The Lightspeakers

Time Imagined

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 11:27:00 +0000

It's been awhile since I've posted anything here. I've resisted it because of imagined time constraints. All constraints of time are imagined if you think about it. We imagine time itself and then we imagine there isn't enough of this stuff we've imagined in the first place.

It's all a wonderful fabrication offering us a logical excuse for not doing something we don't want to do without having to examine the real reasons why we don't want to do it.

In my case I realized my formerly unexamined reasons were things like: "Will my writing today be relevant and valuable to others? Will what I say be perceived well"? Then there's the vulnerability issue. "Will I unwittingly open myself up as a window to the world, feel as though I'm living in a glass house"?
There are more reasons, but you get the idea.

Yet when I don't blog for more than a week I get this nagging sensation, irritating and distracting. So I've decided that instead of putting myself under the pressure of writing something each time of a certain length, dimension or import, I'll just jot down a few thoughts for that day. Sometimes that may show up as a sentence, a paragraph or more. Sometimes it may be relevant to some- or none. Sometimes it may be seen as valuable to some - or none.

The important part is that it's relevant and valuable to me to simply be in this fluid process of writing. and it's okay if it's just for me, a gift to myself because as the hair commercial says"I'm worth it". And if as a result it's relevant or valuable to you in some small way, that would be really good.

So here's my thought today: contributing for the sake of others is commendable. Contributing because it's who you are is authentic. I vote for authentic, it's not dependent on other's receptivity.

The Presence of Peace

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 20:53:00 +0000

Freedom of time, to find the presence of peace, a freedom not within my current reach

Time to sit in the stillness, to remember, to appreciate all that is, and perhaps all that is not

The chaos persists just the same, despite the willingness to learn to shift, to change

Small apexes open up and the elusive seems within my grasp, there it is, a space, a moment of peace,

Then it slips away into an unknown place waiting for me to play hide and seek, to find It again

It always returns but I beg it to never leave, to stay with me to be fully present always

The awareness place of peace is what I’m learning

Being the presence of that peace within whatever chaos is present in the moment

I’m challenged by the difficulty, yet persist nonetheless, perhaps persistence is pointless

And I merely need to open, to accept, to embrace what I now pursue
I wonder if I had more freedom of time, would peace be more present?

Or is it my gift that I do not, so that I must reach for it within the constraints at hand

Dance with it outside of time, breathe it in each moment

The 5th Eye; Seeing into the 5th dimension

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 18:24:00 +0000

As many of you know, I facilitated a Summer Solstice Gateway ceremony bringing in the Ascension energies of self-love recently. Several of those who took part in the Ceremony long distance have asked about the mention of the presence of Archangel Tzapkiel.

Archangel Tzapkiel is not generally well-known except to those with a knowledge of the Kaballah where he plays a significant role. In a metaphysical context Tzapkiel contains most of those traits for which he is known in the Hebrew text but is also associated with the third eye as we move into the 5th dimensional frequency. We are already many of us straddling both 3rd and 4th dimensional comprehension. The Ascension or Shift as it is also called brings us more predominately into the 5th.

The sixth chakra known as the third eye at the vibrational frequency of the 5th dimension becomes known as the 5th eye as higher psychic abilities become prevalent. The third eye is associated with the pineal gland, which for most of us is inactive or underactive, after puberty. This is also changing as we shift and the pineal takes on a more active role facilitating the increased abilities just mentioned.

Some of the other glands of the body have already been undergoing changes. Many of those who have opened as channels have undergone thyroid problems over the last decade. I myself had my thyroid removed due to illness not too long before I began channeling. This is not to imply that we have to lose our body parts to move into higher awareness, many do not share my experience, I mention it only to illustrate that our physical as well as subtle bodies are going through remarkable transitions. We are evolving humans moving to a higher level of experience though still in the physical. Evolution has not been completed, it continues as we move into becoming beings of light. The pituitary, thyroid, thymus and hypothalamus glands are all affected by spiritual development and the quotient of light present in our energy bodies. All the clairvoyant abilities which are natural though dormant for many will become fully functional.

The third eye or 5th eye as it functions at the 5th dimensional level allows for a much higher degree of perception which extends to a higher level of communication. We are moving toward a Unity never before seen on this planet, higher perception and communication will establish and maintain such Unity. A Unity in which each of us desires for another what we desire for ourselves, a time in which we will return to know community in a richer more loving evolved way that brings us to a true understanding that All are One.

"Story Of A Memory"

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Fri, 15 May 2009 14:07:00 +0000

Straight to the memory. There had always been that one memory stuck on replay in the back of my head. I hadn't listened to it much in recent years because it was always the same. It never went anywhere, it always went blank at a certain point. It seemed nothing more was there, until, a few days ago when the feelings came and then more memories, tiny tidbits of memory, a bit disjointed,but feeling nonetheless very real.

To say I was surprised, shocked even, doesn't quite describe the experience, I remember thinking, why now, why if it happened would I remember it now? I had been through a lot of therapy years ago, the question was asked and answered many times, the answer had always been no....now it was yes.

But could I trust it? Was I making it up? I asked for confirmation and was told to go to the computer and look up the name. If he was deceased I would know. I found the name listed in an online publication, it took awhile but there at the bottom was the name, marked deceased. It took my breath away. Literally for a few moments it was difficult to breathe, as much for the fact that he was gone as anything else. I had loved him. Old enough to have been my young father, I was raised with him being an older brother in my life. Taking the place of one I'd never had and the father I had never known.

Once adoring of me as I grew older he distanced himself more and more until finally he cut me out of his life completely years ago. I had never stopped loving him, even with the other more clear memory of his lashing out at me physically, knocking me to the ground when I was 14. Even though he was never sorry, even though it had never made sense. Always feeling I had done something wrong, the suspicious looks my aunt always gave me. I never understood.

Now I knew, now I understood, suddenly it all made sense,there was some pain, but more than anything, there was relief, understanding. I wasn't ready to know till he was gone. I know he reached out to me after he was gone, to let me know, to settle it, to bring me to resolution, to a peace that would allow me to heal.

Reality & Perception

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Thu, 14 May 2009 20:07:00 +0000

Isn't it funny that things that seem so real to us are merely perceptions. My perceptions are sometimes soul searing, stories made up in my head that provide fodder for much searching, seeking, praying, crying.

My perceptions when not aligned with my inner knowing can be quite faulty. When allowed free reign they dart about in all directions. My inner knowing provides the compass, a direction to follow, a path to walk.
Yet frequently I disallow my inner voice, I tune it out and succumb to the directionless frey of my momentary perception. It's easier at times to give in to familiar feelings from childhood, the resignation of an earlier adjustment/survival mechanism within.

Were those "then" perceptions themselves faulty? I think not, though I would prefer they were. The false perception then was that she/he/they were normal and I the child crazy. How could they be wrong, the gods of my childhood? They decreed the law which must be followed. The law must be correct, my perceptions flawed. My inner voice was effectively smothered for a time.

So here I am, wondering what is true and false about my perceptions. My inner voice is telling me now that the best course of action may be to allow only those perceptions that bring peace, those that advocate for forgiveness today. So I come full circle to choosing those perceptions that light up the dark spaces. The searching ends, for now. The crying stops, the prayers continue.

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Thu, 16 Apr 2009 16:26:00 +0000

I'm going through this hibernation thing lately, it's happened before but this seems longer. Wondering if I'll ever come out of it. Re-asessing so much of myself and my life, seeing so many dark places within myself that I want to change, especially judgments which I'm so prone to. I wish I could just uproot it like a weed, just yank it out of myself in one tremendous effort, but mine must be more like a tree than a weed because I keep pulling and the roots come loose but it's not yet completely unearthed.

Know that this aloneness time is a preparation of sorts for something else to comem as it has been in the past, some sort of upgrade. I've asked before that it become more comfortable when it happens and it has. No depression with it this time, a foundation of trust and joy mostly in place, sprinkled with the ongoing self-doubt and a lot of impatience wanting to move through it.
Feeling strongly the polarities within me fighting with one another. One part saying, time is being wasted, get out there and "do", the other saying "be", stay the course, rest in the place where you are in trust.

Confusing stuff, have I completely lost you here....make any sense at all? Is this too weird for a blog post? It feels almost too close to my core to reveal it to the world but wondering if I need to be more self-revealing as part of the process. It was originally an email to a friend who encouraged me to go ahead and put it out there.

So here it is, allow the dark places be what they are I say, maybe they're not dark at all, just the hallway we walk till we open the next door to a room flooded with light.

Walking........Christie

Spiritual Puzzles

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Thu, 16 Apr 2009 14:05:00 +0000

Sometimes I’m a bit overwhelmed at all the spiritual/metaphysical offerings out there, too many to imagine, many diverse approaches. I wonder what it all really means, the big picture. Are all these teachers, offering truth? Are they/we all authentic? How is it possible if there are so many versions? Is it all a meaningless morass of monetary megalomania, or is it magnificence? Have you ever wondered?

Obviously, I have and here’s what I’ve come up with. Millions of puzzle pieces comprising millions of individual puzzles all contributing to one vast universal picture. Each of us is seeking those pieces that fit our particular puzzle. We each find our puzzle pieces in our own way at our own time as we sort through them and piece them together. The multiplicity of services and modalities out there are all valuable. They all offer pieces of someone’s puzzle, some fit yours, others fit mine.

What if the puzzle piece/service offered is motivated strictly by greed. I believe this occurs less frequently than most imagine, but can this hold any value? It does because somewhere some person is desperately seeking an answer, their puzzle piece may have strange origins but if it fits their puzzle it works for them. They’ve found an answer, a need was met, hope fulfilled, confirmation found, sustenance supplied...... or not. Maybe they needed the experience of a sham to learn the nuances of trust or some other related lesson, they gained some value. Certainly I don’t promote spiritual scamming or greed, I’ve been outraged by it, but then, that was only my perception, my own judgment of a process I may not fully understand.

Then there are those in greater multiplicity who do stand steadfast in truth and authentically contribute their version of it in service. Multitudes are assisted and served as a result. All the versions, all the pieces are valuable, each to someone searching for their particular piece of their puzzle. All the puzzles fit together to form a vast picture, network of good. A grand puzzle of a beneficent Universe in which each is called to offer what is theirs to contribute, receive what is theirs to learn. I’m reminded of the saying from a few years ago, “It’s all good”. And so it is!

Holy Beings

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 22:17:00 +0000

We've all dealt with pain but there's really no adequate means of measuring it. It's an individual experience, though generally certain events are considered more painful.
Because pain is so uncomfortable and
Because it causes many unpleasant repercussions in our lives, our desire to decrease or eliminate it is understandable. In fact, for some of us, the desire to keep pain at bay causes us to retreat from living our lives fully. Or our inability to shed our pain often leads us to pass it on to others in a mindless exchange of pain participation.

When I first realized that carrying my past pain with its accompanying bitterness and resentment, was actually causing me to draw more of it to me, I was stunned. The Law of Attraction it seems works both ways.

I wish I could say the mere realization of this immediately changed everything, that in one awestruck lightening filled moment I was healed of my need to carry past pain and pass it along. Truthfully, that wasn't the fact.

Transforming pain is a process but I have made significant progress and that progress has made life a much richer experience for me. As we honor ourselves and our lives as sacred, we may wish to remember to also honor others experience of pain, though not the pain itself. Some experiences that cause one individual pain may not be the cause of pain for another. Sometimes we may judge another's pain as insignificant so we don't offer a supportive spirit to those whose pain we may feel is trifling compared with our own.

I'm reminding myself here as I remind you, that pain whatever the source, is a deep and difficult experience. Many times in order for us to move through and out of the pain process we really need to know that not our pain itself but our experience of it is validated.

Let's remember to join together in doing this for one another as part of honoring ourselves and others as Holy Beings.

I honor you.....Christie
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Identity Crisis

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 11:47:00 +0000

Ever wonder who you really are? Having trouble with self-identity? Here's a clue, it's not your job title, who you are married to, or not. Your car, or your house, your kids or your achievements.

It's the unencumbered soul who showed up within that tiny baby before the first candle was placed on the birthday cake. The authentic one, the one that cried when it was hurt, the one that reached out it's hands expecting it's needs to be met, expecting love....being love.

Yes, even believing it was the center of the Universe, because this soul understood that it was the Universe. An integral part of everything, no separation, part of the All That Is - One With God.
There was no identity crisis. This is who you were....this is who you are.

You know who you are.....Christie

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Power&Possibility

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 12:23:00 +0000

There is power and possibility in everything that comes to us, in every experience and situation if we allow ourselves to connect with the inner awareness that is aligned with higher consciousness. We don’t need to strain to find the deeper wisdom within our experience. By acknowledging our own power and allowing for the multitude of possibilities for good inherent in every experience, this deeper wisdom is revealed to us.

Simply by allowing for such alignment, our awareness button is pushed to the “on” position. That awareness may not be conscious in each moment but can be recalled at will whenever we need it, so that we know that we know. Our direction becomes clear.
Aligned with higher light -filled resources in this way, we can utilize the intellect much more effectively. Our intellect is not the source, but the tool used to apply knowledge and wisdom in our lives.

Regardless of the breadth of our information or our IQ quotient, we cannot realistically ascertain the outcome of every situation based upon an unlimited amount of possible choices we could make. Applying strict logic is, well…..illogical. We can’t possibly make the best choices based upon human understanding alone.

We can trust that our understanding in unison with connection to higher awareness will always offer us the knowledge of the best opportunity or choice at the time. This may be further refined in the flow of future events but it will be the possibility best designed to offer us further unfolding options. This is where our power lies.

Realizing that we have an undeniable source of inspired wisdom, we can implement our life choices with confidence and trust. We understand that we can tweak those choices with ease as new possibilities arise that reflect our continuing growth because we haven’t painted ourselves in a corner of logic.

Many possibilities don’t present themselves logically yet those seized by some have become the source of power for many. Power and possibility lie dormant in each moment of our lives, outside of time or perceived limitation. Through our willingness to connect with something grander, we live the greatest lives possible.

Living in possibility..........Christie
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Dating As A Means Of Spiritual Evolvement

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 11:37:00 +0000

Dating is an amazing tool for spiritual involvement. I had an interesting example of this Saturday evening. I had been out with this person once before, it was our second date. I had an uncomfortable rumbling in my solar plexus earlier Saturday afternoon which is never a good sign. I began to think of possible excuses not to go. I consulted The Lightspeakers, they said......"Go and learn", not what I wanted to hear. The second and third time I asked the reply was the same, they just took it up a notch in authoritative voice each time.

So I went...and I learned. I met this man through an online dating service....don't gasp....it's totally acceptable now.....well mostly. Anyway, I thought I was dating a businessman who lived in a suburb. I'm a business woman living in the suburbs. I have in the past tried to be a suburban woman living in the country, it didn't work out, neither did the marriage to the country boy.

So we're on our second date and this business man with several advanced degrees who has been unemployed for two years unable to find a job, begins to relate his goals for the future.
He would like to find a job, work very hard for a few yrs. and scrimp and save to buy some land and own a small farm with pigs and chickens, maybe even some cows...and a vineyard. He will then begin to grow and manufacture wine, and no, he has no previous experience or knowledge of the wine business. I suddenly had visions of myself calling the pigs to feed.

I should mention that he stated he considered we were courting and that usually leads to marriage, so my aforementioned visions were not totally inappropriate. When asked why he decided upon this particular goal, he replied that Russel Crowe had played a character in a movie in which he did this and in that moment he just knew, that this was his vision....this man is 55 yrs. old.

When I indicated this would not be a goal I would share, he was quick to say that he hadn't had this one for too long and could easily revise it. What were some of my goals? At this point I have to say, that I really liked this individual as a person, he was truly a nice man and though I was becoming a bit disappointed in the direction our conversation was going, there might still be possibilities here.

A little while later he mentioned that his daughter was quite a deceptive individual, I asked in what I thought would be perceived as humor, which one of her parents she took after. He readily admitted, her father, and that he has always had trouble telling the truth. He was not endeavoring to be humorous with this revelation. But not to worry, he never lied about anything important. Oh yes,there was the time his wife of 35 years was upset with him when he led her to believe he hadn't smoked in six months when in truth he had only stopped for two weeks.

I pointed out that I stated in my profile that I don't date smokers and was unaware that he smoked, he had stated in his profile that he was a non-smoker. He replied that it wasn't really a lie, at the time he wrote it he had stopped smoking for ...you guessed it....two weeks.

Are you laughing yet?

So that night I asked my Angels what it was I was supposed to learn from the experience, the "Go and Learn" part had eluded me, I had wanted to back out because of unknown misgivings, the specific reasons why I had such misgivings were unimportant to me, I generally trust my guidance. Why had The Lightspeakers urged me not to cancel the date?

I awoke the next morning with the requested answer, here's what I learned based upon the premise that relationships are like mirrors.

Fear and Anxiety: I'm still holding a lot of fear and anxiety. He displayed lots of this but camouflaged it fairly well at first. Even though it's unconscious on my part most of the time or I think I've hidden it well....it's screaming loudly to others.

Guilt:I still hold a lot of guilt because I think I've done the wrong thing most of the time.

Blame: Blaming the Universe for those times I think I've done the right thing and not been rewarded for it. This shows up as whining. He expressed both these sentiments at different points in the conversation.

I should continue dating merely as a learning exercise because it clearly shows me where I am and it's cheaper than therapy.

Instead of becoming upset because I"m not meeting Mr. Right, I've realized each one I date is Mr. Right because they are reflecting to me what it is I need to get right about myself. How can that be wrong, it can only be right!

I bless Saturday's Mr. Right profusely and thank him for playing his part in my continuing spiritual evolution. I hope that in some way I contributed to his.

In light......Christie

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The Fountain Effect

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 18:46:00 +0000

If we approach our desires from a standpoint of lack, by forcing and clutching to grab our desires from outside of us. Believing we don’t have them within us, we invoke struggle. Struggle often doesn’t result in achieving our desired outcome. Coming from a position of lack causes us to look outside ourselves instead of within.

Our attitude and belief must be one of spreading, expanding, flowing from our inner reserves into the outer world, not trying to capture something we don’t have from out there, to bring it into us to fill up our reservoir. Like attracts like. A wise teacher once said that “to those who have, more will be given”. I found that very confusing for a long time. It came around again in a song “them that’s got shall have, them that’s not shall lose”, I still didn’t get it. What’s difficult for us to get about this is that we can’t see what’s already there within us. We don’t see the evidence of it in the physical so we assume it doesn’t yet exist. We want to see it first and believe it later.

I believe that one of the services that Angels provide is to remind us that “it’s all inside”. You don’t need to share my belief in Angels to believe this to be true. You can call it what you want, your inner voice, your intuition, whatever the term, there is that something that does prompt us, if we’re listening. They/It whisper that the attributes we desire in our lives are already there within us, waiting to flow outward. To be let loose to flow out into our lives and then back to us abundantly in much the same way a fountain operates.

This harkens back to the “being, doing, having” concept which is invaluable. I don’t know about you but I’ve spent a great portion of my life looking outside to acquire fulfillment of my desires. The “having” always seemed to dictate the “being”. The “having” was then achieved by the “doing”, according to the world's standards.

We can’t simply paste on a “being” in the way that children once dressed paper dolls. When we try to force a new self-image onto our personality this is exactly the same process. Pretending isn’t “being”, what’s missing here is the soul. The soul is the “being” aspect. It already contains what we desire, we don’t need to pretend. So the being aspect comes from our remembering our soul nature and emanating from that part of us. This isn’t pretending because the soul is always in connection with The Light and contains all the attributes of the Light.

Our soul already contains the love, wisdom, peace, power and prosperity we desire. This is where the flow originates. Then as it flows from this inner reserve out into the world, it returns to us showering us with all abundance.

Flowing abundance and love......Christie

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Going For The Jugular

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Wed, 11 Mar 2009 13:45:00 +0000

Psychic Vampire is a colorful phrase that really offers a clear visual of this experience. If you have not experienced an interaction of this kind, count yourself as fortunate. Most of us have however interacted with one, at one time or another. Even more alarming is the idea that we may actually have been the vampire in question unconsciously.

Psychic vampires suck energy from us whether or not they mean to at the time. Ah, the light dawns, (no pun intended) do you perhaps recognize an occasion or two where you may have indulged in this behavior? It's one of those things we never associate with ourselves when it comes up in conversation. It's naturally one of those "other" people who indulge in such behavior. You know, the ones on the far side of your recognition field with a big sign with letters scrawled in red identifying them clearly.

Unfortunately they are not often clearly distinguishable whether they be us or someone else. A psychic vampire can be anyone, a friend, lover, parent, child. Well, maybe not, we'll let most of the kids off the hook since we expect them to drain us dry, it's part of the job description as a parent that we signed on for. Though it's possible for a parent to display vampirish tendencies, it's much more frequently found among friends and lovers.

Then there is the case of those psychic vampires that actually do consciously mean us harm. I'm not speaking gypsy curses here, though I won't rule out the possibility of it's attempt by some. I'm speaking of the sort of thing when you know others may not only delight in your misfortune but may be be willing to take part in some activity to promote it. Those who hold on to grievance's real or imagined for centuries.

There are many reasons a psychic vampire may become part of your life. Much of it has to do with them. Your involvement is the part of you that is serving as a trigger, usually some fear or strong anxiety you hold is of a vibration they carry and can attach to.

The best way to deal with anyone you sense is bleeding you dry in any way is to be sure you have no places within you they can attach to. Bitterness, envy, negativity.Psychic vampires feed on your fear. If you hold no fear in relation to them or anger, they have nothing to attach to, you lift yourself up above the situation. You can see yourself outside the situation from above, knowing no harm can reach you. Flowing love and kindness from a place of safety.

Of course the best course is to live in a frequency which they do not inhabit which means consciously monitoring our own thoughts and declining those negative anxieties and doubts that abound in their feeding field. Although we can't remain positive 100% of the time, being aware and moving back into a positive state keeps us less likely to become victims.

We also need to stay aware of when our own energy begins to dip, if we wait till it sinks too low we may attempt to use another as a vehicle to raise our vibration because it seems easier then working on ourselves and raising our own energy. Ask for assistance from your angels and guides as soon as you begin to feel yourself slipping. Take care of yourself, eat well, rest. Surround yourself with those things that feed your soul, so that you won't go on your own feeding frenzy or become another's energetic meal.

In Light.....Christie

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Loose Ends for Lightworkers

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Tue, 10 Mar 2009 18:44:00 +0000

I recently received a topic request from a well known spiritually oriented marketing/writing coach. She asked for insight on what she termed "lightworkers at loose ends". I found that to be a timely topic. I also found The Lightspeakers response not exactly what I had expected, but then it often isn't. It wouldn't have been my own first response. Then as I sat with it, what they said sort of seeped into me layer by layer and I found that I truly resonated with their message afterall.

I'm still undecided about my own level of participation with a spiritual "career" as self-identification. I prefer to think of what I do as my path of purpose, but I'm aware that I've had my moments of doubt and questions regarding my level of perceived sucess or achievement. It makes me think that perhaps I've also been juggling the balls of both career and purpose. Keeping both those balls in the air isn't easy. That must be what caused me to strain and struggle at times when it could have simply been purposeful effort.

I hadn't realized what a balancing act I'd been performing, not the kind that signifies centered balance of the desirable kind in one's life. Maybe I don't need to keep both balls in the air after all. I can choose the one with greater meaning and so with less struggle and more enjoyment, throw the ball marked purpose and play catch with life.

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Many Blessings.....Christie

A Perfect Shade Of Pink

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 18:40:00 +0000

I realized something important yesterday evening coming home from my tax appointment. I passed the particular house downtown that always evokes those wonderful feelings of love, security, peace, harmony and beauty when I pass by. The house with the perfect shade of pink on the front door. It reminds me of a book illustration of the Darling's house from "Peter Pan".

As I looked at it I began to yearn for it. Not helpful, yearning, it leads to thoughts such as "I want that so much, I really really want that....maybe it's possible.....yes, but....how....I want it so much.......it's not possible, there's no way that could happen" Ever had this type of conversation with yourself? If so you know it doesn't lead to a good place.

Then I had an "Aha" moment (my thanks to Oprah for the apt phrase). I realized that the reason I was having this type of conversation with myself was because having that house seemed "to good go be true". But hadn't I already experienced several things in my life that had been "too bad to be true"? Hadn't some of those seemed unlikely to happen, almost bizarre when they did? Close friends I had confided in seemed to think so, both their facial expressions and conversation had confirmed it.

So if circumstances could be too bad to be true, why couldn't the scale balance in the other direction as well? Speaking solely from a worldly perspective, the odds were, they could. From a metaphysical/quantum perspective, they not only could, they would..... if I focused my attention there.

It came to me that it wasn't the house itself or one similar I craved, but the feelings evoked in seeing it. My focus is now on those feelings. Love, security, peace, harmony and beauty. With this shift of focus came yet another realization.....I have quite bit of this already. So I'll continue focusing there and maybe I'll paint my front door a perfect shade of Pink.

May you all live with your perfect shade.......Christie

She's All Of Us

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 16:04:00 +0000

I don't generally become involved in sociological/political issues. My focus is usually on the spiritual aspects regarding them. I'm digressing a bit today because I feel impelled to speak out.

I wrote this as a way of dealing with the intense grief I have held for the last few days. I' m working with the spiritual concepts I know to be true, I know there are choices on every level, made by all involved from a higher perspective by their soul. I also understand there were several other potential outcomes as possiblities in this situation. All those involved had choice on a higher level.

Yet from a human standpoint I grieve, I wrote the following because loss is always meaningful.

For Alva

I didn't know her
So why was the pain so deep
I didn't physically hear the shots
Only blocks away
Yet the sound in my ears
Is deafening

I don't know her son
Who watched his father
Shoot her five times
but I feel the depth of pain
In his heart

It could have been
My son once
It could be someone else's
Someday

She isn't just a woman
Named Alva
She is your sister
She is your daughter
She is you
She is all of us

Today, I'm speaking of the choices that are made on a worldly level. The choices made by each of us that contribute to the voice of change. Please understand that it can happen to anyone, it isn't a certain type of person/woman. Don't ever think it couldn't be you or someone you love. The psychological implications of abuse are convoluted and complicated, the laws regarding it must become definite and straightforward.

The thrust of a fist or the impact of a shot are felt across all educational, social and economic borders. Please consider becoming conversant with the existing laws and lack thereof that protect women in your state. Speak out....loudly. And in any case, please pray.

Blessings and love to you Alva, from all of us.

christie@thelightspeakers.com

http://www.thelightspeakers.com

Magical Thinking

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 18:51:00 +0000

Did you know that the term "magical thinking" is actually a no no in psychological circles. It's been awhile but I do admit to having participated as a patient in the art of therapy at one time. I was writing to a friend today, we decided we would brainstorm a certain issue together soon and it really excited me because I thought that the idea of sharing whatever ideas came into my head with my friend felt magical.

I haven't thought of things magical in quite some time, it really feels good. Despite the arched eyebrow of my former therapist that pronounced my tendencies toward magical thinking unhealthy. I remember thinking even then, what could be wrong with it...it even sounded good, especially when I felt bad...just the words alone made me feel better.

But no, it was definitely a sign of my dysfunction I was told. In all fairness to the therapist, I did have a strong bent toward trusting too easily, believing the best of people, that it would all work out.... I guess that's called gullibility in those circles. I felt guiltily gullible and so proceeded to work very hard at being sure that I didn't trust anyone easily. At first it was difficult, then suddenly, it got easy....and trusting became hard.

Years later, somewhere along the wayI realized I had been happier trusting easily than not. Yes, there were some experiences I might have avoided had I not trusted but there were priceless lessons that came with the experiences. Then presto chango, I realized that the problem hadn't been so much that I trusted others too easily, but that I hadn't trusted myself easily enough.

Now that's magical thinking.

Christie

Monday's Blessing

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 18:07:00 +0000

I've always disliked Monday's, actually many times I've hated Mondays. Today was definitely one that fell somewhere between dislike and strong dislike when I discovered there had been a bit of a break down in financial communications with not one but two creditors. That was not the way I had thought I would begin my week, the surprise factor made it all seem worse along with the fact that I quickly felt myself slipping into self-pity.

When I do that I always get angry at myself because I'm supposed to be the person that shows others how to deal with such stuff and here I am doing a not so great job of it myself. What if anyone found out? What if they knew that I fell into the trap of self-pity and a moment of...make that several moments.....okay twenty minutes of "what's the use" of trying?

So you ask "Where's the blessing"? Kinda like " I still don't see the pony". Here it is, I decided that I would find the blessing. Based on the fact that I facilitate a monthly Blessing Circle it seemed like an apropos choice to actually implement what I was co-creating in the group.
It was the decision that was the Blessing. I made the decison to look away from the issues and focus on the Blessing, any Blessing I could find, but in the act of doing that....I had already found one.

This may not seem like a big deal and I was at first reluctant to write about it and put it out there, but for me, it said that I had made a fairly large leap forward. I usually practice what I preach....except for those times that I'm hit unexpectedly with financial problems I didn't know I had. The ones that hang around regularly, those I can usually manage.

Then I realized all the other blessings inherent in Monday being Monday. A fresh start, a new beginning, anticipation of what I would create in the coming week, opportunities to learn and serve in the days ahead and more. Monday did and does hold a Blessing, it gave me the opportunity, sooner rather than later to walk my talk.

For any out there that find Monday's difficult I challenge you to look a bit more deeply at what it may afford in the way of opportunity and insight.

Have a Blessed Monday!

Infinite Possibility

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Thu, 18 Dec 2008 12:57:00 +0000

I'll begin this with the qualification that I don't claim to be a master but I do believe we come here to embody our divine origins in the physical and that as a species we are moving ever closer to that realization. Mastery of our lives is attained by harmonizing with a higher level of consciousness. This higher plane is the realm of original Mind, call it what you will; Source, the Universe...I call it the Light. The ultimate truths of reality; love, joy, peace, prosperity lie here within this Mind, not in the distortion of our limited physical world.

We see these as intangible and unreachable because we live in the physical realm of illusion. It is illusion because it is only a reflection not reality and as we know by looking at a reflection in water and many mirrors, it is often distorted.

When we learn to mentally unite ourselves with the best things, the highest things, that is what we will experience in life. The superior solutions for health, love and power lie within us when we are willing to accesss them through linking to a higher lever of experience. To create a magical life we must deny what others call pragmatic thinking and see it for what it is, limited thinking. Such logical thought posited that man could never fly, or communicate across thousands of miles. We now know with certainty that such thinking though pragmatic at the time, was limited.

We must deny the reality of this world to live in the truth of a higher consciousness of belief in the availability of the best. We must respond to the question " Who do you think you are to believe you can achieve prosperity, love and joy" by saying " I am infinite possibility"

Self-love

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 13:11:00 +0000

We come with glad tidings of News appropriate to your love of self. Much ado is made about love of others and the sacrifice of new birth that you commemorate in your world this Season. Yet we come speaking differently, with reminders of love....of yourselves.

Others will tell you to give to others in this Season of Revival of birth, but we tell you to remember to love deeply who you are. Invest yourselves as well in learning what most deeply brings you peace, brings you joy, brings you meaning, and spend time, even small bits of time doing such things as often as possible, with the intention of showing love for yourselves.

When you are tempted to put yourselves in way of harm such as imbibing those things you may have sworn off of such as richness of food or drink not desired, ask yourself - "is this a loving act toward myself"? When feeling angry, disappointed or frustrated with another or a situation and about to lash out, ask within - "how will I feel towards myself after I blow this steam outward, will I feel loving toward myself"?

When you stop in the moment and ask yourself - "is this love, does this feel loving...for me....to me, much does change. Part of that change becomes more love displayed toward others also, yet this is not the reason we suggest it.

We suggest this little bit of selfishness, this love of self first, and then others, so that you will not be depleted. The well of love from which others drink is filled from within first. You cannot take a teaspoon to the well and then serve a thirsty man a cup of water.

You begin by quenching your own thirst first, by bringing the biggest vessel you can to love's Source and drinking deeply. No more teaspoons, not even cups, we say, begin with a few gallon jugs, then graduate to larger and larger containers that you fill yourselves up to the brim with self-love. Then you may serve a thirsty world.

From Within

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Fri, 05 Dec 2008 18:35:00 +0000

I am a woman without doors and windows
closed to the world
I revolve in upon myself now
Looking for wisdom from hidden places within
Finding not enough without
Finally, finally coming to a place of peace
Inside

I've discovered that I'm ready to let go of looking outside myself for what I need
Despite the holiday hustle and bustle, I feel myself going deeper within. With the winter, I burrow down into an inner warmth, lit by the fire of my own inner knowing.

When I wrote "closed to the world" it seemed negative at first, as though I were walling myself off, but it's not that. It means that I'm no longer waiting by a window or door to see if life will show up. I'm looking at the interior and finding I already have everything, life is within.

I was sold on the idea that what I had wasn't as vital as what I saw outside. I had to cover the portals for awhile so that I wouldn't be distracted. I"m looking around and finding value inside and when I'm ready, I'll create new windows and doors. And when I do, they'll be clear and free of obstructions.

Lessons

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 18:36:00 +0000

Only ask for assistance and your newest opportunity for learning comes,
The newest lesson presents itself
Ask for it to come easily and gently
Gently, easily, joyfully
Learning doesn't need to be difficult
We make it so hard
Come from within instead of waiting for things to come from without
Feeling the essence is what truly matters
Going forward on our path with purpose despite outer contradictions
Believing, believing
Knowing for some of us our purpose arises anew in every moment
For others, it's unchanging theme
Resonates and unravels
Consistently throughout their lives
Their directional map set to on, always
Either way, the journey can be easy or hard
Make up your mind
Which will you have?

choosing Joy

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 18:30:00 +0000

Encompassing joy
I sit marveling
At the wonder surrounding me
Variety and complexity
Of people and situations
The smell of coffee and newspapers
Multitudes of realities, theirs and mine
Can we step into one another's and share momentarily?
Or shall I close my eyes and when I open them
Find that I have created an entirely new one for myself
Which includes them
Choices of worlds to live within abound
So many chosen unhappily before
I choose differently now

The Moment

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 18:25:00 +0000

I live in the moment it seems, until....
I move into the reality of others
Reminders of time,
The linear prison of thoughts and actions
Dedicated to fear of, not enough.

Reprimanding myself doesn't work
It only brings harm and disharmony

So I embrace it all,
The now, the then, the never
The almost, the may be, the will be
And come once more to this moment

Out Of Hiding

christie@thelightspeakers.com (Christie's Journal/ Living with Light) — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 15:28:00 +0000

Since my last post "Hiding Out", things have moved a bit, actually, quite a bit. I've recently found myself very active again in my spiritual/social circles. Can't seem to get enough of people. It's a little like having been on a strict diet and now starving, I've discovered the buffet table at an all you can eat place.

So I've been busy interacting, working with clients and now getting ready for The Gathering, our October Event, http://www.thelightspeakers.com One of the best things about sending out invitations to one of our Events is the response from those who can't come!

I really appreciate the people that take the time to write to say how much they would love to be there but can't because they live in Scotland, Australia and New Zealand! It tickles me so much to know that we have reached so far and confirms for me that this path's work is reaching those it's meant to.

Near and far, we're all connected on many levels, but are we able to feel that connection when it comes to world affairs? So I'm wondering.....

Is there a place for spirituality in politics? Are we ready to accept leadership based on higher intent and action or do we en masse continue to see might and aggression as more powerful position for leadership?

Sharing thoughts.....Christie