tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19181687521754164202024-09-05T04:31:23.211+08:00a small piece of my life..fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-40376486003719079412009-11-27T19:39:00.001+08:002009-11-27T19:40:24.864+08:00Hye. <b style="color: #bf9000;">Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha</b>.. I really have nothing to say this time. Im getting bored of my life. Do you ever feel like you do the same thing everyday?? Everyday is the same routine and its a lil depressing. I keep thinking that i should try something new. Something <b style="color: red;">more exciting and outgoing..</b>And so i made up a plan. Do you know what i want to do most right now? i want to contribute to the society. At least, i wanna be somebody new. I want to volunteer at the old folks, nursing home, or the retirement house. And i'll be full of life , and love then.. So, I really need u guys to help me. I don't know where to find and start doing the right things. I wish my life could be more exciting .. Please. Hit me before my holidays end. Thank you.. GTG..<br /> <br /> p/s:<i style="color: magenta;"> this post really needs comments ..</i><br /> <input id="gwProxy" type="hidden" /><!--Session data--><input id="jsProxy" onclick="jsCall();" type="hidden" /><div id="refHTML"></div>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-51388400926712646972009-11-26T18:05:00.002+08:002009-11-26T20:28:10.167+08:00haha. it's not the lyric from the <b style="color: red;">superman's</b> song.. but today, i just wanna write about why <i style="color: orange;">it's hard to be me.&nbsp;</i><br /> why would i say so? because i have my <i><b><span style="color: blue;">own lost love story.</span></b></i> Still remember those days when we're together..Can't forget... It's hard to take her as my friend now. This is just a story of my past. And the new me is walking rite now. Walking slowly, passing the days, and straight to the end of my life which i dun noe when. But i'll just walk from one stop to another. I used to cut my self with my own cruelty and guilt. So, i ain't livin in the dark side and let the haters destroy everythings that i have.. Even without her, i'll go on as the new me was born.<strike style="color: #e06666;"><b>STFU</b></strike>, straight to the point. Why it's hard to be me?<br /> <div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /> </div><ol><li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>I'm d only prson who'll be happy when my ex met someone in her life..</i></span></li> <li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>I'm d only prson who suffers doing all this..</i></span></li> <li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>I can't forget her even it has been years.</i></span></li> <li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>Oh, im doing all my best only to see she's smiling again .. even when i noe im not..</i></span></li> <li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>will update later.... need to help my mom in the kitchen.. see ya..</i></span></li> <i style="background-color: lime; color: orange;"><b>updated:</b></i> <li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>sometimes, i dun even noe myself. what i'm doing. and suddenly, by the time comes, i'll regret.<br /> </i></span> </li> <li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>always haunted by the past.<br /> </i></span> </li> <li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>it's hard to leave, but harder to forget her..<br /> </i></span> </li> <li style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>everyday i wake up to be someone else.<br /> </i></span> </li> <li><span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><i>and the last but not least, it's hard to be me because im different..... </i></span></li> </ol><b>p/s:currently listening to five for fighting - it's not easy (SUPERMAN)</b> <br /> <b style="background-color: orange;"><a href="http://adf.ly/tvB">DOWNLOAD THE SONG HERE</a></b><br /> <ol></ol><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden" /><input id="jsProxy" onclick="jsCall();" type="hidden" /> <br /> <div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden" /><input id="jsProxy" onclick="jsCall();" type="hidden" /> <br /> <div id="refHTML"></div>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-18429788278322975702009-11-25T01:22:00.001+08:002009-11-25T01:26:09.470+08:00Yeah,, it could never been worse.<br /> My laptop has been down for <strong><span style="color: red;">17 hours. </span></strong><br /> And that's a really long time.<br /> I had to reformat my laptop like <span style="color: #134f5c;"><strong>8 times</strong></span> before i can install <span style="color: lime;"><strong><em>YM 10</em></strong></span> succesfully.<br /> Then, my wireless device went wrong , and it was not detectable. <em>WTF!!!</em> I had to reinstall the wireless driver, and luckily it worked. But.. <br /> as i said, it could never been worse. Guess what?<br /> I can't turn on my webcam now. i tried to calm down. Maybe i need the latest driver.So,&nbsp;I downloaded <strong>Acer Crystal Eye</strong> webcam driver.<br /> I waited bout half an hour. I installed it, and it still didnt work. So, im still working on it right now. Desperately, seeking for some answers through google. But nothing helps so much. <br /> Im upgrading my XP SP2 to SP3. Hope this will work because everythings went so fine before i downgrade to SP2.fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-13674509603506558492009-11-23T05:05:00.002+08:002009-11-23T05:31:43.695+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://adf.ly/25881/sayafern"><img src="http://img187.imageshack.us/img187/5619/picture0017.jpg" /></a><br /> </div><b style="color: red;">Love does not seek its own because love is in motion.</b>. The nature of love is to give, not to take. Love look outward towards other, not satisfying itself. The point here is, even if they're not with you, you can still love them. You'll be happy when they're happy.. You'll comfort them, if they sad. And&nbsp; you'll always be just there for them. Basically, it's hard to love someone this way, but u can practically do it just like i did. Yeah, im <strike style="color: orange;"><i>god damn</i></strike> happy right now...<br /> <br /> p/s: Cinta tak bererti memiliki...fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-16705841228100262262009-11-21T19:38:00.002+08:002009-11-22T02:32:41.738+08:00I was so gay. In the evening, I played the <i><b>Zee Avi's </b></i>song for the chatroom, and they like it. I ended my session with a song from <b style="color: red;">Budak KMPH </b>titled <b style="color: red;">Bulan 8 di Kuantan</b>. And one of the chatters pm me for the song. I tried to send her the file but the messenger had some technical problems in sending files. So, i took the chance to write about the song for my blog today. Actually, this song was originally sung by <b><span style="color: red;">Gerodok</span></b> where its title is <span style="color: #38761d;">Bulan 8 di Sandakan</span>. But a few years ago, these boys from <b style="color: #cc0000;">Pahang Matriculation College</b> sang this song and i don't really know why this song became so famous after all.<br /> <br /> <div style="color: red;"><b>Budak KMPH - Bulan 8 Di Kuantan</b><br /> </div><div style="color: red;"><b><a href="http://adf.ly/sOw"><span style="background-color: #f3f3f3;">Download Here</span></a> <br /> </b><br /> </div><br /> <div class="secondaryColor" id="-nmhsE4TSDgh78Stext" style="color: blue;"><i><span style="font-size: small;">kisah mula dulu kala bila hati jatuh cinta..<br /> ku terkenang raut wajah bila pejam mata..<br /> tawa riang ubt duka ku terkenang kau di sana..<br /> lagu ini aku gubah utkmu oh syg..<br /> ht ku mulai bosan cintaku padamu bulan..<br /> bln 8 di kuantan..<br /> kuantan 3x..<br /> kasihku oh sygku..ku cinta kpdmu..<br /> cintaku hanya 1..kau pon thu..<br /> jgn lah kau cemburu..ini sekadar lagu..<br /> jeliknya oh mka mu mcm hantu</span></i><br /> </div><div class="secondaryColor" id="-nmhsE4TSDgh78Stext" style="color: blue;"><br /> </div><div class="secondaryColor" id="-nmhsE4TSDgh78Stext" style="color: blue;"><i><span style="font-size: small;"> <br /> </span></i><span style="color: black; font-size: small;">p/s: i </span><span style="color: black; font-size: small;">can never tell how i love you . i can never tell you how you are special to me. i can never tell you how badly i was broken. because the day when i walked away, u just stood there and watched me go. That was the day of the turning point in my life<i>. </i>I've spent a week living in my bedroom with the pain as my pillow. Life must go on, i forget just why.......</span><span style="font-size: small;"><br /> </span><br /> </div>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-35417697905820104722009-11-20T23:42:00.002+08:002009-11-20T23:49:34.107+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://adf.ly/25881/sayafern"><img src="http://catchingfireflies.typepad.com/.a/6a00d83451dba369e201156f87af16970c-800wi" width="320" ></a><br /> </div><b><br /> </b><br /> <b><a href="http://adf.ly/sDD">DOWNLOAD HERE</a></b><br /> (You'll have to click "SKIP ADS" to download) &nbsp; <br /> <br /> <div style="color: red;"><b>Zee Avi - Kantoi</b><br /> </div><div style="color: red;"><br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Semalam I call You, You tak asnwer<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">You kata You keluar pergi dinner<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">You kata You keluar dengan kawan You<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">but when I called Tommy he said it wasnt true<br /> </div><div style="color: red;"><br /> </div><div style="color: red;">So i drop my car pergi Damansara<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Tommy kate maybe You tengok bola<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">tapi bila I sampai…u, u tak ada<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Lagi la I jadi gila<br /> </div><div style="color: red;"><br /> </div><div style="color: red;">So I called then called sampai You answer<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">You kata sori sayang tadi tak dengar<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">My phone was on silent, I was at the gym<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Tp latar belakang suara perempuan lain<br /> </div><div style="color: red;"><br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Sudahlah sayang, I dont believe You<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">I’ve always known that your words is never true<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Why I’m with You?<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">I pun tak tahu<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">No wonder la my friend pun tak suka You<br /> </div><div style="color: red;"><br /> </div><div style="color: red;">So I guess thats the end of our story<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Akhir kata she accpeted his apology<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Tapi last-last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too<br /> </div><div style="color: red;">With her ex boyfriend best friend - Tommy<br /> </div><div style="color: red;"><br /> </div><div style="color: red;">Kantoi... <br /> </div><div style="color: red;"><br /> </div><div style="color: red;">p/s: i heard this song over someone's caller ringtone. hmm.. somehow, i felt in like with the lyric. haha.. Sounds funny and original. This song is cool.. Another Kudos for ZEE AVI.<br /> </div>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-85276928358581861302009-11-20T07:38:00.000+08:002009-11-20T07:38:34.326+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://adf.ly/25881/sayafern"><img src="http://profy.com/wp-content/blogs.dir/1/images/triston/spilled%20drugs.jpg" /></a><br /> </div><br /> i was wondering, if someone could tell me what is goin to happen to the<b><span style="color: #bf9000;"> ex-drug addicts</span></b>..?? I have drugs issues like 4 or 5 years ago. And that was one of my biggest mistake. But now, i've changed. Seriously, i don't have the addiction issues anymore. Recently, theres a chatter from my YM keeps calling me "DADAH". Owh.&nbsp; She was <b style="color: orange;">annoying</b>. It's not like i want to hate her. But, just think. If every single one of us don't give a <i style="color: lime;">fuckin</i> chance to the addicts, they wouldn't have a reason to start a new life. And they'll fail to be better, n fall into the addiction. So, let us do the world a favor. Stop cussing them. Stop being a <b style="color: #b45f06;">Cussing Foo's</b>. Just give them the chance and the reason to be better.. I write this because i used to be one of them. I was lucky because i got the chance to change. My friend XXX had been so successfull in making a fresh start. He was even being considered for a role as a steward for the kitchen where he was being treated. Unfortunately, he has no family. And there's no one to support him, and the public keeps pushing him, and at last, he ended up in jail. He was back to the drugs fellas.. Can you get to that? Nemind... zzzzzzzzzz..<br /> <br /> p/s: i was pissed off.. i happen to mean you suliana. U r so<b style="color: orange;"> sick</b> and <b><span style="color: #6aa84f;">disgusting.</span></b>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-32781147551837012732009-11-19T09:00:00.000+08:002009-11-18T03:38:27.089+08:00Owh.. i still remember when the 1st time i used my college's wifi service. It was terrible.. Besides than the slow internet connection, the wifi has been block by some stupid firewall which keeps blocking me from accessing any of those video streaming site <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(153, 0, 0);">(such as youtube and porn sites)</span>.<br />I searched over the internet and i found this small size powerful application that helps to overcome the censorship and blockage on the internet. Ultrasurf is a free proxy application which helps you to bypass all internet sites. So, KudOS for ultrasurf.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;"><a href="http://adf.ly/rN9"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLJ8weLdJlWnj7EA1tSG9pg7QVcU4OjhW_YxZ1VCwl1p6TebDIRAMiDSOATZcOTWXJww8Nux0eFDSsMx4dzo9DtUSC5R28el3JeYIRTdvKhhDSg71M3H9_1d1UpPG3cA6C-lgvKcA_vU0P/s400/ultrasurf.jpg" /></a><br /> ULTRA REACH<br /></div>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-23748533041156736742009-11-19T08:46:00.000+08:002009-11-18T17:58:30.919+08:00are you thinking what i'm thinking? the title reminds me of "Broken String" by Prayin Mantis.<br />does the truth hurts but lies worse makes sense?? yes it is..<br />do you have a girlfriend? or boyfriend<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">s</span>? <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:78%;" >(i put an s for bf because girls, they always have more than a bf)</span><br />they cheated on you? yes? no?<br />well, i think you know the answer better..<br />what im going to write today is just something personal that went through my mind..<br />this post is for someone.. i can't really say her name..<br />apparently, she don't like me anymore. and she'll be happier without me.<br />I just said goodbye to her.<br />is it that easy? maybe for her..<br /><br />Readers, listen to this, my heart just said:<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">"I just wish that i could hold you for the last time, as that was my last chance to feel again..</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">But you broke it. My dreams are all broken. And i don't have any tears left. </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:78%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">Cuz men dun cry. </span></span><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">I spent 3 days wasting my time, sleeping, chatting, and i ended up blogging.I guess i need a new start. A new life. Totally without you. Do you know what are the things that keep us apart?They are not distances nor television.. They are the truth and trust. Thanks for all your kindness to me. For all your help when i need it. And for all the lies you brought to my life. I wish i never met u. But i did. I wish u never lied to me. But you did. I wish we will last forever. But we never last forever.."<br /></span>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-23642845107625473702009-11-19T03:58:00.003+08:002009-11-19T04:07:09.417+08:00<center><a href="http://adf.ly/25881/sayafern"><img src="http://www.itechnews.net/wp-content/uploads/2007/03/SonyEricsson-W580i-walkman-phone-1.jpg" /></a></center><br /> Phew.. I spent more than <span style="color: red; font-weight: bold;">3 hours</span> to upgrade my friend's <span style="color: #cc33cc; font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">SEw580i</span>. And it's worth. Now i can sleep tight. I can't wait to return this hp to him, and see what will be his response. He must be shocked to see his stupid phone turned into the most perfect w580i. Here's what i just did.<br /> I <span style="color: #ff9900; font-weight: bold;">upgraded the firmware</span> to the latest version, after i <span style="color: red; font-weight: bold;">debranded</span> it. Then, I threw away those stupid old .swf flash menus n <span style="font-weight: bold;">replaced</span> them with some "<span style="color: #33ff33; font-style: italic;">kick-ass</span>" cool flash themes. I did some extra efforts by making my own<span style="color: #003300; font-weight: bold;"> .thm</span> files.. I also <span style="color: #33ffff; font-weight: bold;">replaced the accoustic and camera drivers</span>. The accoustic's driver that i replaced sounds louder but the new camera's driver still doesn't affect much on the quality. So, i'll name the price for all these. <span style="color: #6633ff; font-weight: bold;">RM50 </span>:) Am i a good friend??<br /> <br /> plus: i put some new <span style="color: #33ff33;">mp3</span>s into his album. And i also gave him all the copies of my project (the downloaded stuff to mod his hp) . Guys, if you need help in upgrading your mobile phone, just send me a message. I'll try to help<b> (o_O) </b>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-23294163311407848782009-11-18T03:49:00.000+08:002009-11-18T17:23:39.431+08:00<p>Just done another new study case. This time we can make <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">money</span> after we shorten our <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 153, 0);font-family:arial;" >URLs</span>. It works same like Tinyrul. Its good and i like it because we can make money from that way. Its easy and only need a few click before it done. Then, just put it as a link at our article and generate traffic to that article. I believe you can earn money using that way. So, what is that website? It was called <a href="http://adf.ly/25881/www.adf.ly">Adf.ly</a>!</p> <center><a href="http://adf.ly/?id=25881"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-599" title="adfly" src="http://rajapayloadz.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/05/adfly.png" alt="" height="117" width="249" /></a></center> <p>How to <strong style="font-weight: normal; font-family: verdana; font-style: italic; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">make money with Adf.ly</strong>? I’m still not get money from Adf.ly yet. But i believe i can reach it soon if my promotion method go well. Hope it go just like i want. If not, i need to try others traffic tips in order to get more traffic into my articles. Hope many people will click my Adf.ly link and make money for me. So, the only way to earn money from this program is traffic!</p> <p>We also can <strong><span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">make money with Adf.ly</span> </strong>program. They are paying <span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" ><a href="http://adf.ly/?id=25881"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">20%</span></a> </span>from our referrals earning and it's for lifetime. Thats what i like about Adf.ly. Not only we can get shorten URLs service, we also can <strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 0);">make money with Adf.ly</strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 0);"> </span>in same time. Interesting right? I wonder how many of you already know about Adf.ly at this moment. Huh..</p> <p>Ps: For your information, <a href="http://adf.ly/?id=25881">Adf.ly</a> still new. So, they have few advertiser. If you have more money in your pocket, just try to marketing your product or website using Adf.ly. I believe its really a big help!</p><p>p/s: credits to<a href="http://adf.ly/rXo"> </a><a href="http://adf.ly/rXo">rajapayloadz</a> for the ideas and concepts. and now, i believe i have all my links shortened by Adf.ly. And if i provide you any download links, please proceed by clicking "SKIP" at the top right of the page.<br /></p>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-67160208814751568592009-11-17T20:05:00.001+08:002009-11-18T03:40:17.871+08:00i was still in my bed around 4pm today as i haven't had enough sleep last nite. i had a wonderful dream, and suddenly dad knocked on my door hardly. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">DISTURBANCE..</span><br />so, i started my day with a cigarette + annoying sound came from the door. oh dear, i just got some ideas to add on my blog today and im going to do it. <span style="font-weight: bold;">rite now</span>!!<br /><br />after 3 hours..<br /><br />owh.. im freaking good at it. take a look at my cursor <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 255, 102);">(i.e users only)</span>, and the whole page layout, and the widgets dat i get from a nice site. i made a few changes to the layout but still, it looks awesome. i need to re-learn all these blogging stuff, cuz i've forgotten lot of things. so.. dear my precious readers who are really good in html/javascript, you are welcome to teach me :D<br /><br />update: hey, look at my twitter widget on the right panel. Isn't it cute just to be there. Let's tweet my fellow friends. Thanks for <a href="http://adf.ly/rNB/">"flavert tekong"</a> for inspiring me the idea of tweeter.<br /><a style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" href="http://adf.ly/rNA">credits goes to this site</a>fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1918168752175416420.post-43024333367203807732009-11-16T17:52:00.000+08:002009-11-17T18:43:56.998+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><img style="width: 274px; height: 133px;" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/123/m_be73c1a4dbad96f4803fb0ac5b472002.jpg" /><br /></div><br />hello guys. welcome to my blog. this blog was started on <span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 102, 102);">November 16 2009 </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">because of my passion to start blogging again. i used to write blogs in the old days but i ended up lookin at them as a mess. currently, i am on semester break, so i guess this is the perfect start to write again as i have plenty of time to waste.</span></span> and this blog will be all about me and my life. and I'll try to update as much as i can.. <span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:78%;" ><span style="font-style: italic;">daily??? maybe.</span></span><br />almost all of my daily stuff will be post here, so guys.. enjoy reading and <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 0);">WELCOME TO MY LIFE</span>..<br /><br />p/s: <span style="font-style: italic;">i took almost 4 hours to set up this blog and those annoying settings. </span>btw, i feel it's worth the effort.fernhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652902375952117576noreply@blogger.com4