Ægrus Somnium

cacophony of silence

Pariah — Wed, 08 Sep 2010 00:46:31 +0000

the days grows longer, as the sun dies away,
day by day, minute by minute the weight increase,
my toes leaving ruts in the sand as they drag with each hindered step,
the natural compass never guiding towards the light,
always, always leading to the void before me, the gaping pit in the sand,
the sand swirls about it’s lip, as it howls what seems to be a lullaby,
a lullaby of overlapping, echoing silent voices full of promises,
promises of peace,
silence,
comfort,
pleasure,
happiness,
finally, eternal happiness, the closer i step the heavier it gets,
the louder the cacophony of silent screaming,
the closer i tread the more hands fight to restrain me
annoyance and pain, collapsing in the sand i lay and suffer,
unable to reach the beckoning bliss, unable to fend the restrainers,
just there

Alan Wake was there, where were you…

Pariah — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 21:19:36 +0000

so yesterday was our cities fireworks, we’re blessed i guess you could say to have one of the best firework families in the world from our city, they even did the olympics a couple times i think, anyways, so like usual family comes over to see the wifes family downstairs and there is tons of free food and we invites friends to come upstairs to our place to chill in the ac play vid game get free food and shit since we’re a block from the display so all is going to plan and yadda yadda yadda no one shows up but whatever fuck ‘em i’m bored of waiting on people, granted i don’t go out a lot but there’s a reason for mine, so i spent the day with my wife and daughter and then stayed up all night til 9am playing alan wake because in the end i’ll always have my wife, daughter, and my video games, the rest of the world can gorge itself on my festering colon, time to climb back over my wall and load the weapons, the world on one side, me on the other, with my games of course lol

Tarnished Crown [a poem]

Pariah — Tue, 06 Jul 2010 03:38:01 +0000

i’ll bare my fangs, when fangs need to be bore,
they see my castle as weak, the walls as fragile,
they see it as a time to take my tarnished crown,
the crows always begin to circle at your weakest,
at your weakest you have the least to lose,
when you have the least to lose you lose the most,
and when you come to take what i don’t have you will see what i have,
one by one the cheshire grins will widen behind me,
for the nothing i have is nothing you can hold and nothing you can take,
yet everything i need to destroy you,
now as i struggle down this empty hall,
in the empty castle, with these soulless stones,
with my queen in her silks of shadow holding my weight and moving me onward,
and the innocence of a little one holding the torch to light my way,
you will learn how much nothing can be, and how much of nothing i have,
and how my nothing can hold you at bay

by yours truly

Deadly Premonition Review…

Pariah — Mon, 05 Jul 2010 03:13:16 +0000

this game is absolutely amazing, I see here people are still giving it bad ratings and saying it’s meant to be bad and meant to look like old RE, wrong, yes, it’s got old ps2 style graphics, yes the controls are bad, the storyline is amazing though, and if you want to know why it’s so weird and off the wall watch the old tv show by David Lynch "Twin Peaks" THATS what this game is basically based on, NOT RE or Silent Hill, and here is my case and point pictures:

Twin Peaks hotel and Waterfall

Twin Peaks Police Station

The Town Hall/Bell Tower and the "Pot Lady"

odd isn’t it, have you realized it yet or should i show the final piece to this puzzle and prove to the non believers, ok i am here it is:

red drapes hanging at a crime scene

there ya go, others have said this game is "a love letter to David Lynch and Twin Peaks" even the main character acts just like the FBI agent in the show, and there’s all the proof you need, hell even the towns people are similar, now, if you haven’t played this game because it’s a “budget title” send me an e-mail and i’ll give you my address or you can give me mine, if your a gamer that is, because i’m going to come to your house or you to mine and punch you in the face

Sleeper Hit of 2010!!!

I love me some email scams…

Pariah — Sun, 04 Jul 2010 19:21:15 +0000

so i got a new one, i get lots because of this site and my e-mail address right on it so i may have to hide it somehow, although it’s supposed to be hidden by some plugin i have, guess it doesn’t work so well, i got the fbi wanting to give me money, and middle eastern men, and ryalty, i’m gonna be filthy stinken rich, but this one was a nice one, a religious one, here is the letter and my reply, enjoy:

“My Dearest in christ,
My name is Mrs. mariam touray a nationality of Kuwait. I am married to late Mr. Emma touray whom worked with Kuwait embassy in Ivory Coast for nine years before he died in the year Octorber 2003. We were married for twenty years with a child. He died after an illness that lasted for four weeks. Please I know this may come to you by suprise , because you did not know me, I needed your assistance that was why I write you through divine direction, it is my desire of going into relationship with you.

Before his death we were both born again Christians.When my late husband was alive we deposited the sum of (Ten Million U.S.Dollars) with one of good banks here in Cote d’Ivoire Presently, this money is still with the bank. Recently my Doctor told me that I would not last for the next three months due to my cancer problem,though what disturbs me most is my stroke. Having known my condition I decided to donate this fund to church or better still a Christian individual that will utilize this money the way I am going to instruct here in.I want a person or church that will use this fund to churches,orphanages, research centres and widows propagating the word of God and to ensure that the house of God is maintained.
The Bible made us to understand that blessed is the hand that giveth. I took this decision because I have a child that will inherit this money but my son can not carryout this work only because i and my late husband decide to use some of the money to work for God and live some for our son to have a better live.our son is just 17yearold now and been grow up in africa, he have low manterity and my husbands relatives are not Christians and I dont want my family hard earned money to be misused by unbelievers,I dont want a situation where this money will be used in an ungodly manner.Hence the reason for taking this bold decision. I am not afraid of death hence I know that I am going to be in the bosom of the Lord. Exodus 14 VS 14 says that the lord will fight my case and I shall hold my peace.
I will like you to understand that my contact to you is a divine direction from God , I don’t want any of my husband family relatives to receive this money but I know that With God all things are possible. As soon as I receive your reply I shall give you the contact of the Finance/bank. I will also issue you a letter of authority that will empower you as the new beneficiary of this fund. I want you and the church to always pray for me because the lord is my shepherd. My happiness is that I live a life of a worthy Christian.Whoever that wants to serve the Lord must serve him in spirit and truth,Please always be prayerful all through your life. Any delay in your reply will give me room in sourcing for a church or Christian individual for this same purpose. Please assure me that you will act accordingly as I stated here and Please I will like you to contact me Immediately you receive this mail so that I will instruct the Bank to ! transfer this fund into your account.

Remain blessed in the name of the Lord.
Mrs. mariam touray and Son Johnson.
mariam.touray@mail.mn”

wasn’t that a nice letter. well, i reply now and then, sometimes i twist one of the other letters and send them back an offer, this time i just offered some helpful advice to the scammer

“My Dearest in christ,
I am very anti religion and would get the utmost pleasure out of not helping such an obvious scam especially one using religion as a ploy, may you be blessed in your many ridiculous attempts at scamming idiots out of there money, keep up the religious route, those people are usually the easiest to scam, hell, they freely hand over their money weekly.”

don’t hate the player, hate the game, peace nigga