Polluted Poetry

2009-12-10T04:00:00.003+01:00

a murder of crows
suddenly blacken the desert sky
echoing squaks
omniscent warnings
what do they imply?

is something coming?
I watch the birds fly by.

A congress of ravens
now flock above me
watchful black eyes
the ravens are wise
What is it they see?

Something is coming...
I watch the birds fly by.

A wake of vultures
approach and cirlcle overhead
the message is clear
this time it's not a sign
I am already dead

Nothing is coming.
I cannot watch the birds fly by.

My Medium (A Kyrielle)

2009-11-30T05:09:00.002+01:00

my thoughts always clutter my mind
guilty fears that I keep confined
there is no way to displace them
poetry lets me embrace them

I brood and dwell on each dark thought
collect them til I'm overwrought
write them down and then erase them
poetry lets me embrace them

my sentiments and memories
thoughts that have plagued me like disease
I have found the strength to face them
poetry lets me embrace them

my writings best when it's painful
bless my thoughts, though they are shameful
morbid thoughts, I love to chase them
poetry lets me embrace them

Carina Fosse

The Bible in Haiku

2009-10-21T02:45:00.001+02:00

biblical theories
explanations and morals
fictional guidance

Lake Bodom

2009-10-19T11:14:00.000+02:00

perched on the dark waters edge
my pale reflection
rippling in Lake Bodom

it's eerie past
a reflection of my own
I see my lost teenage soul

I feel a strange connection
to the horrors of this lake
the trauma that I cannot shake

since my life was altered
I've drowned in regret
my once radiant soul now seeks death

I tell my reflection to please pull me in
Pull me to Bodom's pit, Pull me in
I belong in this ravaged lake of sin

Carina Fosse
18.10.2009

Haze

2009-10-16T14:16:00.004+02:00

My world is blurry and surreal
but I'm way to lost to care
Dazed in this hazy fog
bloodshot vision is unclear

Choking through this smog
I try to remain cautious
Searching for fresh air
I'm sickened and I'm nauseous

Why should I even care?
to breathe fresh air once more
since I engulfed myself in this haze
I forgot what the world was like before

Before I was stuck in this smoggy daze
I never appreciated fresh air
I never really acknowledged it
It was always just there

The air, I polluted it
because I didn't care at all
This pollution can't be reversed
It will choke me until I fall

Now my cloud is ready to burst
stress built up, I'm saturated.
Toxins struggle to leak out
but are stuck in this fog that I created

The pollutants. I try to let out
but they condense around me
I can never find any air
because this smog has found me.

This polluted haze around my brain
the cloud thickens and drives me insane
when will it rain?
When will I change?

Carina Fosse
15.09.2009

He Was a Poet

2009-09-24T04:23:00.002+02:00

He was a poet
a renaissance man to some degree
artist of spoken word,
philosopher, published novelist and emcee.

A divine inspiration
He meant the world to me

He was a character
brilliant and unique
cluttered mind, rambling thoughts
he would mumble when he would speak,

ignored and misunderstood
some saw him as a freak

He was delusional,
but he saw the world so clearly
poetic randomness,
he had a mind boggling philosophy

lost and inebriated,
he escaped from a so called reality

he was calm and tranquil
but also edgy and stressed
he was joyful,
but looking back, he may have been depressed

he'd pop an upper, down a downer
anything to fix his deep unrest

uncertain,
I must believe that he chose his death
he is missed,
much more than I ever could have guessed

he was my first love
and to have loved him I am blessed

Carina Fosse
-08-05-2009-

My So Called Life

2009-09-21T03:23:00.000+02:00

if I decide to live
I must do it right
I have got to stop screwing up
my so called life

I've got to create goals
and make a change for the better
instead of living life
like it's already over

Carina Fosse

The Day That I Knew That War Was Real

2009-09-10T01:44:00.002+02:00

The day that I knew that war was real
was a day I will never forget
aired lived on international television
2,993 deaths
murdered by our own weapons
commercial airliner jets

The day that I knew that war was real
was the day that it hit home
The day that I knew that war was real
was the day we were the target

Carina Fosse

My Truth

2009-09-04T11:59:00.003+02:00

I always speak my truth,
I have never lied!
share too much about myself
just to prove
that I have nothing to hide

but the truth can bend,
warp and divide
I convince myself it's true
so, it is now my truth,
it is now my pride

the truth is what I cannot face
the truth is best denied
the truth is best forgotten
for my own sake
the truth is what I hide

when my truth is spoken
the truth may be implied
my truth is released
well the truth lingers and resides

the truth
is bona fide
my truth
keeps me alive

__Carina Fosse___
---01.09.2009---

My Demons

2009-07-20T19:04:00.003+02:00

a hedonic thrill
devoted to desire
this demonic will
will soon transpire

blackened soul
disturbed mind
no control
trapped and entwined

how long will it hide?

My Dying Bride (inspiration from my favorite bands)

2009-07-20T16:29:00.001+02:00

It Lies Beneath, buried inside and waiting to Unearth
She's Spawn from this Cradle of Filth and has been Enslaved since birth
she is a Lamb of God with a luminous beauty like Norma Jean
but when Shadows Fall, she's Sick of it All and her Poison will not go unseen

A Life Once Lost, her Hollow spirit is lost in Mayhem
Disturbed and obsessed, she awaits her chance to kill HIM
a Slayer at heart, Underoath she swears revenge on her Sworn Enemy
God Forbid that her Arch Enemy lives, because dead he may as well be

She has Poisoned the Well and dropped him in the lake of the Children of Bodom
hung by a Slipknot, Torched and In Flames, his Dark Funeral will be chosen
My Dying Bride is evil inside and stirs in her own Kingdom of Sorrow
after Blood Has Been Shed, she regains Fuel and awaits The Scars of Tomorrow

from Autumn to Ashes, time slowly passes, but her Cold heart still stirs
after 10 years then August Burns Red the moment IT occurs
that moment in August that she chose her victim and It Dies Today
the Torch in her eye, Everytime I Die I realize that I am her prey

As I Lay Dying in Pain with my open soul Bleeding Through
I catch a Sublime glimpse of her smile and understand that she chose me too
she is already dead, she is my dark ArkAngel sent to me from above
my gothic beauty, My Dying Bride and I shall Rise Against and be eternally in love

Carina Fosse11-03-09

Unconfused

2009-07-01T02:56:00.005+02:00

I may not know who I am
but everyone else does
I love who ever I am
so please don't judge

you claim to know
people just like me
you stereo type
and choose to spite me

you don't know me at all
or care to find out
I think I have found myself
so don't make me have doubt

I am who I am
nothing more to figure out
but if you absolutly must know
I'll spit it right out

I am not in the closet!
and I'm not undecided!
I love people for people,
should I have to hide it?

I am not just confused.
I am just me!

Carina F**king Fosse

Beached

2009-06-20T20:57:00.002+02:00

this is the life
the scene, the trends
following the stream
play hard until it ends

drifting with the tide
crashing like a wave
washed up and beaten
I am nothing to save

No Chance

2009-06-20T20:34:00.003+02:00

there is no love
no dream
no chance for us to suceed

there is no oasis,
no waterfalls
no sparkly palm trees

there is no hope
no future
no you and no me

Conformity?

2009-06-12T14:38:00.003+02:00

"Conformity?"

The cynics have doubt
in the good in humanity.
They are virtuous through self-control
and avoid the worlds vanity.

Skeptics just disbelieve
that predetermined knowledge is real.
Doubt political structure
and mass media appeal.

The dumb always follow
predetermined to be blind.
Never bother to question
or use their own mind.

Since we all do live
in a premeditated bureaucracy,
Do we use, understand
and practice democracy.

The freedoms we have,
the dumb just abuse.
The skeptics ands cynics
don't bother to use.

If the cynics dont react,
they remain pesismistic.
The skeptics have no answer
and remain a statistic.

Cynicalism and skeptism
can turn you numb.
Let the system mistreat you,
then your just like the dumb.

Stuck on the bottom,
trampled by a hierarchy of capitalists.
Since we are all not blind,
how can we let this exsist?

WHERE ARE ALL THE REBELS!
the renegades who won't conform?
Those on top of the structure,
will never change or transform.

Stuck on the bottom we stay.
Let the poor stay poor.
Let the dumb lead us away.
We all are blind in some way.

**Carina Fosse

Tarantella

2009-06-12T14:21:00.003+02:00

infectious anguish
embedded
through my veins
spreaded

streamlined poison
onslaught
unbearable burden
overwrought

venomous demon
inserted
innocent, corrupt
converted

infectious truth
ignored
engulfed, exhausted
absorbed

siphoned emotion
drained
dizzy dance
restrained

rythmic spirit
illusion
keep on dancing
conclusion

twirling tarantella
so pure
upbeat anti-venom,
the cure

Carina Fosse

If this makes sense to anyone let me know...

May-Be

2009-06-12T14:10:00.005+02:00

May-be

Now that the love is gone
now that we've done so much wrong
now that we can't get along
now we just seem to carry on.
I don't really know
what the hell I saw in you,
actually, I do know...
but, I doubted that it was true.

My friends saw you differently
no one could see what you may-be
but may-be,
may-not-be good enough for me.

We did have so much fun,
it really was one hell of a run
our harmony, our passion, our drive
is not dead, but it may-be done.

My friends may-be right
it may-not-be real
because I seem to love you less
when your out of sight.

I know that our love was blind
I know we can't rewind
I know that we shouldn't even try
but by my nature, I feel inclined.

I am rather happy not loving you
settling with my doubts
as truths
but, there still may-be something special about you.

Yes, it's definitely over
I need this to be done
but, I can't give you the cold shoulder
or let you feel like you have won.

I will not embrace you
I will never try to disgrace you
Though my mind will hopefully displace you
but, my heart will never erase you.

So, If you ever look behind,
keep in mind that a friend like me
may-be hard to find.

I'm here for you, if you need
I truly want you to succeed
and I do hope
someday,
you may-be what I need

for you,
your son
and for me

..........may-be

Carina Fosse

Orphan

2009-05-15T02:58:00.003+02:00

If god is my father then I am an orphan.

If god is my weapon, god has no ammo.

If god is life, I'm in a coffin.

If god is my shelter, I go homeless.

If god is my power, I have a short circuit.

If god is hope, I am hopeless.

If christ seeks you, He can't see me.

If in your prayers he speaks to you.

He's dead silent with me.

If God is dead, then he was never there.

If God was real,

God would care.

Carina Fosse

the 7th of Febuary, 2008

Is There a Pill?

2009-05-15T02:50:00.004+02:00

Is there a pill to make it go away?
Is there a chance the pain is here to stay?
the pain is oh so real
it's all that I can feel
Why do I want to live another day?

March 9th, 2009

Fuck DADT!

2009-05-13T04:46:00.002+02:00

Don't Ask, Don't Tell, Don't Be, Don't Exist, Lie!
Don't share who are, just resist, Deny!
You can't openly serve for our country, Why?

Don't be open, go back in the closet!
Your not hetero enough to fight, where is the logic?
It makes no sense and it's about time we stop it.

Your too gay to protect our nation,
This is brainless discrimination.
How exactly is sexuality relevant to a military situation?

You can't be a soldier, because you're too queer.
You can't fight for our honor, choose a new career.
I can't understand it, What exactly do they fear?

That you might spread gay cooties on the other army boys?
That you'll be applying eyeliner when you batallion deploys?
That you'll misuse your guns as anal sex toys?

This is absolutly ridiculous!
Let's get rid of this.
This ignorant law is painfully ludicrous.

How many skilled technicians need to be discharged?
It's a violation of civil rights, that we have fought for so hard.
Freedom is so important, please don't disregard.

Our Army needs able troops, can't they comprehend?
Because of ignorant fears, brave Americans can't serve and defend.
Because of homophobia, our military is now weakened.

This law must be put to an end!

Carina FosseMay 12th, 2009

2007

2009-05-11T03:26:00.003+02:00

2007

Give and take
subjected lives
The crave for war
never dies

Humans as trade
a nations investment
Misguided warfare
only fueling resentment

Excused target
Islamic Terroism
Blind devotion
a soldiers heroism

Political interference
a foreign civil war
the recurring question,
What are we fighting for?

Imposing values of corrupt politicians
only further enraging a timeless confliction

-Carina Fosse
-September 12th, 2007

Foreclosure

2009-05-11T02:43:00.004+02:00

As Wall Street crashes
Main Street is left in ashes

Burning homes
that the bank now owns
no hope for loans

Fannie Mae, Freddie Mac
corruption
with government back

Near Trillion dollar bailout plans
to aid investors
and those in foreign lands

The American consumer needs to spend
ease their fear of the crisis at hand

Too little, too late
a topic for debate
We didn't have time to wait.

-Carina Fosse-
-10-10-2008-

There is No Oasis

2009-05-11T02:28:00.002+02:00

blurry and surreal,

but way to lost to care

dazed in this hazy fog

my vision unclear

hoping to get through this smog

I'm sickened and I'm nautious

but there is no fresh air

sweltering sun,

heat stroke and psychosis

crawling in the dessert sands

famished and desperate

salvation is out of my hands

drained, dry and dehyrdrated

there is no oasis

there is no air

no possibilty

no chance for me to breathe

there is no oasis,

no waterfalls

no sparkly palm trees

there is no hope

there is no need for me to care

I'll never know the truth

because, there is no air

there is no going back

there are no new places

there are no more options

and there is no oasis

-Carina Fosse-

26.02.09

Cliche Happy Poem

2009-05-11T02:21:00.003+02:00

embrace every morning

appreciate every day

try to ensure

that every day can be this way

live life by the moment

ponder every thought

let yourself go...

just don't get caught

be yourself

be a friend

always try to do good

because it will come back to you

in the end

live life to the fullest,

life is about giving

appreciate the little things

because it's the little things in life

that make it worth living

Carina Fosse

261008

Internet Infiltration

2009-05-04T12:14:00.007+02:00

Internet technology is to agressive
mind polluting, controlling
dominating and paroling
obsessive

It can make you crazy and disturbed
leave you in agitated confusion
like a hallucinogen
perturbed

It is a dangerous linking of information
empowering thieves, burning feeds
cookies and seeds
infiltration