The Twilight Journey 光经路

Am glad...

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 16:54:00 +0000

Just realised today that there was one promise that I had to make some years ago. And am glad that it's still being kept.

What bothers me though is how long I still have to keep it.

What am also glad is how it might not be long before it happens...

And am glad that it's working out well so far...for her... ^^ especially when she doesn't know...

Silly how I amuse myself... ^^; or rather...torture myself...

Saa~ *sigh*

Back!

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 15:48:00 +0000

...for a couple of days now...It sure didn't feel like two weeks in China...

And I'm sick... x.x Let's hope it doesn't grow into H1N1...Am sure if it is, the airport health check would have known...? >.<

Since my parents gave me a digicam, I thought...ok...why not start snapping photos right? So here's my Macau trip album...wished I could took more photos to select from...those are like the best... >.<; and I didn't have much time there anyways...

After the meeting in Beijing, it seems like my trip in HK has come to an end...

Hmmm...what's next... >.>

Sometimes I wonder, where and when will I be able to settle down...

Fooled

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 14:52:00 +0000

Twice.

Once, for we all know what. In a way, am glad... *sigh*~ so strange isn't it... ^^;

Twice for what I didn't really realise what China is all about. Sometimes, I don't even know what I'm doing. But whatever I do, it seems to make more sense as I move along. Funny how God leads.

I realise, it's not about what you read. It's not about what you hear. It's all about what you experience. What you read and hear only provides you with half of its worth (in a rather safe way that you can consider). What you experience gives you everything (that you may or may not regret).

The question lies...is it necessary to experience it? Or can you just take what's worth?

I'll take what's worth.

I took alot of pics...but am too tired to upload it...maybe after my trip in China? XD

Long distance relationship

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 01:19:00 +0000

Few days ago, during dinner, the discussion about long distance relationship (LDR) popped up - somehow randomly? Of all 6 of us, there's only one who never had one. So in terms of experience, we are all pretty much there but at varying degrees.

It's sad that in this era, it's not where you are born or like to live that determines where you'll live. It's somehow your work and where you can grab hold of a job opportunity that determines where you are and/or will be. And due to that, it makes it harder to settle down. Who know what happens next month or next year? I don't.

Sure, there are still many people who still live in the same area since birth or very very long time. But it sure doesn't apply to people like me... :/

So, to LDR or not? Relationships are never one way. It's always two-ways. If both sides can't agree or have the same values/principles, it's really pointless to move on. Especially for LDR, since you don't really have anymore physical contact and whatever experiences you gain as you move along won't be shared with your partner except over the phone or over online chat. But is just talking enough? It could be for some people...

And who knows how long one would need to be in a LDR? One year? Two years? 10 years? Who will be moving to whose place? How often can one see one another? How much do you really know about that person from the scarce meeting?

I can't say that I don't believe in LDR...but I know it'll be very difficult on both sides unless they are both very understanding and really can talk at every level...then again...is there such perfection?

As friends, sure there's no problems with that.

Had a vivid dream last night about misunderstandings and lost...funny...I (still) miss her. How I wish we could be more open online to know more about one another... -.-

What a world...

Why...

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 16:51:00 +0000

Why...did...she...do that...

Guess we're back to...no where... *sigh*~

List of sites blocked by the Golden Shield Project

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 08:25:00 +0000

Update: Seems like GSP doesn't like most DNS providers? Just found out that even sites hosted in HK are (DNS) blocked.

Have been searching for a site that provides me with a list of sites that is blocked by Great Firewall of China, but couldn't find any. Even Wikipedia wasn't good enough, maybe it's not accepted? *shrugs*

So, I've come up with my own list as I stroll along the internet...

Am using FoxyProxy to access these blocked sites. Somehow, I wish there is a feature to import/export proxy/pattern rules...

*.afraid.org* - (optional) DNS provider; sites that rely on afraid.org won't work behind the firewall
*.blogger.com* - Google's Blogger site
*.blogspot.com* - Google's Blogger site
*.facebook.com* - Facebook
*.fbcdn.net* - Facebook
*feedproxy.google.com* - Google's feed reader/proxy for its blogs
*www.googleapis.com* - Google API; some sites require this
*www.meetup.com* - Meetup site is surprisingly blocked?!
*.reuters.com* - News website
*.twitter.com* - Twitter, surprise?
*.wikipedia.org* - Wikipedia; apparently the Chinese version works??
*.wikimedia.org* - Also for Wikipedia
*.youtube.com* - YouTube
*.ytimg.com* - Required for YouTube streaming

It's by no means complete, and will add as I go along... ^^

network.proxy.socks_remote_dns must be set to true in Firefox.

Not all Google Apps work, so those must be added to FoxyProxy as well.

Some sites will choke if you have ipv6 dns enabled, so disabling Network.dns.disableIPv6 helps.

Too bad it's too slow to stream YouTube! XD

梁文音 - 愛一直存在

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 16:35:00 +0000

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"某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂"

Internet in China

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 08:26:00 +0000

China's firewall is too powerful... :(

Am able to get around it, somehow...hehe XD

But, I can't stream YouTube videos anymore~ it's slooooow~ T.T

Guess I have to start using the local video sites... :(

待我给我让我与我为妳我

By2 - 我知道

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 16:19:00 +0000

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我知道。。。

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noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 15:33:00 +0000

Tamia - Almost

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 13:44:00 +0000

Lyrics

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haha~ ^^;

*sigh*~

In a way am glad certain events didn't happen, but in many ways, I wish something happened....

Life... XD

A new beginning...

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 12:53:00 +0000

"Making the best of what it is now..." has always been my statement of life. Whether one put Christ into the equation or not that's up to the individual; for me, I attempt my best to do it everytime.

And today at the church, the message about serving others hit me. It's not about doing, it's all about the attitude. It made me realise that...yea...there are areas where I do the best I can but sometimes I don't have the attitude with it. More so, I don't put my heart into it to do it. Does it mean the job done is less good if a good attitude is not there? Well, no. Result is the same. But I guess what he was trying to say was, the process of it matters too. During the process, the people around you see what you do, how you do it, and everything else in between. Your heart and attitude makes the difference - not the result - from the perspective of God.

I was marvelled.

What I really enjoy these days is, able to see the mountains, the sea, the sky, the sea of people...wish I could see more of the moon and stars, but hey...can't have everything right? XD

Anyways, so the change of environment open up some new thoughts. Meeting new people, just talking to people, listening to others, observing things around...kinda satisfy my being here. Am still wondering what's here for me...

Either way, for weeks, I've been hopping around different churches. There are just too many churches around here, it's just...astonishing. It begs the question, which church is right?

It's common to hear people say, "I hope you'll settle in this church." Or "make sure you find a church where you can settle." Let's say we use the common definition of church being a building, a denomination, then well...I don't think it matters where you settle in or even the need to settle in one.

Let's say we use the definition where the church is a group of believers coming together to fellowship with one another and give praises to God. Well, I think it matters who you mix with.

What matters most is who you are having your fellowship with.

So now am attending at least two churches' bible study group. Both offer homecooked meals, including dessert! So that's awesome. XD One is doing the alpha course, which is a nice and easy way for me to get back to the basics. The other is going through the Book of Amos. Am still waiting for one more bible study group to happen, since they only meet once a fortnight. And am planning to be part of a mission group in HK - just to explore. All from different churches. And these days, I'm like...hmmm...why not? It's not against God's Word and in fact it's pretty much inline.

What's the purpose of being in a church as per the common conception? I would think the main purpose for being part of the church is to grow with one another. And since one can grow through intimate discussions and whatnots in bible study groups and such...isn't that a better focus than just going to one particular church every Sunday?

Must say, each church that I've been are so unique and the group of people are also different. It's really distinct that form and style do separate groups of people and more importantly the message it portrays on the pulpit.

And funnily enough, the other night, somehow 1 Corinthians 3 stuck on my mind when I woke up. And yes, I was briefly awake in the middle of the night... -.- So what's with all these denominations that divide different groups of Christians and say, "I'm right, you're wrong."?

I wonder if there's someone else who's like me...going to different churches just to explore yet...staying at a particular church for a particular purpose.

It's definitely interesting to see different churches in what they do and how they do things...definitely opens up my eyes. And where would be the best place to do it other than HK? No where. In such a small area, there are so many churches to choose from.

What's lacking is guidance in God's Word to ensure spiritual growth...

*sigh*~ funny... ^^;

Hmmm....am missing her...I wonder if she miss me too......funny how one person can miss someone whom you don't really know especially in such a long long period... ^^; >.<

So...a new beginning in church life? Hmmmmmmm, it seems like it...but for how long...?

Blank & Jones - Desire (Ambient Mix)

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 17:41:00 +0000

Am lost for words...yet so much is going through my head. Kinda annoying when I can't say it out...~~and I sorta miss the time that I once had.~~

Today is China's 60th National Day, the fireworks here was spectacular, especially from the view at Elements in Kowloon! And there I was...gazing above...I see the moon and a star..!! ^^ Never before seen just ONE star and the moon next to each other. First time for everything right? I could only wish I was able to let out a sigh...

I couldn't. Mix feelings...

Only time will tell...what will happen...

Anyways... ^^;

Somehow this song really...got into me today...

~.~

再过几个星期会怎样呢

Babyface - Everytime I Close My Eyes

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 15:28:00 +0000

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Not many songs thes days are like this huh...

陶喆 - 暗戀（暗恋）

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 14:27:00 +0000

David Tao - Secret Love

为何～真正相亲相爱必会这样吗～

Stars!! Where are you?!

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 14:59:00 +0000

>.<

Damnit!

For days now...am still waiting for stars to show up...ya know, to do its thing, blink shine blink shine...

But...

None!

Zip!

Nada!

Nein!

Niets!

无！

...

>.< What's wrong with this part of the world...

And I thought the typhoon would have just...ya know...clear the skies...

I guess the tall buildings can substitute as stars...it doesn't blink though... >.<

*sigh*~ stars...please... :( at least show me the moon... :(

I so wanna jump into the sea and float till forever...

*sigh*~

ATB ft Tiffany Lacey - Ecstasy

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 14:16:00 +0000

(lyrics)

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Heard this on the way to church...

~.~

What a view...

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Wed, 16 Sep 2009 13:58:00 +0000

How can one not like this...

...and especially this...

Then again, if only...

^^;

Subway Chickens

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 19:07:00 +0000

Awesome huh?! XD

source

Soulmate

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 18:42:00 +0000

Update:Wow! Another night of bright full moon! Exactly the same as two nights ago! No stars though... :/ why...why why!

I have never seen such a round and bright moon in Antwerp before...clear skies, no clouds, slight breeze. No stars though. :/ Kinda wish I'm out there walkin' at a park or even sitting on a bench gazing above...

So, I just finished the Soulmate kdrama today. Totally awesome! It has a unique twist to it...

The ending was somewhat unexpected. Understandable I guess. I like how the ending gave us a good feeling of what it could be... ^^

There's supposedly a special, but gah...I can't seem to find it! >.<

Definitely one of the best drama I've seen so far..! XD

I thought the script was really good...so the quotes...

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Love is not something you do, instead love is something that comes.

Dating makes lips tremble, but love makes the heart tremble.

Love is not something you check, but it's something you are sure of.

Love is when that person is laughing, and laughing even more loudly with him.

There's no such thing as a perfect man and perfect woman in the world. There's only perfect love built together by imperfect man and imperfect woman.

They say love that's too difficult isn't really love.

A woman needs a man who loves her, more than she needs a man whom she loves.

Love is when you tell the person you love what she wants to hear.

She's so much like me. Just looking at her, I can read her thoughts. When she's hurting, I hurt more. I don't know why, but I feel like I have to hold onto her. I think I have to be by her side. I think this is what fate is.

It's real love. It's a person's real heart. How can you move that with diaries and techniques?

I met a great love, so great that I couldn't contain it. Even just looking at her, my heart would tremble...I met a love that made my heart ache. There was nothing I could do about this love. What would you have done?

You're unique. you're in tune with my heart slowing or speeding. In harmony like the piano.

Something that changes that easily isn't fate. ... But being unable to change even though you want to...being unable to run away even though you want to...I think it's like that. Something you couldn't possibly ever shake off.

If we're meant to be, even if it's not now...someday, someday we'll be able to meet again.

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I dunno about soulmates, but I believe there are couples who just clicks very well. Who are willing to live life together, at the same frequency, understands and accepts one another, enjoys being with one another, and yea...generally enjoy the life that has been given as one.

All my life, I think I've only seen less than a handful of (married) couples who are like that.

I guess it's too idealistic...

But wouldn't life be more fun to be with someone whom you can explore life with? It's like...best friends till the end of time! Friends come and go. And these days, I kinda find best friends come and go too. Good friends will (usually) always be good friends. So who else can be your best friends other than family and your partner?

Fate is also a big thing. I don't think we can talk about fate when we aren't be sure about the future. After-all, we don't know the end.

...

Silje Negaard - Be Still My Heart

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 21:39:00 +0000

Lyrics

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Soothing~ ~.~

Disappointing act

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 21:12:00 +0000

Today I've heard of a disappointing act.

I'd imagine someone was cheerful and kind. Not bothered or bias towards others. A loving heart.

But it seems that I'm wrong.

Maybe there was an emotional struggle, or an unreasonable demand that needs to be fulfilled, or a certain mindset or biasness, or generally didn't notice which I highly doubt.

None of the above is a good excuse to ignore the people that someone knows. A smile or nod is the bear minimum.

For my part it sounds really disappointing that that someone didn't greet the familiar people. I guess I've been wrong about the personality and character of that person, and/or there must be a good reason behind it that I don't know of.

I guess sometimes I'm like that. But I think I've only been like that towards one person...and I've got a good reason for it...

*sigh*~

Turn, twist and land!

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:47:00 +0000

Doesn't work with lacrosse though...

Yesterday I played it for the first time in my life...

Don't have any bruises, but my nose and arm still hurt today...'cuz the ball bounced back from my crosse when I tried to catch the ball... :/ Flexing my muscles hurt... :(

Had fun anyways... ^^

Dunno why...but I enjoy attending the international church's activities...seems more relaxed and fun...less pressure and expectation overall I guess...

What would I do when am in HK...

Would I miss...

Speak, but only speak...

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 19:47:00 +0000

...with responsibility and accountability.

Do people realise that any form of public speaking will and can affect the audience's mindset especially when one has a very responsible and accountable role that people look up upon?

And as such, any words that utter from his/her mouth will have a huge impact on the individual's life.

So why do some come in as inexperience and unprepared on the topic at hand during public speaking?

Not everyone think about what others say and/or able to filter out what's right and wrong, especially when it comes to philosophical and life-changing topics.

Franz Liszt - Un Sospiro

noreply@blogger.com (KwangErn Liew) — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 21:28:00 +0000

Arranged and Performed by Marc-André Hamelin

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Un Sospiro is the last of Franz Liszt's Trois Études de Concert...

Funny how it's called "A Sigh"...

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