Ask Uncle Sam

I'm a sucker for you

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Mon, 11 Mar 2013 15:53:00 +0000

Says it all. Over and over again. =p

Looking Beyond

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Mon, 11 Mar 2013 15:52:00 +0000

How many of us would sit and day dream. Strike a lottery and what next? Could go for the dream holiday. Put in the money into investments that would have meant a lot to most. Filling up the empty pockets of many.

A fool's dream?

Looking beyond this, we are at our natural pace progressing towards a goal. An undefined one. A relatively gray area.

So what now?

Angels to Fly

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Tue, 05 Mar 2013 16:46:00 +0000

Cold girl
No phone
They Say
She's in the class

Stuck in her day dream
Ever since she was 18
We were all on the upper hand
She don't want to go outside

Tonight let me climb through
Let me be with you
It is too cold for you outside
For angels to fly

Let me hold you
Warm you up a little
May you spread
Fly away with me

And I hold you tonight
By the porch light
Leaning close
Steal a kiss from you

If you don't want to go outside,
I'll be right here with you
Let's stay in
For tonight.

Kissed You

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 17 Feb 2013 14:22:00 +0000

Washing Grey

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Fri, 15 Feb 2013 20:55:00 +0000

As the night slowly fade,
A shade of grey covers,
A pillow of sky,
Filled the room with moonlight.

I clasp my hands,
Holding dearly,
As though a feather would fall,
Letting it go slowly.

The moonlight appears,
Feeling its cold warmth,
I'm rest assured again,
This is once in a lifetime.

I closed my eyes,
Listening to the wind,
I hear no message,
But I feel grace.

What is it you want,
From me,
From my heart,
From my soul?

A teardrop,
Unexplainable,
Falling,
To her soft skin.

It felt like a pierce,
So pain and plain,
Hurts my heart,
Deeply.

Pull me out,
Put me somewhere,
Another earth,
Another world.

I'm here to stay,
Not for you,
Tell me who,
For I want to.

Wash me away,
Cleanse my soul's weary,
Bring me to you,
Hold me closer.

Funny toy

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Tue, 12 Feb 2013 15:33:00 +0000

Being too analytical is a bitch to the heart. Being too emotional is a bitch to the person.

How now brown cow?

Distance

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Tue, 12 Feb 2013 15:14:00 +0000

Smell of rot,
Just a thought,
You rock my heart,
A weary tart.

Your shadows stayed,
The sun passed,
Your breath takes,
I taste none.

Creature of beauty,
Torture of tricks,
Mind me all,
For you were never mine.

Invisible to the wall,
Lonely soul,
Free me from this,
Fill me with grace.

Are we too far,
Or we have never moved?
Are we too far,
Or I'm just shying away.

This distance,
Is just drawing further.
So far,
I can't see you anymore.

Freedom

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Tue, 05 Feb 2013 14:02:00 +0000

As depicted in the movie - Gladiator. Maximus was thirsting for freedom. Freedom is every man's land of hope. A hope to be crushed nothing but greed and selfless aim. A man who taste freedom is a man who has conquered himself. Man's greatest fear is to face the devil, and the devil we face the most is standing right in front of the mirror like any other day.

Freedom is something we aim to want. It is a yearning, a desire. But what exactly is freedom? To a man by the street scrapping rotted bread crumbs or chicken blood, freedom is to have proper food - A freshly baked bread. To a man who lives in a manshion, his freedom is to start over with nothing and at least he has a peace of mind.

For an average man, freedom is to be someone more than himself. He knows he can be more than what he is. He strives to be better, and he climbs for it. Freedom is reaching the peak of his performane.

Big question goes to then what? What's next once you've achieved it? Do you reset the clock and start right at another great mountain, or does he simply build a fort and make sure that it never crumbles.

Interesting thought?

Grace

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Wed, 30 Jan 2013 17:21:00 +0000

Like the walking shadow,
I do not see,
I do not hear,
You're invincible.

River flows,
Train of thoughts,
Hush hush,
It's gonna blow.

Waiting the candle to lit,
It cannot be,
Far it seems,
Right next to me.

I want to hold you,
I want to touch you,
Not here,
Not there.

I wished,
I asked,
You came,
You went.

As you appear,
You carry breeze,
As you disappear,
You carry me.

Courage

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 20 Jan 2013 17:45:00 +0000

Courage to many is like going into a dragon cave and having the guts to face the dragon. But, is that it? I had breakfast today and had an interesting discussion with a friend of mine regarding social drinking problems in Malaysia. I used to fear that entering the work force especially in the banking line would lead me to binge drinking with clients and what not. The world is indeed a dark place as and when you perceive it. Truth is, I still continue to hold my glass of coke or peppermint tea without paying a single heed to what people say. Is that courage? To stand up and hold your fort in what you believe.

I came to realize my generation's balls have slowly shrunk. And if I were to nicely put it in description, the younger generations are like Ice Wines. They all froze in the winter and in the inactivity, they shrink to the max. Harvesting them can't get much out of it, and it has become an aquired taste to only those that are in luck with it. Then comparing to a well aged wine, they are worlds apart.

Observing how my generation has been labeled as the "generation WHY" gap, I came to see why. The fact that, we have lacked the initiative and courage to pursue in what we so believe. What happened to being an astronaut or a superhero when we were young. What happened to all those innocent believes in which our parents so much have supported us until we went to school and realized it was all nothing but a fool's dream?

A fool's dream is only considered a fool if they don't make it happen. I mean, Einstein was labeled a fool once, but look at the achievements he has trophied.

The power of belief can bend perceptions. It can also allow impressions to formulate, and create a world of no boundaries. There are risk in everything we do, but is that going to stop us? Is that supposed to even stop us in the first place?

Courage is taking that leap of faith. Now ask yourselves, why are you still where you SHOULD be, and not where you WANT to be?

God is great, and so is LIFE!

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 13 Jan 2013 08:44:00 +0000

Parking myself in Starbucks, listening to my favorite songs on a Sunday, I just thought this should be a sharing to all.

As we all know, Life takes us in many forms, in happiness, in sadness, and in doubts. We all been through that. However when is it that we are true and true to ourselves? It is always these occasions that makes me wonder, makes me want to dissappear and think of it for a while. God is great, and he didn't want me to spend a dime, and he sent a good friend of mine to meet. How God arrange my life encounters, I'm truly grateful. Yes, for once, I'm grateful.

Krushna, is a good friend. He has always been an inspiring figure to me. Knowing that he is blind, he has seen life in more way that most of us with sight can even see. In his own world, he said TRUST in him and SURRENDER. These were the words that hit me the last time I decided to have a major change in my course of life. This time again, I was sitting by his side, listening to his ever so kind words. Words that touched the very heart of my soul.

I quote him, and in exact, that LIFE is truly beautiful. For that the many beginnings we never know where are our endings. How often do we read on facebook that people are depressed of the issues and challenges in life. How often we came across the front page of newspaper knowing that nothing good comes out of it. How many of us here actually would admit that we are living the life that we desire to. Are we TRUE to ourselves? Most of the little gestures that we do in life are NOT the things that we do true to ourselves. We live to the expectations of others. We live in a world, reflecting on responses of the other living beings. 99.9% of our lives are directed by the mind and not the heart. And 99.9%, the heart guides us to the right path.

In one particular famous phrase: "Ask and you shall receive". The real impactful statement coming after that is that "becareful of what you ask". So WHY even ask? Leave ourselves in his Hands, and enjoy the ride.

I have truly forgotten how to enjoy this vacation of life. I've been chasing by the times, cruising by the clock of the day, just to wish that it would end and something would miraculously appear. This life, whose life is it? Is it yours? Your parents? Our soul has no name, no form, no religion - just pure energy of love. My name may be who I am given by paper. My personality may be painted by this body of mine in which reacts. But my soul does not register as that.

In my most daunting moments of life, I trust that inner voice in me. For a while it works, and later your mind kicks in to rationalize. It is when you rationalize, life becomes difficult. Agree?

When we were an infant, life was truly beautiful. We had the best in everything. The best was given to us because we couldn't speak, we couldn't rationalize. We trust the giver who are our parents, whom we treat them as God. So what happened? We grow up, we start rationalizing about every small details of life. We start to determine our own course, what's the best for ourselves. From what's best for ME, becomes what's best for I.

Krushna mentioned how there is always a check and balance in life. That God has created this check and balance irregardless any faith or religion you're in. Who knew, that such simple guidelines in life could slipped the mind of a young growing adult.

He gave an interesting example. "God is the yoyo player, and I'm the yoyo". Yes it probably takes time to register this. In life, God grind and mold us with "walk the dog". HE simply loves us so much that he will set us FREE. He let us venture into anything we want, but when our paths are straining too far away from him, he will "catch" us back. When life gets difficult, he'll "rock the baby" and cuddle us in HIS good hands. So even if we can venture "around the world", we will still get back to "gravity". Such an amazing analogy.

God is great, and life is simple. We just made it complicated.

Being true to yourself is key. What more can I ask when I was sent a messenger in times of need?

I'm truly thankful.

Little Things

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Mon, 07 Jan 2013 16:27:00 +0000

Little joys of wonder,
Makes my heart beat for you,
Makes my life complete,
With you and only you.

Have I ever told you,
How I liked your smile,
As though my mornings brighten,
And the sun shine through my window?

The way you stroke your hair,
Brings new refreshing look,
Was like a summer's breeze,
Bringing me warmth air.

Your stories of the world,
Make me just want to dive into it,
And my world was you,
The passport to an adventure.

Your gaze,
Those eyes,
Those tears,
I just want to hold you tight.

Tonight,
These little things matter,
For it was these,
That made me fall for you.

Over and over again,
Each and every day.

The Theatres

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Mon, 07 Jan 2013 15:56:00 +0000

I miss those little theatrical acts. The ones that I always wanted to tick off my list. And here is to adding on to the list as I've watched the movie:

1. Phantom of the Opera
2. Les Miserable
3. Cirque Du Sole
4. Hamlet

The only best place to watch is in UK. Just can't wait to check them off one by one.

Project Dear Darling #35: New Beginnings

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Wed, 02 Jan 2013 16:28:00 +0000

Dear Darling,

Some say new beginnings are exciting. Some say new beginnings are challenging. How is it for you? The new world has so much to offer. The new year has so much to give. Changes are never easy, but how are you coping so far?

When I think that new beginnings may be hard, I think that maybe it is that little stepping stone in finding one another. Maybe this little new beginning may lead me to elsewhere. Can we ever cut the chase and unravel the future? These little tests that were set up were to prepare for our final meet. Where our souls recognized old souls wanting and yearning to be together.

So why later and not now? What if, this beginning unfolds something ugly? What if this beginning shows to no end, and we just end up in a cycle? Fear not, for there will always be an exit tunnel somewhere. It may not be now, but it will never be never. There will always be one.

Fear can be the primal emotion and response when it comes to new ones. But fear not darling, as I am here too. I'm in this cycle with you. We're just dancing across a masquarade of people, and trying to find one another. Dancing tango in crowds, in search for the right beat and partner. I'm just across the street writting a sign board, while noticing you're looking for one.

Until the traffic lights turns green, may we walk, and cross paths.

Couch Feeling

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Wed, 02 Jan 2013 16:20:00 +0000

I'm tired,
It was a long walk,
My knees are old,
I'm to sit.

The feeling was comfy,
At first.
And then it shook,
And started to sink.

My back was low,
It gave up,
I was sinking lower,
Into the chair.

My arms were relaxed,
Then it slacked,
I was in a zone,
That no man own.

I wondered,
Then I imagined.
Slowly I dreamed,
Too soon to be awake.

You gave me comfort,
You gave me myself.
Now that I'm settled,
I wouldn't want to leave you....

Ever.

Reflections

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Tue, 01 Jan 2013 16:23:00 +0000

I spend the entire day camping in Starbucks, cramping 6 years of history to 1 day. Reading all my blog posts dating back in 2006 has brought me back to happy memories, and some not so happy memories. Despite all the different mixed emotions that I've gone through the past 6 years, I've learnt to embrace them. Some, I've learnt to forgive them. Many, I've learnt to forego them. Easier said than done, most of the blog posts really do have various meanings. I am proud of my achievements.

Funny thing is the way I used to write. It was as though informing my future self of what has been happening. Leaving little bread crumbs to track back to history and remember " oh yes, this was when I was in....". Curious little boy back then.

As the years progress, and working world literally overtook me, my blog posts have decreased tremendously. Many of those wonderful memories and thoughts were not jotted down. Well, it is definitely a good habit to jot it down if I have the time, or if I ever find the time.

In a brief, I'm proud of how much I've grown. The maturity in writting to myself. The wonders of how emotions could flow easily and a poem is churned. How I managed to maintained Project Dear Darling and still aim to continuously contribute to it. Observing the fact of how much I've been through since teen - young adult - adult. These moments were totally precious. It doesn't matter what others think of me; but in my very honest opinions, indeed I've grown.

I realized how each episode has brought me to reflect on life and love. How each subject has taught me to apply on a daily basis. For this, I thank my lucky stars and thank God for guiding me.

Indeed 2012 was a tough year. It was hell if you asked me. Heck, I managed to pull it off in 6 months. I managed to achieve a few things off the list in 9 months. Will 2013 be even more challenging? I guess it will be. With true test, will we find true strength.

By engaging with my inner self, I came to assure that it will be a smoother sail if I'm committed. And I pretty darn sure, some events will unfold. Good ones. 2013 will be an exciting year for me. There will be new goals to achieve and new directions to set sail for.

I have enough grounds and reason to go full throttle. An experience to be in, a lesson to learn. And all these, will contribute to my future self.

I wonder if education is gonna fall into place? =)

Perfect

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 30 Dec 2012 15:15:00 +0000

My sentiments exactly

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 30 Dec 2012 15:13:00 +0000

Project Dear Darling #34: One Step Forward

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 30 Dec 2012 14:41:00 +0000

Dear Darling,

Love has its seasons, and love has its reasons. Some say that love was created by God, some scientist said that love was motivated by a physical reaction. Has it occured to you that love was probably created by opportunities or choices? If a person would be a given a chance to freely express their will, their hearts to be opened up, would you think their souls will try to recognize one another?

Such simple philosophy of love but yet many would have missed the chance. It is like missing a bus ride to the next town and couples will have to wait the next bus to arrive. Some times, the frustration takes the wings off one's sail. What more when we close ourselves up into a cocoon and open until the next bus arrives.

What if there would have been other options in our lives that we were so afraid to hop on. Fearing that it will lead us to another destination? Or what if, it could bring us to another place where we truly deserve? How would we really know which would be the right choice. If we never go onboard, fear is only a mirror of perception, created to protect oneself from being harm, and at the same time preventing from being happy.

Happiness in a relationship could mean a lot to both, but how would you feel when it took you such a long time to understand that the person could be just next door or right in front of you?

Love is courage some say. Love is about making mistakes. And love is also about taking that one step forward, being sure that whatever happenes, happen for a good reason. If God were to so keep someone far away from us, it would probably be for our own good, and never run for them. But if God so allow that 2 souls to find each other, may the heaven bells ring and love shines.

Where do you think we are now? Are we prepared to take that one step and give each other a chance? An opportunity in which we will never know until we embark? Take my hand, and let's walk through this together.

Falling In Again

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 30 Dec 2012 10:57:00 +0000

Again and again,
I ask God,
Why me?
Why not you?

Why did the cupid chose me,
Instead of you?
Why do I suffer in silence,
While you breeze past?

I spend sleepless nights,
Differentiating between reality and dream,
I spend countless mornings,
To get you out of mind.

I don't know what it is,
But I need that one thing,
You've got that one thing,
The antidote.

Too long have my heart been asleep,
Too long have my nerves been weaken,
Now that all has been awaken,
I'm feeling it again.

Like morning dews,
Would you appreciate,
Or would you let it dissipate?

Reunions

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sat, 29 Dec 2012 18:00:00 +0000

Primary school reunions can never get too old.

A Stranger

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Thu, 27 Dec 2012 14:48:00 +0000

An absolute piece of work that expresses everything !

Mornings and Nights

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Wed, 26 Dec 2012 14:55:00 +0000

To sleep dreaming
To wake up dreaming
Again and again
Another day begins.

Sipping through the thick coffee
Reminds me of your morning kisses
Driving through roads
Reminds me of your shadow

Day gets by easily,
But nights dont.
Sleeping is easy,
Waking just makes it harder

To face the reality of this all,
Is to make my heart go blank,
To release its colors,
You have the key to it.

Your smiles says it all,
What more could you ask from me,
Your love takes it all,
What more would you want from me?

The world never ended

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 23 Dec 2012 16:51:00 +0000

Yes 2012 went through in a glimpse. I'm typing right now totally out of my mind without filtering much. I would usually compile my thoughts and try to reword it, but then again it defeats the purpose of blogging. Some of us are born writers who can make impactful statements. Some of us are just, like any other regular joe, who just carry out their daily lives, and care less on what most people think.

I'm not dissappointed the fact that 2012 didn't end. On that day, I was checking facebook and it hit me that most people were on a relationship, onboarding to proposals, and even arranging marriages. It kind of caught my attention to think where was I. If lets just say the world were to really end, I hope I wouldn't be in a "forever alone" situation. Men's greatest fear, and still is, is not public speaking - but dying ALONE.

As much as we are creatures who seek refuge in the comfort of a collony or some sort of supporting community, being with another of the same kind or having that affection has been the primary emotions of most. Men are such egoistic creatures that hate to admit, and yet time after time, we have proven ourselves wrong. May I not side such statements, but it is true indeed.

Life has been quite a jolly good time without to worry for someone, without to care for anyone, and do pretty much everything on my own. Somehow, the feeling isn't right when there is no such special person to share the kind of joy I seek, the passion I adopted and the moment to make someone else happy. It wasn't all black and white dull throughout 2012, just something was pretty much amissed.

They say behind every man there is a woman fueling their success. I agree to that.

Question is who and how.

Contrary to popular believes, man makes most decisions, woman created the opportunity for man to make such decisions in life - at least some major ones. That part of the story has not be filled up this year. Wasn't easy to meet many of those who spark an interest, but when they do come across, I was either too caught up, or just couldn't be bothered.

Past relationships has taught me to treasure those who are with us. But past relationship has also taught me that being single and alone gets more control in life. Whichever that may be true, I came to seek finding the roots of my nature, and that is to find a reason to continue what I do. The reason is simple - to be happy.

To be happy, is to have someone share that happiness. Enough said.

Wherever you go

noreply@blogger.com (Uncle Sam) — Sun, 16 Dec 2012 12:23:00 +0000

Can't stop listening to this song. It is too addictive. It is exactly what I need right now. Perfecto !