tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37991101359265013342024-03-05T20:26:37.994-05:00A Little Less CrystalFrom fatness to fitness. A personal weight loss blog.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.comBlogger81125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-61101446828067645692013-09-03T14:11:00.001-04:002013-09-03T14:11:17.363-04:00Finding Crystal: When Is Enough, Enough?<a href="http://www.findingcrystal.com/2013/09/when-is-enough-enough.html?spref=bl">Finding Crystal: When Is Enough, Enough?</a>: Ever since October 2010 ( you can read about it here ), I have not been myself. There are times that I am scared of my own shadow. There a...Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-28597602641930672822010-08-10T17:51:00.002-04:002010-08-10T17:52:06.421-04:00Follow Me ThereHey guys. I know I have around 60 followers. Please come to my other blog <a href="http://alittlemorepassion.blogspot.com/">A Little More Passion.</a> I'm needing some support and inspiration. Thanks so much!Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-2225587013406466622010-01-26T19:56:00.002-05:002010-01-26T19:58:23.319-05:00A Little Less CrystalHey everyone! Just letting you know I have kind of hopped blogs. If you are interested in still reading me please visit me at Passionate Crystal located <a href="http://passionatecrystal.blogspot.com/">here.</a> I will still be talking about weight loss but the blog itself will not be a "weight loss blog." Thanks for all the support you have shown!Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-90662111611736082252009-09-30T19:37:00.006-04:002009-10-04T09:43:18.911-04:00Biggest Loser Episode Stab Me In the Back 3Wow. Just simply WOW. I have so many feelings about this episode. I don't know where to start or where I'm going to end. This was definitely one of the hardest shows I have ever had to watch. This show made my heart hurt more than any other Biggest Loser show or TV show I have ever seen. So, let's get right to it..shall we? <br /><br />Again, I warn readers, if you are sensitive to language, read with caution. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Important Quotes from Episode 3</span><br /><br />"Damn you sprinkles" (said by Rebecca during a challenge which we will get to in a min)<br />"Two pounds is useless" (said by Bob after a different challenge)<br />"It's kind of a slap in our face" (said by Bob to Traci after a challenge)<br />And the funniest one of the night, "I wanna take a cupcake and rub it all over my body" (said by Sean during a challenge)<br /><br />There was really nothing profound or that hit home with me this week. I was just in utter shock of the craziness of the show that any profound quotes got lost along the way. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Recap:</span> <br /><br />Okay, so let's recap. Can we all agree that Tracy is a few fries short of a Happy Meal, elevator doesn't go all the way to the top, etc. I couldn't believe what I was watching. But wait, I am jumping ahead of myself. <br /><br />This week was a week of "would you rathers." There were several challenges/temptations this week. The first one was a challenge to see if anyone would cross a stick for a two pound advantage. The catch was, if you crossed the line, you didn't get to work with Bob and Jillian. TRACI, yes the one who PASSED OUT the first f**cking day decided this was a good idea for her. Dear Lord in heaven. I swear. The bitch is nucking futs. Bob and Jillian were not happy either. Those Bob quotes up there were towards Traci. *Breathe* is what I wanted to tell Jillian. She really was not happy. <br /><br />So you would think she learned her lesson? Right?<br /><br />Up next was a temptation. Now this was one of the most creative I've seen. I personally can eat some cupcakes. I love cupcakes. BAD. So this would have been difficult for me. The idea was that whoever ate the most cupcakes got to pick who's weight counted during the weigh in. So, here we go again. Traci got the wild look in her eye and ate four cupcakes. In all fairness, Antoine ate two cupcakes. So, Traci was in control of the game. <br /><br />I thought Jillian was going to EXPLODE. The look in her eye was unlike anything I've ever seen. She was beyond furious with Traci. There are not words to explain Jillian's anger so I'm not going to try. Just know, in my home, I was scream expletives at the TV. <br /><br />So, we did get to the weigh in and Traci just further pissed people off. She was making friends left and right. Sucks to be her. The red team and orange team went below the yellow line and more expletives came out of me. I was and still am so pissed. Jillian did have her say before the weigh in began and this made me feel a bit better. Even Jillian said this was the nastiest game play she has seen. I was also happy Rebecca had a say. <br /><br />The red team has continued to touch my heart each week. This week, they won me over. Self sacrifice is one of the most humblest things a person can ever do. And that's what they did. They begged the other members to send them home. They had support at home. They could do this. Blah, blah, blah...I hate Traci. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Random Thoughts:</span> <br /><br />-I hate Traci. Her "that's all?" comment really sent me over the edge at the end. <br /><br />-Bob "hates the game." Clearly he cares about people. <br /><br />-I hate Traci. Can we make sure this is clear?<br /><br />-Bless his heart, Coach Mo was still trying to support his bitch of a partner. <br /><br />-Each show, Shae touches my heart. She grabs me by my stomach and forces me to look at myself. <br /><br />-Traci's eyes creep me out. She is CRAZY C-R-A-Z-Y CRAZY<br /> <br />-My heart broke for both teams up for elimination. However, I think the right team stayed. <br /><br />-I HATE TRACI- She needs to be psychologically evaluated. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Who went home?</span> <br /><br />We have already discussed this. The red team sacrificed themselves for Shae. Not for Dan. But for Shae. They know she needs to be here. And I cried. HARDER than I ever have. <br /><br />I was so happy seeing Antoine and Alexandra together. I know they will support each other, lean on each other, and I hope their love continues to grow.<br /><br />Traci pissed me the f*ck off one last time when she looked smugly at the orange team and said "I told you I wouldn't send Shae home." Bull and shit. <br /><br />I hate Traci.<br /><br /><br /><br />**Reading after posting I noticed I didn't say anything about the physical challenge. It wasn't the point of the show tonight. It gave immunity to the green team (which I was happy about) but not the point this week**Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-30676420600972389112009-09-23T19:50:00.006-04:002009-09-23T20:27:16.399-04:00Biggest Loser: Come Together for Episode 2Okay, so is it just me or has the show so far had a theme each week? Last week, the theme was to see how many times Jillian said the f-word and how mean Bob could get. This week, the theme was definitely cooperation and coming together as a team. "Everybody loves everybody" is the way one of my co-workers put it. I don't know how I felt about this episode so if the recap is a little mechanical, that is why. I just didn't see any competition and I'm not sure what is up with the pink team. I like that there is no certain team but I feel like the competition is not there yet. <br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Important Quotes from Episode 2</span> (There were a lot of them)<br /><br />"You owe" (said by Coach Mo to Julio)<br />"It will be done" (said by Coach Mo to the group)<br />"Gym is like a truth serum" (said by Jillian)<br />"Gotta let go-let go of mom" (said by Shae)<br />"This is your life, what are you going to do with it?" (said by Bob to Shae)<br />"15 of us just told week 2 where to shove it" (said by Shae)<br /><br />There was also a quote I liked but can't remember the exact words. Bob said it to Shae. It went something like, "It's okay to have feelings but have the strength to deal with them." I loved this quote. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Recap:</span> <br /><br />So the stars aligned for Episode 2 and for all the contestants. Traci came back, Sean found out he was having a girl, and no one went home. All challenges, physical and mental, were met. Curtis Stone came in to give a run down about nutrition and various ways of cooking. Then, the teams had to answer questions about what they had learned. Because they won, they had a 15lb advantage. <br /><br />They also had a physical challenge in which they had to cross narrow beams to platforms. The first two platforms were 5lb platforms. This meant if they got there, they received a 5lb advantage. They got to both so they received the 10lb advantage. The third platform was for phone calls home. They also met this one and got the phone calls. (During one of these, Sean found out he and his wife was having a girl). Then, to get back to the other platform, they would get a 10 more pound advantage. They also did this. I have to admit: I was proud of them. I cried. I honestly didn't think they would make it. For me, this was the best moment. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Random Thoughts:</span> <br /><br />-Julio really was pissing me off in the beginning. I was thinking he was intentionally sabotaging. In the end, I ate my words. He lost 19lbs...IN WEEK TWO!<br /><br />-Loved the tug-o-war with Jillian and Rudy. Then Bob joined it and it was hilarious. "Pull Jillian!" "I am pulling Bob!"<br /><br />-I loved the happy dance from Sean and Antoine. Really made me smile. <br /><br />-I loved the really touching moment with Bob and Shae. I have a feeling they will continue to wear her down. I don't feel she trusts them completely yet; but I don't know if I would either if I had gone through what she had. I think there is a lot more to her that we haven't seen so far. I hope this becomes therapy for her, and she uses this experience. <br /> <br />-I am liking how Bob and Jillian are working together. I'm also really loving Coach Mo. While I haven't developed a favorite, he's working on it. <br /><br />-The moment with Traci and Coach Mo was also really touching. I feel he really cares for people and it so shows when he talks with people. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Who went home?</span> <br /><br />NOBODY! The contestants met the 115lbs they had to lose together. In fact, they exceeded the original 150lb challenge by 5 pounds. Go Season 8!Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-81131806185198918952009-09-22T19:31:00.003-04:002009-09-22T19:38:54.844-04:00AHHHHI have opened Blogger three times wanting to write something. Anything. Something. To make me feel better. To make me feel like less of a bitch. To make the suffocating feeling go away. And I have NOTHING. So, I eat Laffy Taffy. Cause that is the logical thing to do. Eat Laffy Taffy and I will feel better. Or worse.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-20815749733920790602009-09-21T21:00:00.004-04:002009-09-21T21:10:30.759-04:00Change is ComingAnd I feel like I'm drowning in it. Change is happening at work and I'm so nervous. The good thing is I STILL HAVE A JOB. I keep repeating this to myself. I still have a job. I still have a place to go to and make money. I will still make my house payment. But there will be some adjusting. I'm moving to a different location but will have the same job. <br /><br />My second realization is that I am gaining a new family. I'm not very familiar with some of these people. But it's okay. I love Michael and I know he loves me. I can deal with the new family a little bit at a time. <br /> <br />I am still battling the IRS to get my First Time Home Owners tax credit and it feels like a never ending battle. I am drained. I am tired. And I just want it to be over. <br /><br />On a different note, I lost two pounds last week. I was happy. At this point, I'm just happy maintaining. I know the loss will probably be gained but as long as the scale stays around 245 right now, I'm happy. I will worry about losing when the wedding is over, the IRS mess is over, and the work change is final. I'll always have the family so that's an ongoing process. <br /><br />Without change there can't be progress right? Yeah, well, I guess.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-76009194751865160302009-09-16T19:41:00.003-04:002009-09-16T20:21:06.145-04:00Biggest Loser Episode F**cking 1I am thrilled many of you have looked forward to reading my Biggest Loser Recaps. I will be doing one each week. Let me warn you. I swear. A lot. And am very opinionated. VERY. If you have read my blog in the past, you know that I will not hold back. I may say things you don't like, but it is my opinion. <br /><br />During Season 7, I said that I would like to blog about The Biggest Loser (known from here on out as TBL). I started watching it during the third episode so I didn't want to start then. <br /><br />This year, I made a point to start watching at the very beginning. Last season was the first season I had ever watched. AND I LOVED IT. I have blogged <a href="http://alittlelesscrystal.blogspot.com/2009/09/biggest-loser.html">a little bit</a> about how much TBL has meant to me. It is such a motivation to me.<br /><br />Just a note as to how I plan to do these recaps: The set up I have used is basically the way I want to do this. Some important quotes during each show, a short "recap," random thoughts, and ending with who went home. If you have suggestions, please comment and leave them there.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Important Quotes From Episode 1</span><br /><br />"Lives that are fragmented..."<br />"Finding my new normal..."<br />"They all have a story they tell themselves"<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Recap:</span> <br /><br />Season 8 started out by making it clear to the audience that this was a season of second chances. I really believed that by the end of the show. I was so excited to see Daniel back. And Abby's story broke my heart. I don't know how I could pick up and move on after something like she's been through. I have blogged about how much <a href="http://alittlelesscrystal.blogspot.com/search/label/Michael">my world</a> is Michael. I have no idea how I would put one foot in front of the other if something happened to him. So, I admire Abby. So much. <br /><br />Several important things happened to some contestants during this episode. And I actually would have loved to see everyone's health assessment and wonder why they only showed a couple. One person that they did show really touched me. Sean had no clue that he had <a href="http://www.diabetes.org/type-2-diabetes.jsp">Type II Diabetes</a>. My heart broke for him as much as it broke for Abby. My family is rampant with all types of diabetes. My brother has Type II diabetes. He's 23. I know. And it could have been prevented. <br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Just some random thoughts from the rest of the show:</span> <br /><br />-Thought it was interesting they had the contestants run the last mile of the run the contestants did last season. It felt like I was starting where I left over. Felt comfortable. <br /><br />-There was a lot of swearing on this one. From Jillian AND Bob. Now, I'm not the type of person that shies away from swearing. <a href="http://alittlelesscrystal.blogspot.com/2009/04/two-posts-in-one-day.html">Obviously</a> So, even I was surprised by all the language. But in a good way. Because for me, I would NEED someone to get on my ass. <br /><br />-On top of a lot of swearing, there was a lot of puking...throwing up...vomiting...whatever. And this, I DO NOT do well with. <br /><br />-I love how Daniel was a cheerleader throughout the whole thing. I really hope he does well and continues to encourage and does not let the game go to his head. I think he is focused on the game but not to the point to where he forgets about other people. <br /><br />-Also, I loved Coach Mo. I loved his name, his ambition, how he kept eyeing everyone as they weighed in...everything. I don't have a favorite yet but he might become it.<br /><br />-I can't stand to see Jillian cry. This is sometimes the hardest part of the show for me. Because she is such a hard ass most of the time, I forget she is human and has feelings. And that is hard for me. <br /><br />-My last thought about the show is that I loved Jillian's take on the idea of stories. We all have our story about how we got where we were. We let our stories run our lives, define who we are, and by that, we don't change our story. Loved this idea!<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Who went home?</span><br /><br />Alexandra was the first to go home. I thought she deserved another week. I thought Julio DID NOT try his hardest. I thought he should have been able to lose more weight. And, I thought his ass got lucky. However, this may have been a good thing for her. She has lost 60 pounds. WOW. I thought she looked great.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-53830251226984770302009-09-14T18:51:00.002-04:002009-09-14T19:09:04.970-04:00Biggest LoserJust so you know, the following is a preview of The Biggest Loser. Might contain spoilers: <br /><object type="application/x-shockwave-flash" data="http://widgets.nbc.com/o/4727a250e66f9723/4aaec907cf5f5fd8/4741e3c5156499a7/bc52c7ce/-cpid/1db5494a21d91c46" id="W4727a250e66f97234aaec907cf5f5fd8" width="384" height="283"><param name="movie" value="http://widgets.nbc.com/o/4727a250e66f9723/4aaec907cf5f5fd8/4741e3c5156499a7/bc52c7ce/-cpid/1db5494a21d91c46" /><param name="wmode" value="transparent" /><param name="allowNetworking" value="all" /><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="always" /><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true" /></object> <br />I am so excited. The Biggest Loser starts tomorrow night and I so need to watch this show. I need the motivation, the pep talk, whatever you want to call it. Because I need this so much, I have decided that I will write about the show each week. I am definitely going to try to make this commitment to this blog and to myself. I will be writing about my thoughts and opinions about the show and my feelings towards it. My posts will more than likely come on the day after the show. I don't stay up and watch it. It's DVRed and then I watch it. So, it will be after I watch it. I'm going to aim for before Friday. I look forward to it.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-91024122754380826172009-09-10T17:08:00.007-04:002009-09-11T07:06:34.300-04:009/11 Memories<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjzWL5cfvwrNNdiA_IRvxjQ_WeGQKMHmuSm8eoiwRRqQX_w9F3WpNDGfk7VhPnc5GDka_OY8UBq0yRgcN0qzdxqacb9-ZhxY1Txv4I-FZin7AQdHYqwiB1SWzfRyJdFTR6Fmx2aevOJhI/s1600-h/September+11.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 151px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjzWL5cfvwrNNdiA_IRvxjQ_WeGQKMHmuSm8eoiwRRqQX_w9F3WpNDGfk7VhPnc5GDka_OY8UBq0yRgcN0qzdxqacb9-ZhxY1Txv4I-FZin7AQdHYqwiB1SWzfRyJdFTR6Fmx2aevOJhI/s200/September+11.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5379951062303696418" /></a>Where were you when the towers went down? I know you know. Kind of like the generation during the Kennedy era knew where they were when JFK was killed. <br /><br />I was in my living room, in a gliding rocking chair, watching the Today show. They broke in to report a plane had hit one of the towers. It was unbelievable. I don't have to review the rest. Everyone knows what happened and what has happened since. <br /><br />During this time period, I was a nanny to three precious little girls. I still call them my girls. I called their dad and got permission to get them out of school. I picked them up and took them to McDonalds. I felt this was something so simple but so real for me. I was heartbroken about 9/11 and my girls were my comfort that day. That night I listened as I heard no planes in the sky. <br /><br />My heart goes out to the families that lost loved ones this day eight years ago. Wow, I can't believe it's been that long. But it has. However, I don't imagine it gets any easier over time. <br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6bWZnqrU_47CNQAvg8kbJMHw1fuJ3lIYe7xzJPite8VzQO0T3ydw4mmaIxofZ33bMHomSYScnckrEaYTgvQNCy1eVVJQGHCtrSoON_MheKIJ5raF7Y3JD2F7-GXkt_S0X5fzquKF5a1s/s1600-h/Firefighters.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 120px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6bWZnqrU_47CNQAvg8kbJMHw1fuJ3lIYe7xzJPite8VzQO0T3ydw4mmaIxofZ33bMHomSYScnckrEaYTgvQNCy1eVVJQGHCtrSoON_MheKIJ5raF7Y3JD2F7-GXkt_S0X5fzquKF5a1s/s200/Firefighters.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5379951214868441922" /></a><br /><br />This picture has always brought me to tears. I can't imagine what it was like there.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-60644121407287347372009-09-10T17:03:00.002-04:002009-09-10T17:08:28.409-04:00Stressed to the MaxHave you ever dealt with the IRS? Did you ever feel like you were dealing with a stubborn two year old? I am in the process of trying to claim the First Time Home Owners Tax Credit and it has been a pain in the ass. I have bent over backwards trying to get the information that they have requested. I am convinced that there is not a "letter by a government entity" I am supposed to get. This is just something the IRS dreamed up to make this difficult. No one knows what type of letter I am supposed to be getting. <br /><br />Also, Michael and I are in the process of getting some information together to get a marriage license. The wedding has never been as stressful as this IRS and marriage license stuff. <br /><br />Weight is still the same. I have still be tracking but today has not been good. But, as long as I can maintain until October, I will be happy.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-77292542697549019382009-09-06T20:56:00.002-04:002009-09-06T21:10:29.929-04:00So, what HAVE I been doing?Since I haven't been blogging, what is it that I have been doing with my time? Well, honestly, I've been lazy and haven't done anything constructive. I have discovered Facebook and along with that, Farmtown and several other "games" such as this one. If you want to "friend me," my email is bagwell123 at gmail dot com. <br /><br />Also, for the first couple of weeks of not blogging I read the Twilight series. A couple of four times. Consecutively. Every day, during breaks and lunch. If I didn't need sleep, I would have read during that time. Also, after reading these, I decided to pick up Anne Rice. So I read the first five Vampire Chronicles books, the first book in the Mayfair Witch Chronicles, and now I am on the second book. So I read a lot. <br /><br />And, as I said in the previous post, I decided to get married earlier than originally planned. So, for the last two and a half months, I have been planning my wedding with help from my mom and some input from Michael. He's not really into the "planning" part. But, that's fine. I have enjoyed this immensely, because I never thought I would get to do it. I have always maintained I would never get married because I would only marry him. <a href="http://alittlelesscrystal.blogspot.com/2009/03/me-and-him.html">Michael</a> has always been "the only one for me." No kidding. <br /><br />For the most part, my eating has been okay as I have said in the previous post. I have had times, mostly on the weekends, that I eat out of control. Seriously. Like a bag of chips and dip. But during the week, I am VERY strict on myself. I think this is how I have maintained what I have. Since I have started back blogging, I hope this will help me stay on track on the weekend as well. We'll see. <br /><br />Thanks to those who have left me comments. I will start making my way around again. I'm going to ease back into this so it doesn't feel like something I HAVE to do. I want it to be something I want to do and something cathartic again for me.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-51783163743531746402009-09-05T16:13:00.004-04:002009-09-05T16:22:31.188-04:00I Think It's Time*Peaks around the corner* "Hello?" *Hearing self echo*<br /><br />It's been 17 weeks since my last blog entry. I think it's time. The good news is I haven't gained weight back. I've pretty much stayed in between 242 and 245. I still track everyday and try to keep on plan. However, there are days when I have went off plan completely and did "my own thing" (translation: Pizza and cheetos and chips and ice cream). But I have maintained which is more than I can say for myself in the past. To be honest, I haven't proactively, seriously, consciously TRIED to lose weight. My main concern has been to not GAIN weight. <br /><br />In other news, Michael and I decided in July that we are getting married in October. Well, let's be honest. I asked if October was okay, told him why I wanted to be married this year, and he say okay. It wasn't his idea but he's okay with it. We were going to wait until October 2010 but I just could not. So, here we are. I started planning as soon as I knew he was okay with it and have been planning ever since. I'm very excited and very nervous at the same time. <br /><br />And seeing as I am not busy enough already, I've decided to try to blog again. I need to blog. I have missed it so much. For me, writing is my "happy pill." My way to make it better when everything is so wrong. Here I go.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-88499603119949708672009-05-16T09:17:00.003-04:002009-05-16T09:23:50.305-04:00Break TimeI need a break. Honestly. The past few weeks for me have been draining. I have watched as the scale has stayed the same with only just the slightest change. Today, I am 243... .8 up from last week. I'm willing to bet it's water. I haven't been able to eat and drink like I'm supposed to. I've been eating a lot of crackers and other easily digestible items. I can't eat raw veggies at the moment because they make me feel like my stomach is going to fall out of my body. I have to be really careful what goes into my mouth. Last night was the first night in about a week I have eaten protein. And, I had to take something so I would not get sick. Water makes me want to gag right now. So, I need a break. <br /><br />I'm still going to watch what I eat, track my food, and find easy to digest items that are also easy on the calories. I desperately want to lose weight but the fact that my stomach is not cooperating and the scale is not cooperating makes me feel like I just need to take a break. Start over. Refocus. Something. <br /><br />And read Twilight. Have you heard about these books? I read the first last week and half of the second last night. My plan is to read more today. <br /><br />But I need to refocus. So, if you don't hear from me in a little bit, don't worry. However, if it's more than a couple of weeks, send out a search party. My email is bagwell123 at gmail dot com. I'll be out trying to forage food to eat, reading Twilight, and getting refocused.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com19tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-76093546028011214632009-05-13T13:17:00.004-04:002009-05-13T13:27:18.284-04:00I'm Not DyingI know, it's good news. My doctor got my blood tests back and has figured out part of my problem. My enzymes in my body are low..the enzymes that process food you eat are low. Which is WHY when I eat raw vegetables/salad, I feel like I am dying. So basically, I just have to take it easy for a little bit and let my stomach get back to normal. Hell if I know how it got this way and my doctor says that it sometimes "just happens." Let's not let it happen again shall we? According to her, I have no control over it and "it's not my fault." So, for right now, we have to continue eating things that are easy for the stomach to digest. Basically, the BRAT diet: B-bananas, R-rice, A-applesauce, T-toast (or other easy to digest items). We'll see what happens. <br /><br />I have decided that while I am having to eat easy to digest foods, I am not going to weigh. However, I am also not going to be eating unhealthy stuff either. My goal at the moment is to maintain, maintain, maintain. Once I get some strength back, I will begin to walk again. <br /><br />On a brighter note, I can go back to work tomorrow. YAY! Sitting here frustrates me. TO THE MAX.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-18251976648357129832009-05-12T16:28:00.004-04:002009-05-12T16:31:55.522-04:00Sick...AGAINOMG can I not just get better? I am so frustrated with feeling bad. I felt great until this morning and then I felt like my stomach was trying to kill me. No, I knew my stomach was trying to kill me. It felt like I was having a gallbladder attack and I don't even have a gallbladder. I took all kinds of stomach medicine and when nothing worked, I called the doctor. More lab tests (ones that weren't done before), xrays, that kind of thing. We'll call you tomorrow about the results. I've been asleep since 1:00 this afternoon. It's 4:30 now. I never sleep in the middle of the day. I still don't feel good and am still having pains in my stomach. We'll see what happens. <br /><br />BTW: Thanks again to everyone for their support. It means a lot that complete strangers care for me.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-30009152075401588882009-05-09T09:43:00.003-04:002009-05-09T09:47:13.937-04:00Weigh In DayI think I have officially hit a plateau. I have officially stayed around 242 for the past month. It's depressing, but I know the past couple of weeks have been difficult ones. I want out of the 240's. I have been here since the middle of March. I know weight loss slows after a little bit then gains momentum again. It's just depressing. I have eaten all right this week. I still am having trouble eating certain foods but I haven't went over my calories. I guess we'll try harder this coming week. I am also hoping I can start walking again on Monday. We'll see what happens.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-34625120660567307792009-05-06T17:16:00.003-04:002009-05-06T17:49:58.068-04:00My First Award- Oh My<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhr8hxFmszuHhdp_4hFq54Jdx6wh_Xh1r5r2CD3TuFneK9BQfX7lz-KVPidGnDdhhLw5YY8RX75Tmlb2ihdtWtp826TI2jCopkwaQ0DLbXkVKzgmWGVUSZ78wbPzoRmFbV5G5ieVtTG4p0/s1600-h/super+blog.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 169px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhr8hxFmszuHhdp_4hFq54Jdx6wh_Xh1r5r2CD3TuFneK9BQfX7lz-KVPidGnDdhhLw5YY8RX75Tmlb2ihdtWtp826TI2jCopkwaQ0DLbXkVKzgmWGVUSZ78wbPzoRmFbV5G5ieVtTG4p0/s200/super+blog.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5332823474900708962" /></a><br />I was so excited to open up my email today and see this. <a href="http://exhotgirl.blogspot.com/">Jen at Ex Hot Girl</a> has bestowed upon me this fantabulous blog award. This is my first one...Oh My! Thank you so much! <br /><br />Now it's my turn to pass on the love. I do a lot of blog surfing. I will hop blog to blog continuously. However, I do read certain blogs more because I can relate to them more. Unfortunately, I can only pick five so here I go: <br /><br />1. Jo at <a href="http://282point5.blogspot.com/">282.5</a> is nothing if not honest. She tells it like it is and is such an inspiration. I know she has already received this but I wanted to give it to her also. <br /><br />2. Lola at <a href="http://lolafierce.wordpress.com/">Lola Fierce</a> has been a great encourager for me. She blogs with a sense of humor and humanity. Love her!<br /><br />3. H.K. at <a href="http://hkweighin.blogspot.com/">H.K Weighs In</a> is also a very humorous blogger to read. She's very honest and very good at making a plan. Not only does she talk about her weight loss, she writes about life in general. <br /><br />4. Kelly at <a href="http://happytexans.blogspot.com/">Happy Texans</a> is a new blogger I have been reading. She posts her food everyday and I love that. She has great ideas and I love that. <br /><br />5. Angie at <a href="http://angiesweigh.blogspot.com/">Angie's Weigh</a> is currently going through a boot camp. I love that she tells about it everyday along with a recap of her day. <br /><br /><br />I love to read blogs from everyone. If I didn't choose you, it's not because I don't like you. I could only pick 5! Tape it up everyone and don't forget to choose your 5!Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-39849267750230135042009-05-04T18:23:00.004-04:002009-05-04T18:30:56.047-04:00I Have to EatOne thing any dieter knows (any dieter who follows healthy dieting principles): You HAVE to eat to lose weight. And I just can't. I can but it makes my stomach hurt so bad. I have managed to eat today and eat pretty healthy: nothing heavily processed. Grilled chicken and roasted potatoes is going to be my dinner. But anything I eat makes me hurt so badly. I'm actually SCARED to eat anything. <br /><br />I was able to eat on Saturday evening. Michael and I went to a WONDERFUL sushi/hibachi restaurant for dinner...he treated me. :) I had teriyaki shrimp, rice, and a couple of pieces of sushi. It was SO good..especially the sushi. Yes, it made my stomach hurt but not as bad as some food has. It was just a really nice evening. I love him. <br /><br />So hopefully, my medicine will start working. My tummy will feel better. I will feel better. <br /><br />(BTW: I skipped my weekly goals this week. I just want my stomach to stop hurting..that's my goal)Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-4297757850479720782009-05-02T09:29:00.003-04:002009-05-02T09:42:50.417-04:00Skipping the Scale?Today is my weigh in day. I thought about skipping today altogether and just weighing next week. I have eaten a lot of processed stuff this week, mainly because it was easier for my stomach to digest. I went back to the doctor yesterday because I was still sick and not feeling well. She said my stomach lining and stomach was inflamed. It could have been caused by stress or just changing the way I eat. I get sick if I eat anything of any substance. So, I was really afraid that the processed food would cause the scale to inflate. <br /><br />Then, I thought about being honest with myself, even if I was sick. So I weighed. And I'm not sure about whether I should be happy with it or not. 242.2. I'm back to where I was three weeks ago. Which is good, but I don't know if I lost it because I was sick or what. We'll see what the scale does next week.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-38425255696287188712009-04-29T10:00:00.003-04:002009-04-29T10:01:59.687-04:00Sick Day Part 3Okay, so I'm a little better today. My stomach does not hurt as much and I don't feel as sick. However, I'm a little afraid of the scale on Saturday. I have eaten whatever I felt I could hold down and it hasn't exactly been "healthy." I may even just skip the scale on Saturday and weigh next Saturday. <br /><br />Thanks everyone for the comments and well wishes. I promise to get around to all of you this weekend. For now, I'm resting.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-68889271744567136032009-04-28T11:22:00.003-04:002009-04-28T11:28:50.863-04:00Sick Day Part 2Okay, so when I woke up this morning, I still felt like crap. Instead of only feeling nauseous, I also felt like my back was on fire. Time to go to the doctor. So, I have a bladder infection. Freaking wonderful. So, went to Publix, picked up my antibiotic and came home. I do have to give props to Publix though. They have free antibiotics and my other medicine wasn't that expensive. I have insurance but I still get worried. Also, Publix has AWESOME healthy choices all throughout the store. Stuff other grocery chains do not have. For me, Publix has always been a little more expensive but they have awesome stuff. I will definitely be back to look around there. <br /><br />Oh, one more thing. I was so excited this morning at the doctor's office even though I felt horrible. I have lost thirty pounds since the end of January (the last time I was there). AND the doctor was so happy about this, which made me really happy.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-57359914776418273782009-04-28T08:29:00.001-04:002009-04-28T08:30:33.513-04:00I Want To Win ThisI entered a giveaway on Kelly's blog <a href="http://happytexans.blogspot.com/">here.</a> Chocolate is my favorite food group AND I have never won anything. I want to win this.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-61867899078450861152009-04-27T15:29:00.001-04:002009-04-27T15:31:29.923-04:00Sick DayI don't know what has been wrong with me today. There is a stomach virus/flu thing going around. Chances are, I have that. I feel so sick and so tired. My mom also told me that it could be just tiredness from my grandmother. Now, I don't have a three year old to look after, I just feel tired. <br /><br />On a different note, I found out about two weeks ago my best friend is pregnant. And THEN, I found out yesterday, my brother and his wife is pregnant. My best friend is like my sister so I am going to be an aunt two times. I'm so excited. I have to get healthier so I can look after and run after these babies.Crystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3799110135926501334.post-81479561225484472452009-04-26T17:59:00.002-04:002009-04-26T18:06:12.118-04:00Weekly Goals: Week 13I talked <a href="http://alittlelesscrystal.blogspot.com/2009/04/whew.html">last week</a> about setting weekly goals for myself. I plan to stick to that. I am in Week 13 of my lifestyle change, so that's why I put week 13 ^ up there. <br /><br />Weekly Goals: <br /><br />Walk 30 minutes each day: Monday-Friday<br />Drink 64 ounces of water: Monday-Friday<br />Eat better/Eat well: Saturday and SundayCrystalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05012710472493836198noreply@blogger.com4