Chii's Diary

Thinking tank

2011-12-12T01:49:00.000+10:00

I watched this movie today and I really really liked it! Look at the massive amount of all-star casts. LOL But really, I think that New Year's Eve is superb. It's cute, it's funny, it's sad, it's touching, it's perfect for a year end movie. <3 I feel inspired to do all those things I've said I would do but never really do after watching this. LOL

And it got me thinking too, about what my new year resolutions would be. I wonder if I can keep this state of being all free and easy throughout 2012. It'll be lovely if I could.

And I'm in a really good mood today too. <3

.:Positive outlook:.

-Chii-

Back

2011-12-09T18:41:00.000+10:00

After over half a year of abandoning this blog (and almost thought of deleting it, honestly), I'm back to the blogger world! I was reading back all my old posts and that nostalgic feeling of writing something and that sense of fulfilment that comes afterwards washed over me so here I am, once again. I still love writing, I guess. Ahahaha~

A lot has changed for me over the past six months. I feel like a whole different person now, yet, I'm still the same person. I reached that 20 years old point, so I'm no longer can be considered as a little kid. My actions are my own responsibilities. What I think as the most important to me last year... is not something I consider as my utmost priority now. Ageing really do change how you view the world and what you really want.

Back in high school, study has always been one of my top priority, the thing that has been constantly been my concern. Now, after entering university and met all sorts of different people, I realized that there is so much more to worry about than just about getting an 'A' marked on my paper. There is really so much more in life, really, that I can't really explain here. No amounts of words could be enough. I just hope that one day, you'll be able to see it the way I see it.

After losing so much, I gained something else in the end. After that long duration of depression, I feel so so much more relieved now.

And hey,

I honestly can say I'm happy with what I have now.

p/s: First year at QUT ended pretty fast. And I'm blessed with good grades. :) I didn't get to travel around much due to unexpected circumstances but there's always next time.

.:A new pair of eyes:.

-Chii-

Migrating

2011-06-11T12:57:00.000+10:00

Will no longer update this blog. Kinda sad, it's been over 2 years, after all. Dear followers/stalkers, thank you for following me faithfully after all these years but this will end right here. Now, go find some other page to stalk. LOL

But hey, I'm moving on. I didn't say I'd stop blogging, did I? *wink wink*

You just have to be in the right place. HAHAHAHA

.:Predictions and silliness:.

-Chii-

Can't lead me down that road

2011-06-08T09:43:00.000+10:00

Feels lazy to update my blog.

Or maybe I just don't want more people getting inside my head. Tsk.

.:Waltz:.

-Chii-

Rock bands are awesome.

2011-05-25T14:55:00.000+10:00

You know what is even awesome-er? Girl rock bands. I'm really loving SCANDAL right now.

Rina (Drums & vocal), Haruna (Vocal & guitar), Tomomi (Bass & vocal) and Mami (Guitar & vocal).

Aren't they lovely? But they really can kickass on stage. Awesome skills. @@ I wish I can rock those instruments like they do.

Shunkan Sentimental

My favourite, Aitai.

Okay, apart from that new obsession of mine, there's not much to say lately. I guess life is kinda monotonous at the moment, but I'm content. Almost done with assignments and exam coming soon. But there's always time for a little bit of fun here and there. =)

.:It's okay to not be perfect:.

-Chii-

Bottom hearts

2011-05-19T20:10:00.000+10:00

Seems like I like to waste my time nowadays. Err well.... I don't really consider it as time wasting, but I'm not doing any of the work that I'm supposed to finish. ><

.:Secret code:.

-Chii-

Of kitty and Ms Perry.

2011-05-16T18:23:00.000+10:00

Her concert was A.W.E.S.O.M.E! I'd definitely go to her concert again if she returns to Brisbane. It's a promise (and next time I'd try and get that kiss as well. LOL)

.:Never planned:.

-Chii-

Floating about

2011-05-08T12:54:00.000+10:00

Mari tengok movie!

Wait. I'm supposed to be poor. @@ Duit masuk bulan 6. Not sure I can survive or not till then. :|

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers out there. Love you, ma! =)

.:New tracks:.

-Chii-

What the world tells you

2011-05-07T02:02:00.000+10:00

Life is not something can you can design and draft out.

I tried that and if you can see the drafts that I had drawn out for my life... I guess they would pretty much occupy the whole room.

.:Take the leap:.

-Chii-

Leaving normal

2011-05-01T22:09:00.000+10:00

The tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to mention, that sometimes your heart takes you to places you shouldn't be, places that are as scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring, and sometimes your heart takes you to places that can never lead to a happy ending.

And that's not even the difficult part. The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal, you go into the unknown...And once you do, you can never go back. (Roswell 1999)

.:Chillies them burn.:.

-Chii-

Wall section

2011-04-28T17:39:00.000+10:00

Assignments are pain in the arse. =.=" I've been working on a wall section drawing when I found out that the lower section of the house is not to be tampered. Damn. Now I had to redraw again. I hate scaled drawing the most. -_-

Had scones and bubble tea yesterday! Thanks Farah for the scones and as for the bubble tea, they taste a lil bit different than what they had in stores. But still alright, I guess? If we had brown sugar, we could've made the pearl syrup and dippped the pearls first. @@

I don't want to get attached. Do not want. I'll feel like an abandoned kitty when the one I'm attached to had to leave me. @@ So, the easiest way is to run away. Call me a commitmentphobe, but that's just the way I am. Perhaps, I think it's just a lot easier to not get engaged in any relationships right now. It's not that I don't want someone in my life but....... Sigh. It's a really complicated matter (or I made it complicated. Beats me.). @@

But the bottomline is, I don't want my love to get wasted. I'd be willing to give my all, so taking some precautionary steps won't hurt.

Kinda wonders when that day will come. =/

.:Catch me if you can:.

-Chii-

2 months

2011-04-25T12:35:00.000+10:00

It's Easter Monday and today marks the end of my 2nd month is Brisbane. =) Life has been good to me so far.

.:Unbreakable:.

-Chii-

Get me the wii

2011-04-23T22:23:00.000+10:00

One word. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

The $100 slash can really make me go crazy. @@ If I didn't bought my plane ticket, I'd buy this. Seriously. LOL.

.:A mountain of pride:.

-Chii-

Swam across, jumped across

2011-04-22T08:00:00.000+10:00

Rise and shine. I don't see the sun now, actually because it's kinda all foggy out there. @@

Anyhow, it's officially my mid term/Easter break now. But this one week break doesn't seem to be a break at all? I have lots of things to be finished up. Damn. Hopefully I'll find enough time to do everything.

Not sure how long I keep up with this kind of act, but as long as no harms done, all it good, aye?

.:Whole with half part missing:.

-Chii-

Better left unsaid

2011-04-19T01:15:00.000+10:00

So many things to do, but there's just not enough time. It's hard. Double me up so I be at two places simultaneously.

Yes. Yes. No? Maybe?

.:If it too burdensome, then let go:.

-Chii-

Take note. :P

2011-04-13T16:26:00.000+10:00

Photo editing is awesome. I want my polaroid!!

.:Da da da.

-Chii-

Dear you

2011-04-13T14:31:00.000+10:00

I've been getting weird traffics to my blog. -___- Don't just visit people! Click the ads and earn me some $$$! LOL.

I can't wait for this to come out!

I don't really like taking a cab (since they're usually bloody expensive) but this is gotta be my most anticipated wait for Mr Taxi. LOL.

.:Bulletproof::.

-Chii-

If the line is dead

2011-04-12T10:36:00.000+10:00

All the little things. All the big things. They're all fine with me but please, skip all the details that I don't wanna know.

I wish I can stop with the 'but' but (LOL) there's just no escaping in saying that 3-lettered word, isn't it? What you want doesn't necessarily has to be what you need and vice versa.

"I want you but I don't need you."

Kinda like when you're wishing for an Ipad 2 for your birthday *coughhintcough* or when you see something nice while you're walking around in the city. Of course, you can argue that I can just get what I want without the need to have it. What happens when the price to pay is high? Am I supposed to sacrifice all the other things I can get with the same value? (That's why I didn't bought that Ipad for myself, you know)

If.... I'm the only one I need to consider in this world, making decisions will be a whole lot easier. When more people are involved, the lower the level of compromise and the less satisfaction you get. Tough, but that's life.

My world revolves around me. That's obvious, isn't it? Since it is, MY world after all. So I decide who gets to orbit around and who gets to be sucked into the black hole.

Problem?

.:Not today:.

-Chii-

Confused reality

2011-04-09T08:54:00.000+10:00

I can't tell what's real and what's not anymore. What's already been said and what's a fragment of my imagination (or my wishful thinking, I guess) @@ It's all jumbled up in my head. I'm afraid that I might slip out something that is not meant to be told to anybody else. Damn. This is hard. I really gotta keep track of my conversations.

Anyhow, watched another movie last night - Just Go With It, starring the lovely Jennifer Anniston and the fun Adam Sandler.

I love both of them, so naturally, I'd come to love this movie. Hahaha. But biases aside, it is still a really good movie. Go watch it if you haven't, you won't regret it. =) The lesson learned from this movie is - Being hot and kind still won't be enough if you don't have that kind of connection. ;)

Had a friend stayed over last night. Hahaha. It's all good fun. Thank God nobody fell off the bed last night. LOL.

It's Saturday! And I'm staying at home. Not sure which work I do first. @@

.:Replaced:.

-Chii-

Hey, rain.

2011-04-08T09:09:00.000+10:00

Getting chilly here. Brrrrrrrr

Something in the back on my mind keeps screaming that I know exactly what I want - yet, I'm too afraid to reach out for it. It's almost ridiculous. Almost, because at the same time it makes sense.

And it scares me.

.:Inside and out:.

-Chii-

Swimming in blue

2011-04-06T08:49:00.000+10:00

I feel kinda disappointed with my writings lately. Had I lost my muse? =(

It's a clear sky today. So it's not gonna rain anytime soon.

.:I can try try try:.

-Chii-

Unsent

2011-04-03T14:02:00.000+10:00

Missing parcel. Gahhhhh. I hate you, whoever who took my parcel and didn't deliver it to its destination. -___- You shall not live peacefully. I repeat, you shall not live peacefully. Part of me still believe that it WILL arrive but I'm not hoping much.

.:You oughta know:.

-Chii-

Deceiving

2011-04-02T19:09:00.000+10:00

I should be studying. X.X I got two tests next week. And I REALLY need to start working on my projects. :|

Let's busy ourselves to get our minds off things, ne?

.:Before it's too late:.

-Chii-

Real.

2011-03-28T10:49:00.000+10:00

Submitted my first assignment here a while ago. HAHAHA. Honestly I'm not all too happy with what I've done but there's no way I'm going to redo everything all over again. :| That's too much. TOO much.

Test on Wednesday! Wish me luck, yeah?

~~Camwhoring~~ Studying at the library. LOL.

Slept early last night. It was only 9 something-ish and I was out cold. HAHAHA. Kinda feels bad about it because a friend ended up calling me to wake me up. LOL.

xXX-----XXx

I can't deal with people who are too selfish. I have my temper too and once I explode, I don't take back what I said, no matter how hurtful they may be. So don't test me.

.:Acceptance:.

-Chii-

If you just knew what to say

2011-03-26T18:29:00.000+10:00

Conversations would be heaps easier, no?

I suck at comforting others. I don't really know what to say because in my mind, I feel that it's better if I don't say anything. Words of comfort don't really make it all better, I guess. I've been there. =(

I really hope that you're really okay like you said you are.

.:I feel useless:.

-Chii-