tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1737837408806296492016-05-23T00:07:12.763-07:00This is my life story of my struggle with food and weight lost. It is how I feel and what I go through with being an emotional eater.L3 Talkhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10248682865059977492noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-173783740880629649.post-85007245322099351302011-08-29T07:51:00.000-07:002011-08-29T07:51:01.630-07:00Since I was a kid I have struggled with my weight. Before middle school I was a cheerleader and was fit but soon I stopped and got into middle school I gained alot weight. Ever since then I have not been below 200 pounds. I want so bad to be atleast 195. I struggle daily with emotional eating. I don't have motivation to exercise. I don't have money to join a gym. Everyday is a struggle for me since I started a week ago again to loose weight I have struggled I have lost 4 pounds but have gained it all back. I am counting calories and that helps but I know unless I exercise the weight will not come off. I want to lose weight so I can have a baby. Being obese and having pcos does not work together so I guess I need that to be my motivation but after trying for to years it has gotten me depressed. Everyone I know is having babies and babies after babies and it gets frustrating. I am less depressed than I use to be but I do use food as comfort. I guess I should look at it that food is just something that keeps me living and if food was really there for me then it wouldn't make me fat and unhealthy when I eat it. There is alot that I struggle with. I just wish I had a friend near me that would want to go to gym or come and walk with me. I am home day in and day out and it gets boring and that when I eat I get to go somewhere once a week but that it. My boyfriend works and has the car. I was doing zumba and that how I lost the 4 pounds but I ain't been doing it I have gotten discourage from doing it cause I can fit the belt so I have to hold the wii remote in my hand which is hard to do and workout. I want to walk every morning but don't want to alone it gets so depressing to do everything alone and be alone ALL the time. All my friends are to busy or don't have way to my house. I hard when you can walk far cause of MD and you don't have a car to go places. If I had the money and was able to walk to where the gym was I would join and go RIGHT NOW! but I can't I don't even have insurance or the money to see a doctor. Life is hard sometimes. I have went on two interviews and cause I can't do somethings they didn't hire me. When I am working I do loose weight cause I ain't home bored and alone all the time. Why is healthy food so pricey? and the junk food so cheap? I have not been exercising in a few days but I have done situps and have gotten out the house yesterday and went to the field is was nice and beautiful out. The only time I get out the house is to go sit at the flying field. It nice open field where we go and fly planes and heli(not one from walmart one we fly transmitter cost like 400-1000+ and the planes/heli cost from 300-1000+) I never win anything but if I could chose what I could when it would be a free year gym membership to anytime fitness where I could go anytime since open 24/7.. That never happen but it a nice dream... I would love to be a personal trainer someday if I can ever loose this weight.L3 Talkhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10248682865059977492noreply@blogger.com0