I'm Still Blessed

Waiting On The Lord.

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Thu, 04 Feb 2016 16:14:00 +0000

It' seems like I come here when things are falling apart around me. I pray for the day that I can come here and write about things going in the right direction. But right now, again, it seems like things are falling apart and there is nothing I can do but pray and wait on God.

I hate divorce, it tears people apart, it's like a death.. but with death you know the ending. With divorce, you're not always sure. It breaks apart and you're not sure where all the pieces will fall. It's heart breaking to more than just the two who are splitting.

My heart is breaking because the family I had will no longer be. The times together, the family dinners, no more Sunday dinners after church. No more times of setting on the porch just talking, no time on the patio swing just enjoying each other. No more kids with their antics and things that they do. The laughter is gone, setting and planning things... it's all gone. My house will be empty of all the laughter, the love...

Yes, Walter and I will still be here, Jess is getting older and her life will move on too.. but with divorce of the two people you love, I'm just not sure what to do.

I pray all the time, I keep asking God, What do I do with that Word you gave me several years ago? Do I hold on to it or do I let go? I'm always saying... But God, you said.. In my heart, I can't let go of that Word..I almost watched them die but God saved them. Brought them back from death's door. I know He didn't save them just to split. But what can I do? I just keep praying. I just can't let go.

Now, my daughter is moving away from me and my heart breaks so bad. Things have been said, their is pain there, and I don't know how to fix it. I don't know what to do. The pain is like someone has torn my heart out. All I know to do is just keep praying.. wait on the Lord.

I have no idea what the future holds, I just pray and have to trust that God will fix it all. I pray that things get better. Life changes are never easy to take. I just pray that they allow God to heal them, fix their hearts. I just have to trust in Him, as bad as it looks, God has to have something better at the end. I'm just not sure what it is. But until He does, i'll just keep praying and waiting on the Lord.

Trying To Catch Up

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Wed, 27 Jan 2016 03:59:00 +0000

Well, since my last post almost a year ago, as usual, a lot has happened.

Jessica graduated Cosmetology this past August, and in December she walked and received her Diploma. I'm very proud of her for finishing school. Now I'm just waiting on her to head to Dallas and take her state test. She's been putting this off for some reason. Not sure why, but I'm praying she does this soon. She's had a job since Thanksgiving working at Bealls but in February she starts another job here in town. She's excited.

Kayah has graduated High School as well, she now works at Walmart and is expecting her first child in July of this year. She's super excited and I'm excited as well. This will make me a great-Mimi. We don't say the grandma word! Lol. But she's doing well all in all.

Shelbi, she's just Shelbi. Love that kid because she's something else. Lol. She now has a boyfriend and stays busy most of the time and I never get to see her. She's still in school and doing well.

As for Angie, well.. I never get to see or hear from her. I guess we have just been written off from her life. I miss her and wish things were different, but that's a situation that God will have to take care of.

Walter, he's still Walter too. Ha ha. But he's working so hard. Puts in many hours at work. It's a hard job in Logging. His breathing hasn't been that well and that concerns me. Seems to have to hit his breathing machine more. But he keeps going. Just praying for healing over his lungs.

My mom, she's seems to be adjusting better. She still has her moments on missing daddy. But she's dealing with it in her own way I guess. As we all do. But she's still living in that same little house that I wish she would move from. It's very old, needs tons of work and I worry about her in it. I'm hoping one day she'll agree to move, but for now, she wants to stay there.

As for Melissa and Bryan.. well, it's been heart breaking as they are splitting up and getting divorced. Part of me wants to talk about this, but part of me doesn't. They have been together for 15 years and to watch this, well, it's hard. All I know to say is, Walk with God, keep your eyes on Him, let the Lord build your marriage, because if you don't.. it can fall apart. All I can keep thinking of is that Easter Sunday several years ago. God saved them for a reason and I just have to hang on to that and trust Him. But in spite of it all, Melissa is still going to Cosmetology too. She's in night classes and working days. It's been very, very hard on her and I just have to keep lifting her up to the Lord. It's been difficult but I know she'll make it.

As for me, well.. I'm doing ok. A lot has changed in me over the last 4 years. Sometimes I feel lost and wonder. But I just keep holding onto the Lord and keep going. I don't know how to describe things inside me, I just know that things are different. But onto a better note, I'm back into my Tupperware biz. It was 2 years on Jan. 25th. and I enjoy it. I love it when I'm able to be out among people. When you spend so much time at home, and most days alone, it can get to you. So when I can get out and hold parties, be with others, I enjoy it.

I'm so ready for Spring and Summer. I'm ready to be back out in the yard again and soaking up the sun. This cold weather gets to me. I keep trying to talk Walter into moving someplace warm, but I don't think that will happen. I'm pretty sure he'll just tell me.. turn up the heater to get warm! Lol But I would love warm sun, sand and beach. Someplace where I could unwind and stay relaxed all the time. When I went to our Tupperware Jubilee this past August, I loved it! It's in Florida and to tell the truth, it was hard for me to come home. Lol. I so wanted to stay! I need to just do a post on my trip. It was awesome and scary at the same time..but I loved it! I'll leave that to another day.

So, I think I have given the biggest updates, there are other things to talk about but I'll leave those till later.
Until then,
Be Blessed.

16 More Days

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Tue, 26 Jan 2016 05:00:00 +0000

Once again, it's been awhile since I have posted. I think about it often, but just put it off I guess.

But it's getting closer to the date and in 16 more days it will be 4 years. 4 years since my dad went to heaven and I still think about most every day. It's 16 more days until my birthday and they have never been the same.

16 more days that I don't want to think about it to tell you the truth. I just don't look at it the same way. I guess I never will. In 16 more days my mom will relive it over again and her heart will break. Time has made it a little easier on her, but she still has her moments.

I thank God that my dad is no longer suffering and I know where he is and that I will see him again one day, but it's those 16 days that I dread and try not to think about it. But I do.

It's Been Almost A Year

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Wed, 13 May 2015 18:32:00 +0000

Well, as you can tell from the title it's been almost a year since I have posted to this blog. May 18th to be exact. So many things have happened in our lives. Good things, bad things.. blessed things and more. It's been life around here as just like everyone else has.

For the past three years, Melissa and Bryan have been living in a little house right behind my house. It's tiny but they have managed to make the most of it and raise 2 kids there. With it being so tiny, we have been sharing the bathroom with 6 or more people every day! We have to work on a schedule for this. haha In those several years, Kayah came to live with us. And now Shelbi has. It's been great having them. It's the typical teenage thing going on. So life can be interesting to say the least! Lol And in just a couple of weeks, Kayah will be graduating High School and then onto college! And Shelbi still has 3 years to go.

Kayah Sr. 2015

But, as of today Melissa and Bryan have purchased the house right behind us and I'm happy for them! It used to be my neighbor (Mrs. Virginia) but she passed away just over a year ago and the house has just been setting there empty. But through God's plan, Melissa and Bryan now have the home! And i'm looking forward to all the years of a new life they will make there. Not to mention I can see their side door from my dinning room window. haha But God is good and he worked this out for them!
Thank you Lord!

Melissa on her first day of her new house!
Getting ready to clean.

Also through this past year, my youngest daughter, Jessica graduated High School in 2014 and started Cosmetology. Her and Melissa both are in cosmetology. Jessie is doing grate in school and her and her boyfriend Shaun are still together. Shaun is in Welding School too. I'm praying for a bright future in the careers they have chosen for their lives.

Jessica on Graduation Day 2014

As for Walter and I, we are pretty good. Walter is Walter.. if you know him, you'll understand. ha ha He even started a new logging job last year. It's long hours on him, but he's holding up well.

As for me, I'm doing ok. I had to quit my job again because of health issues, but I'm back into Tupperware and love it. And I'm even planning on going to the Tupperware Jubilee in August! I'm very excited! This should be so much fun!

But all in all, life is good here. Hard at times but as always, God is bringing us through it!

Be blessed and I will catch you up on more later.

Patty

I Have Things I Have To Do Today.

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Mon, 19 May 2014 04:05:00 +0000

Wow, it has been some time since I have even looked at my blog but I often think of this one. Why? because I have so much to say but many times I stop myself from writing it on here. Just to much raw emotions at times and I don't want to go there. I set here, talk to myself and say.. no, I don't want to deal with that today, I have things I have to do. God has this, and I'm ok.

So many things have happened since my last post on here. One of the biggest things is, my dad passed away on my birthday. That was and still is hard at times. There are times I want to talk about it, but I just say.. no, not today.. I have things I have to get done.. and I put it away.

And so, as I have done many times before.. I have things that I have to do today...

I love You Through It All

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Fri, 11 Mar 2011 01:40:00 +0000

Sometimes being a mother is so hard. Sometimes you just want to scream and throw up your hands and say I can't do this any more! But then you stop, take a deep breath and realize that your child's life holds in the balance by what you do.

Then you realize you can't give up no matter how frustrating it gets. You continue to pray and you pray harder. You talk to God allot about every thing. You ask him.. Lord, what do I do? and he says.. just hang on.. and keep speaking My word over them.

So you pick yourself up and dust yourself off and you get right back on doing what God tells you. You realize that it's up to the words you pray over them that can make or break them.

You realize how hard it is on God at times being the father that he is. And then you begin to apologize to Him for all that you have done. And you say... Lord, what did you do when I acted like this??

He says...

I loved you through it ALL.

So you look at your child and say.... I will love you through it ALL.

It's Been Awhile..

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Fri, 09 Jul 2010 02:36:00 +0000

I know it's been some time since I have posted to my blog. And I know that I should have over the past year and half.. but sometimes life has a way of taking you to places and getting away from you.

Allot has happened over this time. Melissa and Bryan are still living with us. They are both working now at Wal-Mart and doing ok. It's been a bit tight here sometimes, but I love having them with us. Kinda makes me feel complete having them here. And I have gone back to work full time. That's been a big change for me not being in the working world for so long.

Jess is now going into High School this August. She's growing so fast and I don't know where the time has went. Walter is doing pretty good. Still Walter haha There has been more going on in my life, but way to much to talk about right now.

But one of the biggest things in my life is my dad. About 8 months ago he was diagnosed with throat cancer. This has been one of the hardest things in my life. I pray and declare the victory over my dad all the time. And I know that God can heal him. But sometimes I know God can only do so much when allowed.

At times I try not to think about it all, but like I said, I try and so most of every second of every day it's on my mind. We had family pictures made and that was tuff.. we have had get togethers to spend time with him. We just spent what I feel to be our last fathers day with him. And all that is tuff.

I keep my prayers going up to God for all this.. but then I told the Lord, I don't want you to keep him here just for me. I know God has other plans sometimes and we don't always understand them. I have seen my dad suffer with this. And I have done all that I could by keeping him in natural vitamins and stuff. I guess I keep doing that so I can feel that I done all that I could. But in my heart I feel that I could have done more.

I have talked to my dad about the Lord and asked him if he has made things right with him. He said he has and he knows he will go to be with the Lord. I told my dad at one of his many emergency room visits.. Daddy, I think I'll be able to handle all this better knowing that you'll be with God.. but if you hadn't, I don't know how I would do with it. I had to know that he would be with the Lord to get through all this. Other wise I feel it would have drove me crazy. But I feel peace about it and my dad and I know we will see each other some day. That's my peace when times get tuff on me.

I have to say though there are times that I have questioned God, and asked him questions.. and wondered.. but he assures me he'll see me through all this. God has been preparing me for this. Just before my dad went into the hospital the very first time we found out about the cancer the Lord told me something... I questioned him and said..No Lord, that can't be right.. He's ok. But that's a whole story in itself and I may tell it one day... but for now I just keep looking to God and saying Lord help me.. this is gonna be tuff and he tells me. . I'm here.. just know that I am.

I feel that I need to start posting more to my blog.. something like my outlet for what I feel. I'm not always good with words and not sure if I can communicate what I feel.. but I think it will be more like talks between me and God. And right now I need all the talks with God that I can get.

Was She An Angel?

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 03:32:00 +0000

Today at church our pastor made a statement. He said, the word of God holds power, and when we tell people about.. say.. like the day we were saved those words still hold the power of God in them. The very thing that drew us to God, can still draw someone else to him. So instantly it came to my mind about the day that I got saved and how it all happened.

I was about 13 yr. Old when it happened. I was going to a church with some friends of mine and their mom played piano and lord could that lady make that piano sing. And I had been going to church with them for some time. Now, I don’t know how I knew there was more to God all my life, I just knew that I knew and that I had to find it. Well, my friends and their mom invited me to a revival that their grandparents was having up in El Dorado, Arkansas. And my mom said I could go. It was going to be several days, and it was my first ever revival to go to. Now, I wasn’t sure what was supposed to happen, but I was so excited and I just knew something exciting was going to happen.

Well, we arrive at their grandparent’s home and that night we got ready and went to the revival. It was being held in a community center type building with stage and all. So when we arrived, there were many other people and teens there. And I was having fun just meeting everyone. There were young and old, middle age and babies.. just all walks of life there. But, not long after I got there, their was this much older lady.. gray hair and she wore those old heavy knit dresses. Now, this was back in the 70’s so many of the older ladies wore stuff like that. But, this lady began to talk to me.

Now, me being a teen, I wanted to socialize with all the other kids, but this one lady kept finding me wherever I would go. I would go to the bathroom and she was there, I would walk around other teens and she would be there right behind me and she would ask, are you going to get saved tonight? I looked at her and said… I don’t know, I love the Lord, but I just didn’t know if I was that night or not. No matter where I went, she was there.

Now after 2 days of this, I’m like, why is this lady following me around? Who is she, what does she want from me? Why is she always there no matter where I turn.. I asked my friends and they would just say.. I don’t know who she is. but somehow I could just feel her around me.. and poof.. there she would be.. right over my shoulder and asking me.. Are you going to get saved tonight? And I would look at her again and say.. I don’t know.

This went on for several days and on the last night of the revival as I listened to the pastor.. God was dealing with me. He was the whole time, but I just had to process it all. And at the end of service, I said Yes Lord, I will accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior. And I jumped up and took off to the front. Now, back then when you gave your heart to the lord, they would take you to a room and talk to you, and then pray for you and lead you in the sinners prayer. Well, when I done this I was so excited. Such a joy filled me and all I could do was beam with this wonderful new feeling. Such excitement filled my heart. Well, when I came out from the back I began looking for that lady.

I looked all over the building, I searched the ladies room, I looked outside, and I asked my friends.. hey, where did that gray haired lady go? And they looked at me and said.. what gray haired lady? I said, you know.. that lady that followed me all over the place for the last 4 days. And they looked at me in amazement and said, we didn’t see any gray haired lady.. I said you had too, she was the lady that followed me all over the place, you know that lady who wore that gray dress… with short gray hair. She’s the one that kept asking me, Are you going to get saved tonight? You had to see her, she’s the one I kept asking you about. She stood right here with us? But still they insisted they didn’t know who I was talking about.

Well, I wanted to find her and say.. I did it.. I accepted Jesus tonight.. and I wanted to share my joy with her.. but I never did find her. One minute she was there and the next gone.

Now, over the years I would ponder on this. But one day it hit me.. could God have sent an angel just for me? no one knew her, no one I was with said they seen here.. but yet, every place I went, she was there. And the very second I wanted to rush to her and say.. I did It, I did it.. she was gone.

For me, I say she was. I think God loved me so much, and wanted me so bad, and wanted to change my life that he sent an angel just for me. One who would keep pointing me in the direction that he wanted me to go. One that would stand by me until he knew that I was were I was supposed to be, and that was in the arms of the Lord.

For me, that gray haired lady, in that gray knit dress, was and always will be an angel

Have you seen your angel?

Before, After and Before

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Sun, 15 Feb 2009 20:56:00 +0000

**BEFORE **

Strange title I know, but this is a multi purpose post.. so let's start out with the first before. Here in this picture you see me in the "Before" as in, before I gained weight. No fat face, or extra chin haha...back when I was slim and trim and long hair. Ok, that takes care of the first "Before" now to the after part of my story.. and one of my multi purposes for this post.

**AFTER/BEFORE**

As many of you know, this week was my birthday, and for my birthday my sister wanted to treat me to a "Just Patty Day".. She had been praying and asking God what should she do for me, and he told her.. just do for her. Give her a makeover, she needs it, she needs some pick me up and I want to bless her.. So that's what my sister did. She set it up for me to get my hair done, a facial and take me shopping. And I have to say, for me it was hard to receive. I can give much better than I can receive.. but we went and got my hair done, my facial and a new set of clothes. We had a wonderful day and to tell the truth, I told my sister, I don't know what to say other than thank you, and I began to cry in the store.. It touched my heart so that God wanted to bless just me, and used my sister to do it. It was an over-whelming feeling.

But as you can see, I have gained weight, that extra chin haha.. but now with short hair. (and yes, I have had short hair before) and this brings me to my "Before, After and BEFORE

This is now my new Before pic because after looking at myself and seeing how much I have gained, I plan on loosing weight haha.. so this is me BEFORE haha. I am going to go back to the slim person (or as close as I can get) that I once was. I felt better, had more energy and my clothes fit better haha.. so This is me now, but by summer, I'll be a different person.

I'm not planning on any crash diets, or fads, just back to basic good eating, not eating after 5 pm. and back to my walking and exercise. And when summer rolls around, I'll take a new AFTER picture haha.. and post that..

So now, you see me Before, After and Before!

And to my sister, I love you very much and thank God for the blessing you gave me for my birthday and for the fact that you listened to the lord and followed his will!!

Sisters Forever!

Where Did The Time Go?

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Sun, 15 Feb 2009 00:27:00 +0000

Where or where did the time go?? She has gone from my curly headed little girl to a young lady and the time has just flew by.

My baby is growing up and today was her very first Valentine date. Yes, that is her guy friend haha.. brad and he is just so nice. So very polite and caring. He treats Jessie like a lady.

Today she went to the movies with Bradly and his mom and dad, and then out to eat. I know she had so much fun and was a bit nervous at first about it.

I just wish I could slow time down and keep her little and with me forever but I know that's not going to happen haha.. I miss the little tiny hands patting my face, giving me kisses and hugging my neck.. but I know as she grows older and we get past that.. mom doesn't know anything stage.. we'll be good friends.

I just stand in amazement at how she's growing and hope and pray all the time that I'm teaching her the very best I can and creating a beautiful young woman.

Happy Valentines Day to Jessie and Bradly.

Love,

Mom

What An Awesome Birthday!

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Wed, 11 Feb 2009 19:12:00 +0000

Well, as some of you know, my birthday was Tuesday.. feb. 10th. and I turned 47 yr old!!! Oh man, where did the time go?! Seems just like yesterday I was hitting 20, then 30, then 40 and now bumping that 50 mark! Only thing is, my mind never thinks I am hahaha..

But I had an awesome day... started out with everyone wishing me happy birthday that morning, then my mom and dad came over and brought me a cheese cake!! awesome!! haha.. and got some money too haha.. then, later that day I needed to go to town, so my oldest daughter says... I'll take you, I said ok.. let's go.

So off we go.. and she proceeds to tell me, oh by the way, you have an appointment at 2 pm., I'm like, "what appointment?" She proceeds to tell me, and I'm like OOHHH NOOO haha.. I'm looking at her going.. I didn't shave my legs and I have holes in my socks LOL. So we run through Wal-Mart real quick and I grab razors and stuff, and dry shave my legs in Wal-Mart restroom hahaha.. got my self ready and head off to my appointment.

Now, this was my first ever real professional massage! and all I can say is it's AWESOME!
I was in sheer heaven. One of the best birthday presents I have ever had haha..

Now, I wasn't expecting much at all, cause money is tight, and we have things to take care of, but hubby wanted to treat me. And believe it or not, hubby didn't even tell me about it. He and my daughter set it up for me! Now is that a surprise or what? haha All I could think about while laying there was, thank you god, thank you!

Now to some this may not seem like much, but for me, it was more than I can say. I stay so tense most of the time, and have so much going on that I never seem to just relax and for me, it was just ME time.. time that I could let my mind rest and let go.. and for that one hour I let ME rest and that felt so good.

So to my hubby, I say thank you for the most awesome gift he has ever given me!!
And to God who set one hour aside just for me!
Thank YOU!

A Tuff Time Is A Blessing

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 06:18:00 +0000

I know my SIL loosing his job has been a test for them. But they trust God and know that he's taking care of them. He's watching out for their every need.

But for me, it's been a blessing. Sometimes I think God done this just for me. Strange I know, but at times looking around, I see him blessing me through this.

For some time I had health issues and unable to get many things done that I wanted and needed to do. Things that need to be fixed, or cleaned out.. work done in my yard. So I would just have to do what I could and let the rest go. Well, after awhile it would get to me. Seeing everything and knowing that it had gotten to large for me to do. I would just say.. ok Lord, you're gonna have to help me with this.. cause it's more than I can handle. And he has.

Since Melissa and Brian have been here, they have helped me so much on getting things organized, moved around, cleaning out our old travel trailer and getting it ready to have hauled off. Brian has done work in the yard that I had a hard time doing like trimming trees, bushes, and such. He woke up one morning and said God talked to him about idle hands and from that point on he's been working so hard.

There have been so many things that they have helped me with. When I set here and look around, it just touches my heart. It's like getting your life back again. Things that seem so over whelming to me, things I thought would take forever.. are now dwindling away. A huge weight has been lifted off me.

I am just so amazed at how God works, how he can take a time like this and turn it into such a blessing. I know that God will bless them for this. I know he will continue to take care of them and I believe when God is finished here, Brian's new job will fall right into place. But in the mean time, I am thanking God for blessing me, for helping me like he has.. See, God cares about all those things in our lives. God knows what a weight it has been on me, and he wanted to take that off me... and I thank him for that.

So no matter what the enemy has thrown at us, God has taken it and turned it to good. And all I can say is..
Thank You Lord!

I Needed To See.

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 06:34:00 +0000

Ok, many people don’t even know that at times I struggle with fears. As I’m sure most of us do. But at times they try to hit me pretty hard. And the last few weeks It’s tried to break me down.

For several years I suffered from sever acid reflux and other stomach troubles. And with this come many pains and pains in the chest. And at times can make you feel like your going to die. And trust me, at that point you start praying and praying hard. With all this, it had begun working on me… or should say the enemy was working on me… and at times it can cause panic attacks. And those are no fun too.

Every one that knows me knows I am a born again Christian, that I love the lord and do my very best for him. So with this said, how can I, a child of god have these fears? Fears that have been tormenting me day and night. Fears that can grab me so hard and cause sheer panic in me? And to top that off, my family and friends diden't even know it most of the time. I never say anything.. I just get up and walk around the house a lot, or keep my mind busy on the computer setting here thinking, and most of all praying. How can I, Gods child; have this? It has been a struggle in my mind and spirit. Asking God all the time, Lord, what is wrong with me? I’m yours; I shouldn’t even be feeling this way. I of all people should know better? I’m speaking your word, I’m praying, I’m doing all that I know to do… so why?

As I began reading a book the other day.. “Curing the Incurable – How to receive healing in hopeless situations” forward by R.W. Shambach, book by Jack Coe. God showed me some things. There are 5 keys to healing in the book, but what God began to reveal to my heart was this… he said.. you know how you set and see yourself sick? You know how you see yourself afraid to even go to town alone, or even go into the bathroom without your cell phone when home alone?… god said, you see these things in your minds eye.. You see the fear, you see things happening to you… you SEE the bad but pray for the Good.. and I had to stop in my tracks and say…. Oh lord, you are right!! I SEE these things in my mind. Oh Lord, I am so sorry! I felt so bad. Why? Because I’m always telling others.. you have to SEE what God is doing in YOUR life.. and here I was not even seeing my own!! It sadden my heart to the point of crying.

God said, Patty… remember your favorite verse in the bible? The one you named Jessie after? I said, yes.. Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things not seen… He said, Patty… say this with me.. NOW, Faith is the substance of THINGS HOPED FOR!!… and I did, and he said… what do you hope for? What you HOPE for, you SEE. When you set and dream of things.. you see them in your minds eye… your heart.. you see yourself going places that you dream of, or buying something you would love to own.. you see yourself driving that new car, or spending your life with that one you love.. you SEE these things… you HOPE these things. And God said…….. Patty….. SEE yourself healed.. see yourself with NO Fear.. see yourself doing and going where I send you.. SEE yourself the way you pray. I said…Oh Lord, I understand… I must SEE myself as YOU say I am!!

Well, all I could do was cry.. and I began to speak out.. Lord, your word says… now FAITH is the substance of things HOPE FOR.. And with my heart, my minds eye… I HOPE, I SEE myself healed.. I see myself going each day with NO FEAR, I SEE myself walking again with JOY, no pain, no fear, I SEE myself doing the work that you set me here for!! Thank you Lord, that I Can SEE.. I SEE what I HOPE for!!

I have been doing this every day now, and when those fears, those panic attacks, that pain comes, when the enemy says.. you’ll never be better, you’ll never go and be normal again, you’ll always feel this way… I say NO, my God says HOPE, SEE… and I SEE ALL that He has for me, and I walk in that! I no longer SEE what you are trying to show me, I SEE what MY God says I am!! I SEE it in Jesus Name!!

What happens when we do this.. God has made a way of escape for me, he has set me free from the chains that try to hold me back.. He makes the enemy flee from me. And Gives me hope!!

What do you SEE in your life? What pictures play over and over in your minds eye? Do you see endless doom and gloom? Never having enough? Always being sick? always fallings short? Well stop… and say NO, this is what I SEE, and begin to say it out loud and cause the enemy to flee from your life. And walk where God wants you to walk.

Why did I poor my heart out here? Why did I put myself out there for all to see? Why did I show a side that know one sees? Because God is using me to be a witness to all, and that means that I’m walking where HE wants me too and that those fears have no hold on me!

Open your heart today and begin to SEE!

Oh what to write..

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 18:59:00 +0000

well, so much has been going on here the past few weeks, not sure where to begin haha
but I'll give it a shot.

First, my oldest daughter and SIL are staying with us for awhile. My SIL lost his job that he has had for 6 years or so.. it was a blow, but we have been knowing that change was coming. How? well.. God had been revealing things to us and showing us things were about to change.

They come and stay with us and I love when they are here. Seeing they live 2 hr. away from me, and I would much rather keep them close to me haha.. it's a mother thing haha. But we know everything will turn out just fine because we know God has his hand on their lives. We have a lot of fun when all of us are together and it just makes me feel complete having them here.

Second, Jessie has a new guy-friend haha.. I know, she's 13 and boys are starting to really look at her. This is her second guy-friend in her life LOL.. now you would have to know jessie. She's not one for drama at all. If all the girls are having the normal girl drama things going on.. she just walks off haha.. and she doesn't like all the boy friend - girl friend dram too. She's kinda like me, talk to me normal, tell me straight up front and don't play games haha. Now, can she be a dram queen when she wants....... oh yes, you bet!! Don't get her started.. and hubby knows just how to push those buttons haha. but as for others drama.. she's not into that. But, back to the new guy-friend... he's so nice and polite and loves going to church with us. She's walking on cloud nine! haha.. and so am I, being I ALWAYS pray for christian friends, boyfriends and husbands for my daughters. So yes, I'm pretty happy! Next time he's over i'll get a pic of them and post.

As for me, I have been busy working on a new website, getting that ready and up on the net. I feel better now that I have that done. Just have to work on tweaking it some, but I like it. haha..

Plus I had to make a trip to the doctor Tuesday.. I know my shoulder and back is healed, but I had to go ahead and keep my appointment cause they were taking me as a new patient and didn't want to miss out getting set in there haha.. but they checked me out, and gave me stuff for swelling.. so I feel better now.

So life around here has been pretty normal with the things that keep you busy like, cleaning, cooking, running, kids, husband, church and all that stuff... not to much of that - things that make you go hmmm....? well, I have had a few haha.. and will take time soon to write about that haha.. but for today, it's just a normal day at the Dooley's home haha.. and to tell the truth.. It feels good.

So for me, I just wish you a blessed day and pray that your life is just as normal as ours.
ohhh and if you want to check out my new site.. you can haha it's http://www.21naturalhealthcds.com/

Patty

I Feel So Much Better!

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 17:44:00 +0000

Well, as most didn't even know, I had been having problems with my left shoulder, arm, neck and chest. Some time ago I had a muscle pop in my shoulder blade and man..if felt like someone took a rubber band and just hit me.

Well, I went to the doctor about a year ago.. they gave me some meds and I took a few. Now, I'm not real big on taking any meds if I can get away with it. I try more natural ways when I can... well.. the last few months it has steady gotten worse. So much so that I couldn't turn my head, I had to turn my whole body.. and the last month or so has been real bad. So I had started taking the meds cause of the pain.

Well, last Friday I called into our local radio station at the prayer hour. It's hosted by my pastor.. so I called in and told him, Pastor Ben, this time it's me that needs prayer.. so we prayed. I was still in pain, but I knew God was healing me.

Well, Monday night I went to Monday Night Prayer and they asked who needs prayer.. well, I ran down from my sound board and said.. me, me! haha.. Pastor Ben said ok patty, we'll pray for you again at the end of service.

Well, I took my keyboard downstairs and left it in the sound with Bonnie and I sat with my hubby in the back. While setting there I was in so much pain and couldn't set still. So at the end of service, Pastor Ben said.. patty, come up here and we're going to pray. So I got up and went.

He called me and another member and we both stood there.. he began to laugh.. and kept saying, ok, this is strange.. but I'm gonna do it.. and kept asking me, are you ready?? I'm like...well yes haha. So he says, raise your hands to the lord, and I did, and I closed my eyes praying. Well, the next thing I know Pastor Ben was putting a bear hug on me, picked me up and jerked me and set me back down! haha

Well, I couldn't do anything but laugh! LOL.. I thought I was going to roll on the floor laughing haha.. I sat back down by Pastor Tammie, (his wife) and we, as the whole church was just laughing. hahaha We have never seen Pastor Ben do anything like that hahaha.. and then it hit me, Oh God, I hope he didn't himself picking me up that way.. and I'm still just laughing haha

Well, about 10 min. later I'm setting there and I realized that I had NO Pain!! My shoulder wasn't burning, my neck wasn't hurting, I could move my shoulder.. it was AWESOME!! And to this day all I have is like bruised muscles.. but getting better. I have been able to get up and do what I need to do, drive to town with no pain and it's wonderful!!

But every time I think about it, I still laugh.. it was so funny but truly amazing at how God works to heal us. All I can say is...

Thank you Lord for healing me
and
Thank you Pastor Ben for doing what God tells you to do!!

Always let God do what he wants in your life, you never know how he will do it.. but he will!

Blessings,
Patty

What's My New Years Resolution For 2009?

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Fri, 02 Jan 2009 03:51:00 +0000

Ok, so I have been asked, what’s your New Year’s resolution? And to tell the truth, I didn’t have one. Now I had been thinking about it, but nothing just jumped out at me. I had tried them all in the past.. loosing weight, staying In shape, get organized and so on. But each year life would get in and have a way of changing everything I said I would do.

So, as I stood on the porch today I said.. God, what do I need to do this year?
I want these things In my life,
Health
Prosperity
Wisdom
Peace
Favor
And god said; “Trust in me with all your heart, and lean not to your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge me, and I will direct your paths”

where does this come from? Proverbs 3: 5-6

As I read through Proverbs 3, God began to show me all the things he has for me.

If I keep his commands on my heart he will give me long life and peace he will add to me.

If I did not forsake mercy and truth but write them on my heart I would find favor with God and man

If I was not wise in my own eyes and fear the Lord and depart from evil, it would be health to my flesh and strength to my bones.

If I honored god with all my possessions and with my Firstfruits of ALL my increase, my barns would be filled with plenty and my vats would over flow with new wine.

As it goes on in Proverbs 3, God tells me how much he wants for me.. what he says I can have if I will only acknowledge HIM in All that I do.

I find that I want things different this year; I want more of what He wants for me, and not just what I want for myself. I want to Be, Do and Have ALL that God says I can Have, BE and Do. So for me, I have to say when people ask me.. What’s your New Years resolution? I have to say.. well, I, myself have tried in the past to set my own resolutions but this year I would rather do what God wants me to do.. So this year my New Years Resolution is...

I will trust in the lord with all my heart, and lean not to my own understanding. I will acknowledge Him in all that I do and HE will direct my paths. With Him I can’t go wrong.

All I have to do each day when I get up is say.. Lord, I give you this day.. I acknowledge that You are LORD over me and my life.. and in you today Lord, YOU will direct my paths. You will direct my life, you will direct my business, you will direct my family, you will direct my health, my peace, my joy.. In you will I trust.

So in 2009 I know it will hold the BEST that God has for me and no other resolution I could ever make could ever compare with that.

Proverbs 3: 1- 35

What have you done for your marriage today?

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Tue, 30 Dec 2008 16:54:00 +0000

Something I heard on the news, or radio or tv, can’t remember which it was.. but what I heard got me to thinking.. “What have you done for your marriage today?”.. well, I began thinking.. What had I done for my marriage today?

I have been so busy working, taking care of kids, church, school, and tons of other things, that sometimes I forget about my marriage. Somehow we seem to think that our running, cooking, cleaning, washing, tending to kids and everything else is part of our marriage.. when it’s not. Those things are a product of our marriage, but our marriage is between the two of us.

It’s the time we take out for each other, the things we used to do to show each other we care.. what did we do before and just after we got married? Hmmmm let’ see.. he used to take me to the movies, just him and I, we used to just get in the car and go riding and talking.. some times he would just get me a card, or I would just snuggle up to him. But in the midst of things we somehow have lost that.

Do we still love each other? Very much so… but somehow in the middle of growing with each other, we have somehow lost those little things between each other. We have gotten away from all those little things we used to do.

Now, I did go to hubby and ask him.. what do I do for you? And he’s like, well.. you clean, cook, do my wash, take care of Jessie… I said I know I do those things.. but what do I do for YOU to complete you? Well, he had to stop and say…… hmmmm haha.. now he’s not a man that does well with telling feelings and mushy stuff haha.. but he let me know how he feels. So I told him, ya know, we need to do something for our marriage each and every day.. something that shows each other how we feel. Doesn’t have to be anything major but just something.

So the next day I called him at work and just told him.. you know, I sure do love you. He’s like, I love you too.. now I tell him all the time, but it was a bit different this time. With more excitement hahaha.. and believe it or not, he heard that in my voice and it made a difference on how he told me he loved me back.

So now, instead of thinking that cooking, cleaning and all that stuff I do is saying I love you (and it does) I will stop and think each day of some little something I can do just for him.. something that says something between just the two of us and not for everyone else.

Why? Because this is the person that I will be growing old with, the one who will set back with me when everyone else is gone.. This is the person that God sent to me after a life of hell at times.. this was my best friend in high school and it took many years later for us to meet up again and have the life we have now. I loved him back in school and I love him now…. And want to show what he does to complete me. In spite of his quirks and things he can do to annoy me, I still love him.

So today and every day I will find some little something to do for MY Marriage and make it better each and every day.

What have you done for your marriage today?

Christmas At My Daughters

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Sat, 27 Dec 2008 04:01:00 +0000

Well, Christmas this year was a bit different for us. This year is the first time in my adult life that I have been away from home. And I have to say, it was nice. No running and trying to get so much done, no worrying about cooking, baking, cleaning the kitchen and stuff.. It was different, but fun.

This year we spent it at my oldest daughters home. And we had a wonderful time. We spent the evening eating pizza, watching movies, spent some time with my 3 step grand daughters before they had to go home. I made them blue jean purses.... and they loved them haha.. of course I have grand daughters and jess (my 13 yr old) who love what they now call.. retro haha.. wasn't retro when I used it haha.. but I fixed them up some funky purses filled with goodies.

Then Christmas day we got together with my SIL's dad and step mom.. love those people and so much fun to be around. We opened gifts, and a nice Christmas breakfast that Melissa fixed.. then we just hung out until time to visit more family.

Well, the more family was my oldest daughters dad and new step mom.. Yes, it was a bit different, but I got to meet Melissa's new step mom Leigh Ann and she's a wonderful person. She cares for Melissa very much and treats her with love. His second wife didn't do that... so I am very grateful to Leigh Ann for loving Melissa like she does. Yes, at first it was a bit strange spending Christmas with your ex-husband and new wife haha.. but I did get to see other family members and I had such a great time visiting with Pam. (my ex-SIL) whom I just love and miss so much! And I got to spend time with Melissa's other sisters and brother.. I am close to them as well and love seeing them when I can. Marty and Leigh Ann made us feel very welcomed in their home.. and Marty and I get along pretty good and so does Walter and Marty. We have learned to put old things aside and do what needs to be done for our children.. even with them grown into adults now, we still work together.

Things and time have a way of bringing changes in your life and we all learn and grow from them. So yes, our Christmas was a bit different this year, but one I wouldn't change.

Jessica Opening Gifts

meilssa's Chrsitmas Tree

Everyone enjoying breakfast after opening presents

What would they think?

noreply@blogger.com (Patty Dooley) — Wed, 24 Dec 2008 04:28:00 +0000

Well,
some days I have more on my mind than just business. I think of many things throughout my day... what I have to do next, about my kids, hubby, what God says about me.. just all sorts of things.

So, I figure I will write about it here.

like today, I was out shopping with my daughter, trying to finish up a few Christmas things.. and I look at all the people around me shopping. Buggy's full of toys, gifts, food.. and I wonder, Lord.. is anyone thinking of you? Is anyone thinking.. ya know, we should just spend this day without all the gifts, toys and such and just celebrate Jesus. Now, I'm sure there are some, but how many? Guess that's something I will never know.

Do I love Santa, YES.. very much so.. but I look at him as the spirit of giving.. And I have found that over they years I look at the holiday different. The kids are grown or teens and I wonder, what would they do if I said.. this year, let's not do gifts, but just a dinner and celebrate Jesus? I'm sure most of them would say.....no way!! We want the stuff... and how sad is that... it takes getting things to celebrate the day of Christs birth.

One thing I know, they will get older and they will come to the place and time in life that I'm at and say..... you know, we should just celebrate what they day is truly about and that's about the one who was born to die. The one who came to give me life.

Do I think everyone will agree with me, no, certainly not.. but I do know at one point and time we all ask.. why do we stress so much? why do we put ourselves through all this? And they will want to spend this time celebrating LIFE and the simple Joy the day can bring.

What is my prayer for everyone today?
For them to see the joy of the day and how just being together can bring so much to our hearts.

"Oh Holy Night"
The stars are brightly shining
It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth
Long lay the world in sin and error pining'
Til He appeared and the soul felt its worth

A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn
Fall on your knees,
oh hear the angel voices

Oh night divine,
Oh night when Christ was born

Oh night divine, Oh night
Oh night devine