my digital distraction

A CHALLENGER HAS APPEARED

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 14:47:00 +0000

I have been challenged to blog regularly. STAY TUNED.

meltdown

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 14:31:00 +0000

To be honest. I might be closer to this then ever before now.
I need help.

omg, so politically wrong but so fucking hilarious

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 13:18:00 +0000

THAT'S RIGHT LETS GET HIGH AND PULL OVER BLACK GUYS!

Wicked: What Is This Feeling

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 18:30:00 +0000

=( I want to watch this so badly. But with Idina Menzel and Kristin Chenoweth. DAMMIT LET ME FLY OVERSEAS TO WATCH THIS AND AVENUE Q ALREADY.

something about you

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 18:20:00 +0000

"You make me want to be a better man."
-Melvin Udall, As Good as It Gets (1997)

a question

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 16:36:00 +0000

I don't know. Do you?

i understand

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 20:56:00 +0000

Why the Fate/Stay Night anime was disappointing

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 14:05:00 +0000

Because, seriously, the action scenes were nowhere like these.

note the sharp drop on the easy path

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 06:04:00 +0000

"Two paths diverged in a wood;

and I took the one more travelled by.

and that's going to make all the difference.

lost control

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 06:00:00 +0000

Spinning spinning falling free

No direction, no bearing

isolationist

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 02:46:00 +0000

I wish I had cats.

kimi ni shika kikoenai

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 02:41:00 +0000

Can anyone hear me?

hello goodbye

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 20:18:00 +0000

Simply entrancing.

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 09 Jan 2010 16:23:00 +0000

The Third & The Seventh from Alex Roman on Vimeo.

Things like this are the reason why I don't want to get into the interest of photography and videography. It's the realisation that I would never have the time to do the research, ability to learn the technical skills and the fact that I completely lack the artistic eye and talent to create something like this.

诞生日

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 13:47:00 +0000

One more year down, one more notch on the knife, but who's keeping score? Almost to the next milestone of 25 now.

It's depressingly familiar.

And once again, I am at a loss of what to ask for my birthday. It's not that I don't have anything in mind that I want - wait, that's probably it. I don't really want for much.

That doesn't mean that I'm easily satisfied.

Hell no, I'm not satisfied with my life at all.

I guess I've gotten used to being unsatisfied.

It's like the closest thing to a constant companion that I have. =\

Okay, that sounded pretty sad. Rewind.

Results came back, and apparently my CAP refused to budge a milimetre. Still stuck at the barely-above-second-lower-honors mark, which compounds a difficulty in deciding if I should go ahead and try for honors. I was sure that I would die horrendously this semester and thus, not even be given the choice. Hence, it came as rather a surprise and an unexpected new question I have to agonize over.

Graduate? Y/N. That is the Question.

And I probably won't be doing an FYP or graduate thesis if I really do choose to go on. I hate statistics. With a core burning passion.

This holiday season has been rather slow moving. Aside from the 2 weeks I spent in the army, I haven't really been doing much aside from eating, sleeping, and for the past few couple of days, being generally useless in the Sets construction area for Sheares Production. Lots of niggling problems cropping up that I don't really know how to solve, but I'm trying.

Managed to catch Avatar (3D!) and Sherlock Holmes, both well worth the money spent. Avatar because of pretty pretty glowy trees and Sherlock Holmes because it was basically House +badass +explosions +awesome +FTW.

Also managed to meet up with Jeremy, Si Xiao Jie and Zhi for lunch at Ishimura (which is really budget and good, btw.). Been a long time since we caught up (esp. Si Xiao Jie), and Zhi's dancing in the 2010 countdown celebration thingy on Mediacorp, how cool is that? o_O

In summary: My friends and other people around me lead such interesting lives. MLIA.

Look, even other people's MLIA are fundamentally awesome!

some post-reservist thoughts

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 00:58:00 +0000

In the army, you sort of learn that no matter what you do, there's always going to be people out there who have it easier than you, who are luckier than you, who seem to have everything planned out.

Of course, this isn't an exclusive happenstance. Everyone around you is already living a far more exciting life than you are. Poor you.

But put 30 people of around the same age group into the same room with virtually nothing to do except talk about their lives to pass the time, and suddenly everybody has a story.

Makes you feel kind of scared to grow up.

Because, what if you don't measure up?

Rethinking plans for honors. Going to wait for the 22nd to make a final decision. Lock it in.

If my life were a series of regrets (which it isn't), this might be the biggest one yet (which it hasn't).

Also, having just returned, I have a backlog of stuff to clear up. May not be very free of late. Tralala.

Also, recording for posterity here: I am officially 3 degrees of separation from SNSD's Tiffany. My platoon-mate's half-korean girlfriend is her childhood playmate from the USA. What a small world! On that note, this puts me at 4 degrees of separation from SNSD's Jessica.

Life is wonderful.

But other then that, it is stultifyingly boring.

it don't make much sense

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 12:05:00 +0000

Funny how I can get an A for an essay dealing with romance and be absolutely clueless about it. True, well, that essay was really more about how modern society mediates romance with technology, but it's still fundamentally about people who less than three.

Either I have a deep-seated internal knowledge about this, or I'm just really good at crapping about this. Betting on the latter.

I know part of the problem lies in my pathological shyness. Koothrappali from the Big Bang Theory comes to mind.

Basically me, except alcohol just makes me sleepy.

I completely clam up when there's an attractive woman within a five-feet radius. It's really subtle, but I can pretty much feel my neural cognitive functions shut down. I subconsciously make less eye-contact, talk less, and stammer/stutter more.

Did I ever recount that anecdote where I messed up totally (read: very badly) with one of my eyecandies? I mean, I know I have talked about it before, but never really recorded it for posterity on blogger.

Ah well, that's another story for another day.

Why am I bringing this up again? Because, well, it's my last semester in university, and I have a creeping feeling that I'm going to die alone, childless and friendless*.

*Disclaimer: Dear friends, this is just a figure of speech, I am not discounting your friendships. You know what I mean.

I could get a kitten, but that's just avoiding the issue.

Somehow though, I have a feeling that it's really more of the way that I've been approaching human relationships in general. I think I don't make friends easily, which is totally a problem for someone who completely -needs- people to be around him in general.

You kinda get used to being alone when you spend that much time on your own. You get tired of trying. It becomes routine. Go for class, get food, be on your own. Pretend it's okay to always be by yourself. Pretend you don't need anyone and that you're completely independent.

That's basically how it is, it becomes second-nature to pretend to be something you're not.

Convince yourself that this is how you deal with it. Mindf*ck yourself.

But somehow along the way, you always doubt. That's where I am now. Doubting. But I think it's a good thing to reconsider my life now.

I'm doubting myself again, whether this is really how I want to live my life for the next twenty or so years before I get run over by a car. Or something. Depressingly alone, addicted to routine, completely and thoroughly bored with life.

They always say, people try to fill that void in their lives with something. Work. Family. Religion. Soap Operas.

What's missing from my life?

Whatever it is, I'm getting tired of waiting around for it to appear.

WHERE ARE YOU, MY DESTINY?

(Translation: I am tired of being single.)

Coming up after the break, I will be consigned to Jurong Camp for the next 2 weeks. No updates till I get back. Bye bye world.

owari

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 00:15:00 +0000

It has been, 3 days, 21hours, 17minutes and 58 seconds since I ended my year 3 semester 1 exams. Clapclap, oh joy.

There are only 2 days, 23hours, 12minutes and 2 seconds before I enter Jurong Camp for the two most interesting (not) weeks of my life. Clapclap, oh joy.

It's amazing how much work I have left to do/allocate/delegate before I get to go gallivanting off for a vacation which I most certainly do not want to go for, and I can only imagine how much stupid work I will have when I get back. Clapclap, oh joy.

Sigh, what am I doing with my life? (That was rhetorical.)

It's really quite amazing, for someone who uses Web2.0 and social-networking websites as much as I do, how much (or rather how little) of a social life I actually have. Between the end of the examinations and now I've only gone out once, and that was a failed trip to the Singapore Flyer with Shawn, CS and Mich, where pretty much everyone was late.

Well at least we had Tom's Palette and some pretty interesting conversation.

But that's about it. My Life is Average.

And today's average word of the day is: moo.

Between now and examination's end, I have been pretty unproductive, and I say, not unproductive enough, dammit. I had no idea being a 宅男 was this hard.

I guess it's my lack of a real attention span that keeps me from being glued to something for 18hours straight, not including meals and sleep. Fail.

There's barely 2 days of unproductivity left, and I still have to pack up my shit for army, settle hall stuff (deity-damn it) and blah. It's giving me an irritation just thinking about it.

But hokay, enough about my pedestrian lifestyle. Go back to your interesting lives, people. (swallows bitter pills)

module planning!

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 14:29:00 +0000

Exams are over! I have scarcely 5 or 6 days to go before I am whisked to the magical forests of Singapore where I will spend a week without access to basic human amenities and the preceeding week doing absolutely nothing of value inside a military camp. What fun!

I have also started to think about what modules I would want to take next sem. What fun!

If all goes well: (Bold denotes more or less confirmed modules)

2 Psych Modules Left:

PL3239 - Industrial and Organisational Psychology

PL3244 - Adolescent Psychology

PL3255 - Introduction to Paediatric Psychology

1 Lit Module Left:

EN3224 - The Twentieth Century

EN3231 - American Literature I

Breadth:

IT1001 - Introduction to Computing

1 UE/GEM

GEK1508 - Einstein's Universe & Quantum Weirdness

GEK1520 - Understanding the Universe

GEK1519 - Science of Music

Graduation is in sight. Mhmm. What fun. Sigh.

Oh, guess what degree I have?

i've got the sniffles, mommy

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 04:11:00 +0000

I know I'm supposed to be sick... But...

(I'll just let the pictures do the talking for now, I'll come back and write a paragraph or so of stuff under the respective pictures when I take a break from mugging and being sick.)

Having this installed and patched on my hard drive was just way way way too -tempting-...

Server Mycenae! Come join me please please.

Character Creation! It took me all of one look to -instantly- spot my future character class.

ROCKSTAR POWER, YEAH!

The somewhat clunky interface, not used to the drop down menus and shortcut keys. But hey, it's free.

Combat! OMG, I love it! FF Style! Except for a turn time limit.

End of the tutorial area. I chose Harbin as a starting town.

Aaand, here's my freshly made character! Waiting for post-exams!

Atlantica Online

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 18:42:00 +0000

Anyone? I am so in.

a few steps away from perdition

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 23:36:00 +0000

I less than three my netbook very very much. It's such an... enabler. I feel so much free-er with it than ever. Studying outside the confines of my room, being able to make use of the NUS facilities that I'm paying too much of my school fees for. Heck, even being able to watch episodes of Big Bang Theory on the painful 1.5h bus ride home makes the $600 price tag seem oh-so-worthwhile.

It also runs games. Hell, if you check the Games list that I've been finishing up, you'll pretty much see that everything I've completed has been on my netbook so far. Granted, most of everything there are small adventure games which each take on average 2-3hours a piece to complete (not that they aren't fun, most of them are awesome), but still! It runs Gyromancer too, which just came out a few days ago - and it's all kinds of awesome fun.

I like the keyboard. It's got big, comfortable keys which are surprisingly easy to touch-type with. Doesn't feel cramped at all. I could play The Typing of the Dead comfortably with this.

And I just love the battery life. 6hours on a full charge for such a light, tiny little thing (of course, without wireless, which cuts it to 4h). I almost could do without lugging a charger around.

Best economic decision I've ever made on the spur of the moment, bar none. Yay for impulse buys and a twitchy click-to-buy finger.

♥Netbook.

Of course, I'm not necessarily saying that my poor 4-year old computer is useless though. The 22" still gives me real estate when I need it to, and HD stuff is an absolute joy to behold on it (HD SNSD is = boomz in pantz.) Not to mention I'm pretty much going to finish Torchlight soon on it. It really just needs a good clean-up, which will come hopefully after I finish my reservist (oh what a pain).

And I've already bought (seriously bought, not pirated) Windows7 for it, so I really have no excuse not to clean it up, sort out my hard disks, make a few backups and upgrade to Windows7.

Hmm. Exams are here. First paper in 2 days. I feel strangely zen. It's as if I already know I'm doomed, and I'm (rather) calmly accepting it.

Ah well, I need to break out of this, and I know just what to do.

Do not go gently into the good night.

Not sure who said the above. Dylan Thomas? Who was he? Poet, writer, and etc. It means "fight to the death". Or in this case...

In this case, it means awesome!

ARE YOU READY?

HEAVEN OR HELL!

ROUND ONE!

FIGHT!

Although, you know, for Trauma -

Pictured:

Top - Social Cognition.

Middle - Developmental Psychology.

Bottom - Trauma Psychology.

I never really got good at fighting games.

(I tend to mash.)

mabinogi (it's fantastic!)

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 08:42:00 +0000

Truly, there is nothing in the world quite as awesome as 3 minutes and 31 seconds of pure, unadulterated Tiffany cuteness.

Well, except maybe watching the HD-version full-screen on netbook during a study break.

Tiffany thinks you should be studying!

AWW. FANY FANY HWAITING! BRIGHTER THAN MUSHROOMS!

stream of consciousness

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 18:09:00 +0000

I feel like buying a kitten.

Big Bang Theory fans/watchers, there's an inside joke in that line.

In other news, there's less then 4 days left to my first paper PL3238 Social Cognition, and I am (as usual, well and truly screwed.)

Random thoughts follow:

I love my netbook. I get so much more done on it then my desktop.

I owe people money, people owe me money. Cycle never stops.

Graduation feels like it's coming soon. Moo.

Big Bang Theory rocks.

Oh, Left For Dead 2 is out. One more thing to add to the backburner.

SNSD Hello Baby Episode 7! Now to wait for Episode 8 and I have something new to watch.

I want to make a scrapbook.

I need more $$$. Any way I can do work while still studying?

But not tuition, I don't think I can teach very well.

On that note, I really need to wake up my idea next semester.

I know, I've been saying that for the last five. But meh.

My musical taste really is at least five years old

I made a highlights video for voxsports in less then 12 hours. Go me.

I like the word "myxomatosis."

Maybe I should go for career counselling.

A NEW CHALLENGER HAS APPEARED!!!

C-C-C-COMBO BREAAKERR!!!

Sica is so cute.

Ah.

on the cusp of something

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 22:20:00 +0000

Well, a whole lot of crap came down this week, with a 50% essay and a 70% group report coming to mind. But now that those are over and done with, I rewarded myself by sitting down to watch the entire Season 1 of Big Bang Theory in one sitting!

And woots. That's done. I'm proud of myself! I actually overcame my short attention span for once! History books, folks.

95% cause of short-attention spans worldwide.

Not to say working on the group project wasn't fun. In some strange, twisted sort of way, that is. There was a fair bit of blasting SNSD and other general sleep-deprived craziness, which helped, I guess. Might have been the best project group I've ever had. Ah well, thanks guys.

In other news, I got a Google Wave invite, and playing around with it is fairly fun, although I can't really see how I can utilise it to its full potential, I mean, for my own use..

Examinations loom. Gloom doom doom.

Got a quiz next week. 20%. Gonna have to webcast and revise for the final exam through that quiz. Maybe start tomorrow. Blargh.

So, back to my rather unexciting life then.

Dear readers - wait, I have readers right? Just checking. "Hey guys, what do you want me to write about?" I'm not really going to do another jdentification installment because it takes me really long to compose replies and wait for questions, so, any general thing you want to hear from me?

*the sound of one hand clapping*

Hmm. Thought so. Ah well.

*emo one corner*

Here is kitteh! I... I lost it again. What was I talking about?