla bla bla..

Err, do you know what I mean? Sorry for my English. Assume this is a note from stranger who calls himself 'nerdy one' and amazingly you try to analyze what he tries to offer. Yes, there will be miscommunication among us, but human remains human. We could chiding each other and stopped till we caught by blind alley, or try to tolerate (this is my favorite part) and attempt to smoothen all obstacles. And if you still feel sick, that’s OK, just close this window. I don’t want to muffle your precious time, and you won’t do it to me too, right? All I know is that blogging lighten my effort to learn English, because there so many sources to ask for (including you) and so many interesting people who have different culture, way of life, sight and perspective. I enjoy blogging very much, but on the other side I don’t want to agitate your enjoyment while surfing. Yes, this is still a dilemma for me.

I have blogging for almost a month, and the conclusion for this post is: do I strong enough to continue blogging for next month?

Time will answer.

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Not Vote at All

dydenrinda@gmail.com (Darin) — Thu, 09 Apr 2009 03:07:00 +0000

Today is public holiday because it's also the first round election day in Indonesia. Actually I am ready to vote, but I don’t know why I don't receive the invitation. May be because I'm not registered at DPT. Well, it’s not my fault to be such an irresponsible citizen. So instead of hauling myself early in the morning to go to TPS, I choose to work overtime in this quite office. That simply make me feel better. I'm not going to spend my precious time just for those lameass political parties. Haha, so ironic.

How 'bout you?

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