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		<description><![CDATA[Remembering is a significant part of our faith. Remembering uses our past keep us from stumbling, refocuses us in the present, and gives us faith for the future. Here is a roadside audio recording I offer as a moment to remember. I offer it for two reasons. First, the thought behind this audio blog seemed &#8230; <a class="read-excerpt" href="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/index.php/2012/02/15/remembering/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#187;</span></a>]]></description>
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<p>Remembering is a significant part of our faith. Remembering uses our past keep us from stumbling, refocuses us in the present, and gives us faith for the future.</p>
<p>Here is a roadside audio recording I offer as a moment to remember.</p>
<p>I offer it for two reasons. First, the thought behind this audio blog seemed simply profound to me. Second, I wanted to see if I could capture, edit, upload and post with nothing but an iPad and 3G&#8230; Oh, yeah.</p>
<blockquote><p>Deuteronomy 4:9 Don’t forget anything of what you’ve seen. Don’t let your heart wander off. Stay vigilant as long as you live. Teach what you’ve seen and heard to your children and grandchildren.</p></blockquote>
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		<title>Can you feel the love</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[Special Thanks The Hutchinson News for Publishing this article in February of 2012. &#160; Welcome to the season of love! February is the time for heart-shaped cards, cheesy pickup lines, stale candy and crowded restaurants filled with dating dreams. Yet, far too often &#8220;love&#8221; leaves us anything but happy. We&#8217;re a culture of the depressed, &#8230; <a class="read-excerpt" href="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/index.php/2012/02/13/can-you-feel-the-love/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#187;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><em>Special Thanks The Hutchinson News for Publishing this article in February of 2012.</em></span></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>Welcome to the season of love!</p>
<p>February is the time for heart-shaped cards, cheesy pickup lines, stale candy and crowded restaurants filled with dating dreams.</p>
<p>Yet, far too often &#8220;love&#8221; leaves us anything but happy. We&#8217;re a culture of the depressed, detached and desperate.</p>
<p>I remember Sunday School teaching that we are supposed to love with &#8220;JOY&#8221; &#8211; JESUS first, OTHERS second, YOURSELF last.</p>
<p>So if we got the order right, we&#8217;d be all right.</p>
<p>So, how&#8217;s that working out for you?</p>
<p>Maybe the key to love isn&#8217;t putting God first.</p>
<p>Maybe it&#8217;s loving Him, only.</p>
<p>Genesis 29 contains one of the saddest love stories in human history. Let me compress the background for you:</p>
<p>* Jacob loved Rachel.</p>
<p>* Rachel loved Jacob.</p>
<p>* Leah was Rachel&#8217;s not-so-pretty older sister.</p>
<p>* Laban (Rachel and Leah&#8217;s dad) tricked Jacob into marrying Leah.</p>
<p>* Jacob decided to put up with his unwanted bride if he could marry her sister, too.</p>
<p>So here&#8217;s the love triangle: two sisters married to the same man, but the man only loves one of them. We&#8217;ve got more drama here than a high school cafeteria!</p>
<p>Leah was unloved, yet love <span id="more-1479"></span>is what she wanted more than anything else.</p>
<p>But God loved her. He loved her more than she could understand.</p>
<p><em>&#8220;When the Lord saw that Leah was hated, he opened her womb, but Rachel was barren. And Leah conceived and bore a son.&#8221;</em></p>
<p>From heaven above, God shouted down to Leah &#8220;I love you!&#8221; and blessed her with a child.</p>
<p>Unfortunately, her response shows that she is still looking for love in the all the wrong places (thank you, Waylon Jennings).</p>
<p><em>&#8220;The Lord has looked upon my affliction; for now my husband will love me.&#8221;</em></p>
<p>Obviously, the love of her God was not enough. She wouldn&#8217;t feel significant until she had this man&#8217;s love.</p>
<p>God sent another love note in the form of child No. 2: <em>&#8220;Because the Lord has heard that I am hated, he has given me this son, also.&#8221;</em></p>
<p>You can almost hear her sigh of relief. She thought Jacob missed the first one, but he can&#8217;t miss a second crying baby.</p>
<p>He missed it, and Leah became even more desperate.</p>
<p>God shouted from heaven with a third child:<em> &#8220;Now this time my husband will be attached to me, because I have borne him three sons.&#8221;</em></p>
<p>Nope.</p>
<p>Her addiction for this man&#8217;s love blinded her to the outstretched arms of the God who truly loved her.</p>
<p>But then came a fourth child.</p>
<p>Somewhere between the wailing of her three boys and the anticipation of the fourth&#8217;s birth, Leah had a revelation:</p>
<p>She discovered she&#8217;d been chasing the wrong thing, that jerk might never love her, butGod loved her all along.</p>
<p>Leah gave birth to a fourth son and named him Judah: <em>&#8220;This time I will praise the Lord.&#8221;</em></p>
<p>We don&#8217;t need to love God first - we need to love Him only. Then, through the love of God in our lives, we can love a spouse, children, a calling or a cause the way they should be loved.</p>
<p>This time, let&#8217;s love the Lord.</p>
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		<title>Jesus-lite</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 11 Feb 2012 02:48:49 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Addis Andy</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I've been drinking diet pop for a long time (that's soda for you northerners, and the non descriptive, uber generic 'Coke' for you in the south).

I've been drinking it for so long, it not only tastes good, it tastes better than regular pop. I understand that the previous sentence is probably the single most controversial statement I have ever posted on this blog, but you will just need to deal with it.

It's kind of a pattern for chronic dieters like myself:

You make the decision to go lite
You endure the transition
You get used to it
You get comfortable with it
It becomes normal
You can do this with almost any habit, whether its food, drink, entertainment, political affiliation and even... faith.

Yep, you can choose to go lite. It may feel awkward at first, but you'll get used to it.

Jesus-lite is the new rage all around the world. All the love with none of the conviction. You can enjoy 100% of your daily requirement of feel good, with none of that commitment aftertaste.

Harvard University is a sterling example of embracing the Jesus-lite lifestyle.

The school motto is “Veritas,” the latin word for truth, but it wasn't always that catchy little word. The University’s original motto was “Veritas pro Christo et ecclesia,” or “Truth for Christ and his Church.”

Hmmm...
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;ve been drinking diet pop for a long time (that&#8217;s soda for you northerners, and the non descriptive, uber generic &#8216;Coke&#8217; for you in the south).</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve been drinking it for so long, it not only tastes good, it tastes better than regular pop. I understand that the previous sentence is probably the single most controversial statement I have ever posted on this blog, but you will just need to deal with it.</p>
<p>It&#8217;s kind of a pattern for chronic dieters like myself:</p>
<ul>
<li>You make the decision to go lite</li>
<li>You endure the transition</li>
<li>You get used to it</li>
<li>You get comfortable with it</li>
<li>It becomes normal</li>
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<p>You can do this with almost any habit, whether its food, drink, entertainment, political affiliation and unfortunately&#8230;even faith.</p>
<p>Yep, you can choose to go lite. It may feel awkward at first, but you&#8217;ll get used to it. If you try &#8220;Jesus-lite&#8221; it will eventually become normal.</p>
<p>Jesus-lite has become the new rage all around the world. All the love with none of the conviction. You can enjoy 100% of your daily requirement of feel good, with none of that commitment aftertaste.</p>
<p>Harvard University is a sterling example of embracing the Jesus-lite lifestyle.</p>
<p>The school motto is “<em>Veritas</em>,” the latin word for <span id="more-1474"></span>truth, but it wasn&#8217;t always that catchy little word. The University’s original motto was “<em>Veritas pro Christo et ecclesia</em>,” or “Truth for Christ and his Church.”</p>
<p>Hmmm&#8230;</p>
<p>So, Harvard decided to go lite, where &#8216;truth&#8217; was still important, but Christ and His church were not?</p>
<p>We shouldn&#8217;t be too hard on this Ivy League liberalism. Lots of others have chosen Jesus-lite, too.</p>
<p>Maybe it&#8217;s just that we have found the need to seperate ourselves from the rigid standards and politically incorrect statements of Jesus and His church. I mean let&#8217;s be honest, if we were to actually let Jesus be the spokesperson for our lives and our institutions we&#8217;d get sued in a heartbeat.</p>
<p>Seriously, Jesus was a good foundation and He had some pretty revolutionary things to say &#8216;back in the day.&#8217; But, come on, we&#8217;ve progressed, evolved, grown up&#8230; should&#8217;t we have moved past all this religiosity?</p>
<p>We can still love Jesus, but we don&#8217;t need to take Him that seriously, right?</p>
<p>Ok&#8230; let&#8217;s end the sarcasm here. There really is a problem.</p>
<p>If you accept Jesus-lite for too long, it&#8217;s just like drinking diet pop&#8230; you&#8217;ll get used to it.</p>
<p>He really is worth taking seriously. More than that, Jesus is worth everything.</p>
<blockquote><p><strong>John 14:6 </strong> Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.&#8221;</p>
<p><strong>Matthew 7:12 </strong> “So whatever you wish that others would do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets.&#8221;</p>
<p><strong>Luke 10:27 </strong> And he answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.”</p>
<p><strong>Luke 23:34 </strong> And Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”</p>
<p><strong>Matthew 28:18 </strong> And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. <strong>19 </strong> Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, <strong>20 </strong> teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”</p></blockquote>
<p>I am sorry Lord that our world has become so proud that we would dare to edit You.</p>
<p>I am sorry Lord, when we have not taken You seriously.</p>
<p>I am sorry when we call you Lord, and do not mean it.</p>
<p>Lord we know You love, but You also judge. We know You care as a Father, and You rule as a King. We will no longer consider you a buffet God and take only what we want.</p>
<p>You are God and Your Word is law.</p>
<p>We offer all of us to every bit of You.</p>
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		<title>So, what’s with the Old Testament</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 27 Jan 2012 20:39:49 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[It’s been one of those months. Everything I read, listen to and talk about seems to have a common theme. I should be excited, because when that happens it’s almost always God trying to speak. I guess it&#8217;s time to listen (c’mon McFly&#8230; McFly!). Although there is a bit more depth to it than this, &#8230; <a class="read-excerpt" href="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/index.php/2012/01/27/so-whats-with-the-old-testament/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#187;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>It’s been one of those months. Everything I read, listen to and talk about seems to have a common theme.</p>
<p>I should be excited, because when that happens it’s almost always God trying to speak.</p>
<p>I guess it&#8217;s time to listen (c’mon McFly&#8230; McFly!).</p>
<p>Although there is a bit more depth to it than this, the nutshell idea from the Lord is simply this&#8230; it’s more about Jesus than you think.</p>
<blockquote><p>Colossians 1:27 To them God chose to make known how great among the Gentiles are the riches of the glory of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.</p></blockquote>
<p>My first conversation with a CrossPointer back in the states (vacation in Costa Rica, awesome, by the way) was <span id="more-1460"></span>another example of this reoccurring theme.</p>
<p>A friend had been reading the Old Testament, kind of for the first time since hearing the sanitized versions in children’s Sunday School years ago. It’s hard to show David finishing off Goliath with a bloody decapitation on flannel board in children’s church, so, we generally stop right before that.</p>
<p>But, now he&#8217;s diving into all the gory details and is<a href="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/DSC04010.jpg"><img class="alignright size-medium wp-image-1467" title="DSC04010" src="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/DSC04010-300x225.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="225" /></a> struggling with the brutality and sternness of God in those stories. That’s legitimate, but why do we struggle with the Old Testament so much?</p>
<p>First of all you need to understand that you are not alone, nor are you in a new circle of thought if you have ever wondered, “What&#8217;s  with the Old Testament anyway?”</p>
<p>In the middle of the 2nd century A.D. there was a break off movement in the church called Marcionism which entirely rejected the Old Testament. They claimed it was not the same God and they chose to only accept the New Testament.</p>
<p>For this, and probably many other reasons, they don&#8217;t exist anymore, but the questions they had are still questions we have today. By the way, there&#8217;s absolutely nothing wrong with having questions.</p>
<p>True,  the Old Testament is not the quintessential picture of God’s love, mercy and grace we see in the New Testament. But, the truth is this has much more to do with our definition of love than with God having some kind of conflicted nature.</p>
<p>In the Old Testament, we see a God of wrath, justice, anger, vengeance and severe consequences. But, do not miss the mercy hidden in these stories as well. God’s justice is never flippant, it is never baseless, it is always a waited for, endured, prolonged and delayed sentence passed upon individuals or peoples who have willfully defied, repeatedly, the Word/instruction of the Lord.</p>
<p>The prophets screamed, “Turn, run… or else!” These were warning shots fired by God again and again.</p>
<p>Then we read of God’s acts of justified justice and are confused, shocked and feel betrayed.</p>
<p>Why?</p>
<p>As parents, we have standards for children. We provide them with expectations and responsibilities. We warn them that continued disobedience will have consequences in two forms.</p>
<p>First, the natural process of their disobedience will bring its own heartache. We warn them the results of touching a hot pan will be a burn… consequences.</p>
<p>Second, we ensure them that continued neglect of our word will eventually bring punishment… consequences.</p>
<p>Why?</p>
<p>Because we know them, love them and know more than they do!</p>
<p>Disobedience requires correction. Anything less and we are unloving, weak-willed parents who care more about personal peace than correction. We become people who want our kids to be our friends more than wanting to create/forge strong adults. We become parents who give in to children allowing them to wander where they want, whine until they are catered to, and allowed to do what is right to their own eyes… not because of our love for them, but because&#8230; it’s easier.</p>
<p>Hmmmm&#8230;</p>
<p>Maybe we have trouble with a tough, disciplinarian of the Old Testament because we want Him to be the kind of parent we are.</p>
<ul>
<li>The thought of punishing wrong… no, no, it’ll just push them away.</li>
<li>The thought of setting difficult standards… no, no, they will scream about that.</li>
<li>The thought of loving our kids so much we’d say no, and mean it… heaven forbid, we might crush their spirits.</li>
</ul>
<blockquote><p>Psalm 51:8 Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones that you have broken rejoice.</p></blockquote>
<p>The God of the Old Testament and the God of the New Testament are the same. But, we often have to find the mercy of God in between the lines of the Old Testament.</p>
<blockquote><p>Genesis 15:13 Then the Lord said to Abram, “Know for certain that your offspring will be sojourners in a land that is not theirs and will be servants there, and they will be afflicted for four hundred years. 14 But I will bring judgment on the nation that they serve, and afterward they shall come out with great possessions. 15 As for you, you shall go to your fathers in peace; you shall be buried in a good old age. 16 And they shall come back here in the fourth generation, <em>for the iniquity of the Amorites is not yet complete</em>.”</p></blockquote>
<p>The seemingly vicious nature of the Old Testament as “God’s people” rolled through the promised land was a response to 400+ years of God meeting with and waiting for a rebellious and pagan people to respond to Him. God refused to  give Abraham what he had promised simply because he was preoccupied with mercy for the Amorite people.</p>
<p>All the while, forcing His own children, the descendants of Abraham, to play a generational waiting game in slavery in Egypt.</p>
<p>Why did God the latest promise for the chosen Hebrew people? Because God was not done displaying His mercy toward the Amorites!</p>
<p>Yet it is difficult for us when reading the Old Testament because all we can see is the sever and graphic punishment, but don&#8217;t miss the centuries of mercy!</p>
<p>Still, this mercy is so much clearer in the New Testament. Why is it so easy to see, picture and perceive this grace in the Gospels and beyond?</p>
<p>In a word- Jesus!</p>
<p>In the New Testament, the wrath of God was satisfied, and justice meted out, His anger diffused by pouring it all out on the innocent and the only One capable of bearing, surviving and overcoming the weight of punishment of all time for all the sins of all the people in the world&#8230; Jesus.</p>
<blockquote><p>Romans 3:23 For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God’s glorious standard. 24 Yet God, with undeserved kindness, declares that we are righteous. He did this through Christ Jesus when he freed us from the penalty for our sins. 25 For God presented Jesus as the sacrifice for sin. People are made right with God when they believe that Jesus sacrificed his life, shedding his blood. This sacrifice shows that God was being fair when he held back and did not punish those who sinned in times past.</p></blockquote>
<p>It’s all about our sin.</p>
<p>God’s anger, severe actions and Old Testament fury are because of and entirely in response to our rebellion, neglect and sin. These completely just attributes of God are seen with crystal clarity in the Old Testament because they are chronologically prior to Jesus, the cross, the grave and the resurrection.   Also, the coming of the Holy Spirit which enables us to see with more Godly eyes does not happen until after the resurrection of Jesus Himself.</p>
<p>Grace, mercy and love are in high def in the New Testament era because Christ has become the spiritual shock absorber soaking up all the wrath and judgment of the world while on the cross, taking our punishment to the grave.</p>
<p>The resurrection is proof we can find protection, forgiveness and hope in Jesus!</p>
<p>The name of Jesus splits the Old Testament from the New Testament, and proves that there is one God in both halves of this book.</p>
<p>Without the prophecies and the messianic waiting of an Old Testament, there would be no credibility to the claims of One called Savior in a New Testament.  And, without a New Testament Savior there would be no fulfillment of Old Testament hopes and it’s worth would be devastated.</p>
<p>Jesus splits the Testaments and ties them together at the same time.</p>
<p>He portrays a God who is just yet loving, strict yet forgiving, a disciplining father and a loving “Abba” daddy.</p>
<p>There is an Old and New Testament, but only one Word.</p>
<p>There is a righteous Judge and a loving Father, but only one God.</p>
<p>There is an uncreated Creator and incarnate baby Savior, but only one Jesus.</p>
<p>Pause.</p>
<p>Believe.</p>
<p>Follow.</p>
<p>It’s more about Jesus than you think.</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[G.K. Beale has said, “Whatever your heart clings to or relies on for ultimate security is your object of worship.”

Most of my fellow churchgoers would not argue with this definition of worship. In fact, I have personally defined worship as anything that captures your attentions and affections.

What strikes me most though is the verb “clings” used by Beale. In my mind I can picture myself latching onto the thought of having a girlfriend in the 7th grade… I knew what I was worshiping.

I can vividly recall my almost sociopathic pursuit of great grades and accolades through high school… bowing low at the altar of achievement.

There's no denying the idolatry of my early 20s when, even in ministry, I was worried about who I knew and who knew me… in the cult of personality.

I could go on and on, but the examples from the latter half of my life are still a bit too fresh. Actually they're still open wounds. <a class="read-excerpt" href="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/index.php/2012/01/13/pardon-me-lord-may-i-have-this-seat/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#187;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>G.K. Beale has said,<strong> “Whatever your heart clings to or relies on for ultimate security is your object of worship.”</strong></p>
<p>Most of my fellow churchgoers would not argue with this definition of worship. In fact, I have personally defined worship as anything that captures your attentions and affections.</p>
<p>What strikes me most though is the verb “clings” used by Beale. In my mind I can picture myself latching onto the thought of having a girlfriend in the 7th grade… I knew what I was worshiping.</p>
<p>I can vividly recall my almost sociopathic pursuit of great grades and accolades through high school… bowing low at the altar of achievement.</p>
<p>There&#8217;s no denying the idolatry of my early 20s when, even in ministry, I was worried about</p>
<p><span id="more-1452"></span></p>
<p>who I knew and who knew me… in the cult of personality.</p>
<p>I could go on and on, but the examples from the latter half of my life are still a bit too fresh. Actually they&#8217;re still open wounds.</p>
<p>I think the reason the first commandment is to have no other gods before Him and the second is to have no idols or graven images is obvious. Humans have a horrible tendency to replace God with anything convenient.</p>
<p>Again, Beale&#8217;s definition screams out at me with that word “cling.”</p>
<p>Let me paint a picture of the mental visual this quote created in my mind and see if you don&#8217;t have the same concerns.</p>
<p>I can imagine myself praying passionately, continually and powerfully to a holy God for something as noble and pure as the health of my children. But, moving past the veneer of my prayer I realized that the purpose powering my prayer is not my zeal for God. In fact my prayer is fueled by my idolatry… my family.</p>
<p>I turned to God not because He is what I worship, but because I hope He can help protect what I am worshiping. I often get caught in cycles of pseudo-spirituality where I am praying to God and feeling like I&#8217;m where I should be, but all the while I&#8217;m just trying to use God to further my agenda, protect my interests, and serve my idolatrous lord.</p>
<p>I know these are pretty tough words, but if this happens in our lives it&#8217;s a sin that needs to be rooted out viciously.</p>
<p>Don&#8217;t get me wrong, we should be people of prayer taking every concern to Him.</p>
<p>Praying for your family. Praying for health. Praying for blessing. But, when my purpose and focus is anything other than Him and His glory, I am simply trying to use God for my own purposes.</p>
<p>Again, we should pray for our children, for health, for blessing, for any and everything. Simultaneously though, we must continue to monitor what we are truly “clinging” to, and make sure that it is God alone on the throne.</p>
<p>Maybe this is a spiritual heat check for you, or maybe it&#8217;s just confession for me. Either way, may God be what He deserves to be in both your life and mine: Lord of all.</p>
<blockquote><p><strong>5</strong>Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus,<strong>1</strong> <strong>6 </strong>who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, <strong>7 </strong>but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. <strong>8 </strong>And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. <strong>9 </strong>Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, <strong>10 </strong>so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, <strong>11 </strong>and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.</p>
<p>(Philippians 2:5-11 ESV)</p></blockquote>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 09 Jan 2012 18:01:31 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Have you ever been stopped in your tracks by an incredible moon rise, or moon set?

You know, one of those moments when your breath is taken away by the hugeness of the moon hanging low in the sky. You may have even thought, or said something like, "The moon is huge tonight!"

You might find it disturbing to know that your eyes are playing tricks on you. It's still a beautiful moon and totally worthy of your pause and admiration of its Creator, but just so that you know... you're wrong.

Wow, quit being so sensitive. I'm just trying to teach you something.

The truth is that what you see when the moon is "so big" is really an optical illusion in fact, the moon is always the same size in the sky. <a class="read-excerpt" href="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/index.php/2012/01/09/the-biggest-moon-ever/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#187;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Have you ever been stopped in your tracks by an incredible moon rise, or moon set?</p>
<p>You know, one of those moments when your breath is taken away by the hugeness of the moon hanging low in the sky. You may have even thought, or said something like, &#8220;The moon is huge tonight!&#8221;</p>
<p>You might find it disturbing to know that your eyes are playing tricks on you. It&#8217;s still a beautiful moon and totally worthy of your pause and admiration of its Creator, but just so that you know&#8230; you&#8217;re wrong.</p>
<p>Wow, quit being so sensitive. I&#8217;m just trying to teach you something.</p>
<p>The truth is that what you see when the moon is &#8220;so big&#8221; is really an optical illusion in fact, the moon is always the same size in the sky. Let me give you a few <span id="more-1450"></span>sources:</p>
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<p style="text-align: right;">&#8220;First of all, let me make it clear that the effect is an optical illusion. If you measure the moon with a ruler held at arm&#8217;s length (a paper clip bent into the shape of a calipers will also work), you&#8217;ll find it&#8217;s always the same size no matter where it happens to be in the sky. If anything, the moon is slightly smaller at the horizon than it is at the zenith, mainly because it&#8217;s 4,000 miles (the radius of the earth) farther away.&#8221;<br />
<em>http://www.straightdope.com/columns/read/831/why-does-the-moon-appear-bigger-near-the-horizon</em></p>
<p style="text-align: right;">The Moon illusion is an optical illusion in which the Moon appears larger near the horizon than it does while higher up in the sky. This optical illusion also occurs with the sun and star constellations. It has been known since ancient times, and recorded by numerous different cultures. The explanation of this illusion is still debated.<br />
<em>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Moon_illusion</em></p>
<p style="text-align: right;">Sometimes you can&#8217;t believe your eyes. This week is one of those times.<br />
Step outside any evening at sunset and look around. You&#8217;ll see a giant moon rising in the east. It looks like Earth&#8217;s moon, round and cratered; the Man in the Moon is in his usual place. But something&#8217;s wrong. This full moon is strangely inflated. It&#8217;s huge!<br />
You&#8217;ve just experienced the Moon Illusion.<br />
<em>http://science.nasa.gov/science-news/science-at-nasa/2005/20jun_moonillusion/</em></p>
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<p>For you skeptics, just make sure you note the last one was from NASA.</p>
<p>While its not certain why the human eye/mind does this to us, all of us, it is for certain that we all fall prey to this illusion. While an optical illusion sounds benign, almost fun, there is a sinister side.</p>
<p>The Thesaurus shows several alternative ways to describe an illusion as an erroneous mental representation, semblance, phantasm, phantom, shadow, apparition, something existing in perception only, misconception, head game, delusion, deceit.</p>
<p>I don&#8217;t know about you, but I find it a little disturbing, if not irritating, that my own eyes deceive me. Still, it is a good reminder. There are so many things we trust, that just aren&#8217;t trustworthy: our senses, cable news, the Internet.</p>
<p>I know, you agree with two out of three on that list, but if you can&#8217;t trust your own senses what can you trust?</p>
<p>Good question&#8230;</p>
<ul>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I won&#8217;t believe it till I see it.</span></li>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Seeing is believing.</span></li>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I saw it with my own eyes.</span></li>
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<p>What a big moon we had last night, eh?</p>
<p>So, if our own senses can deceive us, how are we ever going to get this life figured out?</p>
<blockquote><p><em>Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart</em><br />
<em> and lean not on your own understanding;</em><br />
<em> 6 in all your ways submit to him,</em><br />
<em> and he will make your paths straight.</em></p></blockquote>
<p>Maybe it&#8217;s time we start following that which will not deceive or lead astray. Obviously, even our own senses aren&#8217;t doing a very good job at that.</p>
<p>As a man who is vexed with irrational fears and burdened with worries detached from reality, I know the struggle to not believe our eyes, let alone our mind&#8217;s eye. If we believe sin is real, then we must admit we are broken.</p>
<p>Without looking through the lens of the Lord we have no hope of seeing any better than a grade schooler straining to see the chalkboard through shattered spectacles.</p>
<p>So how do we see with His eyes?</p>
<p>When it comes to our relationships, let&#8217;s get into the Scripture.</p>
<p>When we have financial troubles, let&#8217;s ask the hard questions of how obedient we are with what we already have.</p>
<p>When we are confused, hurt, lost or in any need, let&#8217;s lean on the Lord and nothing else.</p>
<p>May we develop a new habit of turning to God for real understanding, and trusting Him even more than we trust ourselves, our senses, or very often even our own mind.</p>
<p>Don&#8217;t fall for the tricks of the eye.</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[I heard a phrase last week that I haven&#8217;t heard in a long while&#8230; think tank. I know that if you&#8217;re invited to be part of a think tank it is a compliment to your intelligence, experience or abilities. But, personally, I can&#8217;t think of much else I&#8217;d rather not do. The thought of thinking &#8230; <a class="read-excerpt" href="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/index.php/2012/01/03/dont-kill-time-its-innocent/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#187;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I heard a phrase last week that I haven&#8217;t heard in a long while&#8230; think tank.</p>
<p>I know that if you&#8217;re invited to be part of a think tank it is a compliment to your intelligence, experience or abilities. But, personally, I can&#8217;t think of much else I&#8217;d rather not do.</p>
<p>The thought of thinking about thoughts while discussing other peoples thoughts on their thoughts and your thoughts&#8230; wow&#8230; I think I could find other things to do. Maybe like doing, er, anything.</p>
<p>Don&#8217;t get uptight, I know there are a very legitimate and real needs for a think posse, and they probably accomplish much more than you and I could ever really appreciate. But, it&#8217;s definitely not a job for me.</p>
<p>Processing, thinking, mulling over, contemplating are all necessary, but I&#8217;m more of a &#8220;let&#8217;s get on it&#8221; guy. In fact here&#8217;s a few of my favorite phrases:</p>
<ul>
<li>Just do it</li>
<li>Pull the trigger</li>
<li>Time to fish or cut bait</li>
<li>Get off the pot</li>
<li>Trial and error has begun!</li>
<li>It&#8217;s go time</li>
<li>Worth a shot</li>
<li>I&#8217;ll call you from the finish line</li>
</ul>
<p>If think tanks represent one end of the spectrum (over processing), I find myself just as frustrated with the other end of the spectrum where some ignore/deny the issue (under processing).</p>
<p>If you are prone to the latter, you probably have apps on your phone that are great &#8216;time killers.&#8217;</p>
<p>Why would you even want to do that?</p>
<p>Don&#8217;t kill your time, release your parental rights, I&#8217;ll adopt it.</p>
<p>Maybe I  start a foundation for unwanted time, or at least write a book: &#8220;A Convenient Truth: You have the time&#8221;</p>
<p>Think tanks <em>can</em> represent active avoidance and denial <em>can</em> represent passive avoidance. I just want to get rid of the &#8220;avoi,&#8221; let&#8217;s &#8220;dance.&#8221;</p>
<p>Again, if your a thinker and love to process, many blessings on you.</p>
<p>If you love to loligag and your favorite sport is dodgeball, feel the love.</p>
<p>But, personally I&#8217;m the guy who&#8217;s leg is bouncing under the table just waiting for someone to say, &#8220;Ok, let&#8217;s give it a shot.&#8221;</p>
<p>Even though I really appreciate action I have to admit, sometimes taking steps is difficult.</p>
<p>In the book of Revelation, John sees multiple visions of things to come and in one small instance he is asked to do something odd.</p>
<blockquote><p>Revelation 10:9 So I went to the angel and told him to give me the little scroll. And he said to me, “Take and eat it; it will make your stomach bitter, but in your mouth it will be sweet as honey.”</p></blockquote>
<p>While there are lots of possible applications for this verse related to John&#8217;s personal ministry, end times theology and all kinds of stuff I don&#8217;t understand (maybe I should start a think tank to figure it out), there is a simple, practical thought that blesses me.</p>
<p>Often it tastes good to learn something, but using it can be a foul experience.</p>
<p>Learning about the character of God in a Bible Study or worship experience is far from practicing the faith in real life. Making plans and dreaming about the future may be a sweet experience, but we feel the burn when the rubber hits the road.</p>
<p>Resolving to lose weight and workout, planning to get your budget under control, pledging to work out the relationship kinks are all fantastic thoughts. But, once you hit the gym, shut of the cable, and talk about/to the inlaws, things can start to leave a bitter taste in your mouth.</p>
<p>Still, this is what needs to happen.</p>
<p>Ideas are sweet, but application is good (but nasty) medicine.</p>
<p>So, whatever you have decided to do, do it. It will never get any easier and there will never be a better time.</p>
<p>The sweetness of the original idea may dissolve into some bitter disciplines, but have no fear.</p>
<p>Eat what&#8217;s on your plate. It&#8217;s good for you.</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[It was a first for me. It was gentle, it was loving, it was sweet pillow talk, but it was definitely my very first Christmas scolding. After a great night with my family filling our home, eating way too much (my wife can really rock the holiday turkey), and watching the kids tear into the &#8230; <a class="read-excerpt" href="http://www.crosseyedlife.com/index.php/2011/12/22/my-christmas-list/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#187;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>It was a first for me. It was gentle, it was loving, it was sweet pillow talk, but it was definitely my very first Christmas scolding.</p>
<p>After a great night with my family filling our home, eating way too much (my wife can really rock the holiday turkey), and watching the kids tear into the presents, we collapsed into bed. That&#8217;s when the loving reprimand came my way.</p>
<p><em>“You haven&#8217;t told me anything you want for Christmas,”</em> she said.</p>
<p><em>“I told you I wanted a harmonica,”</em> I responded.</p>
<p>It&#8217;s at this point I can&#8217;t blog what happened next, I can&#8217;t even really describe it in person, but let&#8217;s just say my wife has learned to roll her eyes even when they&#8217;re closed.</p>
<p>It&#8217;s pretty impressive.</p>
<p>The problem is, she&#8217;s totally right. I have racked my brain trying to answer her question for weeks. There is just nothing that I want, let alone need, that I could put <span id="more-1437"></span>on the Christmas list.</p>
<p>I have to admit it puts someone in an awkward position during the giftgiving season, but every time I try, I just come up empty.</p>
<p>So, before I drifted off to sleep last night, I was thinking about our discussion and I remember that song so popular during the season “My Grown-up Christmas List.”</p>
<blockquote><p> Do you remember me</p>
<p>I sat upon your knee</p>
<p>I wrote to you</p>
<p>With childhood fantasies</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>Well, I&#8217;m all grown up now</p>
<p>And still need help somehow</p>
<p>I&#8217;m not a child</p>
<p>But my heart still can dream</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>So here&#8217;s my lifelong wish</p>
<p>My grown up christmas list</p>
<p>Not for myself</p>
<p>But for a world in need</p></blockquote>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>I guess I do have a Christmas list…</p>
<ul>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I want children to act like children. Every day the news is filled with stories of bullying, hazing and hurting. Teachers are powerless and the administration is overwhelmed because of funding needs and crazy regulations. And the children pouring into the system are being raised on a diet of monstrously violent video games, sexually explicit reality shows and disrespectful self-indulgent music. I want homes that shelter, schools that build up, churches that lead and friends that love. I want the innocence of our kids back.</span></li>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I want husbands and wives to start acting like husbands and wives. To realize that the vows they took were meant to solidify their commitment to selfless acts of love toward the other, and not a contractual obligation you could hold over your spouse. I want husbands and wives to try harder. I want them to love as a choice and not as an emotion. I want them to build a home, not a future.</span></li>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I want the church to start fighting the enemy, and not itself. I am worn out on petty bickering, name-calling and pointing. One church looks at another and paints them into a corner without ever really knowing what the other believers across town are all about. Assumptions, jealousies and stupidity lead one congregation to expend the majority of its energy tearing down another. There is an enemy, and we are an army. I wish we&#8217;d fight on the same side.</span></li>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I want to punch poverty in the eye. In my country we spend enough on ice cream and deodorant to provide food, clothing and shelter for almost everyone on the planet who doesn&#8217;t have it. I give up my dessert and be willing to stink, if 6000+ children didn&#8217;t die every day of starvation. I&#8217;m tired of solvable problems going unsolved because it&#8217;s inconvenient. I&#8217;d love to have less, so that those who have none might have some.</span></li>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I want government to just shut up for a little while. They talk, they debate, they argue and they philosophize… but when are they going to listen. I don&#8217;t mean that head nodding, visual affirmation that I&#8217;m with you and understand but all the while the politicians are just wanting you to be quiet so they can talk some more. I&#8217;d like my representatives, bare minimum, to at least represent what I believe, want and desire.</span></li>
<li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I want to bring love back. I don&#8217;t mean random acts of kindness, or evidence that you&#8217;re in my thoughts. I mean selfless, sacrificial, often anonymous and totally undeserved displays of what&#8217;s really going on in another&#8217;s heart. That we would give the benefit of the doubt to complete strangers. The road rage would turn into prayer. That our social cliques would be shattered. That our practice of passing judgment would drown in a pool of tears for and with others. That we would instinctively, inherently and passionately give of our resources, our time and our very selves just because it&#8217;s the right thing to do. And, we couldn&#8217;t stop ourselves because we are so in love with those who need love.</span></li>
</ul>
<p>Wow, I guess I&#8217;m a bit more needy than I thought. Somewhere in the back of my mind I must have believed that not having anything on the Christmas list was honorable and proved I wasn&#8217;t greedy.</p>
<p>But, there it is. I have a list.</p>
<p>Sorry Kathy. I know this doesn&#8217;t really help your Christmas shopping, but thanks for reminding me there really are some things I want for Christmas.</p>
<p>So, for all who read this, I must admit that our world and its needs seem a bit overwhelming. There is no denying that.</p>
<p>Still, as a man of faith, I believe that the God of the universe has always used individual lives to change the course of humanity. One man or woman living selflessly for others under the direct instruction of God can change the world: Moses, King David, the apostle Paul, Mary…</p>
<p>Even as daunting as this Christmas list may sound, I need to remember (and you need to remember) what God said through an angelic voice to that teenage girl from a nowhere town who gave birth to the God of all creation:</p>
<blockquote><p>“For nothing will be impossible with God.” Luke 1:37</p></blockquote>
<p>By the way, if you&#8217;re reading this Kathy, I just remembered my Starbucks card ran out…there&#8217;s an idea? Merry Christmas!</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[Twas the night before Christmas and the service begun

     The church was all decked out, for holiday fun!

Church members were nestled all snug in their pew

     With wreaths and lights and poinsettias in view

 

The auditorium was warm to instill Christmas cheer

     And singers were ready with carols near and dear

Then up at the front with sermon notes handy

     A Christmas message, for sure, from old Pastor Andy

 

The music was great and the message...okay

     But everyone’s thoughts were for the breaking of day

For morning would come with presents and joy

     Mom getting clothes and Dad, of course, toys

 

When out on the parking lot there arose such a clatter

     We sprang from our seats to see what’s the matter

Running out through the foyer and down the long hall

     We stood in the doorway to watch, one and all

 

A few feet away was a broken down car

     Dented and scratched, an eye-sore for sure

Then out stepped a man from this beat up ole caddy

     And three youngsters inside, they each called him “Daddy!”
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<p><em>T</em><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: normal;"><em>was the night before Christmas and the service begun</em></span></p>
<p><em>     The church was all decked out, for holiday fun!</em></p>
<p><em>Church members were nestled all snug in their pew</em></p>
<p><em>     With wreaths and lights and poinsettias in view</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>The auditorium was warm to instill Christmas cheer</em></p>
<p><em>     And singers were ready with carols near and dear</em></p>
<p><em>Then up at the front with sermon notes handy</em></p>
<p><em>     A Christmas message, for sure, from old Pastor Andy</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>The music was great and the message&#8230;okay</em></p>
<p><em>     But everyone’s thoughts were for the breaking of day</em></p>
<p><em>For morning would come with presents and joy</em></p>
<p><em>     Mom getting clothes and Dad, of course, toys</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>When out on the parking lot there arose such a clatter</em></p>
<p><em>     We sprang from our seats to see what’s the matter</em></p>
<p><em>Running out through the foyer and down the long hall</em></p>
<p><em>     We stood in the doorway to watch, one and all</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>A few feet away was a broken down car</em></p>
<p><em>     Dented and scratched, an eye-sore for sure</em></p>
<p><em>Then out stepped a man from this beat up ole caddy</em></p>
<p><em>     And three youngsters inside, they each called him “Daddy!”<span id="more-1428"></span></em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>The little old driver was lively and quick</em></p>
<p><em>     Worked fast on the engine and gave it a kick</em></p>
<p><em>You might think he cursed if you did not listen close</em></p>
<p><em>     But, sitting on the bumper, a real prayer he spoke</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>“For TASHA, and SHELLY, for LISA and I</em></p>
<p><em>     God, we don’t ask for much, just to get by</em></p>
<p><em>We’ve nowhere to go and no presents to share</em></p>
<p><em>     But we need this old car to get out of cold air</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>“Their mother has left us, and I’ve made some mistakes</em></p>
<p><em>     But, I love them so much it makes my heart ache</em></p>
<p><em>I can’t give them a thing except a night on the road</em></p>
<p><em>     There’s no Christmas for them, just darkness and cold</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>“So please hear me God, I feel so alone</em></p>
<p><em>     I don’t have a future, I don’t have a home</em></p>
<p><em>I just need for you to make my car start</em></p>
<p><em>     And maybe some help for the pain in my heart”</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,</em></p>
<p><em>     Rubbed dirt off his hands; shut the hood with a jerk</em></p>
<p><em>And laying his finger aside of his nose,</em></p>
<p><em>     He wiped off a tear, and down the street he drove</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>Quiet and shocked we retreated inside</em></p>
<p><em>     To our tinsel and greens and soft candlelight</em></p>
<p><em>And the words of a carol seemed to ring out just then</em></p>
<p><em>     Saying “Peace on earth, and joy to ALL men”</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>We looked at each other with confusion of heart</em></p>
<p><em>     Our Christmas experience now saddened in part</em></p>
<p><em>By a man and his girls on a cold Christmas night</em></p>
<p><em>     With miles before them and no end in site</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>Christmas should be about praise and thanksgiving</em></p>
<p><em>     Not “How in the world can I make a living?”</em></p>
<p><em>But, those near our churches will miss Christmas this year</em></p>
<p><em>     Unless we all tell them the Reason for cheer</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>Out past the front door and beyond these four walls</em></p>
<p><em>     The message must go with a very loud call</em></p>
<p><em>“For those lost in sin your Saviour is near”</em></p>
<p><em>     We must show the World&#8230;King Jesus is here!!!</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>With words of love, acceptance and grace</em></p>
<p><em>     And a helping hand to finish the race</em></p>
<p><em>Loving the world with our words and our deeds</em></p>
<p><em>     We prove Christmas love by meeting their needs</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><em>Go tell it on the mountain</em></p>
<p><em>     Over the hills and everywhere</em></p>
<p><em>Go tell it on the mountain</em></p>
<p><em>     That Jesus Christ is born!</em></p>
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<p><em>Psalm 38:15 &#8220;But for you, O Lord, do I wait; it is you, O Lord my God, who will answer.&#8221;</em></p>
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