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MOVED FOR THE NTH TIME!

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Wed, 21 Sep 2011 07:22:00 +0000

ma homies!
i'm off to...

HTTP://YANBIROG.CO.NR

same link, just a different blog address hehehehehehe

>:)

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Mon, 05 Apr 2010 13:15:00 +0000

what if! what if! he comes across this blog and reads everything i've written about him? what if?! what the fuuuuuck. that's why i wanted to have private entries at blogger! go do something!

he's fucking trying to catch me off guard. what the hell. i wonder why he's so keen on knowing who my crush is. e ano mapapala mo? wala naman a! wala!

ano raw?!

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Sat, 03 Apr 2010 14:04:00 +0000

before, i never believed that scorpios are utterly possive and jealous beings. maybe because i haven't had something/one i wanna hold just for myself. BUT NOW. i can frakking feel the jealousy creeping through my veins, piercing my heart. it's fucking painful. and what's worse is that, i loved a fellow scorpio. and if we do the same things, it's not going anywhere.

see. he flirts everytime i see him. and i try so hard to suppress the jealousy from oozing out cos i might release 'classified' information, aka, my feelings for him. it's the last thing i wanna show him, that I LOVE HIM. it's in my personality, i'm someone who doesn't want to show how i care so much. that's bad, i guess. =__=;

and there! he flirts! grrr... everytime he sees someone pretty, he goes gago! ok, gaga. grrr... nakakagalit. pwede ba kasing sakin ka lang? last time i checked, i'm your best friend! and though i only agreed to it because you said so, believe me, i felt like i was part of your world. part of your family. even though we're not really like best friends who share everything (if i do then i'm doomed) and do stupid things together, i loved being your best friend because, it's like a title i can hold on to when it comes to you. brian's best friend. that's someone important right? yeah right.

so i find myself yielding. not getting in the way, supporting him every step of the way. with every girl. even though it hurts. for hope's sake, i'm kinda fantasizing that maybe he's just waiting for me to show some signs of jealousy. but no, i'm so good at hiding it. so good that i pretend to have a big crush on someone else so he wouldn't think he's the only guy in my life.

that's how i am. i become too scared to show my attachment to one person who i'm not sure is attached with me in the same way. i'm more concerned with saving my pride, per se.

and so i may seem like i don't care a lot about him! i talk with equal fervor with my other guy friends and laugh a lot with them. i sometimes wonder if he feels jealous that i'm having more fun with them that i am with him. i want to know if he feels that way sometimes. i want to know if he really wants my company or just wants someone to be with.

i'm like that. i stick with someone who's there. but if there're a lot, i stick with the most important person for me. it's important for me not to be alone.

i love him. i really do, and i get hurt everyday because of it.

tamaright!

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Fri, 02 Apr 2010 12:57:00 +0000

why bother, really? you're as free as you can be. i'm as free as i can be, as well! you do your own thing, i do mine! we'll care for each other like good friends do, and it stops there. like good friends do. period. must it really?

everyday you make me jealous. do you know that? course not, cos i don't show it. and i will never. not unless we're legit. i mean, come oooon. i have little right to be jealous because we're best friends. but you know, too much jealousy is something. grrr...

sus

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Mon, 29 Mar 2010 14:01:00 +0000

aaaah, the cheek tint isn't a complete waste, after all. haha

hey hey. he called me! he called me... "oi. ano! oi!"
>:)))) it really bums me out that his only concern when talking to me is our fcking salary. i couldn't care less, honestly! i just wait for the accounting department to deposit money and i'm cool. i'm not anxious for sweldo LOL i'm in no dire need (so far!). haha ohbtw, i finally took awhile ago as a chance to ask for his name... FORMALLY huh. as in, "ano, kuya! ano pangalan mo?" i could sense chamel trying hard to supress her laughter. ako rin kaya natatawa sa sarili ko. LOL anubayan kasi naman, i kinda know his entire name... pati middle initial. ikr? stalker much. stop na nga ako e. as in! haha e well, what can i do... the universe is the one moving this time. >:P

hala bad!

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 09:12:00 +0000

this afternoon during my power siesta i dreamt of attending a grad party for my atenean friends. then i saw mika, congratulated her and gave her a super tight hug! i cried so much in that embrace, i don't even remember why. i was so happy for her. then she said she'll show me to the beach, o tapos we had to pass through this parang cliff like place HAHA and i kinda feeeeell. then i woke up. LOL

swimming later yey! >:)

>:D

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 15:23:00 +0000

i promised not to talk about him anymore. key word: TALK. so i can still write! bwahahaha! we're already friends! yes, i'm such a cow it took me this long when 90.75% of my friends know him. @_@ but at least! so far, on the two times we've talked for at least more than 3 words... the topic was always about whether our salary is already available. dang, can't it be anything else? i figured not. YET. >:)))

i'm not sure, but i've been having a lot of bastard headaches since last week. coincidentally, it's also the week i started to wear the quantum pendant straight, everyday. whether it's just me being paranoid that it's the pendant's way of draining me first then charging me with immense strength soon when i get used to it, or the weather is just too weird, OR i'm drinking too much pearl milk tea? @_@ i don't know.

i'm worrying about my grades. specifically: 4THGLAN, ENGLISH AND FILIPINO. @_@ term papers and a case study. you know what sucks? i keep stressing myself over them but i never get a sense of urgency to do what's needed (ie. RESEARCH). what i want to do now, is sing. +___+;

lonely day ahead! better be good, wednesday! >:|

overssss

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 16:05:00 +0000

yoshi for lunch. zagu + siopao for dinner. not the things i was expecting after a cardio burnout. and i'm also craving for kitkat. and ketchup. grrr. ketchuuuuup @_@

i figured i have so many things to accomplish this week, and most of them has to do with dealing with people. why, it's cool that i have groupmates. that should make the task easier to bear right? not that i don't trust them, but... but... ok. this is bad, but i'm going to compare the difference with groupworks in LB and groupworks here, at least in my point of view.

i've changed so much ever since leaving uplb. ok, maybe it's the situation that changed more than i did, but back then, as long as i have groupmates, no matter how lazy they looked, i can trust them with the entire project. heck, i can live with a 3.0, as long as we were able to pass the requirement, we're cool. there, things are better done as a group. and for the record, i've never been in a bad group.

here, overruled by my fear of getting a low grade, i try to take charge of everything. i don't care if i do the work alone, as long as we get a high grade for it. i mean, that's all i want! i'm not comfortable delegating tasks, if i do, i always want to do a final check, in case something's wrong. this makes me feel terrible as a person.

and i realized that it's all brought about by the varying sense of accomplishment each person has. no one wants to fail, but there are those who would settle for the average. the 3.0. the pasang-awa. i was like that, before. so as long as there's someone in the group who wouldn't settle for anything less, i'm complacent we'll do the job well. and i'll work with her with all my might. but sometimes it's different. sometimes you're surrounded with people who tolerates mediocrity, right when you're striving for excellence. they shouldn't bring you down. you should bring them up. i'm someone who doesn't care giving undue credit as long as i get what i want.

go!

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Thu, 11 Mar 2010 12:28:00 +0000

for some reason, i'm excited... to move on, get a haircut and probably reinvent myself. @_@ i'm counting on my next paycheck LOL. whew. relaaaax relaaaaax here i cooooome!!!!

ohsht! i think i lost my english book! e hindi ko pa nga bayad yun e! waaaaaah peraaaaaa!!! @_@

ayoko na. ayoko na talaga. promise, this will be the last time you'll hear me talk about JM (as a crush ha... malay mo maging friends kami in the future, then i'll have a reason to mention him. obasta ganon). hindi ko naman na talaga sya crush eh. matagal na. seryoso. since march >:|

T_____T;

currently reading: Dear John by Nicholas Sparks. i wonder if i'll enjoy it! e kasi sabi nila malandi daw si Savannah. ayoko pa naman ng malanding bidang babae. che

Loord, Looord bakit ganon! nakakadepress! when when when will i moooooove on. kala mo naman kung anong sobrang bigat e. nakakabadtrip! kung alam mo laaaang! kung alam mo laaaaaaang! my entire private journal is all about you! gusto ko na magsummer pero minsan ayoko pa. bukod sa walang sweldo, wala ring friends, walang allowance. the only thing i'm looking forward to is driving school and... uhm, a haircut! plus maraming tulog, chaka, uhm, gym. which reminds me, kala tapos na gym ko... hanggang june pa pala! deeeym! >:(

orayt

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 13:23:00 +0000

hehe i took the tryke to sandigan on my way home. oha pwede na yun... tapos bukas ok na ulit. tapos. ok. nakakainis naman! honestly, i enjoy walking at MV3! it's one of the things i look forward to everyday cos i can listen to music, walk and think at the same time. i think a lot when i walk there, which is gooood. diba. tapos ganon? naman! T___T

[i don't understand why i still cling on to that tiny hope. but just recently, i've managed to convince myself it's not gonna be a good thing to be there. it's already cool as it is, it doesn't get any cooler if i go beyond it. see, unless we're over the hormonal youth stage, nothing can be taken seriously. aynako, ayoko neto. good think i have a separate journal for this. and wait, it just frakking disappoints me how he deals with it. goooooood Lord. my mom told me it runs in the blood. siguro.]

oks. there's

weh?

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 04:20:00 +0000

i got 103/100 on our filipino midterm exam! yehey! and i thought i was too distracted the night i was studying for it. grabe Lord, thank you lang talaga! >:D i didn't expect it! although it helped that i got the attendance incentive which was 10 points haha! yeheeey! >:D

i knew it lol. i only got 87 in english. @_@ and probably less in 4GL hehe, but at least! i got perfect in 3 of my exams! freaking bragging rights >:P

i'm pretty much a loner right now. i ate lunch alone and is waiting for 1pm to start my duty. hehehe

awhile ago..

B: kilala mo si JM? crew* rin yun
Yan: aaaah si JM, ung matangkad*?!
B: oo!
Y: >:))))) haha joke, sino yun? *shempre kunyari di ko kilala*
B: >:)))) kapitbahay namin yun e
Yan: aah sa harvard*?
B: pano mo nalaman?
Yan: *O__O haha onga no, pano ko nalaman?* a e diba sabi mo taga greenview* ka?
B: oo nga, sa astoria*
Yan: e sino yung sabi mong taga harvard* dati?
B: wala a
Yan: ay joke, pinsan ko pala yun.

anlabo grabe. mejo nakakatanga talaga na magpanggap na wala kang alam.

* - kelangan palitan para di obvious LOL

bakit daw? hahaha

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 15:25:00 +0000

weh. napaisip din ako. pero minsan parang alam ko kung bakit >:P
habang nagllunch napagkwentuhan namin ni chabby yung mga nanligaw na kanya. dalawa daw nung highschool pero wala syang sinagot. ang hava talaga ng hair ng alaga ko! hahaha! nakakatuwa! natanong din nya sakin kung bat daw wala pa kong boyfriend at wala pang nangahas na manligaw sakin. napaisip din ako. wala naman daw syang makitang mali sakin (well, ako meron. madami haha)... maganda naman raw ako. matalino. MABAIT! >:D so sabi ko, oo nga noh! maganda naman ako (minsan)! matalino! mabait pa! so bakit o why?

natatawa ako nung tanghaling yon dahil dalagang pareho kaming nakapangalumbaba at nagiisip. bukod sa strict ang parents ko, puro physical na ang naiisip kong dahilan. na baka masyado akong maitim. masyadong maiksi kuko ko. mataba ako. manipis kilay ko. maitim siko ko. panget paa ko. malaki tyan ko (bka muka akong buntis). hukot ako.

tapos sabi ni dear chabby, ate yan alam ko na.
baka kasi madalas bingi ka. o kaya masyado kang slow.

siguro nga bingi ako. feeling ko rin slow ako (sabi nga nila kung ano ang ikina-fast ko sa classroom, yun naman ang ikina-slow ko sa ibang bagay). kaya siguro mas trip ko dinederetso para gets agad. ganun sa classroom eh, diba? haha naiirita ako pag ang slow-slow ng dating ko, feeling ko nababawasan IQ ko haha!
problema ko naman pag dineretso ako nakakastress din, baka lalo akong mabingi. >:)))))

so binigi nga ba ako? at slow pa?

actually, eto talaga ang dahilan kung bakit.
gradeschool - di pa uso ligawan. sobrang bawal pa.
highschool - asa naman ako diba?
college part 1 - ang lakas maka-panget ng course ko. no chances of someone actually admiring me. but i know of one, and nung nalaman ko... friendship overrrr! joke lang, iwas then ok na ulit haha. ;P
college part 2 - malay
bahay (subdi) - hindi ako lumalabas. wala akong prends dito liban sa mga kapitbahay. wala rin lumalabas dito.

pero alam ko talaga yung super tunay na dahilan eh... kasi pansin ko rin yun sa iba. :P daig ng malandi ang maganda. HAHA!

over :D

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Sun, 14 Feb 2010 13:04:00 +0000

samsung offers really cheap basic phones! i'm tempted to buy one! the e2120 costs only 2,290 and there you already have a cam, music player, fm radio w/ loudspeakers and expandable memory. whew. the e1080 sells for 1,290, and that's the basic colored phone. and here i thought the nokia 1202 is the cheapest basic phone in the market, then again, for 1,500? no way. it's not even colored.

so what do i need a phone for? lol, i dunno. my current phone is still pretty cool (i think?) it just feels weird that the call button came off and got lost. you know what, yesterday my sister lost her phone. good thing we were able to retrieve because a good soul responded to our calls and is willing to give it back. haha as if naman anyone would keep a nokia1200? lol. swerte talaga yang ate ko kahit sobrang burara eh, it's the second time she lost her phone. it's also the second time it was given back. cool. :) thanks, Lord. :D

haha. onga pala, the concert. it was fun :D nice meeting you pala, LJ haha. :P
ayos ang PnE sobrang saya nila magconcert kaso inantok ako eh.
tapos i lost my ticketS pa epal. hahaha
okokok lang, solb na.

parang antok na yta ko. nyt. :D

PS: HAHAHA omg, i know majorcrush's address na! HAHA i kinda checked the student record at the library. buti na lang may library card sya LOL and look what i found out, we live on the same street... before (e lumipat kami eh). hahaha nubayan! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

sori na. pwede?

what if villar is really under the admin? or is he, already?

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 15:36:00 +0000

question alert!

#1. sino ang pipiliin mo. ang matangkad o ang maliit? >:))
- anong klaseng tanong yan?
ung matangkad shempre!
..... na nakasalamin. HAHA

hinde, ung maliit talaga. sa ngayon. >:P

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// PBB Double Up - it's getting annoying. but entertaining nonetheless. lol and princess? really, she's a natural bitch. i feel sorry for tom. >:( my bet on the big 4: paul jake, mariel, melai, jason. good luck.

// what if manny villar is really supported by Gloria under the tables? along with Dick Gordon? and that people are deluded into thinking that the current administration will soon fall because none of the top scorers in surveys are under her mandate? this could prove wrong, as i've never heard or read any news about it. it's just that my dad told me that villar, gordon and gibo are all under her and that she's only tricking the people by showing us that it's only gibo she's escorting into the presidential candidacy.

what a conspiracy, then. right when i'm feeling complacent about either villar or noynoy winning, i get this kind of thought? know what, when i heard that gloria is supporting gibo, i felt really sorry for him. i thought his rising reputation will be soiled by gloria's sponsorship. i also felt sorry for gloria, sorry that she picked a not-so-popular canditate, i almost thought she's not thinking at all.

but no. if it's true then the implications are grave. all the while we think it's gibo whom we should not vote cos she's under gloria. so we put our trust on other people, people who are keen on toppling the current administration. where else should we look? there's the genuine opposition. there's manny villar. there's noynoy aquino. the two most popular presidential candidates per survey reports. opposition men, on top of that.

but what if villar secretly turned his back on the opposition party, and joined gloria instead?

i dunno really. i've never thought highly of Philippine politics cos all i ever see is foul play and a jungle of hungry predators.

yes. you're free to correct me, after all i'm not a politics enthusiast, i was just interested with the possible truth of the aforementioned scheme and how it could gravely affect our choices. it's a cool idea for a legal novel... or something. hahaha

you know what rocks? let's all lock the candidates in the PBB house. LOL or take them into Battle Royale. O_O;

precy maano: yet another jacque bermejo?

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 09:58:00 +0000

ewan ko ba. fucking wannabe internet celebrities?

is this yet another thoughtless comment who ticked off the recipient that's why it's spreading all over the internet?

is this a yet another aspiring internet diva who thinks the easiest way to get instant internet stardom is by provoking readers into a fit of hate and disgust? way to go.

or is this a yet another hacked account? if it is, i won't be surprised to see a letter of retaliation after some weeks. bet?

but come on, this seems sooooo cliche na, paulit ulit! pablo banila, patrick sicat, jacque bermejo? talaga naman o.

haaaaaaay ♥

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 04:50:00 +0000

hahaha thank you chamel for listening to me kasi ang babaw babaw ko, abot tenga na ngiti ko makita ko lang sya. hahaha! he smiled at me!!! ok whatever, friends naman kami e. classmate ko nga sya diba... uhh, ~~feeling ko varsity yun e~~. haha ops.

maiba.
odiba webdev. tapos inopen ko computer ko... tapos lumabas saglit pra mkipagkwntuhan knta brian at umpe. edi iniwan ko ung bag ko sa tabing chair para in case pumasok na si 'bestfriend' -- hopefully, di sya uupo dun, pati usb ko naiwan ko sa table.

tapos! pumasok na sya!!! AT NILIPAT YUNG BAG KO AT DUN PARIN UMUPO SA TABI KO. anak ng @$%^&*()!!!! TAPOS TAPOS, HINAHANAP KO USB KO! NAKITA KO NASA KANYA NAAAAA!!! AMPOTA! >_<;

sa lahat ng nakaka-inis, sya yung... LAHAT!!!

anyway. yun nga... nung nakita ko nman ung crush ko masaya na ko. yehey.

psalms 91

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 06:21:00 +0000

the most beautiful chapter in the Bible because it's full of promises and rewards! :)

btw, i knew it would be lethal to go back to drinking coffee after loooooong months of withdrawal! ate theresa gave me this mocha something something she's selling and grabeeee talaga it tasted like heaven! or starbucks sige. O__o; k, i'm back to drinking coffee nanaman nakakainis e, ang tagal ko kayang pinaghirapan yung hindi uminom ng kape unless needed pero alam nyo yun? isang tasa lang pala katapat ko. :( it's the same thing i feel with biting my nails though right now mejo hindi ko na sila kinakagat hahahaha.

i'm making progress with this html thingy i was asked to do! yuuuuck, i could just rip off stuff from the net but i decided to make it from scratch which is very very very enlightening kasi naman it feels different coding from scratch. IE sucks. e parang ngayon ko lang talaga nalaman yung silbi ng CSS e, e more than 6 years ko na plang ginagamit yun. loser.

minsan talaga, hindi ko matagalan ang yabang moooooo!!! grrrrr
ayan naaaa, trigo is starting to bore holes in my brain. naiirita ako e, dude! you don't have to like shove it to my face that you got the lecture! alam mo yun... parang, kung sa tingin mo na-gets mo, WELL, ANO PA KAYA AKO??? kaya pwede baaaa, shut up! ang yabaaaang mo pota. i'm here being quiet cos i hate talking to you. don't you brag about how easy the lesson seems. puro ka yabang.

let's start the day right! ;P

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 14:55:00 +0000

oha. work mode. i had two cups of coffee this day so expect me to be awake the entire morning... like past 12mn. haha i have to finish my friend's friend's project e, i dunno, i think it's relatively easy naman pero you know naman i'm most productive during the witching hour. hahaha i wish i had more projects like these. yung madali lang hahaha

news flash! ayoko parin pumasok bukas! but i have to... haaaaaayyyy.

may kinalolokohan naman akong jacket! hahaha i saw a black semi leather jacket at people are people kanina kaso pang men's eh. anyway, it's not like bibili ako hahaha

ay! i kinda need a job?
pengeng trabaho! kahit ano! :))
kahit project mo hahahaha

sm appliance isn't selling creative anymoooore. saaaaad. pero they have cool stuff from philips! i'm considering it nga e hahaha kelangan ko na magupdate ng player e. parang japan lang. hahaha oooor, i'll just save it for something else. hindi ko rin alam kung bat kelangan ko ng pera i guess kasi wala akong allowance? hahahaha

OMG. parang gusto ko ng PSP Go! haha

haaay i wish i could convert my FFS money into cash! kahit $100=piso conversion rate oks na. hahaha

// grabe talaga o. isn't it unfair to drag someone into a relationship just because he/she's the nearest person you could get?

jollibeeeeeee!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 10:49:00 +0000

free shirt + free food = parang relief center lang! henako!

ola!

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 14:56:00 +0000

i do this every year! :D

hello wishlist!!! hindi ako excited magbirthday, baka kayo excited na? kaya eto, para sa mga excited na sa birthday ko! :) wiiiiishlist!! :D :D :D yehey! (tagal pa naman actually) hohoho

actually parang ganto rin ung dati kong wishlist!

1. cash. mas kelangan ko yan. (5577 5300 3163 4056 - BPI E-Cash) anonymous nmn yan e! hahahaha game game
2. happy cactus sa FFS. ocge. facebook>ffs>gifts>flowers>happy cactus. yun! 20k lang un! hahaha
3. mas gusto ko talaga totoong cactus. yung maliit lang! XD
4. pilot gtech refil 0.4 black
5. printed scotchtape, yung red.
6. bike!
7. GC kahit san.
8. pocket book sized drawing journal bsta maganda papel parang oslo?! wag na moleskine, hahaha.
9. dangling earrings! :)
10. kahit anong libro by neil gaiman, bo sanchez, dan brown, paulo coelho, meg cabot. much better kung lagyan mo ng plastic cover! hahaha
11. white musk!
12. ice skatiiiiiing! :D :D :D
13. jacket! ageeeen! adidas na red :P
14. sana mabili ko si ***** sa ffs sa Birthday nya. :)

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noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 12:43:00 +0000

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decode.
no, not really.

learn this if you want. hehe

seryoso na to!

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 08:23:00 +0000

i have to fit nicely in that freakin red long gown on october 29, or else.... or else.

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 10:57:00 +0000

i feel bad for all the people who are still left stranded in their homes, awaiting rescue. i feel bad that that the least i can do for them is pray, and maybe deliver some of my old clothes to mcdonalds (the nearest

suckerpunch

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 10:19:00 +0000

// it was raining and my jacket fell off the tricycle (but i got it back yey!) and when i came home i tripped on the stairs...aaaaall the way down. ang sakit ng balakang ko! then someone switched off the power source of the sockets in my room (actually the entire floor) so i can't charge the laptop hahaha fml?

in spite of those, this was a cooooool and funny day!!! i had fun with my classmates! alam nyo yun? i feel young when i'm with them! wahahaha

// o chaka eto pa, whenever i look at my growing collection of happy cactuses (cacti) at FFS, i can't help but smile. stress reliever kaya! parang bumabalik yung mga plots ko to rule the world with aliens, but this time with cactuses instead. can you imagine? ako, oo e. they're too cute!!! i'm starting to develop a fancy with cactuses (specifically the 'happy' ones from ffs) na nga e. oo na. e ano kung weird? :(

join me! hahahaha

oks! i feel a loooooot better now. :)

// there's someone i want to help with his 'dreams'. yak, i sound like mar roxas. pero di nga, this person is too deserving to be stuck here. natutuwa ako sa kanya pramis! i believe he's fit for something better. minsan naaawa ako sa kanya, how can he tolerate being with 'these' type of people. di nya ka-level eh. sorry. anyway, best of luck to him! let's see if he survives. :P

// isa pa! isa pa! i have no moooooore expectations from you! ang dami kong napatunayan about you which gravely crushed my fantasies. i never thought i was idealizing you too much. e duh, sakit ko nga pala yun kaya walang nangyayari sakin. fucking standards. pero ayoko talaga sa panget.

buhay aplikante

noreply@blogger.com (Yan Birog) — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 06:45:00 +0000

july 27, 2007. or july 28? LOL i'm not sure. the finals started the night of the 27th, and ended 2am the next day. so technically, we were accepted at the 28th. so ano na? hahaha

i'm such a loser for marking it two years late.

i never talked about the application process because i thought it was illegal to spill out how it goes, it's part of the org internals after all... but looking back at my archives, i realized that i never really talked about my experiences about it... because during those days i was too mentally and physically drained.

so now, i want to remember everything, every epic thing that happened. win and fail.

@ 1st day of reporting: it was the day i cried the most because i didn't know what to do. i don't know the org's objectives, mission, hymns, i don't even know the name of the person i'm reporting to. so they mocked me, made do a hundred pumpings for showing up unprepared. it was the worst day of my applicant life.

@ no one signed my tickler because it was poorly crafted. to prove their point, they tore out the cover page and threw the blasted notebook across the field and passed it around. when it came back to me it looked liked it was mowed mercilessly and taken out from the garbage can. i decided to end the day without meeting anymore masters and generals to avoid walking home looking like trash. i have never been bullied that way in my entire life.

@ so that night i memorized everything. the following days