Jared

其实没有人真的在乎你在想什么

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Mon, 06 Jun 2011 02:06:00 +0000

生活有时是令人沮丧的，我们总是在意别人的言论，不敢做自己喜欢的事情，追求自己想爱的人，害怕淹没在飞短流长之中。其实没有人真的在乎你在想什么，不要过高估量自己在他人心目中的地位。被别人议论甚至误解都没啥，谁人不被别人说，谁人背后不说人，你生活在别人的眼神里，就迷失在自己的心路上。

疏忽

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Mon, 06 Jun 2011 00:27:00 +0000

所以，男孩请珍惜20岁时陪在你身边的女孩。因为，她是用自己人生最美好的时光去爱你的。二十岁的爱是最纯洁的爱，这种毫不计较为对方付出的爱，是没有精力再来第二次的……

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宝宝,所以,以后你不会再爱了吗?

一开始没好好告诉你我所面对的事情.
可能我太自信,以为可以解决它.
谁会想知道那些不好的事情?
事后才发现原来我只是个玩偶.

但玩偶也懂得反抗.
Mr Mike 你懂了吗?
没有人会想被别人摆布.
你想去澳洲找她的计划,早就给我毁灭.
这是我保护她的方式吗?

一开始想完美解决另一头的问题,又想同时间好好的开始一段好的恋情.
是我贪心吗?

我给的爱一开始可能慢，但每天都在增加。
因为我懂太快的爱就会太快结束-这道理我早就明了。
但从来都是真的，当我开始爱得深的时候，你却冷了。
童话故事完美结局的爱情不是都是由不好的开始程局吗？

一开始我还记得你说如果有个帅的男生和一个有才华的男生,你会选择第二个.
但是往往事情都会改变.
你能接受改变吗?

其实你也知道你会要求实因为你想弄得更完美.
你对要求的改变,对我来说是一个改变.
但是,是可以接受的改变,因为我知道以后的我们,需要我的支配和包容,很肯定的我想改变.
但我对于"你对我的要求"想做出改变,难道不是一个可以接受的改变吗?
好想对你说,我要为你改变,请不要阻止我.
我不够坚持是我心软的不好.

有时候,我好像握紧你,
可是还记得一开始,你身边有好多人的时候,我好想单独与你过时间.
因为不能公开我们的关系,我那时真的好想叫他,他,他和他离你远远的.
但是,他们究竟是你的朋友.我不能太自私.
总告诉自己要耐心.
至今,还记得你说:"他可以跟我们吗? "
吴克群的我..."没关系."

或许,
重来不认识吴克群的我，却懂得"没关系"可能是我的结局

一个我们都不想的结局.
但我说过,你是最后一个.
我会珍惜20岁时陪在我身边的女孩。因为，她是用自己人生最美好的时光去爱我的。二十岁的爱是最纯洁的爱，这种毫不计较为对方付出的爱，是没有精力再来第二次的……

我们努力吧.

Trembling

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Wed, 01 Jun 2011 15:43:00 +0000

your uncertainty, your response, your suspicious...
it makes me shakes and trembling.

i gonna prove them all wrong. cause i aint gonna give up.
i don't know why you unsure about my love, i don't know why you respond like that..or mayb i'm not proving it enough?

but i'm not gonna stop pumping my love towards you.
not until i stop breathing.
not until i stop beating.

i wonder what were you thinking?
do my words suspicious to you?
and i think i'm not doing enough?

:(

suddenly ur answer made me feel so far away...i thought i already on my way to its own track...i'm trembling

没告诉你的事

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Mon, 25 Apr 2011 03:08:00 +0000

吵架时想要哄你，如果你不听，不是不管了,是想过一会等你冷静了不闹了，再去哄你。
不曾提起你的不是,缺点，有时候只是认为可以给你依靠的肩膀，而不想诉说一大堆的道理。
想用更多时间了解你喜欢的东西,但希望不是在这繁忙,艰难的时刻。
对你没有太多的要求,不是不爱,是一开始就想要接受,现在也是,以后也是.
你不喜欢做的事，我不能去勉强你，不想要把我的意愿强加在你的身上。
叫你注意身体，不喜欢你熬夜，一定要你早休息是因为不想你明天脸色变差。
每天睡觉前，希望说晚安我是最后一个，不想你孤单一人，不想你一人独自睡去。
你生病时，买了药给你。可是却裼不出去,因为听到你说别人买了,不是想藏起来,只是想第一个买给你。
你脾气突然变得很差的时候，最担心的是你的心情和感受，其他的我却疏忽了。
想要每天早上打电话叫你起床而不是你的朋友，因为这是我的义务。
想每天打个电话不想短讯，是因为想亲口问候你。
矛盾的我想给你自己的空间又想占据你，这时显得我自己很不堪。
和你吃饭的时候，想多夹你爱吃的菜给你，但在朋友面前你不想让别人知道，只好无奈。
想带你加入到我的圈子当中去，不想瞒着大家，是因为有你我感到骄傲。
有时候你把我弄得很难受，我不会认为你是不爱或变心了，因为你越是爱气，说明你越在乎。你可能比我还难受

这只是我的想法不是对与错。
未能满足你的要求是我的不是，但体谅我的不足，我也想当超人可是我不能。请给我机会改变，也给我力量加油。这段时期对我来说很艰难，亏了不少钱，多了不少压力。我也不想这样，加上工作问题。努力吧。。。 :(

my last heart 4am forever

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Sat, 23 Apr 2011 17:04:00 +0000

i feel so cold and lost in myself. i lost a lot in an investment. and i dunno how to face it. i need you so much but u just put up a quarrel on me. i didn't mean to fight back but to explain. :( i
m sorry i'm always not good for you. ... been asking around and they said this is so small matter. and yet i feel i might be wrong in the end for not being agressive, passion enough? i dunno what i've regretting...

sigh, been listening to same song and facing all these trouble, been shock to hear kane's death. RIP to kane. ash said her bf was very sad. They are lovely birds... how could this happens?

Was wondering some stupid thought, seems i lost in investment and losing support, mayb i change my life for kane, and he is back alive happy ending with his gf, and i just get away from the payment debt? LOL.

when u're feeling alone, cut off from this cruel world, your instinct tells you to run. listen to your heart, those angel voices, they'll sing for you and bring ur heart home. when you've suffered enough, and your sprint is breaking, you're growing desperate from the fight.

when life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind.
remember all the sadness and let it go~~

白痴

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Tue, 05 Apr 2011 05:26:00 +0000

每天急什么？一起身就想她有用吗？
你的努力别人都看不到。。。
原来所有一切都是费的。。。
都告诉你她昨晚很开心。。。
这意味着你并不重要。。。
你以为是童话故事啊？
笨蛋。。。诚心能换来什么？
每天计划你和她的时间安排，一句“可以不要去吗？”就知道你是白痴。
买什么鬼礼物，她肯给别人请吃都不给你请，还说不要花你的钱。
哭什么鬼，白痴不要再白痴了。

自己努力过，别人不知道就算了。。
慢慢疗伤吧。。。安息吧。。。。
闷酒久久一次，一次久久。

I'm coming home, tell the world i'm coming home~

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 18:00:00 +0000

I'm feeling distracted and likewise attracted to all the things that you let me know,to all the things that you told. I know I'm not alone, I'm not the only one who is broken. I could watch the world pass by just as long as it's you and I.

What if i pay my pride with a kiss that day, would i change my mood today?
What if i pull off the offer and stand alone, would you meet me in this broken land?
Heartache remain all alone.

Tell the world I’m coming home, let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday. I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes. I'm coming home~

Am I climbing or descending?

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Sun, 18 Apr 2010 17:29:00 +0000

Back to me, no short forms, no nothing fancy language, speak like a robot I will be.

Because I don’t crave any particular notoriety for my ideas and think the “look mom, no hands!” approach to functioning in a public blog is rather tasteless and jejeune, I’ve decided to speak like a robot, don't take my words anyway.

I’m not trying to become a popular speaker in the class or among friends. The focus should stay off of me. Diatribes and scenarios about how it’s all going to ruin, damn and we all had it better back in those bloody days tend to be right up my alley. I recognize the fallacy of relying on a golden past that wasn’t, after a bit of inspection, so golden after all. What would you do if you were me? Close friend aint close, healed pains seems to be healed no more. I never been perfect, neither have you? You can stay away from me, I never mind how does it takes to show you that how the life it seems.

It’s a seductive narrative frame, just as the opening scenes of movies tend to enter the story at a point of calm and composure only to introduce conflict and drama. The shift from one way of life to another won’t be a pretty sight. I need you no more, yes, not even you. If this is what i'm doing, am I climbing or descending?

I see the best of me inside your eyes

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 04:50:00 +0000

F4.5 1/22

Did you know, you´re better then the best.

I´m lucky just to linger in your light.

My heart is cooler then the flip side of my pillow..yeah,that´s right.

Just the thought of you can drive me wild...don´t know how I lived without you.

Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that.

Hydrophobia - My Paper Panic

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 03:20:00 +0000

I open my mouth. Open it so wide my jaws creak. I order my lungs to draw air, now i need air, need it now. But the airways ignore me. They collapse, tighten, squeez'em and suddenly I'm breathing through a drinking straw. My mouth closes and my lips purse and all i manage is strangled croak. My hands wriggle and shake. Somewhere a dam has cracked open and a flood of cold sweat spills, drenches your body. I want to scream. I would if i could. But i have to breath to scream. ... suffocating.

Noticed or Unseen

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 14:59:00 +0000

"I've been watching over you." He said. "That's freakin scary" I murmured. What is the worst thing that i can say, my boss wasn't my boss but a watcher. Get me? It is not how i intended. Having said that, a close examination of the problem, it reveals that I'm just puppet on a lonely string as before. Right, WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT? Man, this is my job. It's not profitable? it's entertaining and what are you expecting from me. It's oukay as you terminate the contract after all. With a sense of scumbag. I'll leave it to you. Since you're the MONEY-POLLUTER of the manipulator, money will do the talking i guess. This is not quite right at all, i could tell it's a matter of time, how much i could spend for you. You'll just like her with someone disappoint in you. I hate the stylish of you asking me to generate more money for you, it's restless and falling like a rain, it never stops. Back then, I wonder how would it looks like if one day i shot you on the wall just to peak your brain. The termination kills. Kick-ass.

So long~watch me wave, though with sun shines on my pain, i'll still root on this ground.
I'm going unseen now, do you notice that?

Fear? no

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 11:29:00 +0000

It's been a while i'm away from my blog. i'm currently living in a hectic life, wave and wave of tension, assignments are flooding in all the time. And yet, rushing assignment during my holidays makes no sense at all.

Well, kinda fear of who i'm going to deal with nowadays. All the faces keep changing, i cant pay my trust out easily. Kinda sounds like a joke when people claims i'm the one who set-up the fire, in fact, i've no intension of setting up any fire but i do remember the flames.

To all my dearest friend, watch out for those jerks, right out of justice. LOL

Only Once

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 10:43:00 +0000

Sometimes we have no option to select people who we doesn't want to meet with. Again and again we have to face them; it is not quite right to say they're bad; the fact is we're in the wrong channel, perhaps we differ in patter and style.

Back to the key of trust, I could tell you that the only thing we should count on - Payback. In any situation, i don't really care-did they treat me the same like i used to treat them, what i really dislike the most:they treat us in a opposite manner.

Well, they can stay in that way, all way always. We can stay far enough to avoid these people. They're only need you when they need. (p/s: wei liang you should know what i mean) They're just like H1N1...omg. creepy!

Everyone deserves one chance.
I only trust these people once.

Just a puppet on a lonely string.

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Sat, 25 Jul 2009 09:27:00 +0000

That was a bad move. I murmured to myself.
What's the point of doing things for people who doesn't appreciate. Again and agian i feel like a vodoo.

Way back to the holiday, who was the one, calling the name in terms of function; fleeing from one place to another? I can tell no one would serve you right-not even your close friend. Guess what, I was that vodoo..lol. What's the worst that i can say if i told you that my very first intention was to built up a strong foundation for our function. What you cares about? I-DONT-CARE!

If you pay your care at the first place, why i cant see your shadow during the planning? I wont waste myself for you, i'll throw it all away everything from the inside.

If there is something not right, please tell me, dont wear your mask, i thought we're freind? WTF with that as you mad at me with that face? I wonder why i feel like kinda guilty as I'm the one who ruin your job... I may end up feeling tire, but you're just like this with someone disappoint in you!

I'm done. Here you go my friend. I just hate the way you did that to me. So disappointing with you guys. I'm not helping perhaps. No turning back now, I wanna be pushed aside so let me go..let me take back my life and keep it all alone.

"Just a puppet on a lonely string, who would ever want to be the King?"

I'll paint this on the wall cause i'm the one that fall, I'll never fight again!

The Vampire

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 09:59:00 +0000

Vampire. The word conjures up images of suave, handsome, or strikingly beautiful creatures, such as is depicted in Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles. Those of you who are fans of her books are quite familiar with the arrogant and sexy Lestat.

One of the most famous vampires of all time is, of course, Count Dracula. The brain child of Bram Stoker who based his immortal monster on a Hungarian ruler know as Vlad Tepes, also know as Vlad Dracul-a, which when translated means "son of the dragon", a nicknamed that was well earned, for the count was a blood thirsty and ruthless ruler.
He was also known as Vlad the Impaler due to his habit of impaling people on very sharp stakes and letting them suffer until they died a horrible and extremely painful death. The legends of vampires were around long before Stoker wrote his book.

From very early times there have been reports and tales of vampires, or vampyr, which means, when roughly translated, "blood drinker". In nature there are all kinds of vampires. Mosquitoes, tick, fleas, bedbugs, and a species of bat that drinks blood, named most aptly the vampire bat.
But, what about the vampires of legend? Do they exist? There are some well documented accounts that indicate they do.

There was the case of Arnold Paole. It was reported that Arnold was bitten by a vampire while he was serving as a soldier in his country's army. When he returned home from service he became a farmer. One day while cutting hay Paole had an accident which killed him. A few days later, people started dying from loss of blood. The people started saying there was a vampire in their midst.

There were several eye-witness reports that said they had seen Arnold walking around after his death. His eye were glassy and his teeth had grown long and sharp. The locals went to dig up Paole's body, and when the had unearthed the corpse, there was no decay and there was fresh blood on the lips and a bloom of color in the cheeks. Arnold looked as fresh as the day he had died. The locals pounded a stake through the vampire's heart and heard the vampire screech in agony. Then they cut off the head and burned the body. The deaths stopped.

HIS DEATH, THE MYTH:

One legend says that Dracula dressed himself as a Turkish soldier to spy on the Turkish troops, and, by accident, was killed by his own soldiers. Raul took his head to Turkey, while his body was buried on a small island in a lake. After that, it was said that paranormal things happened round that lake. For example, once a group of prisoners crossed the bridge to the island, every one tied to his next, when the bridge broke down - none of them survived.
This information about Count Dracula and Vlad Tepes was provided to us by Irmi Meister, who was actually born in Transylvania.

Play this GAME, BE a sharpshooter!

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 13:58:00 +0000

Play it now for free at : http://www.freegameaccess.com/play-tactical-assassin-2.htm

Chocolate Test

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 05:41:00 +0000

Differences between MALE&FEMALE brain!

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 04:21:00 +0000

Little Cottage 2

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 05:56:00 +0000

After the movie - Terminator Salvation, we (me, florence, shin en, chang jian, eric, ker shin, chien wern, shy yan) were going to have our dinner at Coffee Island. While awaiting for the arrival of eric&ker shin, some of them were complaining about the food are not nice as they came there before. Well, after I glimpsed thorugh the menu, the prices are not cheap. Hence they made their decision to change place.

Well, this is my very 1st time to walk away from a restaurant after sitting there about half hour without having any order. After walked off that restaurant, we decided to go to Little Cottage 2 near penghwa there. (The prices are higher :P) LOL. Hopefully the photos below can do some talking. (do they?)

Valencia one day Rush (building and cultural survey)

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 09:34:00 +0000

Lately, I've been spending my time, arranging all the photos in my cam memory card. After some messy folding, finally i can resume my posting for trip to spain as ashley hunger for the photos d :) it is due to my harsh decision not to send them, as the file is way too big.

I'm not much a hippie, but it feels like sugar in this place. LOL?

LOL (girls: let the photo do the talking?) perhaps, but not really.

Photo taken during our climb up to top of the Balcon de La Pena (did i spell correctly?)

The stone tomb near Port de Peniscola

Mini shop lot near Sidi Saler.
Lots of nice rum there. lol.

A hospital near Mardes.

Top hill deck.

On the route to the top, but lots of tourist here.

At the center deck.

View from the Top.

As waiting Ashley to obtain the building survey data, we take some walk around the top deck.
Cant remember who bought me a drinks and claim that it is not vodka, lame Joseph...haha.

Jordan and Ashley at the central deck, is that Megburl? Sorry if i cant recognize you, btw you dont read my blog.

I love the skies merging with the rock hills.

Heading to Cuevas the so called "The Inmaculate"

In the Cave Museum

Lol, Gorjan, what are you looking at?

Jackal Dance

The 3rd day, we moved to a new hotel near the seaside, Sidi Saler. 4stars, lol!

Due to overbooking, i can enjoy a big room with two single beds.

My hotel desk

Washroom preview.

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Sun, 31 May 2009 11:31:00 +0000

DIVERSITY Britains Got Talent FINAL!

Megan Fox: Transsexual Posing as Alan Alda?

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Sun, 24 May 2009 04:51:00 +0000

Megan Fox gave a bizarre interview to E!'s Giuliana DePandi Rancic on the Golden Globes red carpet on Sunday night that included her physically comparing herself to Alan Alda and spewing forth other odd neuroses.

"I am pretty sure I am a doppelganger for Alan Alda. I'm a tranny. I'm a man. I'm so painfully insecure. I'm on the verge of vomiting now. I am so horrified that I am here, and embarrassed. I'm scared," she said.

I'm not pretty sure if MEGAN FOX is a man, but i saw this from a website:
http://weeklyworldnews.com/celebs/4783/megan-fox-is-a-man/

After a long crap, i saw below the forum, all comments claim that MEGAN FOX is a he?
OMG...lol.

Bungalow Stay Survey

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Thu, 21 May 2009 14:23:00 +0000

My Ballot Box

Do you think it is oukay to hold this event at the same place as last year?

yes

nope

either

Which place is the best for our event venue?

Somewhere near seaside

Somewhere we can have BBQ

Same old place like last orientation

Anything

If that so, which place would you choose to spend over a night?

Appartment

Everyone stay under one roof

Anywhere is fine for me

Would it be great to have BBQ that night?

Yes, it's fun to have bbq with friends!

No thanks, expensive.

No thanks, i dont like.

Do you think we should pay more/less or equal as junior?

Pay more!

Pay less! we contribute, we organize!

Equal, that sounds fair.

Would you like to pick a junior?

yes

yes, but share with friends

no.

Would you contirbute your personal trasport such as car/bike?

yes, i'm ok to carry others to the venue

no, i cant bring my vehicle there

Which thing we should focus on?

interaction

information for junior

games

Would you willing to spend overnight before the event started for preparation?

yes, preparation with friends is fun!

no, i want to stay in my room

Do you mind sharing a room with junior?

yes...that's awww...

no, i'm ok with

If we are having BBQ night, do you think performance is needed?

yes i love show

nah...lame.

View Results

Tarantula Magic? Funniest magic ever!

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Tue, 19 May 2009 06:38:00 +0000

Never know what is Tarantula?

Done? Not yet...this is one of the GUY who purchase this trick and WATCH how he did the effect! LOL funny!

Funniest LIVE Movie Trailer by Pablo

yuyu1kg@gmail.com (Sanyu) — Tue, 19 May 2009 06:27:00 +0000

Watch this 1st! dont hesitate! LOL

Funny? Hell no..this is not funny enough...watch the video below you'll know why i post this! LOL