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Dancing In A Storm

2013-05-08T09:45:00.001+08:00

I am affected with our local political news lately.
So much of negativity, racism, bias and harsh. I could feel that I am stressed out not just because of my personal tasks, but with all the issues which are happening around me.

I care for my nieces and nephews.
I care for my future children.
I care for my students.
I care for my family.
I care for my nation.
I care for our future.

Because I care too much, this is why I am affected and somewhere close to being depressed. Part of me worried if the sun is not showing itself any sooner. Will the rain water drown us all?

Well, all I want now is to….

Photo credit to Calv.

Dance like there's nobody watching,
Love like you'll never be hurt,
Sing like there's nobody listening,
And live like it's heaven on earth - William W. Purkey

May us be blessed with all the love and happiness around. Thank you God.

“Everyone Is A Genius, Including The Fish That Tries to Climb A Tree.

2013-05-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

“Everyone is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid” – Albert Einstein.

During in my childhood, I often think that I am stupid. One of the reasons is because I hardly understood what was taught by the teachers in all subjects except Art, Music and Science. Often, I received low grades and as a result, I was streamed into back classes which were known as the C, D, E, F, G or H class.

There were 10 classes all together and I am glad that I was located somewhere between the 3^rd – 5^th class. Well, I was the only one who is grateful with my academic performance back then because, often academic results were being compared with my other relatives whom at similar age.

It was not a good experience to share because after each conversation that involved academic achievement, I will end up feeling stupid, sad and disappointed with myself. Sometimes, I will even feel hopeless with myself because I know I have been trying very hard yet, the result was not promising enough to reach the community’s expectation, especially my parents’.

I remembered those days when I became very desperate to succeed and asked my parents to send me to tuition classes, just like my other ‘bright’ friends. I observed and interviewed their success stories with the hope that the same story can apply on me. I hate to be left behind because that kind of feeling is really torturing and unbearable.

I know I wasn’t as bright as my friends, but I also know that I am not stupid because I could actually understood the content of any subject taught by my teachers. However, I had an extremely hard time to express my understanding into words during exam. This frustrated me the most.

I still remember how I excelled in creating the best mind-map in Kajian Tempatan subject. I still remember my ‘Mini Botanic’ project (herbs and mini plants are planted in a used plastic bottle) won the first place during school’s Science week.

I still remember my team members and I won the best English scrapbook because of the creative content. I still remember, my artwork was selected in a local magazine competition and won a consolation prize with my school name on the magazine page. My name was being called by the teacher in duty during school assembly to receive the rewards and being complimented for making the school proud. I still remember the name of the magazine – Tunas Sains and Rakan Sains!

Despite of my other achievement, I still feel that I was not bright enough to belong in the ‘smart group’ because according to the school’s test score, I was just an average person. I guess, God heard my desperation and grant me a chance to excel in studies. The year following that, I was sent to Penang to continue my standard 6.

My lifestyle had changed and I received more attention and opportunity at school because the number of student throughout standard 6 was only 32. Besides, I had learnt study skills from various resources such as books, role models, teachers, friends and etc. Here is my turning point where everything changed from worse to good, good to better.

I began to excel in examination from UPSR, PMR, SPM to STPM. Although the result was not as impressive as other top scholars, still I am thankful and grateful with what I have today because seriously, it’s not easy. For someone who is a visual and audio learner, it is challenging to express ourselves through the typical school test and examination.

The only way to succeed is through memorization, repetition and constant practices. These are my secret to succeed which then, granted me a chance to enter University of Malaya for Bachelor of Counseling. Since then, I am happy to call myself a passionate life-long learner because finally, I have understood the meaning and joy of learning after being a typical student for more than 20 years.

I do not have to memorize anymore because I have found a way to understand and connecting facts.

I do not have to bore myself to death repeating the standard answer given by people from other century (sounds like alien here uh?)

I do not have to force myself to be what I am not to please people who do not understand the principal of ‘no one size fits all’ pedagogy – just like what Albert Einstein says:

“Everyone is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid” – Albert Einstein.

Well, I lie. I am still doing it right now (though in minimal quantity). If you have been reading this whole post till here, you should know that this is actually a quarter of my assignment on Assessment and Technology Pedagogy Integration course with UUM. I could do what I like (which is to draw my thoughts and make them into video clip with special sound effect!). I am doing my assignment and that is why I have not updated my blog for few days. Well, I am applying the 4th Habit from Stephen Covey – First Thing First. Assignment is more important than blogging because it will take 25% of my coursework.

So, is it true that everyone is a genius?
If a fish is being forced to climb a tree or there is no possibility for survival, will it at least try? If it succeeds, will the same cycle happen to other fishes?

I am the fish.

Dream Big As We Only Live Once

2013-04-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

The theme of this post itself has already inspired me to Do More Than Dream.

Yes. The moment when I visualize and plan for the topic I want to include in each alphabet (I am still thinking about X-Y-Z as they seem to be the hardest!), instantly I could think of the theme for D.

I want to blog not just about my dream, but about my friends, my blog readers’ and my students’ dreams, and I made it! *cheerfully typing out more words on keyboard*. However, due to time issue, I will just focus in my students’ dreams.

Here is a story about what happened yesterday in the classroom:

Yesterday, I had a class with 1SP3 and was very mad with them for not finishing homework although second chance has been given. Hence, consequence was given by asking them to stand till they complete their homework. While discussing homework, some of them still showed misbehavior in the classroom which we agreed that it is an act of disrespect to the teacher and classmates, and not giving their best. Hence, action was immediately implemented where some of them had to stay back till they complete their work.

Seriously, I was real unhappy. I am thinking to myself, is this what I signed up for as a Teach For Malaysia fellow. Am I going to waste my 2 years for fellowship and receive such work from them? Will they grow and become a respected person in future that can contribute to the society? The answer is no.

I drove home completely exhausted after staying back for 15 minutes. Teaching is not an easy job and I realize this since last year however, I keep my faith that this 2 years of journey is going to be worth it in term of helping other individuals to grow and be a better leader for themselves. Well, I know I grow so much too in these several months.

I go back home feeling so restless till this morning, I decided to make a short blog about the ‘Dreams’. As I am looking at all the pictures which I had taken yesterday, a sense of happiness is formed and inspire to live my new day ambitiously.

Here are the photos that I meant. They were told about the Blogging A-Z Challenge and I asked if they are interested to participate because I want to feature them in my blog with the dreams they have. Most of them have low mastery in English (even numeracy too) but they told me that they want to try to write it in English. I am so touched by their effort seriously. I don’t even have the courage to try when I was at their age T.T

I lam touched by his dream: He dreams that one day, he can confidently use English as a form of communication and enter UKM (one of the university in Malaysia).

Looking at their dreams, they have made me understand what they want and value most in their life. I am grateful to read that some of their dreams are about taking care of their parents, bringing them for holiday and live a happy family. This is something that I am looking forward too besides just a merely career ambition. They took quite long moment to think, write and decorate their paper because Ms. Kai Lee (me) told them that what they wrote will come true so they have to be really careful and serious with their dreams. Well, according to psychology, it is true. What you think will result in action.

Are their dreams big enough to be considered as Dream Big? Well, I think they are plus.. they are all beautiful dreams.. <3

What about mine?
They are seriously a lot! - to have a happy and loving marriage, have kids, write educational books, go Japan and Paris…… and they go on and on and on…

And now, as a teacher for over 400+ students, I dream that in 10-20 years time, I will see all of them living their dreams.

C Is The Most Interesting Alphabet!

2013-04-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

Isn’t it obvious that C = Creative?
Well, I have so much to share in this post!

Unexpectedly, my ‘C’ post take longer than I planned because I have so many ideas in my head but I don’t know where to begin with.

Please forgive an ENFP person where she often has an abstract mind and thinking can happen quickly and wildly. Connections between items, people, or situation can be made funnily whether they are in the same category or completely different.

That’s how she gains inspiration and often evolve into creative idea out of nowhere (sometimes it can happen in the car while driving, while walking under the rain, watching tv, eating sushi, seeing Beta fishes dancing their tails, listening to dad’s infamous vocal, or… in the toilet..) however, her biggest weakness is to focus in one thought. Seriously, it is hard.

Even when I am writing right now, I will look at my facebook and observe if I get a new like, wondering what is Calvin doing, recalling the memories on proposal, thinking if my today’s lesson is good enough, what to write in my assignment and is my hair long enough? #narcicism #complicatedbrain.

If you could have a micro size of body and been placed into my brain, I bet you wouldn’t wanna stay there as it’s super messy and disorganized but one thing for sure is that you will gain a colourful and artistic habitat *what?*

Well, I do have some data that I could share about the messiness and complication of the brain. I mean my brain!

The data begins with my Form 6 (pre-U) biology notes that I took in 1 year +

My lovely notes –
I don’t even remember why I choose the word ‘lovely’.
Anyway, I am glad that I still keep my 2006 notes!

The heart structure

Plants Hormone

The liver

Embroyology (Baby!)

My current notes since 2012 till now.

Investment, Culture and Management course

Creativity In Teaching.

Note: Sorry for the low quality of photo. I am using phone which is the easiest and quickest way to upload.

Probably, this is what they refer to as ‘creativity’ in a nice and super fabulous term which can be a good excuse to continue the ‘messiness’. Anyway, I love to be referred as a creative person rather than nothing because the word creative itself gives me a sense of freedom and flexibility. That’s why I love the alphabet of C!

Yay!

Besides C = Creativity,
Also C = Calv or Calvin.

I know, I know… I owe you guys my Part 3 Love Story. I am feeling super duperly sorry for procrastinating my post. Well, only if you still remember the Part 1 and Part 2 la. Or else, you can always read them now or later. I am not giving any excuse this time and I am promising you that the Part 3 love story will be in my among my A-Z post. So, yes.

The alphabet of ‘C’ besides being part of my value and personality, C also becomes one of the important person in my life. I have introduced him before during in the year of 2011 when we started dating with the blogpost title: Calvin Seet. Now, he is my fiance *whoot*.

Each day, I am thankful and grateful to God for showing him into my life. Life has become even more colourful with his presence. His care and love have given me a reason to look forward for what life has for me. Thank you Calv for your love, care, patience and wisdom. You’re an amazing person and I love you. That’s why I fall in love with the alphabet of C!

Besides C = Calv
Also C = Compassion

I am a person who is emotionally sensitive and can tear pretty easily when I see the suffering of others – if I allow myself to dive in to their experiences of thought and emotion. I am not a crybaby since small because I was trained not to cry no matter in whatever situation. Hence, when I grow up, I have difficulty in expressing myself with tears until I met these amazing lecturer in University of Malaya and understand the power of tears. So, I open up and let me be myself.

School in a welfare in India.

Through strong compassion, I find another strength in me where I can understand and connect to others more deeply. This has increased my openness to learn in whatever trigger my interest most. Probably that is why I am interested in Counseling, and now teaching as it can help me to help them from the suffering. That’s why I admire the alphabet of C!

Besides C = Compassion
Also C = Chinese.

I am a Malaysian Chinese. I love my race. I love the culture. I love my identity. I love my Chinese-look eyes (finally). I love my black hair. Do I have to explain why I am proud with the alphabet of C?

Besides C = Chinese
Also C = Celine Dion
That’s why I admire the alphabet of C!

Besides C = Celine Dion
Also C = Conan (Anime: Detective Conan)
That’s why I am crazy over the alphabet of C!

Besides C = Canon
Also C = Champion.
Malaysian can be pretty ‘kiasu’. We like to strive for excellence. Hence, champion is what we love to hear. That’s why I chase over the alphabet of ‘C’!

Besides C = Champion
Also C = Chin Hui, Cheang May May
They are my close buddies. That’s why I am always happy with the alphabet of ‘C’!

and the list go on…..

but one equation that me, you and us shouldn’t forget is…

C = CurryEgg
That’s why I ‘C’ is the most interesting alphabet among A-Z

Don’t you agree? ;)

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I am participating the Blogging A-Z April Challenge where everyday, I will write a blog post that begin with certain alphabet according to the date. So today, it’s C. Tomorrow will be D. Stay tune!

A – A Promise
B – Bachelor Of Counseling And Me
C – Current Post

Bachelor Of Counseling And I

2013-04-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

It has already been 1.5 year since the day I graduated from the Bachelor Of Counseling in University of Malaya and I am very proud to make a shout out that, I love this course and I’ve never regretted in taking it up!

Adibah, Rani and I

This 4 years of Bachelor program has won me several things and I am so going to share it right now, taking the chance to answer my B post today! (check out the A-Z April Challenge). However, before I share the following stories, I would like to explain that this course is done locally with majoring in Counseling and minor in Psychology. In normal institute, the Counseling course can only be taken after the completion of degree in Psychology (for 3 years). In University of Malaya, we can take the course in degree straight away but has a 1 year extension, meaning it is a 4 years course.

There is one important gain that I have received from this course and it is the knowledge through the subject of Psychology. It is not just a subject but more of a life studies to me where I learn about human’s thoughts, behavior and characteristic. To understand why human act or behave in a certain way, we can understand them through these 3 main areas – Affect, Behavior and Cognitive. Of course, if you are interested, you can always Google them or follow any Psychology website in your mobile phone. Well, how does this benefit me? Seriously, it is immeasurable. The knowledge is timeless and transferrable into any field or even any life situation! Thanks to the great work from those respected Psychologists such as Jean Piaget, Ivan Pavlov, Skinner, Albert Bandura, Abraham Maslow, Gardner Murphy and etc.

Same goes to the Counseling skills that I have learned where I can apply them into my relationship with others including my parents, family, partner, friends, colleagues and even strangers. To me, Counseling is more of a communication skills where you can emphasize others feeling, understand where they come from and then seek the best way to communicate the idea according to different age group. Seriously, this whole idea about Psychology and Counseling is really interesting and I could feel my eyes widen and smile is curved while typing this out. However, having these counseling skills and knowledge don’t make me a better person or communicator, but having a better awareness about myself and others. I am still learning along the way, but in a harder way because knowing the knowledge always pushes me to be more sensitive and structural when it comes to communication with others which can be tired at times.

Still, I love what I have learned from this course.

Besides knowledge and skills, I would say that this course has taught me to see and value life from different perspective. It teaches me important values such as gratitude, responsible, be humble, creativity, be assertive, be understanding and many more. Probably it is because of the design of the course, or probably it is because of my lecturer where good values are instilled into the students’ personal growth not just to become an accountable counselor but as a human being. Humanity is what often being emphasized in each lesson. I am grateful that I could see strengths and uniqueness in everyone whom I have come across to and gain insights and wisdoms along the way. Being a teacher for over 400 kids, I could greatly exercise what I’ve learned to each of them. This is the beauty of my course.

My first visit to New Delhi, India on last February 2013.

Note: What is in your mind when you see these 2 pictures? Is your country’s demographic any closer to this? If yes, how do you view your life? If no, how do you view their life?

I think I have left this important point that I learn about myself more than before. That’s how I could come up with a long write up about myself few years back (read here). I have these 3 great lecturers whom appreciate uniqueness and encourage the search of trueself. They have never failed to spend their time and energy in helping each of us to grow as an individual and appreciate who we are and where we come from. I still remember that each day, I was looking forward to attend their classes and felt the joy of being nurtured with care and love. Their names shall always be remembered – Dr. Diana, Dr. Nicole and Dr. Haslee. Thank you for your great lesson and making a difference in my life. May the joy and love I have gained impact others’ lives too.

Well, when it comes to love and joy, I shall never forget my Counseling buddies. Throughout these 4 years of course, I gained true friendship. We had been through ups and downs together, and still being so close to each other probably it’s because we have understood each other so well through various Counseling activities and humanistic lessons. Help, open communication and sharing were easily done among many of us. There is almost no secret among ourselves, just like a family. Of course, we did have conflict but it doesn’t make us apart.

From these 48 coursemates, there are 6 special people whom I have learned and loved so much. We even named ourselves as ‘The Birdies’. We know each other background stories, we share love stories, we share idea, we share dreams, we share bed (yay!), we share cosmetic items, we share the car, we share birthday present (and wedding present too!) and we share future together. Ahhhwww.. thinking of these have made myself feel warm and happy. If there is one thing I am forced to trade off, I know I will never ever, ever, ever trade this friendship because they are my greatest support system. Ahhww…

Nearly 2 years of being apart but friendship remains strong.
(Couldn’t find the 6 birdies picture at the moment)

And now, with my Bachelor Of Counseling academic background, I gained my first job as a fellow in Teach For Malaysia (TFM). Just as a quick sharing, Teach For Malaysia is a movement to address and fight for education inequity in the country. We share the same mission that ‘one day, all students in Malaysia will have the opportunity to attain an excellent education’. To my loyal readers (let me know if you’re still here as I know I haven’t blogged for many many months), you might have not heard much about my stories in joining TFM. It seems like there are a few pieces of lost puzzle. Well, don’t worry. I know I will get you there, soon.. :)

My very first group of Form 4 students in SMK Ampang Pecah.

Thank you to all my lecturers, course designers and my awesome coursemates. You have made my life journey more meaningful and successful. Thank you and I love you.

P/S: I feel like furthering my Master in Counseling after this. Let see.

Related post on Blogging A-Z April Challenge:
A – A Promise.
B – Bachelor Of Counseling (Current)
C – C Is The Most Interesting Alphabet!

A Promise

2013-04-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

As many of you would have known that I am no longer active blogger since year 2011. I used to be a daily if not weekly updater who will make sure new blog post is published every midnight (why midnight? Because I gain inspiration the most at this hour).

Well, I don’t know since when my motivation for blogging reduced and often be excused by the buziness of studies, thesis writing or now, work. Excuse always been replaced by new excuse and now, I am tired of repeating the same unproductiveness. I am discouraged by my inconsistency and for a lack of better word – laziness. Oh Gosh!

Despite of my disappearance from the blogosphere, my heart and soul are still always lingering around my blog. My passion in writing, photography and drawing is still as strong as the storm although it is not enough to make my fingers move. Well, not anymore because they are eager to run as fast as they can on the keyboard right now because curryegg is in ‘the determination’ to participate a challenge named “Blogging From A to Z April Challenge” which is inspired by Preetilata, a blogger friend from India.

As I was reading her post (read her very first April post. Beautifully written with a good touch of emotion and story), I’ve discovered the A-Z challenge and get pretty excited to join as well since what I need now is a ‘Tsunami strength’ to keep my motivation at peak so that in the end of the 2013, I will be so proud of myself with a colorful collection of personal stories.
[ This year theme for my blog: Explore the colours within yourself. I really love this theme especially the word colour as it refers to the adventurous and uniqueness stories of me]

Besides, I will be superbly honored to announce to my readers, especially to my fiance with this opening phrase of “I HAVE MADE IT!!!”.

Why?

Because last December, he has made an unbelievable research on the number of blog post posted each year and shared the result in curryegg FB page. I am impressed by his analytical mind but not the confidence of ruling over my performance =/

Such a bold statement uh?

If I am going to blog everyday except Sunday on April – it will be at least 26 posts. If i will blog at least 5 for the following months, it will be 5 X 8 = 40. So 26+40 = 66 posts! Yay! It is going to exceed both 2012 and 2012 years! Maths teacher is doing her Maths yo~

Oh gosh.
I gotta prove his hypothesis wrong for this year. Yes, I have to. I couldn’t imagine to receive another statistic finding from him in the end of this year. Oh no~

So, here is a promise I make to myself that I will blog every single day in the month of April by following the alphabet from A-Z except Sunday. Well, you better hope that this is an ‘April Fool’ blogpost because the egg is going to rule your month with her stories.

This is going to be ex-ci-tiiiiiiiiiiinggg!!

To end this post with some juices of creativity and romance, here is a year 2011 picture that I have not shown to anyone beside you (April Fool!).

| Do you know that Eiffel Tower is inspired by the capital letter of A? :)

Blogging A-Z April Challenge related post:
A – A Promise (current)
B – Bachelor Of Counseling And I
C – C Is The Most Interesting Alphabet!

Because of The Determination.

2013-03-27T23:52:00.001+08:00

Because of the determination,

1) I have changed my blog banner within 2.5 hours. Or probably 3.. or probably 4. Well, quoted from Sharon this morning, she said that when we are indulged in something we like, we will not be aware of the time. Yes, I truly agree with her especially when it comes to blog related stuff. I took a good long hours to adjust and resize my blog banner so that it fits the way I want.

For a person who has been away from the blogosphere for years, I need time to pick up with what I have left behind. Because of the determination, I succeed and make us a new look for curryegg! Yay~

Original photo taken by Mamak at KLCC. I love this!

2) I attend PGDE (Postgraduate Diploma in Education) classes in UUM KL since Monday. Most of the teachers across the country are enjoying their 1 week holiday with family and friends. However, the TFM fellows (including me) must woke up as early as 6am to fight with the KL traffic so that we can reach the building on time. Because of the determination, I pull myself hard enough to attend holiday classes… *sleep… I want sleep..* T.T

One of my fellow friends, Ken who was enjoying his drink while watching the KL scenery.

3) I captured an inspiring scene of a Form 3 student who was helping her mum in running the ‘pisang goreng’ business while a Maths book was placed clumsily on the stool with a pencil, and a scientific calculator on it. The scene was spotted when my friends and I were looking for lunch and so happened, we came across with a stall, located in between of the old buildings. There was a young girl who was sitting on the stool with an earplug attached to one of her ears, doing Maths attentively while her mum was frying banana.

I was curious with this young lady and managed to initiate a short conversation. Then, I found out that this 15 year old girl has a strong will to succeed in the coming PMR and in the meantime, she wants to help her family. Hence, she was there helping her mum while stealing opportunity to work on her studies. I was touched immediately by her boldness and secretly hoping that my students can learn from her.

Because of the determination, I found an inspiring story besides the busy road.

4) I have finished my assignment according to the set timeline and daily goal. Before this, I was bad with time management and my tasks were mostly undone, hence procrastinated. Being an adult and a teacher of 400+ students, responsibility has of course increased. There is no any reason to not show excellence when my main goal now is to educate future generation to be an accountable individual. Because of the determination, I have achieved my goals ;)

Photos from my instagram.

Food Talk @ Kuchai Lama.

With the presence of great company, drink and food.

Yeah!
These are such a great news and I am inspired to be more determined in the coming days to achieve something that can enlighten my days. Looking forward for a longer list to come so that in the end of the year, I can review my own achievement and be super duper proud with myself.

Because of the determination, I have blogged and published this post with pure joy and happiness *wink*

Win The Daily Battle

2013-03-08T12:10:00.001+08:00

Here is my daily reminder from John C. Maxwell on his ‘Success One Day At A Time.

People who achieve daily success
have learned to conquer four common time-wasters,

Laziness:
Time put to no useful purpose,
not even relaxation.

Procrastination:
Putting off things that should be done now.

Distraction:
Time frittered away on the details of side issues,
to the detriment of the main issue.

Impatience:
lack of preparation, thoroughness,
or perseverance, usually resulting in
time-consuming mistakes.

Photo was taken from during in the Teach For India InspirED session in New Delhi, India.

I shall remember and practice what shall be done right now.

My 12.12.12 Proposal Video

2013-01-28T23:47:00.001+08:00

Probably some of you are not aware that I am being proposed on the 12.12.2012!!!
Although it has been 1.5 month, I seriously still couldn’t believe it!

Oh my!

While typing this out, the ring is clinging on my right finger. Well, I hardly wear ring since childhood (except those that are made using straw and flower stem). So, it still creates the unfamiliar experience whenever I wear it. By the way, I don’t wear the ring often because I am worried that constant use of whiteboard marker at school and my clumsiness will spoil the ring. I am not a good care-taker so this time, I am determined to be one, for the sake of the ring which symbolized his love.

I have always intended to write a full long post on the proposal. However time doesn’t seem like wanting to be my friend lately. Well, it is ok because there is a videoclip created by one of my friends, Steve that recorded the moments.

Till now, my cheeks will still turn red whenever I watch or recall the moment.
Shocking. Drama. Loving. Precious.

To some of you who do not understand Mandarin, it might be difficult for you because all the actor and actresses conversed in Mandarin.

Again, thank you to those who participated and contributed in my very special proposal day. Thank you for your love, care and blessing ♥

Live Life To The Fullest

2013-01-23T00:19:00.001+08:00

This is my first time updating my blog using my phone. It feels pretty uncomfortable because of its size. Anyway, it's good to try other alternative to have my self-talk before the sleep takes over.

Sorry for not updating my blog as often as I used to be though deep inside me, I always wanted to share my latest thoughts and experiences. There are so many things I wanna share here however, when time, energy and work are taken into further consideration, I become demotivated. Marking books or lesson planning seem to be a smarter choice of spending the night before sleep.

Ok, lets put aside of my work and read my thoughts. When I was a counseling student, I always worried that my public visibility in the blogosphere or in the social media will affect my professionalism as a counsellor. Imagine if a client who read your blog come to you and receive counseling services while in his or hers mind know the romantic proposal you have or food that you dislike. That is against the ethics as counseling should not be in dual relationships.

Now that I am a teacher in these 2 years of fellowship, i hVe different worries. I am concerned that the posts I wrote and will write might affect my students respond towards me as and individual and my teaching. It is hard to imagine to let the students see another side(s) of the teacher when they should focus more in their own learning and development.

Well, being in my second year of teaching, I am happy to share that I M happy to just be myself whether in the offline or online world because I am genuine from the inside out. The person whom I am in the classroom is the same as in the staff room. The person who is refilling fuel in the petrol station is the same as the person who went to Bangkok to have an amazing trip. The person who cried over a sad Hong Kong drama series is still the same S the person who is blogging here. Probably the only difference is the name: from Kai Lee to Kelly and from Kelly to curryegg.

Gaining insights and wisdoms throughout the years have taught me to appreciate and accepting myself as an unique individual. Besides, I have learnt to treat my life as my learning platform. Hence, I become more relaxed and love being the person I love to be.

I love this self love experiences. Guess that's why I could live life to the fullest despite of the daily ups and downs I am facing. Thank you for still reading and following my blog. This is something I would want to treasure the most.

Just a quick sharing. During in the beginning of the year my 5 classes, I have proudly and confidently told my students that my new year resolution and by big goal for this year is to see them transform and write their success stories in my book.

That is a promise I made to myself and to them. I don't know why the idea struck me. Well, I think it has been keeping somewhere in my brain that I have never discovered. Hence, I will start my little project by first updating my blog and shared it publicly andouille so that I start working on it.

Here is a picture I took on last Sunday in Publika, KL. I love it so much! Nice?

Inspired By FB For Making A 2012 Review

2013-01-08T08:00:00.000+08:00

I had written my 2012 Review for almost a week in Facebook and I think it is best that I just CTLR+C and CTRL+V here. It is the beautiful memories that I wanted to share with even if you are not in my Facebook ;)

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2012 has been an amazing year. Never had I thought that it will end so quickly! What had happened yesterday was like a dream, so beautiful and meaningful.

There are so many 'first times' I encountered throughout the year 2012:

- First time having my own room
- First time being a teacher
- First time helping Calv in house moving
- First time being a DSLR user
- First time receiving salary
- First time treating my parents on expensive restaurant
- First time making doodle notes
- First time cooking for Calv Seet
- First time owning a Bamboo device!!!
- First time being crazy over Instagram (Follow me @curryegg !)
- First time having an iphone as present
- First time meeting a long-lost childhood n NS friend
- First time squeezing out all my creative juice for creative assignment.
- First time seeing my students’ drastic achievement in academic and attitude
- First time buying 24 books in a month!
- First time paying for my passport.
- First time having birdies photography session
- First time flying to oversea with Calv

Me and my TFM collabs in our traditional attire.

One of the activities that my students enjoyed the most ;)

My DSLR and I!

Sorry. Not Halal. By the way, this picture was ‘stole’ from his photo album =P

That is the exact reaction when I unwrap the present and saw the word, “BAMBOO!”

Birdies + Baby panda!

My pancake at Samed Island, Thailand~

Of course, there are other down 'First time' such as:

- First time crying in front of the students
- First time being so lost and down
- First time not blogging for 100 days!

Well, I am thankful that my good 'First times' are higher than the opposite one ;)

Of course, not to forget my highlighted first time:
- Being *cheated by a bunch of friends and relatives because of Calv.
- Being proposed under such an unpredicted circumstances
- Being hold by a ring
- Owning a custom-made diamond ring
- Having face so red and warm throughout the week!

Oopss.. Ok. Pretend that you have not read and seen this picture so that I can tell you more in details by continuing my Love Story Part 3.

Oh... and first time receiving so many blessing and like from you guys in FB! Thank you.

2012 was indeed an adventurous and eventful year that i will never ever forgotten. Thank you for the year and I am ready to jump on my new 2013 chapter. I know that it will be my legendary year and I shall reveal the reason day by day, till I do my another end of year reflection again.

Happy New Year and let's turn our 2013 as our canvas and be an artist to paint the way we want it to be!

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Special thanks to:
My parents, Calv's family, my best buddies, TFM friends, LDOs, principles, teachers, students, students' parents, blog readers and you. You guys have played an important role in my life. Of course, you.. my dear Calvin. Love you all ♥

I Know You Miss Me

2012-12-26T00:48:00.001+08:00

Hello dear readers (are you still with me?).

How are you lately? According to my Flipboard account, I have not updated my blog for exactly 100 days.

OMG! 100 DAYS!!???

Let’s dance and celebrate for the beautiful even number =D
Lol… You know I am just kidding.

There are so many things which had happened in my life and I don’t know where to start sharing because all events are equally meaningful, rich, beautiful and unforgettable.

Well, please give me some times to reorganize, restructure and rearrange my memories before putting them into words and photos. While in the mean time, you could follow my other active social account at:

Instagram: http://instagram.com/curryegg
Twitter: https://twitter.com/curryegg
Facebook Page: http://www.facebook.com/eggieworld

I update them almost daily and would be in great happinese if you are following and interacting with me :)

I need to get ready for the first school meeting for the new year in another 6 hours. Please allow me to sleep and clean up my blog. First of all, I need to settle with my domain and blog layout (again). Oh.. you could help me coaching me in designing or finding the suitable blog layout for ~~curryegg.com~~ curryegg.blogspot.com, please let me know! This busy Maths teacher is seriously needing help!

Till here, Merry Christmas and miss me more <3

P/s: My hair has grown longer and I have gained some positive weight :)

Thoughts In The Flight

2012-09-16T01:00:00.001+08:00

I am sitting at the most corner at the back of the plane together with my parents while writing this on the flipped grey in color plastic table. I am thrilled and excited with this family trip to Tawau since many months ago. In fact, my excitement has been triggered ever since the suggestion to have a family trip at Sabah being brought out by dad.

I love Sabah, and I always do. The idea of natural and greenery environment catches my heart most. I still remember how my trip to Kota Kinabalu 3 years ago was fun, touched and memorable. It was a moment that I do not need any electronic devices to accompany me, except my camera. It was also a moment that I was living closely with greens.

Looking at the ‘cloudless’ scenery from the plane’s back window has caused my heart beating furiously. I couldn’t stop myself from clicking the camera’s shutter button while at the same time, admiring every ‘group of clouds', or the enormous South China Sea or the appearance of nicely shaped islands. When I say nicely shaped, it means artistically beautiful

I have not been in such a state for a long time where I could relax and innocently enjoy my surrounding. Or like what the meditation term explained, being just or being in the moment. I guess, I have reached a point where I am at the higher stage of meditation because my mind just purely enjoying what I am seeing, hearing and feeling with no cognitive activities taken place.

Ok lah., Maybe I did lie. I have not actually reached the higher state of meditation as I am doing lot of thinking at this very spot I am sitting, even now when I am blogging, I am actually thinking.

Well, I just enjoy this moment with no worries over chasing the syllabus or pushing my students to finish up PBS, or stressing up with administration work, or forcing the minds to come out with creative and strategic ideas to execute my lesson plans.

Today and in these few days, I just want to live in the moment and enjoy the beauty of Tawau. I placed little expectation on this trip because I want to discover this new place by myself without Googling and asking anyone about it. It is like going for a movie without reading the synopsis. So, we will see what I will discover in these few days.

Some random photos I took with my webcam while still on the plane. Haven’t done this for a long time.So, bear with me. Lol..

Wish you have a good weekend

A Happy 25th Birthday.

2012-09-14T01:07:00.001+08:00

Well, I think my blogpost title should be written as ‘An Awesome 25th Birthday’ instead of using only the ‘happy’ word because, I did have an awesome one! ;)

A couple of weeks ago, I have ‘upgraded’ my age with new number. Till now, I still couldn’t believe that how fast time has past and I am back into square one again, embarking another historical journey of my life. Isn’t it miraculous? It creates a feeling of reborn that inspire me to start all over again to make my new age more meaningful and purposeful.

And, it is a great start by receiving this unexpected gift from Calv, a day before the actual date.

OMG!!!

I couldn’t believe my eyes when I see this!!?
Calvin Seet drew another masterpiece and this time on my present paper??

Isn’t it unique and lovely?!!

I admire and fall in love with his creativity and sincerity though it is a combination of 8 pieces of A4 (new and recycled) papers with cellophane tape sticking them together.

Initially, he was worried that I would be unhappy because he didn’t wrap the present traditionally with proper present paper. Well, seriously I love this more than commercialized present paper because artwork means sincerity, sincerity means love, isn’t it?

What had raced my heart even more is THIS:
*pointing at the following photo of mine*

OH MY GOD!!!

It’s a Bamboo!!! OMG!!!

I couldn’t believe it even till now that I have a BAMBOO!!! It’s a drawing tablet for art-lover. Google if you want to find out more about it as I could sense that some of you are feeling weird that it doesn’t turn out a bamboo tree but, a flat black device. Lol…

I love Calv’s thoughtful present so much. He knew I love drawing, sketching and doodling. Throughout the year, he has observed my interest and passion in sharing my art with family members, friends and blog readers online. Besides, he always heard that I made art stuff as teaching material for my students. With the hope to expand my creativity and bring my passion into a higher level, he did some researches before buying this tablet.

Here are some of my latest masterpieces in my purple journal (I named it my purple journal because the skin is purple!).

A doodle that I did inspired by the Teach For Malaysia’s Mission at the back of my name card.

Discovered my niece’s photo album with fairy theme. It has reminded me of my childhood, thus I sketched it in the book.

I always feel loved and lucky to have such a considerate, loving and caring partner. The moment when he told me that he had actually prepared my birthday present a week earlier before his flight has melted my heart. He was worried if flight delay happened, he might be late to give it to me.. *touched*

Well, I couldn’t ask more from him as he has always given his best, all the time to make me happy, including this precious dinner at Umaiyah on my actual date.

Japanese food is rarely his favorite because he dislikes raw food (like salmon sashimi. how can!? so nice right?) and seaweed. Despite of his personal disinterest, he still took the effort to smile and forcefully said,

“Let’s go for Japanese food. I loooooovee Japanese food”.

Lol…
Well, little things like this matter most to me. Probably to most of the girls too.

With my favorite bouquet of roses in my hand while wearing my new hot red dress, my birthday ended awesomely. Of course, the night wouldn’t be perfect without my charming partner ;)

Thank you dear for creating me such a memorable and sweet birthday. I know, it will be a good start of the year for me. May God always blessed you with good health, wealth, loves and wisdom. I love you!

In the meantime, please look forward to my new creation using Bamboo ;)
A-W-E-S-O-M-E-S-A-U-S-E!!!!!

#rekomemories 3: Armpit Hairs

2012-08-07T22:51:00.001+08:00

I was teaching my 1SP3 today on a new chapter called ‘Basic Measurement’ and focused on length and mass. So, like usual I connect my lesson with real world connection. This time, I choose the Olympic theme as my opening.

Me: So class, in what games will you we use length
Student A: Running.
Student B: Swimming.

Me: Emm… ok.
Student C: Teacher, cycling!

Me: Alright. So, what are the unit used for track and field?
Students: Meter! Kilometer too!

Me: Good. How about mass? In what games will we use mass?
Student D: Weightlifting!

Me: *feeling proud*
Wow. You guys are really good. Did you all watch weightlifting? What have you learnt from it? (what I actually mean was the type of mass unit normally used in the games).

Students E: I KNOW! Those female weightlifters have armpit hairs *raised his right hand while pointing at his armpit*

And the class burst into laughter.

They know because this was widely shared in the Facebook.
Kids this day… =.=!!

1SP3 and Me

2012-08-02T21:02:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, it was quite a stressful day because I had 3 classes in a row with 2 of my challenging classes with 20 minutes of rest. Besides, my Penolong Kanan Petang wanted to observe one of my classes to evaluate and give mark on my performance.

I was teaching 1SP3 when the evaluation was carried out. Initially, I was worried because this class was pretty challenging and occasionally, I had a hard time in teaching and managing them. The experience was like riding on a roller coaster. Sometimes I triumphed like a gold medal boxer, sometimes I fell down like a humpty dumpty - worthless.

But, parts of me believe that they are talented and have promising future if they're being understood and taught purposefully. So, I give my day another fight with better preparation for the 1 hour of class.

So like usual, in the beginning of the class I asked all my students to get into groups. This time, they had to move their tables and formed 8 groups. To my surprise, they are as good as other tested class. They moved and settled within 2 minutes. I am so proud!! In the mean time, I asked them to write their group name on a recycled paper with my magic color and then stick on their group table to appear visible.

I didn't have much time to learn their group names, except the numbers because my mind was channeled to rush the lesson so that the daily objective can be achieved.
The session was a success where I managed to receive full engagement from 30/33 students with my teaching aids and see them working actively together in their group after that.

They even tried their best to finish up their PBS (form 1 exam) even though the time was up. Comparing to the beginning of the years, almost half of them would had given up after attempting a few questions.

As I was leaving the class with an army of students who volunteered to help me carried my bags and books to the staff room, all the group leaders handed their group names with a smile.

I didn't aware the meaning behind the smiles until I read their papers at my home (now). Probably some of them were happy that my Maths time was over but to some... they might be happy to have me as their teacher *beam*

I admit that, sometimes I will unintentionally look over small little detail. Sometimes, I will exaggerate small failure into disaster. Sometimes I will too focus in the big goal and forget to appreciate the relationship I have with my students.

Teaching is not just a job but something beyond the job. If you really care for the children, there is no fine line in describing your job scope as a teacher.

Thank you guys for the wonderful experience.
Let’s work hard together in achieving our dreams. Promise

Confidence Lies Behind The Sweet Smile

2012-07-30T10:39:00.001+08:00

Of late, I have been so ‘un-paisheh’ (thick face or tak malu in local terms) in asking my mum, “Mummy, how on Earth did you give birth to such a beautiful daughter? Any secret behind?”.

Lol..
I don’t know what makes me feel so. Probably I have been attracting too much of love to myself using Law Of Attraction by showing gratitude with whatever I see, hear, smell, taste and feel. The power is magnificent that whenever I look into the mirror, I will tell myself, “You’re so beautiful” ;)

Psychologically, this kind of self-talk is healthy as it is a source of building higher self-esteem (I still remember my psychology!). However, I am still not very used to complementing myself in such a way. It could be most probably because I am born an Asian. Self compliment is still very rare among the community.

Well, there is nothing to worry about because beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. I think I’m beautiful and so are you ♥

So, for a the new week:

Let cheers for an empowering new week from a beautiful girl with a sweet smile *super boh pai sheh mode* ;)

P/s: Preparing for a new week and new month with bolder and clearer Big Goals for each of my classes. We are going to work relentlessly in achieving our goals that aligned to the vision and mission. I need a good amount of time and energy to work on these. For The Kids #FTK. Wish me luck!

P/s/s: If you like what I’ve been sharing so far, visit and ‘Like’ my curryegg’s FB page. Your support will bring a brighter smile on me. Thank you ;)

Visit: https://www.facebook.com/eggieworld

A Love Story of Mine [Part 2]

2012-07-22T09:30:00.000+08:00

Continued from [Part 1]

I found myself cuddled my booster tightly before the sunray dominating my body, as a sign of ‘hey-it’s-almost-1pm-and-you-should-wake-up!’.

The morning was cold because of the rain that poured heavily before dawn. The weather was just nice to continue another hours of sleep – but I didn’t.

I was still affected with yesterday incident – very much indeed.

It took me a full 12-hours to digest what had actually happened last night, when Calv re-confessed his feeling to me after the Bumbu Bali dinner. I still remembered how both of us were sitting quietly in his car, with no background music ~~but could track my heartbeats sound~~, very close to my apartment under the bright moon.

I could feel my furious heartbeats and burning cheeks when Calv expressed his feeling and intention gently with such a phrase, “Kelly, I realized I like you and wonder if you could give me a chance and consider me?”

It was somehow funny to listen to his old-fashioned way of confession – very polite, structural and gentlemen, like watching the oldies movie. But then, it was part of the bonuses on the process of unlocking my heart. However, the funny thing was, I rejected him by saying, “Yes, I will consider”. In an instant, he politely replied in a business-like-manner, “Ok. Thank you for considering” and drove away after dropping me home safely.

That was how my night ended with a bouquet of roses I brought back home with sweet smile curving on my face, yet tense because I need to come up with a decision.

Note: Mum was surprised to see the flowers. She admired the flowers and teased dad for not buying her anything big like this in their almost-30-years-of-marriage. Dad ended up ;hating’ and blaming Calv (he hadn’t seen him) for buying me such a big bouquet of flowers because it made him look bad =P

While still lying on the bed, in that chilling morning, I murmured to myself, “Should I or shouldn’t I? Accept or not accept? Be in a relationship or continue single? Calvin or not Calvin?”.

These were the questions I frequently threw onto myself ever since the last date with Calv. Well, I knew I like him but I am not sure whether am I ready for a new relationship. The roller-coaster ride of emotion from my previous 4 years relationship failure had hit me hard from the inside. My ex’s unfaithfulness had greatly affected my trust on guy and the possibility of building a long-term relationship. (Well, I didn’t share much of this chapter of mine as I think, it is not worth giving attention on).

However, I believe in God that he loves me and he must have a better plan awaiting me somewhere in the future. All I have to do is to mend the broken heart, enjoy my life to the fullest, improve myself, receive God’s love and trust his plans for me and my future partner – because I know, there must be someone who will love and appreciate me with all his heart – my another half.

So, is Calvin The One?
Is he whom God has prepared for me?
Are we compatible?

The dilemma continued throughout the day and week before he asked me out again. This time, he invited me to an event at a club named, The Roots organized by one of his friends, Nigel Sparks (MC) to celebrate his company, Negative’s first year anniversary.

This time, I invited my 2 close friends and had an amazing time together. That night, spending with Calv and my friends did draw my bond closer to him. It has allowed me to see another side of him – friendly, funky and funny.

He did introduce me to his friends during in the event. When I was not noticing, he secretly replied to his friends when they asked which one is his gf, “Not yet but I hope the short hair in white shirt will be mine someday”.

Though the place was filled with loud music and people’s conversations, I could still hear his reply. That immediately made me blush. Like real blush… >.<

We joked, danced and drank throughout the whole event. It was funny to see him dancing – like a penguin maybe? Lol..

There was a time, after the event where he hold my hand when he found me dangerously crossing the road. I was on alcohol effect because the bartender continuously offered free-flow of coke+~~vodka~~ whisky at the event. It was my first time taking vodka and yes.. I was 45% drunk?

Well, the drunk-part is not important. What is more important is that.. HE HOLD MY HAND AND CROSSED THE STREET is a bigger alarm bell. Although I was 45% drunk, I could still feel the warmth of his hand and my fast beating heart-beat.

Secretly, I hope the moment could freeze a little longer so that he could continue holding my hand while both of my friends where watching from behind. “Are they smiling at us? Or are they shocked?”. I could no longer pay attention anymore.

Am I in Winter Sonata? *triple blushed*

After the event, we become closer to each other. Like he had promised, he will not bring out the question until I’m ready with an answer. I am grateful that he is a considerate man.

Well, it wasn’t too long for the question to pop up again. The time had finally revealed itself. I know I should make the decision, sooner or later. Well, to be or not to be? To accept or not to accept. To love, or not to love?

The state of dilemma could only last for another night before a life-change-decision was made, finally.

To be continued - with the ‘second proposal’.

Heart shaped candles

P/s: I want to write a complete love story of mine in one post. However, it seems that I’m too enjoying myself with writing it like a novel.

P/s/s: The real fact is that I am actually busy with my work. I could only spend little time each day online. So, ya.. here is my Part 2. Like Calvin has expected, there will be Part 3 on his second confession. Stay in love my dear readers ♥

First Comic Strip On Algebra

2012-07-12T00:07:00.001+08:00

I was feeling heart-broken today when some students, again misbehaved in my class no matter how many private conversations I have had with them. It took a heavy heart to write out their names in the discipline book after a good number of warnings given. If you still remember my 3 creative-but-not-so-smart students’ jokes on #rekomemories 2, they are the exact same students who broke the rules again.

Through the months, I have been working extremely hard especially when teaching is something new to me. I need to learn from the basic till something I call advance so that I could pick up and teach my students with proper lesson. However, things don’t always happen to the way you expect or want instantly. I know it can happen, but it will take times.. *hopeful*

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Ok.. enough for the emotional writing. I should come back to my main objective of this blog post (this is part of my uniqueness – always stray away from main objective/purpose. aiya..).

So, here is my latest investment for my students on Form 1 Algebra. I have used this in my pilot-test-class (the strong Maths basic class) yesterday and I received positive respond from them.

This comic was done in a rush, about 20-25 minutes. Could be better if I have more time.

Surprisingly, it only took them 1-2 minutes to read and understand the story and immediately, they know x equal to 16 candies and 16 candies are represented by x. They even could wrote interesting letter to Ahmad in the end of the class as a 3 minutes assignment. I had a good laugh at their funny jokes. Maybe I should share them here but those exercise books I left in the staff room. Well, never mind.. ;)

Students from the class already asked for Part 2. The funny thing is, before I could even reply, another invested student said, “Wait teacher draw part 2 lah.. Please be patient (in Bahasa Melayu)”.

Lol.. that cheer my day ;)

Lesson learnt: Whenever there is something pulls you down, remember that there is always something that will pull you up too. Just find that strengthe and you will be happy again.

P/s: Maybe I should turn up and me a cartoonist?

P/s/s: I know I will not give up easily because this is what I want and my passion is here. I guess, I just need perseverance, determination and consistency – just like a marathone runner.

#rekomemories 2

2012-07-05T22:08:00.001+08:00

I received really lame yet humorous excuses from the students today when I was teaching in one of my challenging classes. I couldn’t bring out the message better if not using Bahasa Melayu. So, here is the conversation given by the students.

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Masa rehat telah tamat selama 7 minit dan beberapa pelajar 1KM4 mengetuk pintu, memberi ucapan “Selamat Sejahtera” dan menyatakan sebab lewat ke kelas (budaya kelas saya).

Pelajar A: Selamat sejahtera cikgu. Maaf kerana lambat. Tadi saya teman B ke tandas sebab dia berak.

Pelajar B: Ya cikgu. Tadi saya lambat sebab berak.

Pelajar C: Selamat sejahtera cikgu. Saya lambat sebab tadi tengok dia berak.

Saya: *Menganggok kepala sambil menulis nama mereka pada papan putih* Nama-nama ini akan dimasukkan ke dalam buku displin nanti.

Pelajar A, B dan C: *kantoi*

P/s: My boyfriend LOL-ed all the way on the phone just now when he listened to my sharing on the ‘berak’ word.

A Love Story Of Mine [Part 1]

2012-07-04T11:33:00.001+08:00

“Hi Kelly, I wonder what will be ur response if I ask u for a tea?”, a conversation box suddenly popped up while I was surfing my Facebook page.

*update*

The above phrase has been edited after being corrected by le boyfriend. Well, he knew what he had typed best =P

It was an invitation from a friend, named Calvin Seet and it was his second time asking me out. Initially, I was kind of reluctant because we have not seen each other though we chatted many times in the past 3 years to discuss about Facebook games and casual chatting. It took me some times to decide before I replied him something similar like this, “Hi Calvin. That will be great :)”.

My love story begins from this food itself.

I mean, we had finally met up at a mall (Midvalley) on a Friday evening and dined at Pasta Zanmai for dinner. We chatted throughout the dinner but unconsciously, it turned out to be more like a counseling session =.=!!

I couldn’t blame myself for switching on my Counselor’s Cap while having dinner with a new friend because that was how my brain had been trained when I interned as a Counselor for 5 months. Plus, he first appeared as a stranger to me and the conversation was basically about his stress at work. So, that’s what happened. Haha.. what a funny first met up.

The met up was pretty normal and I was glad to make another new friend. He seems sincere and genuine. Besides, he is willing to share his experiences so that they could help me in my career in future. So, I thought it will be great to put him into my friend list.

We did not contact each other after that for about a week or so. Both of us were silent until we chatted again in Facebook. He confessed that he felt I was too polite and courteous. As a result, he thought he was rude comparing to me.

It was all because of my shyness and ‘professionalism’ (as a counselor) I guess. Lol.. He remembered how I wouldn’t eat when he was talking, how I cut my pizza into small small pieces, how I munched slowly and how I dropped my right earring, took it and waited to put it back onto my ear when he was not noticing. When I read all these details, I screamed to myself, “HE KNEW every little detail no matter how much I tried not to appear obvious!!! What kind of person is he?”

Then, we laughed together at our silliness and continued being friends ;)

There was a time where I asked if I could call him Calv instead of Calvin because I have too many friends with the name of Calvin, Cavin, Kelvin and Kevin. He agreed and even changed his Facebook name into the name I suggested – even till now.. *happily blushed*

We went for a second time of dinner in the second week of ~~July~~ June and this time, I could sense something was different between us. We were more natural to each other, laughed out loud to each other jokes (basically to his because he had a good collection of funny ~~grandma’s~~ jokes which were very entertaining), no more work sharing stuff (as he didn’t want my counselor persona to come out again) and enjoyed our meal.

Guess what, we spent 3 hours and 10 minutes before we finished our food and drink. I couldn’t believe it until today! I know I am a slow-munching-eater but I had never ate for so long! There should be a free ice-cream for each of us but we had forgotten to take it. Or else, we might take another 1 hour to finish it =P

Ever since the second meet up, we become closer to each other. We sms-ed, emailed, facebooked, chatted on the phone and met up more frequently. He even invited me to his hometown, Malacca and offered himself to be a local tour guide. Since I was on my ‘graduation holiday mode’, I took his offered and invited my best buddy whom I’d never travelled far before.

It was a fun trip and I enjoyed the time where the three of us spent together. We went for good local food and places we had never visited before. A big thanks to Calv.

Took this at a private beach on a window glass.

After the Malacca trip, he invited me for another outdoor activity but this time, he did not want to tell me the location till the day itself. He said, he wanna surprise me. So, I accepted and soon found out that we were heading to Pulau Ketam as soon as we were in the car. I didn’t know why I was so daring enough to accept his surprises but one thing for sure, I trust him from the very beginning.

So, we went together and had another wonderful, funny time together. To my amazement, he did research on everything, including the ferry operating time, tourist spots, type of food and duration of journey before we set off to the island. I am touched with his effort and feel safe somehow. Like, I knew he wouldn’t eat people.. haha XD

From the Pulau Ketam outing, I’ve learned more about him. He was pretty humorous guy who can make you cried while laughing. LOL…

However, I did not know that he can be romantic because after that Pulau Ketam 1 day trip, on the very same day, he invited me for a dinner. He said that he will bring me somewhere nice. He was sure that I will enjoy the place and snapped a lot of pictures because, he said “You’re a blogger. I am sure you would want to blog about that ambience place'”. Besides, he even asked me to wear something nice and comfortable before fetching me back home from Pulau Ketam.

Now, to think about it.. it was actually part of the excuses lor because….

At Bumbu Bali, Puchong

He confessed his feeling to me and ‘proposed’ me to be his girlfriend with a bouquet of beautiful pink and purple roses on his hand while waiting at the staircase. He PROPOSED!!!?? No! I mean, the way he gave me the flowers and his opening words sounded like a proposal.

At one point, I was thinking, “Today is Valentine Day kah? No… My Birthday? No..”. Seriously, I had never expected anything more than a friend (or so soon) because, well.. we knew about each other just nearly a month and I didn’t know my feeling yet.

I didn’t know how to respond to his unexpected confession when both hands of mine were holding his flowers while he was confessing his feeling to me, accompanied by a list of sentimental English songs. All I knew was my face turned out to be hot as a result of over-blushing effect >.<

In the end, I was some sort of ‘rejected’ him because… I was in dilemma and I wasn’t sure if I am ready for a relationship. Plus, I was seriously shocked! I had never expected such a romantic scene would ever happened to me and I wasn’t prepare for it. Things were so normal when we were at Pulau Ketam few hours ago, and things were ~~360~~ 180 degree changed when the night took charge.

I told him how I felt and he understood and gave me time to think about him before the night almost ended.

Again, I went back home with serious heart-pounding and pinkish cheeks effects with 12 roses on my hand – but happy with the time we had spent together.

To be continue.

Love Saves Me From Fears

2012-07-03T10:56:00.001+08:00

Lately, I am constantly being attacked by the feeling of fears and worries which I could not control by the brain. I have tried to use all the knowledge which I’ve learned from Law Of Attraction, but then.. it fails somehow. Well, I truly know why because my mind was tired and often it was distracted with my pessimistic thoughts.

I am facing crisis with my work at this moment. Some students started misbehaving in the class while at the same time I am handling the overloading of paperwork. Probably these are what causing me to feel lost at the moment. Teaching is really not an easy job (but with faith, it can be a rewarding one). I didn’t know how to handle till yesterday, I decided to take a break and place myself into another perspective – so that I can see another angle of the problem.

Decided to nurture my inner child with Baby Panda on my hand ;)

Well, things are better when I decided to nurture myself while finding a good solution over my fears. However, my effort was not as strong as gaining the support from loved ones, especially from my partner. The power is overwhelming and it reduces the fear in me almost immediately when Calv insisted to call and discuss over my issue.

Although, the conversation didn’t solve much of my problem, but the feeling of knowing someone is always there and care for me cure the frightening heart. Thank you dear. I’m blessed to have you.

So, things are much better when I woke up this morning, breathing in the fresh air while listening to the bird chirping happily. I am happy that I am still alive and able to witness the beauty of mother’s earth in the town area. Besides, I am thankful that I could still plant some seeds in people and make a little different in their lives (I know I have and will still doing it).

Don’t worry about me folks. It is just another adventure of mine when my roller coaster is moving down. I am sure it will come up again in no time and do another 360 turns that will catch your heart and scream in excitement for me.. So ya, just stay with me and see what I am capable of to make your heart goes wild with my experiences *confident* ;)

Oh.. by the day, I have already drafted a story that related to this picture. Didn’t manage to finish the post beautifully, so I decided to postpone it to another inspiring evening (or midnight).

Probably will share it by tomorrow morning. Have a good Tuesday my dear friends. Visit me again!

#rekomemories 1

2012-06-29T11:40:00.001+08:00

Apabila saya sedang mengajar 1KM1 petang semalam, terdapat 3 murid perempuan (Form 4/5) yang turun dari tangga dan salah seorangnya menjerit, "Eeeeiiih... Cikgu baru lah.. comelnya".

Dia memberitahu kawan sebelahnya lalu bertanya saya yang sedang gigih mengajar, "Cikgu comel-lah. Cikgu, cikgu kan?". Dan saya balas, "Oohh.. bukan".

Tidak berputus asa, dia terus bertanya, "Oohh.. cikgu pratikal ke?". Pelajar lelaki 1KM1 mula ketawa apabila saya menjawab dengan senyuman manis, "Bukanlah.. saya seorang pelajar".

Tanpa disangka, mereka percaya dan akhirnya membalas, "Emmm... patutlah comel sebab masih pelajar. Kamu memang comel lah.. Ok.. bye~"

Akhirnya, saya bersama pelajar lelaki 1KM1 ketawa terbahak-bahak.

#rekomemories

One Piece Oishi Green Tea Collection

2012-06-20T00:49:00.001+08:00

Before I decided to drink them all up, I should take good photos of my new One Piece green tea collection bought by Calv last week at Thailand.

The packaging are adorable and attractive – probably because I am a big fans of this anime? Or it is because of the ‘person’ who bought them all the way from Thailand? Haha.. well, I say both ;)

From the left – Sanji, Zoro, Yusop, Chopper, Luffy and Robbin.

Aren’t they adorable? =D

Especially the pink one – Chopper! Among all the 6 packages, I love this the most. Chopper is one of my favorite character in One Piece. He is simple adorable <3

Another reason is because, the box is pink in color together with pink straw! Guess what, with strawberry flavour. Emm… now i wonder how it will taste.

Ok. Finish showing off my thoughtful gift from Calv. Now, it is time to sleep. Good night everyone ;)

P/s: I wonder when will I ever finish them because they are simple adorable and special!

P/s/s: Any One Piece fans here?

Success – is not always what you see.

2012-06-14T10:13:00.001+08:00

I might not see the fruits now.

Or my fruits have not even grown. However I believe that one day, I will see the fruits in the end of my chapter – the growth in myself, people around me and my students.

This picture is a good constant reminder for myself.
So, ‘BELIEVE’ is the keyword.