I’m currently at just over 4500 words, which is the most I’ve written in a while, so that’s the main thing. I’m sure some of it isn’t great, but it’s out and it’s following a plot line and that’s the main thing. Writing’s not easy it’s not like taking christmas photo cards where after a half hour or so your work is done and you just have to mail everything you have to persevere and that’s what I’m doing. If I get stuck I walk away. I ask for pointers and help, such as last night where Kore brilliantly advised me, “If X character is giving you a problem in the scene remove her from it.” and I was able to rattle off another 200 words before calling it a night.

I’ve been working a bit on other things today, blogging, tweaking a site design for someone and am going to write for a bit while I’m waiting for feedback on the design. I’ve got 40 words done so far; but hey 40 words are 40 words ^^ and at least they’re sentences they’re not just word salad.

I’m hoping to write a bit this afternoon after I sort some things out for a web design client and get her things a bit more up to date, but I’m anticipating scrapping my idea for the first chapter and starting fresh with something else, or from a different area so that I can hopefully get things flowering more easily. As it is right now my word count is hovering around 1000, and as this is day three I should be approaching 5000.

For NaNo to keep on track you ideally need to write about 1667 words per day for the entire month of November. So I know that some people will get up in the morning and just write for a few hours and then go about their day, others who have different sorts of jobs might not be able to do that, they might have to write at night, or write in spurts throughout the day a few hundred words here and there.

For certain people they have to have a certain routine, I know for a while I could only write if I was listening to certain types of music, and it would often be different music depending on which kind of story I was working on.

For others you might have to set out everything in a certain way, or get all new office supplies to kit things out and really get yourself going.

For me the biggest obstacle to keeping focused is the munchkin. He wants to help me write, or he sits in my lap while I’m writing and wants to type on the story too. I’m hoping that the next time inspiration strikes it can wait until he’s in bed for the night but I know that’s not always going to be the case.

I was roused from my attempts at slumber a few hours later and found myself scrawling bits of my prologue out on a legal pad, and as of now I have almost 1000 words written for the start of my “opus”, dare I say.

I know from reading friends’ comments this morning that several of them began their writing at midnight. I see a few on my friends lists who have over two thousand words already and more power to them. I’m just going to keep taking it slow and see what happens. I have a decent start as it stands, my prologue is finished. I can jump ahead a little way and go on with the story safely I feel.

I just have to work around my work schedule today and tomorrow. I work 1-7 today and 7-3 tomorrow, so that’s going to make for slow writing days and I know that I don’t need to push myself too much anyway because that’s going to just create writer’s block.

I figure what happens happens. I have too many other things in my life to stress out about, what I write, I write. I’ve spent too many hours already stressing about my writer’s block. Instead I’m going to focus on the positive things that I can get out of November, communing with so many other great literary minds, the charge of the writing experience and all of the great words I AM going to write, whether there are 5′000 or 50′000 of them there will be words and they will be awesome.

I’ll just have to trust that hasn’t bitten me in the butt.

I’m psyched for the writing, I really am but at the same time I can’t help be worried about that. I’m going to be smart about the whole thing. I’m not going to push myself. I won’t be popping diet pills to stay up all night to meet the deadlines. If I win, I win, the point for me is that I actually get something written not that I pressure myself or stress myself out, so I’m trying to remind myself about that. I want to be able to write something.

I suppose it’s the fact that my creativity has been low again lately because I’ve been having some bad illness flare-ups that has me worried, but I’ve been able to see my chiropractor again today and I’ve been able to make more appointments for this week so things should be doing good again by the first of the month as I was able to see amazing progress within a week last time I have no reason to think this will be otherwise now.

So, there we go, and I’ll get some words cranked out. I already have a lot of prep, and the words they will flow, whether or not there are 50′000 or more remains to be seen. The point is that I’ll get more written about the Biosphere, Kelsey, Isaac and all the others than ever was on screen before.

I confess I have a lot of trepidation for NaNo at this point. I’ve become stuck with my muse again. We’re having creative differences, in that, she’s taken the creativity and run off with it to the darkest woods of some hidden forest and refuses to allow me access.

I’m hoping that I’ll be able to hack my way through before NaNo starts. I have high hopes for the story that I want to work on, but at the moment it seems dire. There are wolves, after all.

However, there’s been a lot of trial and tribulation other than that. My car is fixed it was the water pump, but I found out also that the radiator is going to need fixing, or rather, replacing and that’s an expensive proposition.

Then my room mate and I spent several hours tonight battling with a part of my husband’s duty uniform, trying to fix it, so we don’t have to pay several hundred dollars to replace it. We appear to have been victorious, touch wood, but I’m left mentally fatigued from all the false positives that fell apart, and the worry for the car, which has been on it’s last wheels for a while.

I’m hoping that my creativity won’t lapse because of all these things. I’ve been enjoying a stint of drawing that’s been very productive and worthwhile. I don’t want to lose it to stress, that’s been a horrific thing for me to not be able to draw and write, but with all of this and all of the problems we’ve been having with our health insurance I’ve been pretty wrung out the past week.

I feel like I’m not completely prepared for the 50′000 word jaunt because I’m having a hard time focusing again. I think that may just be the past few days have been a little crazy. We’ve had a lot going on at the house, and I find myself sitting here picking at my self, because I need to find the best eye creams to get rid of the bags under my eyes, and looking for split ends in my hair or over-using certain facebook games.

I recognize that these are negative behaviors, and not productive, so I’m taking steps to help myself break those patterns now that I’ve recognized them.

I look forward to NaNo and I don’t need to talk myself out of it. It will be very good for me to participate.