Mariposa's Haven

DIGITAL LOVE

2009-05-23T22:28:00.000-07:00

(beep) hi baby. i love you.... (message sent) i love you too baby.... (beep) can't wait to see you! (message) what time do we meet?...5 hours have passed and silence have engulfed the whole room. the whole anticipation to hear that sound again is excruciating. somehow the clock seemed to have taken its course slower than it should. five grueling hours... and still nothing. oh that feeling... the agony....

(message sent) hey what's up?
(message sent)are you ok?
(message sent) why aren't you replying
(message sent) what the heck are you doing??!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....!!!!

the other end might've run out of memory space, freaked out and wondering "what have just happened there?" all i can remember is, the last two hours i've been on a strictly no cell phone on meeting, and the next three stuck with the elderly people who couldn't wait to have their diapers changed...." what a life...

on the other end is a girl exhausted of all the waiting... not just the waiting, but the burden of convincing herself nothing fishy is happening on the other end of the line. just normal circumstances that deserve to happen without being questioned.

then is this what we call love on the digital age? the relationship between a guy and girl depend so much on messages they have and receive on their SIM cards, memory cards, emails, comments and forced adorations on myspace, friendster, facebook etc...etc...??? i know for a moment, i do think so... i've been a victim of this foolish situation. i was so wired and connected to all media you could think of to keep in touch with my loved one and take advantage of the ease to not only keep in touch with him but to keep track of everything he does even without his consent and knowledge. this is not what love is suppose to be. i knew that from the very start. but the access to everything is almost under your nose. ready to be discovered in just a few clicks. convenient, yes it is!!! and that's what's tempting to us to delve into someone's life, all the more the life of the one closest to your heart. sometimes our gadgets at hand become some sort of metric system of our relationships. if you get more calls and texts messages, one could equate it to being loved so much rather than getting to enjoy a bunch of flowers from that special someone once in a while with longer lasting effect. if at 12 noon your loved one religiously sends an i love you message to your phone and all of a suddent failed to do so but made it up to you by giving you a call at 3pm, one could still judge the person not so loving.... or your loved one get to call a random person at 11:56 and hung up the phone on you at 11:55 coz he said he's taking a rest... one could've done worst by judging the person a cheater. and the likes are happening a lot... one misjudgment after another....

this is tiring!!! this is not the kind of love our grandma and grandpa shared when they we're younger. our dad and mom shared moments of happiness even when their miles apart and their only means of communication is a snail mail or a 5 kilometer run to another town. but they shared love without computers, cell phones and all that jazz. and trust was not compromised even if they don't have hidden web cams to spy on them when they're out socializing at church. they got none of these before and they trusted each other. they loved each other without all the conveniences in life. they created a bond between each other that's beyond our imagination without the help of our modern gadgets. and... they still trusted each other.

our generation is indeed lucky to have all these conveniences at our fingertips. it would've been a different and difficult world to deal with without our cell phones and computers. but i realized that these are not gadgets to weigh the traffic of love between two people. they are for sure an easier way to express words, but love shouldn't be weighed as to how much our special someone remembers us through text messages or emails. it shouldn't be scaled depending on who got your loved one's first text message of the day...or who got his first call. life should be lived as it is, and shouldn't be stopped all the time because we need a moment to tinker with our phones or computers.

i realized, i should stop and smell the flowers. enjoy what the day has to offer and feel deep inside my heart that i am loved... even if another (beep) i love you baby... doesn't come.

5 bucks is not bad

2008-11-16T00:33:00.000-08:00

if you're getting paid for ten minutes of work. :)

i forgot how i ended up getting this weird part time job but here's what's left on my memory. hehe. i think i was really looking for part time writing job and landed on craigslist. i know not a lot of people would swear by this site but i know some people who checked this site and got the best deals in their lives i even remember that guy who became famous for a week (just my estimate :) ) for actually getting a house just by trading off that started with a red paper clip. ok back to my real story. so i saw this ad and was hesitant at first. but i thought, it's not a difficult job to do especially that i won't have to leave the house to do it. i just have to copywrite/rewrite/revise/research and come up with an article/news release to be used by law firms' websites. what i meant with easy was, i have the internet in front of me to do the research. and everything has already been said before i even write about the topics given to me. so all i hve to do is revise and make sure i stick with the facts i get online and just mesh them altogether to create a brand new article, sort of. all the assignments would be about drug recalls and press releases to inform the public that a specific drug has been recalled.
it's not the most challenging writing stint i ever had to deal with. but getting paid for every 10 minutes I spent doing this is not bad at all. i won't be spending it on a venti coffee but sure will work as gas money.

so keep it coming on my inbox robert.

2008-11-08T22:32:00.000-08:00

100 things i love about you

1. you're face including your 'atsaka' that little hair you have below your lower lip.

2. when you say yes please and no please..especially when i tickle you.

3. you love my pouch (cheeks)

4. you call me names (cute and funny names) :)

am i even good enough...

2008-07-23T18:29:00.000-07:00

people all have something they're good at. be it in art, academics, singing, dancing, just being darn pretty etc etc. when i ask myself the question "what am i good at?" i will always end up being lost thinking hard what i have done something over and over and judging them as perfectly executed. and finally, at the back of my mind, nada. though self destructing it may sound, that's the truth. i have lived a mediocre type of life, and that this has totally evolved around what i even do.

when i was a little, i thought i'll be a great newscaster. i would read newspapers out loud in front of the mirror and be proud of myself that i read english language better than everyone else in school, maybe even than my english teacher. but i never grew up proud and boastful. that's the irony of it. sometimes i look at the mirror and see a different side of me--the side that i picture will definitely be someone big someday. maybe a newscaster or a writer. but the side of me that is shy and timid, went overboard and i decided, facing people is not my thing but maybe being behind the stories written is what i'll be good at. so i graduated with a degree in journalism. ( pardon for my irregular grammar and punctuations, this is unedited). and i thought i did good being conferred third highest honors in the whole university. but, i never fulfilled the dream i dreamed of when i was a little. is that good enough?

really, what motived me to take the course was when i got the biggest award i achieved in writing--the day Foundation for Worldwide People Power Movement led by former president cory aquino's son awarded my essay for 3rd best in national level. Whoever reads this, i apologize for the raving.

But boasting is not the point of my thoughts. what i really am concerned about is the question i keep asking myself "am i good enough?." and all i can say is, i did good at some point but never better, never the best.. and at some point too, some important people in my life make me question myself more if i'm even good enough being who i am and on what i do because i feel they don't believe in me. i hope i'm wrong...i know that i can never please everybody and i know living in mediocrity has some serious consequences. truth is, i'm not dumb, but never loved discovery and history channel--i learned from my grandma about old life, church, about the bible, school, about all other stuff, and my parents about love and compassion; i can write but never slept with a thesaurus in my hand or saw my name even on the cheapest tabloid in manila; i can shoot the camera, but never landed even mug shot in a magazine, i can do what i love doing, but will forever have to say "sorry, it's the best i got.."

2008-02-12T15:29:00.000-08:00

Nakakatuwa kapag sobrang saya mo na dahil meron kang inspirasyon sa buhay. sabihin na natin kapag meron kang boyfriend o girlfriend. nandyan lagi ang kilig, ang ngiti na biglaan mo na lang nahahalata sa sarili o ng ibang tao. minsan mas masarap pa mag-imagine na kasama mo ang taong napakahalaga sayo kesa kumain kahit na paborito mo ang ulam na niluto ng nanay mo. lagi ka lang masaya. ganon. lagi mo gusto pagtugmain ang schedules para lang magkasama kayo kahit na sobrang hectic sa pag-aaral, sa work, sa church. sige pa rin sa pagtawag sa cell phone at pagtext kahit inuutusan na ng nanay o tatay o kahit pa nga habang nagddrive talagang walang makakapigil sa atensyon na gusto mong ibigay. in love eh.

pag dumadating na ang araw na nag-aaway na kayo dahil sa kung anu anong maliliit na dahilan, lalo lang kayo tumitibay pagkatapos. tama? kasi lalo mo na nakikilala yung taong mahal mo. kung gaano ba ang tolerance niya sa selos, kung gaano katagal bago siya mapikon sa pang aasar mo, o kung gaano sya katagal nakakapaghintay sa di mo pagtawag o pagtext bago siya una magalit sayo at magtext bakit di ka nagpaparamdam. minsan parang aso't pusa, di magkasundo sa kahit ano dahil parehong pinipilit ang gusto na ang bottom line ang gusto niyo lang talaga magkita lage o namimiss niyo lang ang isa't isa. bottom line--kahit nag aaway kayo, mas matindi pa din pagmamahal niyo sa isa't isa. kasi nga in love...

pero sa kagaya kong di na teenager may mas mahalagang ibig sabihin saken ang pagbboyfriend...haha... ibig sabihin nito ay seryoso na ko at gusto ko ng mag-asawa. (nonsense)

ahhh.. don't pay attention to this crap.hehe

my 25th yr marks a revolution...

2007-10-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

25 years ago i was devoid in this crazy place and sometimes superficial world...and 25 years later, i have come to realize how much life has evolved for me. it has not been a simple ball game that's for sure. i have morphed from a wallflower into an introvert and then into a free spirited punk who loves alternative and rock but doesn't know how to jump in the mosh pit. hehehe. seriously, i love who i am right now. it was a revolution of myself--in a good way. maybe because through the orbit, i have been lucky enough to live with beautiful people around me--my family, friends, even strangers who contribute a little somethin somethin of a life lesson. it's been said, once your brain has been stretched with ideas, it will never retain its original dimensions. well, no wonder everyday my head looks bigger and bigger. haha. but then again, what am i right now if not for the people around me? nothing... i might have been back to devoidness--living without purpose, struggling without a goal, persevering without inspiration, jumping into the bandwagon of people living laid back but have no direction.

i am ecstatic. 25 years of of persistence was not a joke though. you know that type of persistence that the most important thing you want to preserve is your sanity? and why not? like i've said, this world has gone berserk. it will turn you upside down until you wanna throw up. luckily, the ride will have to stop at one point and all you have to do is regain your strength again and share the experience with important people in your life. that's how life becomes more sensible.

my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual anarchy have reached new heights. they have finally collaborated like a song that at last found the final note that will make it a masterpiece...

revolution at 25-- i take pride.

--mariposa

my blog's collecting dust so i wanna say...

2007-02-23T11:23:00.001-08:00

just when i thought all hell broke loose... you came by and told me. hey "everything's gonna be a ok." and you know what? you're right. just when i thought the chaos in my life has taken over everything... the total opposite of a bareface liar knocked on my door.. you told me "so he's a bad egg" get over it... you got me. it's better than a stick in the eye."

and i believe yo're no "better than a stick in the eye." you're someone. you're big. in my eyes you're special. you taught me to dream big but not build castles in the air or chase the rainbow. all of a sudden there was dead air... and i smiled realizing how great life really is. with you on it is like seeing the glass of water not half empty but half full. i started counting things that make my life worth living and not counting the problems that almost ruined it.

though i wrote a dear john letter to someone--hurting his feelings. at first it was a dog it dog world dude. it was hard for me to finally draw the line between you and him. until my hand just started writing the letter and ending that chapter with him.

I'm happy right now... like i see it flying in the wall. every moment, everyday...it's all happening right in front of me. don't expect me to tell you "go fry an egg." i would love to see you here beside me everyday... making me laugh and making me feel that im a superstar. and even if i don't treat you like you're a superhero. you know i'll be the one to help you remember that you're better than the man of steel when you feel like you're a nobody.

ok tsong let's go hit the road...and enjoy the air at the park. hehe...

part two short iskit

2007-02-23T11:02:00.000-08:00

sa likod ng mga tagpong ito... sino ang makapagsasabing may pag ibig? hindi kailangang makita ng lahat ang (hahaha), ang exclamation point, ang "=)" at ang hahahhahhaha... umasa kang di nagtatapos dyan ang istorya nila. ang lahat ay may masayang kwentong natatago sa mga maikling tagpong ito. di mo na kailangang malaman pa...

simula ng magandang umaga

melai: tsong long day ka naman sa work no?
tsong: oo wag mo ng ikuskos sa mukha ko...

melai: tsong maganda ba ko?
tsong: sige payag...

tsong: ang talanding tiyahin ko ay gusto makasagap ng kamelaian...
melai: ano bang chika?
tsong: siguradong pag uusapan namin si melai (ikaw) nina melai (tita ining) at ni melai (inay!)

melai: teka, lam mo ba yung mga siamese twins?
tsong: o ano naman...
melai: kawawa sila no
tsong: oo nga eh.
melai: swerte naten.
tsong: isipin mo na lang kung ang ibang parte ng katawan naten ay dalawa at ang dapat na dalawa ay isa lang...

melai: tsong may pulis na naman o.
tsong: best friend tayo.
melai: yun pa sa kabila...
tsong: tsong may ilaw sa likod naten...
melai...(tahimik)
tsong: apir

tsong: may box o
melai: yan na yata ang phone mo...buksan ko
melai: ito nga.. sayo yan
tsong: thank you
melai: ingatan mo yan
tsong: sympre...
melai: twag text tsong. unlimited na

so ford explorer..

melai: dami naman susi nyan?
tsong: eh muntik ng maparami tsong.

MELAI: EH TSONG, EH DI NAKAPUNTA KA NA NG MANILA????
TSONG: AY HINDE!!! KAYA NUNG PUMUNTA KAMI DITO SA TATE, NAGBARKO KAMI SA BATANGAS, TAPOS NASIRA BARKO NAGSAGWAN NA LANG AKO....
MELAI: GANON BA?
TSONG: OO.

tsong: eh pero alam mo sa totoong buhay lang, masarap mahalin yung babaeng lagi ko kasama.
melai: tumpak.

melai: anong ginaganon mo?
tsong: eh wala naman... nasabi ko lang.
melai: ini-small talk mo na naman ako.
tsong: parang ganon (sabay ngiti)

bago mag-uwian sa trabaho

tsong: o, umuwi ka na. makauwi na rin...papakain pa ko ng baboy. wag mo limutin isilong ang mga baka ha.
melai: oo nga sabe.

habang nanonood ng "the eye" si tsong...

tsong: tiboks scared, si daddy ay naghahanap ng "melon", ang bayaw ko ay sumasakit daw ang katawan. kanya kanyang eksena.
melai: hindi ako magtetext at tawag sabe mo mapapatalon sila pag may umingay.
tsong: tama.

sa labas ng starbucks

melai: namiss kita.
tsong: hinde. namiss kita...
melai: hinde tsong mas namiss kita..
tsong.. SHHH.. (at may paghawak pa sa labi ko)

sa labas ng walmart

melai: di mo ko iiwan? sa hirap at ginhawa? o sa ginhawa lang.?
tsong: di kita iiwan. sa lungkot at ligaya hirap at ginhawa.... (at biglang napakanta)
"kami'y kasama mo...(tumigil)
melai: akala mo ba dudugtungan ko kinakanta mo?
tsong: hinde naman.

melai: tsong meron na ko pangalan ibibigay sa manika ni tibok
tsong: ano naman?
melai: maganda ang pangalang KADYO...
tsong: oo tigas.
melai: pwede din PEKTO.
tsong: wag na yun

habang nagpa-file ng income tax...

tsong: ang tagal naman
melai: oo nga eh. sakit likod ko
(di namalayang siya'y hinihilot na..)
melai ulet: sige ganyan lang ng ganyan...

tsong: haay..makalaglag petals ka talaga...
melai: whatever that means. pero masarap pakinggan
tsong: oo nga. nakakakiliti.

mister: lam mo umuwi ka na misis. at kapag walang nakatingin akyatin mo na ang wall clock at i-adjust na ang oras sa alas singko.
misis: yoko nga no.
mister: eh gawain ko yan. kaya balingag na yung relo dito.
misis: hala ano yung balingag?
mister: eh di, destrongkado na! laglagan na ang petals!!!

out of the blue...

mahal: k!!!
melai: k....

melai:O SIGE ingat
tsong: ikaw din.

my attempt to be a haiku expert

2007-02-23T10:57:00.000-08:00

why are you smiling
you're the one who looks funny
stop stop stop stop stop...=)

short iskit...

2007-02-23T10:52:00.000-08:00

seth-- bilang tsong
melai--bilang melai

unang tagpo:

tsong: uy, pinsan kayo nina ara at janice?
melai: oo.

ilang buwan ang nakalipas...

tsong: happy new year!
melai: happy new year sayo...

makalipas pa ang ilang araw...
tsong: punta tayo sa park
melai: sige.

and they lived happily ever after... =)

SUPERNOVA

2006-08-13T22:42:00.000-07:00

There used to be a big star shining so bright upon me.. Always on my sight wherever I go. It glows everytime I look at it and twinkles whenever I try to talk about happy things.. It used to spark constantly which makes me smile too.. but it's gone now--SUPERNOVA goodbye

while i was crying...

2006-08-13T22:33:00.000-07:00

Just got home from our church "KADIWA" meeting and I'm really happy that the devil didn't succeed in inviting me to go everywhere but the chapel. hahahaha... big LOSER!!! But anyways, I feel really good watching the video clips about members of the church who struggled hard to keep their faith aflame while the worst of the world has come along the way. The stories are inspiring, I cried like a kid. I didn't really care if my sipon keeps coming out. It really moved and inspired me to always do the best I can do, to stay away from things that will make my faith grow cold. And while I was crying, I realized how good God is to me...So I will try harder not to fail HIM again...

1O BAGAY NA AYOKO

2006-06-11T18:01:00.000-07:00

Kung iipunin ko sa isang listahan ang mga bagay na ayaw na ayaw kong nangyayari sa regular na araw ko..siguro eh kulang ang isang blues clues notepad para dun. may mga bagay na nakakapagpa badtrip sa atin na minsan napakababaw pero nakakabadtrip naman talaga.. mas nakakainis pa sa mga sitwasyon na: pinagalitan ka ng bisor mo dahil late ka na naman, o sa walang ulam sa bahay pagdating mo, o dinekwatan ka ng 20 pesos ng kapatid mo habang natutulog ka. para sa akin oo nakakasira din ng araw yun pero may mas mababaw pang mga dahilan na talagang nakakasira agad ng mood ko. siguro nga moody lang talaga ako at kapos sa pasensya. kapag nangyayari ba ang mga sumusunod na bagay sa inyo eh sira na ang mood niyo? siguro ang iba.. pero ewan ko kung bakit walang pang sampung segundo eh bad trip na ako kapag:

1. sinipag ako magligpit ng pinggan at pagkabukas ko pa lang ng gripo eh bigla kong mararamdaman ang tawag ng kalikasan..(call #2) baket tuwing magliligpit ako eh saka naman ako maiihi!!! samakatuwid, uminit na ang ulo ko at hindi na nagligpit ng pinggan.

2. kapag nagmamadali umalis ng bahay papuntang opisina.. at sabay dala dala ko ang make up kit ko..pero naiwan ko naman ang pressed powder na may salamin. umaapoy yata ang tenga ko (di ko alam kung napapansin ng tatay ko habang pinagmamaneho nya ako) kapag hinalungkat ko na ang bag ko at wala dun ang pressed powder. pipilitin ko na lng mag ayos ng aking mukha sa harap ng maliit na salamin sa ulunan ng dashboard. badtrip. nakakahilo mag make up.

3. kagatin ng ITIM na langgam. alam ko kase pulang langgam lang anng masakit mangagat. pero dito sa tate, malusog ang mga itim na langgam. ang weirdo pero itim talaga ang mga langgam sa bahay at masakit sila mangagat.

4. maghanap ng susi ng kotse at bahay sa bag. kahit pa may malaking key chain na ni peter griffin ng family guy eh aabutin pa din ako ng siyam siyam sa paghalungkat nito.

5. tawagan sa telepono ng bisor para ulit ulitin na maglog in sa phone queue. daig pa qa sa call center kung makapag monitor.

6. makagat ang dila ko habang kumakain ng masarap na pagkain. nakakawalang gana..

7. lunes.

8. multo.

9. mga madahon at maberdeng gulay.

10. ang ikaw-8.

visiting the other world

2006-06-10T22:50:00.000-07:00

one hour of hapiness in the other world left a scar in my heart--someone told me "i love you"... i said "NOTED"...

BISKOTSO: panis nga ba ito?

2006-05-22T20:08:00.000-07:00

Oisa na ko sa mga batang nakaranas ng mga di malilimutang karanasan sa kanya kanya nateng street. marami ding kasinungalingan ang pinamulat sa aten ng mga nakakatanda sa atin. kung pure pinoy ka at kapitbahay kita noon sa amelia st sampaloc manila, maaring isa ka sa mga nadenggoy nina "TANGKAD, BOLENGGAY, UNGGOY, UDOY, KUYA OMET, KUYA KIRAM, AT NANG IBA PANG MGA TAMBAY SA SA KALSADA--ILAN LAMANG SILA SA MGA MAY MALULUPET AT SIKAT NA PANGALAN ZONE 44. napakarami kong natutunan sa paglaki ko sa kalsadang yun. dahil sandamakmak ang mga sari sari store dun, madami din ang hot spots o favorite spotsng mga tambay at ang bawat pagdaan mo sa bawat sulok ng kalsada ay sandamakmak din ang matutunan mo sa kanila... hindi ko alam kung dapat ko silang resbakan dahil ang dami kong napulot sa kanila na puros pawang mga sariling opinyon lamang pero ko din makalimutan ang maraming bagay na natutunan ko (kahit mali) at masasayang naranasan ko doon gaya na lamang ng mga sumusunod:

biskotso: sabe nila ang biskotso daw ay gawa sa panis na mga tinapay o mga nabulok na pira pirasong tinapay na nareject sa mga bakery. dahil sa mali ang pagkakahulma, pinatigas na lamang nila ito ng tuluyan at pinagulong sa asukal matapos lagyan ng mantikilya o ang mas modern na tawag na "margarine"

platic balloon: nakakacancer daw ito..lalo na pag pilit mo pa itong pinapalobo matapos gamitan ang "maliit na straw na panghipan dito". di ka pa nakuntento sa laki ng plastic balloon kaya hihigop ka pa sa kung saan saang bahagi nito at papalobohin pa hanggang sa sobrang laki na nito at ang mga kalaro mong namangha ay makikihipan din at maya maya pa ay sunod sunod ng magsusulputan ang mga butas sa kung saan saan at ang lahat ng hirap mo sa pagpapalobo nito ay nawalan na lamang ng saysay..

potpot: di ko alam kung sa kabilang street, sa may verdad o sa m. dela fuente ay iisa ang tawag namen sa magkakariton ng bote na may dala ding isang malaking sako ng dilaw ng mga snack curls na kumbaga sa jack and jill ay "cheese curls" na yun nga lamang ang curls na iyon ay hindi talaga cheese curls dahil maalat at mabetsin lamang ito. hanggang sa kalaunan ay potpot na din ang tawag namen sa mga yellow curls na iyon. pati ang kariton in general ay potpot na din ang tawag namen. at dahil sa sobrang sikat sa street namen ang kariton na iyon na pwede mong pagpalitan mga bote ng UFC ketchup kapalit ng isang balot na "potpot" (cheese curls na maalat) limas lage ang mga basyong bote sa bahay namen. kung pwede nga lang tanggalin ko ang laman ng mga bote sa shelf namen ay ginawa ko na dahil sobrang naadik ako sa maalat na curls na iyon atu tuwing maririnig ko na ang "potpot" ng kariton ay halos madapa ako sa paglabas ng bahay para maipagpalit ko ang isang boteng UFC para sa isang supot ng "potpot". ako lage ang una sa kanila. masaya na akong kumakain ng "potpot" pero ang mga kaibigan ko ay naghahanap pa lang mga mga bote na ipapalit nila. dahil dun tinawag ako ng isang bading na kapitbahay na MS. POTPOT.

buti na lang at hindi sinabe ni BOLENGGAY na nakakacancer din ang POTPOT.

TAHO: tuwing bibili kame ng taho, mapapansin namin na may tubig lage ang ibabaw ng mismong taho (sa kabilang side ng aluminum na container ang sago at ang arnibal). may nakapagbanggit samen na ang tubig na pumapaibabaw ay ang pawis ng manong na magtataho. dahil daw napakainit ng sikat ng araw ay doon lumalagpak ang pawis niya habang masayang sumasalok ng taho at arnibal. nakakadiri ngang isipin. pero bili pa din kame ng bili. naniwala ako noon pero ang sabe ko naman. ayos lang. nakikita ko naman ang manong na sinasalok nya ang mga tubig na yun at tinatapon sa lupa bago nya sandukin ang taho. safe at sanitary na din.

WAG DAW KAININ ANG DULO NG APA NG ICE CREAM: di mawawala ang sorbetero sa mga eksena noon sa amelia st. totoong masarap ang cheese at chocolate flavor sorbetes sa apang matamis. pero di talaga pinalampas ang pagkakataon na ituro sa aming mga bata na huwag kainin ang dulo ng mga apa ng ice cream eto ang logic: ang sorbetero naglalako maghapon sa daan--naiihi din sila minsan--sa kalsada sila aabutan ng pagkaihi--sa kalsada sila iihi-- mababasa ang pantalon nila kung hindi tamang ang "handling"--matapos nilang mag jinggle--may bibili ng ice cream---kame yun--at hahawakan niya sa dulo ang apa with his bare hands. urgghhhhhh.... eto lamang ang pinaniwalaan ko hanggang sa lumaki ako...

marami pang iba sa susunod.

masaklap maging pangalawa...

2006-05-21T14:06:00.000-07:00

alam ko ang unang papasok sa isip niyo--kerida, kabit, kalaguyo?? hinde mga kaibigan... masakit maging ganon ang role mo sa isang taong mahal mo pero hindi iyon ang tinutukoy ko. may mas masakit pa dun. hindi ko problema ang taong mamahalin dahil marami ako nun--di lang nila alam. pero balik sa topic. oo masakit. kani kanina lang ay natuklasan ko ang isang bagay na tumalo sa lahat ng talentong tinatago ko at ibinahagi sa paggawa ng makabuluhang blog na to--ang mariposa's haven. (just to refresh you of the blog's name).

sa aking walang humpay na pagka adik sa internet at bunga na din na pakikialam ko sa mga profile ng mga friendster ay natuklasan ko ang ultraelectromagnetic blog. oo mga kaibigan--ultraelectromagnetic blog. ang sa isang sulyap pa lamang dito ay itinuring ko ng isang magiting na katunggali.. malaman ang mga sinasabe niya, at ang kanyang mga karanasan. hindi ko napigilang mapansin ito. may lalim mga kaibigan.. at sa aking patuloy na pagkilatis-- ako ay unti unti ngumingiti, at maya maya pa ay tumatawa.. mahusay ang kanyang mga tinuran. at maya maya pa'y di ko na napigilan--naluha ako sa kakatawa.. ang " my immortal enemy" ay totoong tumalo sa inakala kong mahusay na mariposa's haven at ang mga laman nito. pero mali ako. lalo akong humanga ng mabasa ko ang "ribbon cutting". sampung minuto akong walang humpay na tumatawa at lumuluha sa saya. napakahusay ng blog entry na ito. at sa wakas, sa loob ng dalawang taon--natanggap ko na din ang aking pagkatalo--saludo sa ultraelectromagneticblog.

hopia, mani mani... popcorn at vicks...=)

2006-03-25T23:07:00.000-08:00

lunch time, walang makain sa bahay. wala ako maisip kundi pagkain. lumabas ako kasama si enric. at wla kame iba pupuntahan kundi chowking. habang naghihintay na tawagin ang number namen para kunin ang order, naaalala ko "baket parang may kulang?" at naalala ko na nga, "ah wala yung manang na di na gumagamit ng micc para tumawag ng numbers ng mga customer kase ang lakas ng boses niya....!" ate eto pa sobrang NASAl ang tunog ng boses nya kaya may kakaibang dating ito. hehehe. 275 275 chicken chow and taho...with the nasal sound of her voice just reminds me of the manong na rumoronda sa mga bus sa pinas pag papunta kame probinsya...

each penny counts

2006-03-02T09:39:00.000-08:00

yesterday, i had nothing to do at work anymore that i decided to pretend im busy by doing some sort of accounting of my profit and loss--kinda. but seriously, i did a list of what i earn and what i spend for the month and divided it bi-weekly to do a more accurate calculation. one thing i realized first is how fast i burn up my salary to unnecessary things. secondly, i realized that if i have been more responsible in handling money, that could've reward me with something bigger other that clothes piling up my closet or food that gives me a bloated feeling everyday--i could've had the money to buy a car though i dont have plans yet. just how irresponsible a person could be, one penny could just fall off your pocket without even minding it. taking it for granted is the phrase. who minds a penny anyway? it's just the change you get out of buyin a twix bar in the vendo machine. or could be a left over in you're grocery shopping. the most important thing i realized is, "how each penny counts to the monetary blessings i receive out of my job." if it weren't for every penny that counts, there would be no "me" who lives decently, eats regularly, shops often, and shares her blessings to her family and relatives in need. well, that's not lip service. just feels good that even if i get somehow irresponsible in budgeting, at least a part of my penny goes out where it should be.

mga 2nd hand teorya

2006-02-27T15:31:00.000-08:00

ilang pasa pasang teorya na ba narinig ko mula nung matuto ako gumamit ng computer, ng yahoomail at ng outlook? matagal tagal na din. pero mas madaling tandaan yung mga nakakatawa syempre. actually hindi nakakatawa, pero dahil mababaw na tao ako. kahit corny, pinapatulan ko. hehehe..

ilan sa mga natatandaan ko:

kung nakakatawa kang tao, dapat pag tinanong ka ng "tell me a joke", sa loob ng 3 segundo dapat may maisip ka kaagad. kagaya ng agad mong pagkwento sa mga adventures ni pedro at juan. o ang makabuluhang kwento ni "what?"

isa pa:

kung isa ka sa sa dalawang porsyento ng mga talagang intelektwal na tao, pag pinag isip ka ng pangalan ng isang bansa na nagsisimula sa letter D at ang huling letra nun ay mag isip ka naman ng pangalan ng hayop at ang huling letra nung hayop na naisip mo eh mag isip ka naman ng pangalan ng prutas nag nagsisimula sa mga dulong letra ng mga naisip mo--hindi denmark, kangaroo at orange ang isasagot mo...dahil kung isa kang intelektwal ang isasagot mo ay DOMINICAN REPUBIC, CARIBOU, tpos UBE. haha. khit siguro si bill gates di alam ang caribou. hehe...

eto pa:
ang mga kaliwete ay mas matalino kaysa sa mga normal na taong kananete. ehem..=) no further explanation. hahaha.

kung may iba pa kayong alam na teorya. na nakakatuwang i-share. wag kayo mag atubiling sulatan ako sa strange_drew16@yahoo.com o kaya sa www.friendster.com/profiles/akocmariposa
ang mga mabibilis magreply sa email. isa lang ang natitiyak ko dyan---adik din sila sa net

=)

2006-02-25T22:24:00.000-08:00

yep, we're happy...

new year's resolution

2006-01-02T10:14:00.000-08:00

whoa...parang kahapon lang sinulat ko yung 1st post ko na bagong taon na naman, of 2005. tapos ngayon january 2 na! oh yeah and did u know that we had 2005 a second longer? yup! so when the clock strikes at 12 midnight you should've delayed cheering for 1 second...hehehe..who cares about that second a sa pilipinas alas onse pa lang sobrang saya na. kakamiss mag new year sa pinas.. maingay, magulo..dito sa tate halos lahat ng tao natutulog lang.

new year's resolutions ko nga pala:

1. titiklupin ko na agad yung mga nilabhan ko pagkatuyo
2. i'll minimize eating junk food.
3. magssave na ko ng pera.
4. i'll exercise!
5. i'll fix my bed when i get up
6. kakain na ko ng gulay once in a while
7. magpapakabait ako lalo..
8. babawasan ko na ang paggamit ng internet at friendster.
9. i'll do something worthwile pag hindi busy

at ikasampu:

MAGSISINUNGALING AKO PAMINSAN MINSAN...and i am right now...=)

MILLION WAYS TO THANK GOD...

2005-12-12T20:50:00.000-08:00

--drink water as if it was the last drop
--smile like you've seen a funny cat in front of you
--look around as if you've never seen mc donald's before
--munch your food like a gorilla
--laugh out loud that your neighbor will be amazed
--sketch and doodle like you have no tomorrow
--hug everyone you know like you'll not see them tomorrow
--chat with a friend and get tired talking for hours
--play your favorite song millions of times till the record is broken
--write and write until your hands hurt
--clean your eyeglasses that it sparkles from afar
--open the windows and let all the sunshine in
--play the games on your cellphone til the battery gets empty
--cuddle your teddy bear so tight you almost tear it apart
-- play your ps2 with all the friends you know
--read all the books you've always wanted to read but you haven't
--play the guitar and sing along while dancing
--smell the flowers even if it doesn't have a scent at all
--paint your room with colors to match your motley shirt
--bake hundreds of cookies and share them
--go to a hospital and kiss a patient in the forehead
--kiss the everdearest grandma you've ever had
--braid your sister's hair and let her see it in the mirror
--buy and expensive chocolate and share it with a very special person
--stare at the pictures on your wall and reminisce good times
--go to the mall and ride a kiddie bump car
--whistle whistle whistle, hum, hum, hum
--look in the mirror and make a funny face
--pick a flower on the side street
--light all the candles you have in the house like the whole world is blacked out
--seat at one corner in your room and close your eyes and say thank God I made it to my room
--the rest of the list??? you decide...

just doing one of these things declares His love to us--because we have life-- we have all the time to do a lot of things and we have millions of choices to be happy in peculiar ways
....THANK GOD, FOR THESE THINGS COULD BE DONE IN 24 HRS

by: mariposa

SILENT ALL THESE YEARS

2005-12-05T12:52:00.000-08:00

...and after all these years, i finally found someone I poured out all the numbness and hush hush of my life--the weaknesses, the secrets and all. this guy could see right through me like my solitary soul wanders inside of him.

MARIPOSA'S BACK

2005-11-18T14:58:00.000-08:00

due to public demand, mariposa's haven is back in action.=) i thought i haven't posted for long time so it's time to clean the rust out of this crap!!! and i don't spare my brain and body-- they're rusting and getting jagged now due to the dormant routine at work--which includes capricious eating habit...crap, where's my cookie?! oh well, the reason why my cursor starts moving this way is because I'm running out of space on the left side...and so I'm going right. Where were we? Yes, bout me going back here and talking about my nonsense world. I'm like one of those Little Apple Dolls (if you've never heard of them, they're doll characters from this literary work of Ufuoma Urie, whose facial features are not complete--without mouth and eyeballs i guess... who represent the boundary between life and death. I guess I kinda relate to these dolls in a lot of ways. There are situations in life that make you wonder..." is this life?" "or am I dying?"... I don't know. Something of the in between, I can't describe it. That's all for now. My fickle mind says I should grab a cookie. Bye

LIFE IS GOOD

2005-07-27T10:11:00.000-07:00

IM NOT F***** UP ANYMORE... I AM HAPPIER THAN EVER. AND I REMEMBER WHAT I POSTED BEFORE THIS. NOW I FEEL ALL GOOD... AND YEAH, I'LL SAY IT AGAIN--HAPPIER THAN EVER...