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Love

2010-07-14T00:11:00.001-04:00

The life that we lead is merely temporal. Its a temporary existence that we all must learn to accept. The lessons of life are not always the easiest to come to terms with. But there is always a divine purpose in those things that make us come to an understanding with God. Even when (we) were without faith lost in the waves of emotional abandonment from God, his purpose has always been for the better of us, Even if we refuse to accept it or not.

Life can be a hard road of ups and down's. But its in those times that (we) learn those life lessons that God wishes for us to learn. It's in those times of "Rock bottom" that we see ourselves broken, torn apart, and the looks of a broken vase strewn across the floor. This is the time that we are made into a new creation, something that is made new with God's polish that one can not deny that (His) hand was in it (The Potters Hand).

He (Jesus) told them this parable: "No one tears a patch from a new garment and sews it on an old one. If he does, he will have torn the new garment, and the patch from the new will not match the old. And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. If he does, the new wine will burst the skins, the wine will run out and the wineskins will be ruined. No, new wine must be poured into new wineskins. - Luke 5:36-38

God created many things in this world including many languages, one which is universal. Its shared in every part of the world, its universally accepted and understood, Translation is not needed when speaking the language of "Love". This language we are all able to speak. And yet it's almost unfamiliar to people who live within the world. The ones that are enslaved in the fashion of the week, The Cool It of the month, The all amazing super sports star. And yet we don't live by the code (Language) that God has made so freely available, the thing that “Should” flow from our inner being. If we believe God Is love and that he dwells within us. Then we should be reflecting that light.

God is in the business of overflow, His Love comes in abundance that can never run out. I believe that the wine God pours out over us isn't just for us, but it is meant for others too! We are but the vessel of his Love to others. To Love others into the Kingdom. You may say I am but only one person, But so was Jesus and he did many great things.

God's Love is a force to be reckoned with, it has the power to transform, renew, set the spirit ablaze. Ignite the hearts of your servants God. Let us have the same desire that you have for the people, Open our eyes to your leading, lead us into the places where you wish us to go. We come with a “YES” in our spirit. We are willing and able. Amen.

The More I Ponder

2010-05-25T01:07:00.007-04:00

The more I ponder of the life I have lived. And the life I have yet to live, I see the glory that is god. The way he will and has breathed things over my life; And Into my Life; And made that which is into existence. May it be the Sunrise or the Sunset. Or to the mere beauty of his creation. The mountain tops, The skyline, People that he surrounds us with. The bleakness of the Lost and weary. And especially the insight and knowledge he bestows upon his people.

Some of you may know my story. My Testimony of me getting jump, My father being murdered, My Depression, My suicidal thoughts, the constant reminder of feeling alone, the deep desire to be a father, My strong compassion and love for people.

God has brought me through a journey. And as I once said to a friend of mine "The crossroad is part of the journey. Don't be discouraged about the process". As I think of that even more I believe it to be more true then when I said it. That the journey is what has made us what we are today. For me that process has had its painful moments. Those moments where the pain and the sting hurt the most are but only a moment in time. Its has been in my life a time of refinement and a time of comfort from God (Mathew 5:4).

My Father was an alcoholic. Although he'd never admit it. He would like to pop a bunch of bills to get high. For me this was a huge turn off. It made me not respect him back then. But without that I wouldn't be the man I am today. A man with conviction in his heart; Not for others but for my own life. I refuse to be that which was my father.

There is a sense of grace in those moments, at least for me. To come to an understanding with god. The more you get free from what we call the flesh the more you see the (flesh) in the world. Its a controlling force that wreaks havoc in our society. We see the flesh being the controlling force where the flavour of the moment could be sex, drugs, drinking, etc. See it how you may, But I feel god has shown me that its all a cover. Its a total shame of self destruction.

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. Matthew 7:13

When we start to see not with our flesh; But with the spiritual eyes which god has given to us to see, which that is inherently evil. For me to see how people live their lives by their flesh and not by their spirit in fact makes me feel a sense of compassion and love to be able to help them find their way home. Mind you I believe that most seeds that are sown, which are the ones who have seeded usually never gets to see the outcome of that seed "Lest Pride sneaks in". For me its a burden the lord has laid upon me, at times its almost unbearable to me. Its a longing of God instilled into me. Its a wild fire that is unquenchable and it burns with ferocity that it consumes my heart.

Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers. Galatians 6:7-10

I have been fortunate to see fruit of my sowing. I saw my obedience to God get my father saved before he was killed. This happened in April 2005. His Birthday was July 10Th. July 10Th is important not because it was his birthday but because what god did on his birthday a few years later 2009.

A woman started at my work and God specifically told me to be nice to her. For me I am usually nice, But these were Gods instructions. So I did what he said. She had worked with me for about a month or two until one day I missed the bus so we went and had a chat till the bus was to come. Four hours later we emerged from the van. God lead the conversation and I spoke to her and encouraged her and shared my faith with her. A few months had past until July 10Th came and I went over to her house with a friend to talk to her and to bless her house as she felt a darkness in her home. That day July 10Th was the day she gave her heart to the lord. For me this was as if God was confirming something to me. A seed sown and a seed confirmed. Since then Her Husband, Her Daughter and her Son have come to the lord. By one person guided by God and through his grace allowed me to be a vessel.

For me through my circumstance and by God alone has he instilled a longing and a sense of compassion and love for people. Which was not there before my getting saved and baptized. God has put me on a journey of Compassion and love to help people come back home where God wants them to be. I feel this is my true calling in life. At which it is my desire to be a Counsellor (also God Instilled).

So Let us Love people into the kingdom. Let us be the Light that God has called us to do. For me its truly hard to express the desire and fire in my heart for people. Like I've said its almost unbearable at times. I just want to hug everyone and tell them there is hope and God has always made a way out. For me I find great joy in doing what God has asked of me. And even you to do. Rise up! Shake off that fear. Yes condemnation will come. Even Mockery. But let you fight the good fight!! My only hope is that I don't disqualify myself from the prize, There is no pride in what God is asking. I pray that you see God and not me. But the mere vessel.

Why Do People Refuse God's Love?

2010-04-19T00:02:00.000-04:00

People are ignorant to gods love. Why is this? Well it all comes to upbringing or so I like to believe.. For me as I child I understood blank words such as God loves you.. Love isn't realized until we get revelation on it. For example.. A loveless home where love is rarely used or used loosely. My realization of gods love was from a friend who was the real manifestation of gods love through man.

You also have to realize that ever since we were born the devil has set his plans against us. He has plans to set us in bondage at such a young age.. Lies such as god doesn't exist. God hates you.. Anything he can to take you away further from god.. Satan is ah master of lies according to John 8:44.

But I believe people refuse gods love due to the fact that they don't want to give up control of their lives. Or they've been hurt by "Christians". But as I've learned now "There is no offense in Christ".

Where love is devoid love is hallow words.. Theirs many things that can make people not want to accept gods love.. Its sad but it is US! Who need to be the example for others..

One good lie Satan loves to tell is "if I live a good life I will go to heaven.." Oh the deception.. So we need to "Get Free, Live Free, and most of all Free Others". Bring truth to the lies and break the strong holds satan has made inside many people..

Just my 2 cents.. :)

What do you think?

From Lies To Truths

2009-07-18T15:40:00.004-04:00

My life has changed for the better. I can't deny much of that anymore. I'm on a better road then I have been in the last decade. It feels right and proper and no its not easy, But I know its where I am supposed to be.

About 2 months ago I almost gave up. The Devil had me in his grasps and was trying to get me turn away from what was good. I finally came to the conclusion that I couldn't allow myself to end like that because I started to believe all the lies that I have heard for so long in my life. It's almost like god said "OK your ready for these things to finally reach the surface and to confront them". I really wasn't ready as I'd like to think that I was. So I ended up reverting back into my old ways. I stopped going to church, I ignored everyone as I tried to deal with my demons. And even as I was going through that in my life Satan was still having his way with my thoughts filling my mind with more lies. It was very overwhelming for me. He told me lies like (Your unwelcome at Church, No one likes you, God is against you) and so forth. During that time god was still trying to lead me, and in that moment I tried to be obedient, kind and considerate to what he was asking me to do.

God in essence wasn't asking much of me, But it was simple. There was a new person at my work. Her name is Susan. A wonderful woman who I admire and now consider a close friend. You see God is AMAZING!! What else can I say..

But he first asked me talk to her, Not about anything in particular. You see at times I can be really temper mental at work and yet I was supposed to be kind to this woman. So as a few weeks went on and she had the van since her husband didn't have to work that day. I went and had a smoke with her since I missed my bus. So what was supposed to be a 15 min chat turned into a 4 hour chat right there in her van. I honestly don't know sometimes if its just me being easy to talk to, being a good listening or just god opening the flood gates of pure honesty and openness in people. I honestly don't know. But we eventually started talking about faith, and she was quiet torn between her faith and such. So god basically asked me to speak life and encouragement into her life. He used me to reveal His Grace, His Longing, His Loving and unconditional love. From that day forward things moved extremely fast. God continued having me bless and encourage her. God even asked me to give her $40.00 to help her out. She was in need and I wanted to help her. But I did it like god wanted me too, and it helped her. But the next day she gave me the money back. I thought she knew I gave it to her. But she said she couldn't accept that.

And then later that week I had a chance to talk to my Pastor to talk about what I was dealing with and we resolved a lot on the fact of the lies I was believing. Since then I have continued to push forward the gates and the walls that have tried to bind me down.

Susan and I have had several discussions and further discussions on god. God has used me in many ways with Susan. So near the end of June she invited me over for dinner, It was so good too! It was Pork Roast. And I knew that she felt like there was a presence in her home. She told me about after I told her I was going to get her a bible that her cigarette container moved all by it self. She was terrified and me I was like OK we will deal with this.. So that day I went over and then I finally went in the basement and heard tapping in the walls so I declared that it had to leave and then I went back upstairs. I enjoyed doing that :). So then on July 5Th Susan came to my church alone mind you. But I was pleased and a little worried on what she would think of a Pentecostal setting. But she enjoyed it. So that made me happy. And I'm also pleased to say that on my Dad's Birthday July 10Th Susan gave her life to the lord. You also need to understand that Susan was the only one willing to come to my church. Minds and hearts were closed in her house, Her Daughter, Her Son and her Husband. Her Husband specifically said don't even ask about me coming. So as you can see we (Susan and myself) were up against a little opposition to them coming. But they weren't opposed to her going..

But again on July 10Th Leanne and Myself went over to bless her house. It was AMAZING!! It was like a hot poker going through a stick of butter. It was as if the darkness in her home was gone. And then later Susan gave her life over to god. Its very special to me for 2 facts, One being my dad's birthday and my dad giving his life to the lord the last time I saw him before he was murdered. And the fact that Sue gave her life on my dad's birthday holds a double meaning and a special one at that.. After that day it was as if Walls, Doors, Pluming, The kitchen sink, The bed post had exploded and that opposition had vanished. The very next week Susan's whole family came to the church! WOW god is good :)..

Zephaniah 3:17

"The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.
"

So with that being said.. God is good.. And then today god started speaking something else to me.. I asked him how can people move past all there stuff, there pain, there past. Because it's something I struggle with as well. And god simple said. "What is a scar? Is it not still flesh and yet it isn't normal and soft?" so I said "sure I understand that". So he said "Well. I am the one that comes to heal over your wounds and yes you will still remember them. But it is healed and closed over. It doesn't hurt anymore. So I say to you why do you worry about the past? It was yesterday and today is a new day. It no longer has its grip on you". So WOW! As I continue to think of that context I realize that things have been loosened.. My dad's Death, Me getting jumped its past and its healed and yes a scar remains and I still remember. But That was yesterday and today is a new day.. It has no hold on me.. Because I am LOVED I am ACCEPTED I am FORGIVEN and I AM FREE!!!

Praise you lord!!

My god is Living and Active.. What else can I say?

Battlefield Of The Mind Chapter #2

2009-07-07T16:16:00.002-04:00

Chapter #2

Romans 8:5 Speaks to me today..

"Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires."

"You can not have a positive life and a negative mind" Wow does that make sense..

God spoke more to me about having a negative outlook and how it has hindered me tremendously..

Mathew 12:33-37

"Make a tree good and its fruit will be good, or make a tree bad and its fruit will be bad, for a tree is recognized by its fruit. 34You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. 35The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. 36But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken. 37For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned."

Speaks of the fruit that I have and haven't be doing. There is so much bad things I have said and thought.. I'm starting to feel better and better about my outlook on life.. Its very encouraging to me :)

God is my vital sign.. Its like a heart/pulse or the air in my lungs. I need to spend more time with god and more in the word and prayer.

No new Revelation today.. But I spent about 30 minutes with god in prayer and declaration.. God is good..

Battlefield Of The Mind Chapter #1

2009-06-30T16:08:00.002-04:00

I am currently Reading "Battlefield of the mind" by Joyce Maye rs. I figured it would be cool to share my reflections...

Chapter #1

I am very much like John in many respects. Especially having a passive attitude.

1st Corinthians 10:13 speaks to me in many ways..

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

I understand that we fight not the physical battles but the ones of the mind and that even so Satan has placed many strongholds in my life since I was very young.

God has anointed me to preach the good news. I am his workmanship.

Even though I don't have all the answers I know that god is for me & not against me.. :)

Welcome To the Theme Park

2009-05-14T23:14:00.005-04:00

Welcome to the Theme Park where my life is your roller coaster...

Someone once told me that I let my emotions control my outward actions. And I think I finally get what she meant. Those things that have so much to do with ones perspective can sometimes be blinded by their own circumstance. For me this is a daily event, work especially. At times it feels like you will never be able to get to leave and go home on one of those bad days. But then I have to remind myself that "Yes" I will get to leave soon. Its all about my perspective..

Today being my day off I've had a lot of time to think things through. I have come out of it with more questions then answers. Some including my dad, my life, my feelings, my actions. Someone once told me that things are refined in fire, And fire you've had.

Ever since I quit World of Warcraft I have learnt that I am a creative person. And that's something I never really knew about myself. Sure I heard it a million times. But I'm starting to believe that possibly in certain times in our lives we take it as blind words, until REAL revelation happens and you get one of those "UH HUH" Moments. There have been a lot of revelation that has happened lately. For example, I have had this CD by Seventh Day Slumber FOREVER!!! The album is "Finally Awake", And man do they mean it. This CD has hit a new chord with me today. Sure I liked the music.. But I actually got revelation from it in my own personal life.. In regards the song "Everyday Saturday".

It spoke to me specifically about my father, Who oddly enough also died on a Saturday.. Odd, But no matter.. But it also explains my struggle to maintain sanity in my life.. But the fact of the matter is that no matter what "God Is still god" and I'm still hold onto that with everything I have. But there is more then one thing that is keeping me standing still. I guess this is what you get when you ask god to help you grow.. In the end I suppose its almost as if I'm being purified of the things that I have buried deep down inside and I'm ready to deal with it. But the fact is I SUCK at dealing with things. As I'm sure some can attest to!

I guess it all comes down to is I really don't know anymore. The fact is that its Amazing that I still stand here. Through times in my life I would rather be dead then alive, Unfortunately that's as brutally honest as it has been. Mind you I'm not stupid, I know what that means. And it is by choice that I choose not to reflect on such flibber flabber.. (new word?).

But I'm really starting to believe in timing, The whole thing with my best friend coming into my life before all things came tumbling down in my life to be a vessel of Christ, The fact that I've had this CD since forever and I'm getting revelation from it NOW, And the fact that the image in this post talks about perspective. You could look in a mirror and just see yourself or you could see things that are bigger then you are. The fact that God had me work on this image for no reason at all about perspective to lead me to write about it, is Amazing. More Revelation please!

This is me signing off now! (CLICK)

Patriotism

2009-04-11T21:01:00.003-04:00

God has had me thinking today about Patriotism. So I decided to look it up, according to Brainy Quote Patriotism means:

Love of country; devotion to the welfare of ones country; the virtues and actions of a patriot; the passion which inspires one to serve ones country.

God reminded me Capt. Richard "Steve" Leary who was a native of Brantford. When he returned home and his funeral was to happen people lined up on Charring Cross to give there final respects. Which is AWESOME!!

Now mind you I'm not trying to detract the Honor of Mr. Leary or other soldiers. But we as a people will Honor someone that we've never met?, never would have noticed if he had not died in this war? And yet when it comes to God, We can't even rally/Honor behind his plans. Yes Mr. Leary and other soldiers have made the ultimate sacrifice for there country. But you know Jesus made the biggest Sacrifice, His sacrifice doesn't have national boundaries, its a selfless sacrifice for anyone willing to accept his plan.

When does the time come when we can rally behind the plans of god? What will it take to ignite the fire in all of us to have the passion for gods country and not our own little countries. Mind you I'm speaking about the church as a whole. Where does it start that we declare under one banner of god's patriotism.

Just a thought.. Also I made the flag in this post for fun. Its symbolic of the light shining through the cross to scatter the darkness..

The Life and Style of a Changed Man

2009-04-09T21:39:00.002-04:00

As I continue to move forward I am continually amazed by God's power to Transform, Save & Restore myself and others to action. I'm currently listening to a song by Akon called Freedom. In which he says:

“Freedom, Freedom, Freedom, Freedom
Everything I have, everything I own
All my mistakes man you already know
I wanna be free, I wanna be free
Won't stop til' I find my
Freedom, Freedom, Freedom, Freedom”

Which I feel is where I am at now in my life. Asking god to bring more freedom from things in my life. Over the past 2-3 months god has continued to transform my life and my mindset at that. I am now free of my addiction to World Of Warcraft because god let it be so. Amen to that.. I have gone from a introverted loner to an extroverted people person. Mind you I was always a people person. But due to my addiction to "World Of Warcraft" I became someone not of myself. For me it was a revolving door. It was an escape from my problems, an escape from my depression. But I would get depressed because I was playing instead of being what I was made to be. I neglected my friends & family. Today I am a different person.

Last week we had 24/7 prayer for the week, It was GREAT!!! God showed me visions of his glory. It was as if I had my head on daddy's lap and he would just listen to me and talk to me. What a unique experience.. Something new.. I'm hungry Lord!

The God Struck Sticker Project

2009-03-31T22:23:00.003-04:00

I believe that obedience is success. God Said... You do right?

Well on that fact. I felt strongly that god wanted me to be more creative. In a way he has had me making what I called Stickers.. These stickers are free for anyone to use to declare things over themselves or others. To be a catalyst in their own right. These stickers can be added to your blog, your own site, Or whichever you see fit.. At this point and time, I have made 3 sets of 7 color variation's of "God #1 Dad", "God Loves Me" & "God Loves You". There are many more to come I can promise that. Got Ideas? Please leave a comment and share :) And maybe it will make it as one of the stickers... I have one sticker on this blog right now as well.. So get going :)

Feel Free to check out my little project @ The God Struck Sticker Project

New Design

2009-03-30T22:37:00.001-04:00

Well here's my new design i'm working on for my blog.. Please leave a comment and tell me what you think of it.. Its still a work in progress... :)

2009-03-29T14:13:00.001-04:00

Open Letter

2009-03-22T02:39:00.003-04:00

These past few years have been a difficult journey god. I've had to struggle with battles in my head, all those lies that I believed you have torn apart to nothingness. But you know all this lord for you are the one doing works in my life. You see all that is unseen, the maker, the creator, the healer, truth bringer, teacher... I have even fought against you in my own anger and confusion. Yet... You still loved me..

You have brought Peace to my Body,Soul & Mind. I feel a freedom over me that I haven't had in my life before. So lord I continue to come with "YES" in my spirit. Let it be so.. Amen!

My heard cries for you god. Never let me go astray again. Lead me in what is righteous and right. Keep me on the narrow path. I've come so far, And I can't look back now!

God I’m in this place again I’m trying so hard not to fall,
but everything keeps coming down with the rain.
And I try so hard I forget to call.
Everybody’s looking around, and everybody wants to be found.
And I’m just hanging on; I give You all that I am.
I come to You with all that I am, I bring to You all that I have,
and all I have is nothing, and I keep on trying, and all I want is You.
Everybody’s looking around and wants to be found,
and I’m just hanging on.
I give You all that I am.
And as I sit here in the midst of You,
I come to You; I bring You all that I am.
Everybody’s looking around and wants to be found,
and I’m just hanging on.
I give You all that I am.

Everyday Sunday - Hanging On

Dear Dad

2008-09-15T17:08:00.002-04:00

Dear Dad,

I've been thinking of you every day. It feels like only yesterday that I talked to you. But I can't talk to you anymore. And I feel there are so many questions I want to ask you. But you've gone on to a better place, and I know its almost been 3 years. But I still miss you. And I hold a lot of regret on how things went down as they did. I know you always meant well. But you never knew of the hidden pain which I held deep inside because of your actions in life. I wanted you know I forgive you for beating me up those times when you were to drunk to know better, I forgive you for abusing your prescriptions and doing that cocaine you said you did once. I also forgive you for being an alcoholic but never have the gull to admit it.

I know you tried your best to slow down on your abuses. And I know that after many years of abandoning your faith that you finally did allow god to start peeling those layers off your life! I only wish you knew you didn't have to follow in your fathers footsteps.

I thank you that you taught me the bad side of things. That today I am a better man because of it! And I know that I choose not and will not ever become like you! And I don't mean that to be negative dad. I just choose the better path in life. And I'm sorry that I almost fell for the same curse that you had over your life. But I've been lucky. God won't let me become what you were. Because he has a plan for me dad, a plan for something better. And plan of ending this curse of abuse in our family dad. I have to do it dad. It will be for the better. Because god has given me authority to break this curse! IT WILL NOT BE ANYMORE!

You see dad, God has brought healing in my life. More then you knew of the things I held deep inside. I can't hold it in anymore dad, its destroying me. Its eating me alive inside. And I know you loved me, but you had a really hard time showing it. And I know whenever I finally become a father I will choose to show how much I love them dad.

But Dad I wanted you to know how much I've grown too! I've allowed god to tear down many walls that once were. Because after all he has all the keys to my burdens. And I know no matter what that I can come threw. Even as I struggle now that there will always be light at the end of the tunnel!

I just wanted you to know these things dad. Even though these things were hard to say and even as the tears run down my face. I still love you and I miss you more then you know!

Love your Only son,

Josh

He Know's My Name

2008-06-22T14:38:00.003-04:00

I got a chance to speak again to close out Operation God for the year. We will be starting backup in September. But God gave me a continuation of the original story he had me write with the JC Superhero. But this time god wanted me to talk about how people can act out because they are so hurt inside. So for this reason we look at Jessica.

If you don't know of the original sermon please read Jesus Superhero

Listen to He Know's My Name Skit & Sermon Here

Sermon:

Wow that was an amazing story... Don't you think?

I can't believe JC wanted to meet with Jessica even though she tried to beat up Sam.. What kind of love could see past her anger and frustration and see her heart as it was.. Lost in her own despair, She really was trying to hide her pain wasn't she?

I guess there's another side of this picture don't you think? At first we thought Jessica was just some bully picking on Sam. But it was really Jessica who was scared wasn't she?

What I don't get is why JC was seeking after Jessica so hard.. She wasn't even looking for JC. But you know he found her any how.. Hmm...

I got an Idea..

I want you to close your eyes for a second... Imagine with me that your at home. Imagine you hear the doorbell ring but it sounds urgent, whoever is trying to get your attention won't stop ringing the bell..

(RING) (RING) (RING) (RING) (RING) (RING).

And you think to yourself.. What can be so important.. Who's ringing my door bell. Then you hear a voice. But you don't recognize the voice.. All you hear is “Its me your best friend, Let me in, I got some amazing news to tell you. Its AMAZING!!!”...

(RING) (RING) (RING) (RING).

And then you think.. I don't have a best friend.. So who's trying to talk to me. So you peak out your window and you see a Guy in a Red Cape And he has a HUGE J on his chest. And then you hear the door bell again.

(RING) (RING) (RING) (RING).

And so you yell out “What do you want. I don't know you.”

And the man replies “Oh... But I know you very well.. I know everything about you... I know your name, I know your every thought. Will you let me in? Please Let me in! I Love you! I want you to know me... Because I know you so well.. We will get along great... We will be best friends forever...”

And then you think to yourself.. “Should I let him in? Should... I? I wouldn't mind having a best friend..”

Then all of a sudden your dashing to the front door and you open it. And there is JC in front of you and he says “Welcome to the family my child, Welcome.. And then he hands you these tools and then he says.. Now Go!”.

And then you say “Go? Go where..”

And JC says “Go tell others about me.. Tell them about my love for them”

Can you imagine that? I sure can.. Because its exactly how it is in real life.. God knows you, he wants you to know him.. To have a relationship with him.. And he's asking.. LET ME IN TO YOUR HEART!! I want to give you the desires of your heart.. I want to help you fulfill your destiny.. I have given you everything you need to tell others about me so therefor go..

Do you realize you have the tools? Do you want to see a friend, a family member learn about Jesus Christ and his love for them? So I say to you.. Go! GO! GO! This summer GO! This Year Go! Go tell others about Jesus. Tell them about his love for them. Tell them about the god you know.. You Have what is needed. And I really want you to know something.. Its not about Nicki, Its not about Matt & Katie, Jodi, Mathew, or Nick Or even me... Its all about Jesus! Its not even about the person who's singing the worship, its not about the guy running the computer or even the person speaking the word of god. Its about Jesus!

As we started this year we Graduated into Overt Agents.. To be seen. To be sent in his name.. And we Bless you this summer to use the tools that god has given you! Will you help someone else open the door and let Jesus into there hearts? We Bless you in Jesus name!

PRAYER:

Father god we pray over these kids which you have anointed for this time. We come against fear of sharing your good news. We pray that you give them the words to share with there parents, there friends about you god.. We thank you for such a great year. We Thank you for your son and his example of your love for us. We thank you in Jesus mighty Name.. Amen

Humbled

2008-05-08T14:38:00.002-04:00

The past few days have been amazing for me.. I have been watching this revival down in Lake land, FL the miricles god is doing down there is unmistakable.. Its very encouraging as well as uplifting to me. As I continue to watch I feel my heart fill with joy and fire. For the first time since my dad passed away, I feel the fire for god. It has been a rough 2 years since then, but I feel a hunger and a thirst that once was and I'm happy to finally reach that point again..

Yesterday as I was at work I kept hearing god talk to me about me praying for the kids later that night.. I was excited and thrilled that he wanted me to do this.. But as time went on I felt as if I wasn't feeling the same way about it. But I did it anyhow.. I won't let the devil steal what god wanted to do.. So I prayed over the kids, I prayed for revival over the city.. I then prayed for kids individually and it went alright so thats good :). Obediance is success as we say. And I hope what was meant to be accomplished. I take that with faith in Jesus name.

Today as I checked my mail. I had a letter from Bridge of Hope, Which I sponsor a child through. I have been sponsoring my child for the last 2 years. There has been many times within those 2 years where I (myself not god) wanted to cancel. But God strictly forbid me.. Because my finances have always been tight was mostly the reason.. But I'm glad I never fell pray to that.. So today I got a letter from my sponsored child.

The Letter Reads:

Dear friend,

Praise the lord. Thank you very much for you helping me. I have a father and mother two brothers and one sister. I am in the 7th grade. I like cricket very much and I like english and math. Also I like reading story books.. I help my mother and my father in their works. This is my hobby. I pray for you as you pray for me and my family.

Your Lovley amol

I mean WOW.. God sure knows best.. And I just feel humbled to just be able to bless someones life, That I've never met. It could be the difference of eating or not on any given day.

So all in all God is good.. :)

Thankful

2008-04-21T20:07:00.004-04:00

So much stuff has happened as of late. And yet no matter what happens I feel more happy then I've been in years. I'm surrounded by so many people who support me and make me feel welcome in their lives.

This coming from a person 3 year previously would rather hide in a corner and not be noticed. One who would not want to be honest to his own emotions, to deny his own yearning of relationships. To be pessimistic every possible thing in his life. To not want to be centred out. To not want to share his problems for fear people would think he just wanted attention.

But things have changed and my view on life has been ratified by the continuing love of others for me. I have gained much influence within the kids ministry I help run. I spoke a sermon for the first time this past Wednesday. Its amazing the way god can/does work through his people, including myself.

God originally gave me a concept of his qualities and his superhero type of abilities,to heal,bring repentance,to save,to love,to free,to give life,to restore, and many others for that fact. So he gave me a story, but that story didn't come right away mind you. During a two week period he would mention small details about himself. After that two week period god released this story to me. I originally thought it would turn out to be a skit with actors though.

I then shared this story with Nicki who runs the kids ministry to which I am a leader in. She loved it, but felt it wasn't the right timing for this to be released, and so I prayed and got the same answer (to wait). This kind of discouraged me as I really wanted to tell people what god was releasing to me. But my timing wasn't god's timing. It's something I've had to learn to "wait upon the lord". And to which I sat on the story for months, 5 in total or so.

Then all of a sudden with the help of Nicki, everything came together and god released it. Me and Nicki voiced the characters, I played the voice of Jesus. And Nicki played the Part of Samantha and Jessica (Bully). We then had other leaders get involved. Some played the puppets, some made the props, others ran the computer while I spoke. And Nicki even made a costume for the puppet. For that I am eternally grateful. You helped release gods message that he wanted to release. And I truly believe the kids got what was being said. It was really a humbling experience. At one point as I was talking about our relationship with god and our parents and talked about how if we told them we loved them and gave them a hug they would believe us because we have a relationship with them.. At which point one of the kids asked if he could get a hug. To which I replied "BUT OF COURSE". And then I got mobbed by other kids. That alone touched me very deeply.

It showed me that I am relevant, that I do have influence over these kids, that I'm not invisible, that I'm loved, and accepted.

As well as of late god has been bringing so much understanding of who he is and its amazing.

This is something I will always cherish.

My prayer is that your wonders never cease, that your love continue to flow through us leaders, that your anointing never end, that the kids will learn more about you, that your kingdom come, that your peace reside, that your revelation bring repentance, that you become real to these kids, That you continue to use us as an example of your love, That the kids feel safe in your presence, that your glory fall, that unity comes to Brantford, That your grace and acceptance and forgiveness covers us all.

I'm dedicated to this ministry, I'm dedicated to these kids, I'm dedicate to MY GOD!

Sermon Listed Below.

Jesus Superhero Sermon

2008-04-21T20:00:00.002-04:00

Skit:
Click here to listen to skit

Sermon:

Well that was a cool story.. Don't you think? (sad voice) But God couldn't love me enough to come and rescue me from my troubles, Sam must be someone real special for Jesus to want to save her.

Really are you sure?

How do you know?

Well then I have a question for you..

What kind of person did Superhero Jesus seem like when we watched him talking to Samantha? Was he very mean like Jessica was?

What do you think we can learn from this story?

Do you think Sam and Jesus are good friends now?

Well of course they are.

You see even though Samantha maybe not have been looking for God that night, God sure was looking for her. And he is even seeking after you. He wants you to know him, know that he created you for a purpose and that you were not a mistake. But that you were in his plans to be born at this point and time since the beginning of time. Did you know that in Jeremiah 29:11 it says “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.

So if God doesn't want to harm us why does he seek us?

If we continue on to Jeremiah 31:3 it says “I have loved you with an everlasting love. I have drawn you with loving-kindness”.

So if you were to walk outside Freedom House right now and find the first person you see and give them a great big hug and tell them you love them, how would you feel? (Weird Right?) Would that person believe you? (no, cause they don't know you). BUT.. if you walked up to your mom right now and said “I love you”, how would you feel? (Great, I love mom hugs) Would your mom believe you? (Of course.. she's my mom). SEE.. Relationship is KEY! In order to feel God's love, we need to develop a relationship with Him.

Do you understand he wants to establish a relationship with you. He Loves you more then you know or maybe you can imagine. Our relationship with God should be the most important things in our lives. Did you know that in Mark 12:30 it says “Love the lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.”

What does it mean to love the Lord with.. all your Heart?.. (give time for them to answer) ... all your soul?.. (Give time for them to answer)... all your mind?.. (Give time for them to answer)... and all your strength?

Imagine.. if we could get a love letter from God.. what do you think it would be like?

Isn't God amazing to love us so much? To want us to be his friend? When we accept God into our hearts then we truly are a friend of God. Do you want to pray with me and thank God?

[Prayer]

Father God we thank you for who you are. We Thank you that you loved us first before we knew you. We want to strengthen our relationship with you by giving you praise and honor. We thank you that you sent Jesus to die for our Sins. We thank you for the sacrifice you made so that we could re-establish our relationship with you and we may have everlasting life with you.

Father God we repent of our sins, we repent of the lies we have believed that you didn't love us. We thank you that you want to save us just like you saved Samantha and wanted to be her friend. We welcome you into our hearts, we pray that you dwell in us that we can be an example to others of your love. We thank you for these things in Jesus name.

Amen.

So, what is ONE thing you are going to do this week, to build your relationship with GOD?

Hope you enjoyed the sermon :) Leave comments :)

If my Friends

2008-01-19T19:15:00.000-05:00

If my friends were to talk about me I'd hope they'd see the real me. Not the one shrouded in depression at times. But my true self which I try not to share as I don't want all eyes on me.

I would hope they'd say I have a strong compassion for people around me and I will take that extra step to make them feel important no matter what is going on.

I would hope they'd say I'm a loving person.

I would hope they'd say that I'm strong and am able to over come.

I would hope they'd say that I'm a very forgiving person.

I would hope they'd say that I have a strong hunger for god and for his kingdom to come over my city (The city Of god)

I would hope they'd say that I'm very committed to anything I put my heart to.

I would hope they'd say that I'm honest no matter how much it hurts to say it.

I would hope they'd say that I'm friendly and easy to get along with.

I would hope they'd say that I'm a server by heart.

I would hope they'd say that I'm genuine and real down to the core.

I would hope they'd say that I have a burden to see people get saved.

Maybe you feel you don't know me at all. Maybe you never new my heart. But you oh god know all these things. And you love me just the same..

Thank you!!!!

2007-10-16T00:26:00.000-04:00

I will let the video speak for itself...

Freedom House Prayer Room

2007-09-18T16:11:00.000-04:00

Freedom house in Brantford, ONT is having a 24/7 prayer for 1 week straight. I took some pictures of the room which was decorated quiet beautifully :)

You can look at the full set of pictures Here

Visions

2007-03-21T22:14:00.000-04:00

I have been receiving very valid and intriguing words from god. Stuff that makes me think. Such as "Why is god talking to me so much now?". I'm the type of person who has a real genuine heart for the lost. And my giftings are more Evangelism than it would be prophetic but yet god is speaking to me in all these prophetic words. I don't know if its for me personally or if its for me to share. But I feel more to the part of me sharing because they are true revelations from god. To bring truth.

God began to show me a vision of a tree just as this, a large old Oak tree. And he began to tell me that this was a symbol of his strength. And that his roots ran deep within. Not to steal from us, as a tree usually drinks from the water to feed itself. But to give life to his children. To feed us in essence with his holy spirit. This vision/revelation happened on a Sunday about 2 weeks ago! To be exact (03/10/2007).

On the following Sunday god spoke to me during worship where he said to me (or maybe everyone else) that he was going to replace the fabric of who we are. The vision showed like a piece of linen cloth in a microscopic form where you could see it at its thread like form and a needle replacing each thread to conform more to god's will. I believe this could be an act of obedience for god changing us. hmm.. (03/17/2007)

Then on this Tuesday (03/20/2007) god showed me another Oak tree where he said "I am going to stir things up. And all the leafs that had fallen began to fly off the ground and start whisking around the tree. I feel Paul knew this to as he started singing a song asking god to stir things up.. I was like wow... That's unique...

And then today I was in the bathroom and god reminded me of a vision I had over 1 year ago and it was as beautiful as anything I had ever seen before. I seen children all around me laughing and the light was so bright and colours were so sharp and the words were "But a moment". Could this be a small glimpse of what heaven holds? I don't know nor do I want to speculate that it is or not.. But just maybe?. hmmm..

On a side note:

grace

2007-03-17T20:04:00.001-04:00

Baby got book!

2007-03-17T17:28:00.000-04:00

The Great Commision

2007-03-17T03:25:00.000-04:00

Evangelism is the great commission that god has assigned to ALL Christians to share with fellow man. I personally have the evangelistic gifting so I find it quiet easy for me to share my faith. From what god has been saying to me and with the people I have talked to I continue to hear a lot of lies that they believe. Such as "The bible doesn't say I need to evangelize".

But that's not quiet true as Mark 16:15 says "He said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation."

I feel like I might get classified as a Jesus Freak or a bible thumper or I feel ashamed to even try to share my faith. But do not fear man but god. Therefore the bible answers this with Romans 1:12 "I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes".

I'm unable to share my faith because..... I don't know the bible enough. I'm not confident enough.. But according to Philippians 4:13 "I can do everything through him who gives me strength".

I don't know how to show people that they DO NEED Christ or need forgiveness to ever see god the father. Galatians 3:24 "So the law was put in charge to lead us to Christ that we might be justified by faith".

We MUST surrender to our fears and become what we were meant to be. We need to humble ourselves to god's word and cement ourselves within his word. Consider... Just consider... What if?

Dose that make it real enough for you? It should!