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		<title>Photoshop Ettiquette</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 07 Oct 2011 19:38:54 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Several people have asked me over the past few days how they should prepare a Photoshop file for giving to another designer or a developer. Jesse Lash pointed me to Photoshop Ettiquette, which is a great site but a little &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2011/10/07/photoshop-ettiquette/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Several people have asked me over the past few days how they should prepare a Photoshop file for giving to another designer or a developer. <a href="http://jesselash.com/">Jesse Lash</a> pointed me to <a href="http://photoshopetiquette.com/">Photoshop Ettiquette</a>, which is a great site but a little overwhelming with 40 elements. Here I selected those which I would want every designer to know (view the site for more details on each):</p>
<ul>
<li><strong>External File Organization</strong>
<ul>
<li>Keep your design to a minimal number of PSDs</li>
<li>Name files appropriately</li>
</ul>
</li>
<li><strong>Internal File Organization</strong>
<ul>
<li>Name layers, and name them appropriately</li>
<li>Use folders</li>
<li>Delete unnecessary layers</li>
<li>Globalize common elements</li>
<li>Use smart objects</li>
</ul>
</li>
<li><strong>Working with Images</strong>
<ul>
<li>Keep your shapes vector if at all possible</li>
<li>Globalize masks</li>
<li>Keep logos as vector smart objects</li>
<li>Snap (to grid, pixel, etc.)</li>
<li>Use blending modes with care (hard to extract to web from blended graphics)</li>
</ul>
</li>
<li><strong>Working with Filters</strong>
<ul>
<li>Consider extensibility (people will view the site on monitors larger than yours.)</li>
</ul>
</li>
<li><strong>Design Practices</strong>
<ul>
<li>Use a grid (960 is a great start)</li>
<li>Use drop shadows gracefully</li>
<li>Use licensed icons/photos (&#8220;Google Images is *NOT* a resource for stock photography)</li>
<li>Use web fonts</li>
</ul>
</li>
<li><strong>Before exporting</strong>
<ul>
<li>Be familiar with browser compatibility</li>
</ul>
</li>
<li><strong>Exporting</strong>
<ul>
<li>If you have to export the graphics (which I&#8217;d rather do, unless you&#8217;re a pro):
<ul>
<li>Save for web &amp; devices instead of save as jpeg</li>
<li>Choose progressive JPGs</li>
<li>Be meticulous and conserve file size</li>
<li>Name files for function</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
</li>
</ul>
<div>OK, in hindsight that&#8217;s a <em>lot. </em>I tried to link each to its description on the site, but unfortunately they didn&#8217;t build their code such that I could link to it. Check the whole thing out, but just know some of them are more than a developer like me would require.</div>
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		<title>“By God’s Will” (from John Stott)</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 20 Sep 2011 18:40:41 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matt</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Usually I just quote John Stott in little Tumblr quotes, but this is long and needs highlighting. It&#8217;s a fabulous little piece about prayer and God&#8217;s Will. Paul&#8217;s reference to the will of God, in relation to prayer (Rom. 15:32) &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2011/09/20/by-gods-will-from-john-stott/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Usually I just quote John Stott in little Tumblr quotes, but this is long and needs highlighting. It&#8217;s a fabulous little piece about prayer and God&#8217;s Will.</p>
<blockquote><p>Paul&#8217;s reference to the will of God, in relation to prayer (Rom. 15:32) is very significant.  He has prayed earlier that &#8216;now at last by God&#8217;s will the way may be opened&#8217; for him to come to Rome (1:10).  Here he again prays that *by God&#8217;s will* he may come to them.  His use of this qualifying clause throws light on both the purpose and the character of prayer, on why and how Christians should pray. <strong>The purpose of prayer is emphatically not to bend God&#8217;s will to ours, but rather to align our will to his.  The promise that our prayers will be answered is conditional on our asking &#8216;according to his will&#8217; (1 Jn. 5:14). Consequently every prayer we pray should be a variation on the theme, &#8216;Your will be done&#8217; (Mt. 6:10).</strong></p>
<p>What about the character of prayer?  Some people tell us, in spite of Paul&#8217;s earlier statement that &#8216;we do not know what we ought to pray for&#8217; (Rom. 8:26), that we should always be precise, specific and confident in what we pray for, and that to add &#8216;if it be your will&#8217; is a cop-out and incompatible with faith.  In response, we need to distinguish between the general and the particular will of God.  Since God has revealed his general will for all his people in Scripture (e.g. that we should control ourselves and become like Christ), we should indeed pray with definiteness and assurance about these things.  But God&#8217;s particular will for each of us (e.g. regarding a life work and a life partner) has not been revealed in Scripture, so that, in praying for guidance, it is right to add &#8216;by God&#8217;s will&#8217;.  If Jesus himself did this in the garden of Gethsemane (&#8216;Not my will, but yours be done&#8217;; Lk. 22:42), and if Paul did it twice in his letter to the Romans, we should do it too.  It is not unbelief, but a proper humility.</p></blockquote>
<p>&#8211;From &#8220;<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Message-Romans-World-Bible-Speaks/dp/0830812466">The Message of Romans</a>&#8221; (The Bible Speaks Today series: Leicester: IVP, 1994), p. 389. (emphasis mine)</p>
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		<title>A little bit of Chicago</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 14 Sep 2011 13:57:24 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matt</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Drew asked me to write a little about my transition to Chicago, since neither of us have had enough time to catch up recently. I have to start work in a few minutes, so I can only get out a &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2011/09/14/a-little-bit-of-chicago/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Drew asked me to write a little about my transition to Chicago, since neither of us have had enough time to catch up recently. I have to start work in a few minutes, so I can only get out a few details. We&#8217;re going bullet-point form today.</p>
<ul>
<li>(Almost) every day I bike 4 miles to and from my office, which is a <a href="http://www.staffhacker.com/356/try-co-working-spaces-to-get-work-done">coworking space</a> called the <a href="http://www.ravenswoodcoworking.com/">Ravenswood Coworking Group</a>.
<ul>
<li>I love working from a coworking space and networking with other freelancers and contractors.</li>
<li>I love biking to work. However, this morning the seat of my bike slipped and I suddenly looked like I was riding a low rider. Also, it started raining. Today was not my best day for biking.</li>
<li>The office is a shared space for all of my work. I work 30ish hours with <a href="http://www.flaxendesign.com/">Flaxen Design</a>, 12ish hours with <a href="http://www.mattstauffer.org/">InterVarsity</a> (I&#8217;m currently in transition between two jobs with InterVarsity, so it&#8217;s sort of an awkward spot), and then as many hours as I can fit doing freelance web design work with <a href="http://www.mattstaufferdesign.com/">mattstaufferdesign</a>. Oh, and I usually write two articles for <a href="http://www.staffhacker.com/">Staffhacker</a> every week.</li>
</ul>
</li>
<li>We live in <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rogers_Park,_Chicago">Rogers Park</a>, the most diverse neighborhood in Chicago and one of the most diverse in the country (as of the 2000 census.) We love Rogers Park. We also live 3 blocks from the beach. We love the beach.</li>
<li>Tereva&#8217;s working for an after-school program in Rogers Park and applying to Loyola&#8217;s school of Social Work.</li>
<li>I&#8217;m working kind of nutso hours to try to get us ready for the financial roller-coaster that will be school and school loans and less hours for Tereva and all of that. Most days are bike, work, bike, dinner, TV or book or conversation or a walk with Tereva, pass out, do it all over again. I don&#8217;t mind.</li>
<li>We&#8217;re still church-hunting. We&#8217;re trying to give every church we visit at least two visits, so it&#8217;s moving very slowly. We&#8217;ve met some really great people, but haven&#8217;t quite found where we really want to settle. One of our biggest priorities is feeling like the church is calling people into mission instead of either merely talking about how if you do this and that God will bless you or be happy with you, or being so scared of offending people that you don&#8217;t follow Jesus on mission.</li>
<li>I discovered an incredible barber shop called the <a href="http://www.belmontbarbershop.com/">Belmont Barbershop</a>. I like the place so much that I want to go back and it&#8217;s not even time for a haircut yet.</li>
<li>We&#8217;re still finding our &#8220;places&#8221;&#8211;grocery store, favorite restaurant, barber, hair supply store, doctor, dentist, eye doctor, etc.&#8211;slowly and surely.</li>
<li>In a city this big, <a href="http://www.yelp.com/">Yelp</a> and smart phones are infinitely more helpful.</li>
<li>CTA (public transportation) is glorious. 90% of the time we get in the car, it&#8217;s because we&#8217;re moving it for the street cleaning days. We almost never use it.</li>
<li>The weather here is beautiful. I know we&#8217;re going to freeze in the winter, but right now it&#8217;s autumn, my favorite season and one I haven&#8217;t seen in about 9 years. Wind, cool days, occasional clouds, sunny but not so hot it fries your face off&#8230; these things I have missed.</li>
</ul>
<div>That&#8217;s it for now. More soon. Hopefully.</div>
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		<title>Lax on Lent: Changing My Thinking About Sweets</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 22 Apr 2011 02:30:33 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matt</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[The longer I go without writing a post, the more epic I feel the next post needs to be&#8211;and the longer I go, again, without writing a post. Since I know this will continue forever keeping me from writing anything, &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2011/04/21/lax-on-lent-changing-my-thinking-about-sweets/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>The longer I go without writing a post, the more epic I feel the next post needs to be&#8211;and the longer I go, again, without writing a post.</p>
<p>Since I know this will continue forever keeping me from writing anything, I&#8217;m just going to break down and write something silly and modestly insignificant.</p>
<p>Every year many Christians celebrate the tradition of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lent">Lent</a>, a 40-day period of the liturgical year that culminates in Holy Week and ends with Easter. The purpose of Lent is to prepare oneself for Holy Week and Easter, and while many people observer a broader dedication to prayer and a greater level of spiritual awareness, many folks primarily focus on <em>fasting from</em> something in their lives, or temporarily giving up that thing to commit themselves more fully to the LORD.</p>
<p>Since I can remember I&#8217;ve fasted during Lent, and my fasts have ranged from giving up a particular TV show to giving up &#8220;being mean&#8221; for 40 days. There are some fasts that are very common among Lent-observers of my generation: Facebook, Internet, TV, sweets, soda. This year I tried to think well on what things have become like idols in my life&#8211;among other criteria, without what thing in my life would I feel like my life was crumbling? This may sound extremely silly, but since I learned that I had low blood sugar, access to things that raise my blood sugar has become a bit of an obsession, and although I work hard to raise it healthily, I know a bit of a sweets problem has snuck in. So, I decided to give up sweets, sodas, and sweet tea for Lent.</p>
<p>I figured this would be easy, but it turned out to be extremely difficult. On at least a daily basis, I find myself craving something sweet&#8211;not always even a dessert, but even something sweeter than rice, or beans, or a salad. I&#8217;m constantly wrestling with what I expect and the ways I justify those things.</p>
<p>But that is the part of Lent I&#8217;m used to, even if it&#8217;s not usually difficult to this degree. What I wasn&#8217;t expecting is the way my friends and family have pitched in to show the depth of my dependence on sweets.</p>
<p>To give you a little taste, here are just a few of the items that I&#8217;ve either tried to partake, or <em>have </em>partaken, without thinking of them as sweets (only to be reprimanded by friends &amp; family later):</p>
<ul>
<li>A breakfast pastry</li>
<li><a href="http://www.quakeroats.com/products/oat-snacks/chewy-granola/variety-pack.aspx">Chewy Brand Granola Bars</a> (this was today!)</li>
<li>A gas station cappuccino</li>
<li>Several peanut butter and jelly sandwiches</li>
</ul>
<p>My memory is failing me, but I&#8217;m pretty sure there have been significantly more incidences in which I blindly went about eating something that I was sure didn&#8217;t break my fast, only to have it pointed out how completely wrong I was. (However, I still maintain the argument that peanut butter and jelly is not a sweet!)</p>
<p>I write this primarily to point out even more ways in which fasting can reveal the state of our hearts and minds. Fasting is always a powerful way to devote our time, our attention, our addictions, and our lives more to the LORD. But fasting (and good friends) can also reveal blindness to the things that control us.</p>
<p>Each time I&#8217;ve realized my mistake, I&#8217;ve felt shame and the desire to re-start my 40 day fast. But of course, fasting isn&#8217;t just some exercise of my will. It&#8217;s a devotion to the LORD, one which needn&#8217;t end on Easter Sunday. As both Holy Week and my fast come to a close, they continue to provide space for me to separate myself, my life, my eating habits, my devotions, my time, and my desires for the sake of my LORD. May these things be separated for him long after my 40 days end.</p>
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		<title>Beard for Freedom: Loving Dalit children by forsaking my razor</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Nov 2010 18:01:21 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matt</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[My good friend Jon Lash and the rest of the folks over at Jon Lash Music are throwing a No-Shave-November to raise money to sponsor Dalit children. Essentially, all of the participants (see them all here) shaved their entire faces on or around &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2010/11/06/beard-for-freedom-loving-dalit-children-by-forsaking-my-razor/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>My good friend Jon Lash and the rest of the folks over at <a href="http://jonlash.com/">Jon Lash Music</a> are throwing a <a href="http://jonlash.com/2010/10/no-shave-novembe/">No-Shave-November</a> to raise money to sponsor <a href="http://jonlash.com/why-the-dalits/who-are-the-dalits/">Dalit children</a>. Essentially, all of the participants (see them all <a href="http://jonlash.com/donate/beard">here</a>) shaved their entire faces on or around November 1st (I waited til the evening of the 1st, so I&#8217;m a little behind), and will not shave for the rest of November. Just like one of those marathons where people pledge money for every mile, people are pledging us money for every day we go without shaving.</p>
<p>The money will go to benefit <a href="http://jonlash.com/why-the-dalits/who-are-the-dalits/">Dalit</a> children in India, providing food, education, uniforms, school books, and health care.</p>
<p>Here&#8217;s what my wimpy beard looks like right now (day 6):</p>
<p><a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/11/6.jpeg"><img class="aligncenter size-medium wp-image-1407" title="Wimpy beard" src="http://journal.thisenddown.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/11/6-300x225.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="225" /></a>You can see me pointing the the tiny bit of stubble that is finally growing in.</p>
<p>So, I&#8217;d love for you to consider sponsoring my beard-growing. All of my sponsors so far are donating as little as $.25 or $.50/day&#8211;for total donations of only $7.50 or $15. We&#8217;re not thinking huge bucks here, but rather a little pocket change to help out disadvantaged kids.</p>
<p>If you&#8217;re interested in following along with my beard-growing (new pictures posted every morning!), seeing who else is giving, or supporting my beard-growing, check out <a href="http://thisenddown.com/beardforfreedom/">Matt Stauffer&#8217;s No-Shave November Beard for Freedom</a>.</p>
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		<title>He Didn’t Just Save My Soul</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 26 Sep 2010 19:54:59 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matt</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[In the past month I&#8217;ve found myself telling the same story over and over&#8211;the story of my last nine months of self-discovery. After describing it three times in as many days, I realized that I might do well to write &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2010/09/26/he-didnt-just-save-my-soul/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>In the past month I&#8217;ve found myself telling the same story over and over&#8211;the story of my last nine months of self-discovery. After describing it three times in as many days, I realized that I might do well to write it down.</p>
<p>It&#8217;s a two-part story, the first (<strong>long</strong>) part beginning in high school and the second beginning at Urbana 09. The first part isn&#8217;t quite as important, so feel free to skip it if you&#8217;re in a rush.</p>
<h2>Part 1: It all began with Mrs. Marsh</h2>
<p>I&#8217;ve always excelled in math and science. By the time high school rolled around my older brother (I&#8217;m the second of four) was already enrolled at the University of Michigan studying some form of Engineering and breezing through his classes. I aspired to study engineering because I was good at it and it paid a lot&#8211;and because I didn&#8217;t really think to consider anything else.</p>
<p>My dad sat me down one day and said, &#8220;Matt, I think you should decide what you&#8217;re going to do with your life based on what <em>you</em> want, not what Ricke&#8217;s doing.&#8221; This was a shocker, and threw my life plans around for a while. I loved art and computers, and my creative writing teacher, Mrs. Marsh, strongly encouraged me to pursue English, so when I considered colleges&#8211;<a href="http://umich.edu/">UofM</a>, <a href="http://msu.edu/">MSU</a>, <a href="http://hope.edu/">Hope</a>, <a href="http://calvin.edu/">Calvin</a>, <a href="http://northwestern.edu/">Northwestern</a>, <a href="http://duke.edu/">Duke</a>, <a href="http://scad.edu/">SCAD</a>, and eventually <a href="http://ufl.edu">UF</a>&#8211;I was applying for journalism or graphic design.</p>
<p>A series of events, decisions, financial situations and scholarships led me to the graphic design program at UF, and two years of frustration led me to leave it to study English Education. While in the English program at UF I realized I loved English at a university level more than I loved the idea of teaching middle schoolers, and several professors urged me to continue on to further education.</p>
<p>At this time, I was reading <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Irresistible-Revolution-Living-Ordinary-Radical/dp/0310266300">Irresistible Revolution</a> and considering joining InterVarsity staff. I shunned the suggestions to study further with disdain for the &#8220;<a href="http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/ivory_tower">Ivory Tower</a>&#8221; and the desire to be &#8220;on the ground.&#8221; I even fought the call to InterVarsity staff, saying, &#8220;I don&#8217;t want to just minister to spoiled Americans who&#8217;ve heard the Gospel their whole lives&#8211;I want to work with people who really desire and appreciate what the LORD offers.&#8221; Berry, my hiring supervisor, said only this: &#8220;Where would you be without an InterVarsity staffworker who was ministering to a spoiled American who&#8217;d heard the Gospel his entire life?&#8221; Understandably, I joined staff soon afterwards.</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve spent my staff career sending out funding requests and prayer letters adorned with a quote from Charles Malik, the former President of the U.N. General Assembly: &#8220;Change the university, and you change the world.&#8221; I believed that college students and the things of the university would change the world, and I even spoke often about sending students to redeem the university rather than trying to rescue them from it. Yet I had been captured by a sort of Christian anti-intellectualism (one so prevalent in the American South), and even scoffed at theological and intellectual conversations held by my peers. This attitude continued for years.</p>
<h2><span style="color: #444444;">Part 2: It continued on a very, very cold street corner</span></h2>
<p>At Urbana 09, I was assigned to stand on a very cold street corner with my friend Dave Paladino, InterVarsity staff at the University of Michigan, and to pass the time we shared about much of our lives. I was for the first time considering taking some distance education seminary courses, and mentioned that I hoped to have time to look around the conference to learn about different seminaries. Dave spoke of a seminary I&#8217;d never heard of called <a href="http://regent-college.edu/">Regent College</a>, where they train laypeople for ministry. Everything about it, from its connection to a major secular university to its integral ties to the arts and the businessplace, sounded amazing. I wanted in.</p>
<p>Tereva and I visited the booth and I was even more in love: J.I. Packer, Gordon Fee, Eugene Peterson, and Bruce Waltke as former/occasional professors; the beauty of Vancouver&#8217;s skyline and ocean view; the cultural and creative climate of the college; everything I saw made me love it more. It didn&#8217;t hurt to hear Regent receive glowing recommendations from Roger Anderson (National Field Director for InterVarsity&#8217;s Campus Ministries), Mike Hickerson (Associate Director for InterVarsity&#8217;s Emerging Scholars&#8217; Network), and other friends and colleagues.</p>
<p>At the same time a friend told me the story of an InterVarsity staff who developed such a close relationship with his university that they actually invited him to teach religion courses there. My desires to use my mind, change the university from the inside, and engage with non-Christians about matters of faith in a way integral to my own intellect were all sparked by hearing this.</p>
<p>The combination of hearing this story and falling in love with Regent jolted me awake to the realization that I deeply desired to reconnect my brain and my heart. Tereva encouraged me to consider us moving to Vancouver, and I&#8217;ve spent the last nine months having every conversation I can about my future and calling and gifts and interests.</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve spoken with many people, but here are a few:</p>
<ul>
<li><strong><a href="http://christianstudycenter.org">Gainesville&#8217;s Christian Study Center</a>&#8216;s Richard Horner</strong><br />
Dr. Horner runs the Christian Study Center, a place for Christians and the University to collide in beautiful ways. Richard provides a place for intellectual discovery for Christian students and faculty, for the networking of Christian scholars, and for the development of a conversation between the University of Florida and the Christian community within and without the University.</li>
<li><strong>ESN&#8217;s Mike Hickerson<br />
ESN&#8217;s Stan Wallace<br />
</strong><a href="http://www.intervarsity.org/gfm/esn/">The Emerging Scholars Network</a> is a ministry of InterVarsity called to identify, encourage, and equip the next generation of Christian scholars who seek to be a redeeming influence within higher education. They are collecting, connecting, encouraging and training people who want to be a redeeming influence in the academic community.</li>
<li><strong>C. John Sommerville<br />
</strong>C. John is a former professor at UF who wrote, among other books, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Decline-Secular-University-John-Sommerville/dp/0195306953">The Decline of the Secular University</a>. He has much to say about the roles of Christian intellectuals and Christians in the University, and it&#8217;s all powerful and fitting.</li>
</ul>
<p>I&#8217;ve spent much time dreaming about my future&#8211;about possible careers, paths of education, and about where we&#8217;ll live&#8211;and much time thinking about whom I want to emulate&#8211;C.S. Lewis, John Stott, N.T. Wright, Tim Keller, and in many ways the gentlemen on my list above. I don&#8217;t know where everything will end up, but I know a few things for certain:</p>
<ul>
<li>I would love to stay tied to (and, if possible, working with) InterVarsity as long as I can. I&#8217;m extremely motivated to find a way to work with IV in whatever I do with my life.</li>
<li>I feel a very strong tie and call to Regent. Something significant will have to happen in my life to convince me not to seek to attend there.</li>
<li>I&#8217;ll most likely pursue a Masters of Christian Studies there. I&#8217;ll most likely fight to take as many classes from John Stackhouse as I can cram in.</li>
<li>I have no idea when this will be. It could be as early as next fall; it could be as far out as five or ten years from now.</li>
<li>Despite my desire to attend Regent, Vancouver&#8217;s ethnic makeup (and in part the less temperate climate) makes it not a viable long-term living situation for Tereva and me, so we will most likely only take a short trip through there (around two years) for the purpose of education.</li>
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<p>The end results of all of this remain too far out in the future to be seen. I could imagine what they could look like, but things change so much and so quickly that such imagination is hardly beneficial. I will just say one thing: a lot of my dreams include a certain city in the midwest that lies between two lakes. Just saying.</p>
<p><em>Postscript:</em> The blog <a href="http://wonderingfair.org/">Wondering Fair</a> is created, I think, by Regent alumni, and they all, I think, have ties to the aforementioned John Stackhouse. Almost every post they&#8217;ve ever written has been strongly influential in encouraging and developing these thoughts, and the things they&#8217;re writing and doing are a lot of the things I hope to do one day. I strongly encourage you to consider joining this community.</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[I read an editorial in the Alligator the other day entitled &#8220;Game shouldn&#8217;t feature Tebow&#8217;s Bible eye-black,&#8221; in which the editor opined that EA (a game-maker who featured Tebow on the cover of a recent video age) and UF (who &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2010/07/15/the-personality-mute-button/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I read an editorial in the Alligator the other day entitled &#8220;Game shouldn&#8217;t feature Tebow&#8217;s Bible eye-black,&#8221; in which the editor opined that EA (a game-maker who featured Tebow on the cover of a recent video age) and UF (who may have a statue on campus soon) should have no obligation to include Tebow&#8217;s Bible-quoting eye blacks in their representations of him.</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve long had conversations with people about the separation of people&#8217;s public personas and their private faith. As someone who&#8217;s determined to learn from all people and enjoy the contributions of non-Christians to society, I&#8217;d be a hypocrite if I said I&#8217;d never taken pieces of a public person without swallowing the whole.</p>
<p>But I believe we take it too far when we deign to <em>remember</em> and <em>commemorate</em> a person, and indignantly insist on our right to separate out only the parts of the person we like, brushing the rest of the person under the rug. It&#8217;s a mildly revisionist form of memory, which is bad to start with. It also reflects a foundational attitude toward the people being remembered: we want to remember your public persona (or, the parts of it that we like), and we demand access to that persona without the entanglement of your personality.</p>
<p>Tebow&#8217;s one example. The editor contends that since Tebow is being commemorated because of his athletic ability, his evangelistic side&#8211;which Tebow himself never separated from his athletic side, which could be seen in the eye blacks in question&#8211;was the reason for his commemoration. It&#8217;s not the end of the world for me if some video game doesn&#8217;t have Bible verses on the front; I completely support their right to put Tebow-sans-Scripture on the front of their game. But it&#8217;s the attitude of the author that gets me, an attitude which I&#8217;ve seen reflected in the nation&#8217;s attitudes towards other people we commemorate.</p>
<p>One example that I&#8217;ve seen often is Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Since we love having the inspiration of a passionate civil rights activist, we have dedicated a day to him; there are streets and civic buildings and ceremonies dedicated in his honor. However, we feel like we can celebrate the parts of him we like&#8211;civic hero&#8211;and throw out the parts of him we don&#8217;t&#8211;passionate preacher of God. For me, I just don&#8217;t see how you&#8217;re celebrating his legacy when you throw a party to remember what he did for you&#8211;and completely avoid mentioning why.</p>
<p>One good counter to my argument, which I&#8217;d love your thoughts on: if what I&#8217;m saying is true, must we also celebrate his alleged (or proven? I never really looked into it much) unfaithfulness to his wife? How do I feel comfortable throwing that part of him away? Any thoughts? Am I just being a hypocrite?</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[Today we soft-launched the new web site for The Word of God Community in Ann Arbor, MI. This web site and I have grown up together. My brother Ricke and I volunteered to make the site for them in 2002; &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2010/07/10/and-thus-launches-the-longest-running-design-of-my-life/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Today we soft-launched the new web site for <a href="http://thewordofgodcommunity.org/">The Word of God Community</a> in Ann Arbor, MI.</p>
<p>This web site and I have grown up together. My brother Ricke and I volunteered to make the site for them in 2002; when we started their host didn&#8217;t have MySQL, so Ricke programmed a custom flatfile Content Management System for them (I know this is Geek-ese for most of you). Later the host installed SQL, and we moved to WordPress.</p>
<div id="attachment_1375" class="wp-caption alignright" style="width: 310px"><a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/word_of_god_2002.jpg"><img class="size-medium wp-image-1375" title="Word of God Web Site Screencap from 2002" src="http://journal.thisenddown.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/word_of_god_2002-300x186.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="186" /></a><p class="wp-caption-text">Word of God Web Site Screencap from 2002</p></div>
<p>I created the first Photoshop layout (right) for the site when we got started in 2002. The design has stayed pretty much the same; you can see the site to see how I updated the logo section to use WoG&#8217;s real logo, and made some changes to modernize the layout just a little. A few other changes were made at the request of Phil, the head of WoG.</p>
<p>Both Phil and I have been rather busy since 2002 and didn&#8217;t have this site as our top priority, so we&#8217;ve worked on it in fits and bursts (usually no more than a week long) for 8 years now. I graduated high school, went off to college, graduated college, and every 6-12 months we&#8217;d get a little more work done.</p>
<p>In November of 2009, Phil brought on a guy named Steve Lucchetti, and since then Phil &amp; Steve have been filling in the nearly-completed site with content. I&#8217;ve put in about 17 hours of tweaking, final prep work, and transitions between servers and such things&#8211;as well as doing a little work here and there to prep a site made in 2002 to go live in 2010.</p>
<p>All in all, I&#8217;m really excited the site is finally launching. Their old site was unbelievably out-of-date, and even though this site is old, it&#8217;s on a new framework and has new content. So it&#8217;s as good as new. I&#8217;m happy for Phil&#8217;s work, Steve&#8217;s work, Ricke&#8217;s work, and my work (of 8 years!) to finally come to fruition.</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[Since 2001 my brother Ricke and I have together been Stauffer Web Design at http://www.stwd.org/. We&#8217;ve had the same web site since then, and every few years I think it&#8217;s time for an update&#8211;for our identity and for our web &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2010/07/07/a-crossroads-for-my-company/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Since 2001 my brother Ricke and I have together been Stauffer Web Design at <a href="http://www.stwd.org/">http://www.stwd.org/</a>. We&#8217;ve had the same web site since then, and every few years I think it&#8217;s time for an update&#8211;for our identity and for our web site.</p>
<p>Recently the nature of our business has changed. Where we once were a designer/programmer team, both working out of Ann Arbor and both with similar amounts of free time, our situations have now changed a lot. Ricke is one of the lead programmers at a very important international consulting firm, and I&#8217;m now working 10-15 hours a week doing web design to supplement Tereva&#8217;s and my incomes from working with InterVarsity (and to engage a different side of my passions and talents.) Our business is now a lopsided designer-hackprogrammer(me)/awesome-programmer(Ricke) team, where I get clients in Gainesville, I try to make the web site, and Ricke fixes anything I break.</p>
<p>Basically, all of this leads to needing help from you, faithful reader. I have 2 directions I can go from here.</p>
<p><strong>Little old me<br /></strong>First, I can move toward a more casual, open relationship with my potential client. I&#8217;m not Stauffer Design&#8211;I&#8217;m just Matt Stauffer. Part of this transition would be to make the web site more personal and comfortable (since, in reality, the clients are just dealing with me anyway); part of this would be because stwd is a frustratingly incommunicative domain name, and staufferdesign.com is already owned by someone else.</p>
<p>If I move to &#8220;Matt Stauffer Design,&#8221; I will be focusing on my individual strengths. I&#8217;ll be able to work more with boutique firms and be hired as a consultant more often for larger clients, but it will reduce my appeal for small businesses that want a whole corps of designers, not just one guy.</p>
<p><strong>Going corporate<br /></strong>Or,  I can focus&#8211;both in message and in how I run the business&#8211;on providing a more corporate appeal. I already have a name I very much like for this business* (not putting it here for fear of domain snatchers&#8211;I&#8217;ll be buying the domain name today just in case); I have Ricke as an advisor and several subcontractors who do work for me regularly enough. I have the groundwork laid for a more corporate culture.</p>
<p>The benefits are plenty: peace of mind for my clients, more approachability for local businesses who are scared of hiring just one 25-year-old. The drawbacks, however, are also plenty: a level of separation between me and the client, the need for new tax situations and a <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doing_business_as">DBA</a> and other such legal tomfoolery, the eventual need to pay for larger group task-management software like Basecamp.</p>
<p>Of course, the majority of you have nothing to do with web design. But for those of you either in web design or in a position where you might hire a web designer, could you give me a brief thought? I&#8217;ll make the decision myself, and of course a blog post is far from the most efficient means of collecting professional advice&#8230; but I like my people, and that&#8217;s who many of you are. So. Lemme know.</p>
<p><em>*Update&#8211;I mistyped the name of my potential company when checking if the domain for it is free. It&#8217;s not. So, unfortunately, if I do go corporate, I&#8217;m back to square one in deciding what the name will be.</em></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[I took a class my sophomore year of college called &#8220;Biological Perspectives on Contemporary Issues.&#8221; It turned out to be, &#8220;Why Christians are wrong in all of areas of current debate, and scientific proof for why they&#8217;re wrong.&#8221; In many &#8230; <a href="http://journal.thisenddown.com/2010/06/23/im-not-as-confident-in-science-as-you-probably-are/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
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<p>I took a class my sophomore year of college called &#8220;Biological Perspectives on Contemporary Issues.&#8221; It turned out to be, &#8220;Why Christians are wrong in all of areas of current debate, and scientific proof for why they&#8217;re wrong.&#8221;</p>
<p>In many cases, I agreed with, or at least could see some serious validity in, the professor&#8217;s points; I&#8217;m certainly not sold on anti-evolutionist creationism, let alone full-blown Young-Earth creationism. I&#8217;m not confident there <em>isn&#8217;t</em> a &#8220;gay gene.&#8221; I&#8217;m not some Bible-thumping homophobic backwaters idiot.</p>
<p>However, purely because of the way this professor thought&#8211;and thus led the class to think&#8211;I felt it my duty to disagree with him often and vocally.</p>
<p>This man had so much faith in the power of science to observe, describe, encompass, and <em>power</em> everything that ever happens that he&#8211;and in my mind, much of the scientific community&#8211;couldn&#8217;t see past the limitations of science.</p>
<p>As soon as I write this (and said it in class), it seemed like I&#8217;m some crazed anti-science &#8220;reason is wrong, faith is right&#8221; nut. I&#8217;m not. But science presupposes dozens of things, and as soon as you make presuppositions&#8211;assumptions&#8211;you are limiting yourself to only describe the narrowed view of the world that&#8217;s presented based on your assumptions.</p>
<p>One tiny, and probably very flawed, example I gave: science presupposes the non-existence of God. Right? So if something happens, and a scientist submits a hypothesis, and the entirety of it is this: &#8220;God sneezed, and then the stars came out,&#8221; this scientist would be mocked. It&#8217;s not a legitimate scientific area of study. Sure, you can think that, but can we measure it? No? Well then, science has no interest in it. Instantly, all things not measurable by mankind are outside of the range of science.</p>
<p>I&#8217;m not saying we can&#8217;t appreciate science, use science, study science, or anything. What I&#8217;m saying, and this is inspired much by my excitement in reading this article by <a href="http://www.intervarsity.org/gfm/esn/resource/how-can-we-change-the-university">C. John Sommerville</a>, is that science is just a tool. It&#8217;s not full enough to form the basis for your entire worldview. It&#8217;s not capable of describing or measuring all things worth thinking about.</p>
<p>I wish this were longer. I just wanted to get out that one point before I force myself to sleep.</p>
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