Rebecca Hessey's Poems

My music

2026-03-02T09:36:00.000-08:00

I have been creating music using these poems. You can find me under this name or Reb Hess.

Dreams

2013-08-02T14:06:00.000-07:00

I have started a new blog about my (sleeping) dreams, if you’re interested. It is at What Did I Dream.

For now

2012-11-20T01:04:00.000-08:00

For now, this is all I have. You can read my earlier postings, and/or check out my other blog where I'm posting my tidbits of stories I've written here at As Is and Nonedited .

She Looked Up - I Want To Be A Model - He Walked Up - She Had To Forgive - She Got Him

2012-07-09T15:02:00.000-07:00

She looked up
Saw him standing
There
He motioned for
Her to come with
Him
She wasn't sure if
She should go
Looks are deceiving
She learned from
Him
Though now he looked
As if he had
Changed
She wouldn't know
Unless she went

I want to be a model
I want to be a star
I want to make some friends
I also want a car
I would enjoy to be a model
I would enjoy to be a star
I would enjoy to be somewhere
That would be very far
It is now time to leave
I won't say good-bye
I will just turn it
Into a gigantic "Hi"
So off I go tonight
To fall asleep in bed
I hope I won't
Ever hurt my head

He walked up
And slapped her
She stood still
And asked, "What fer?"
He said, "So"
And walked out the door
He didn't love her
No, not anymore

She had to forgive
He didn't want this
To go on
He learned to not
Take her for granted
All the time
She loved him and
Wanted him to stay
Forever

She got him
On the day
He was to be
Married
He skipped out
Left her alone
Made her cry
Wearied

I Want To Be Alone - I'm All Confused - Where - I'm All Alone - Figure Out

2012-05-14T16:12:00.001-07:00

I want to be alone
No one to bother me
No one for me to bother
To think about myself
To read about myself

I'm all confused
All withered and worn
My life is torn

Where
Did our
Love go
Now that
We two
Are separated

I'm all alone
In a world of my own
No one can enter
No one can leave
I have no one to care
No one to share

Figure out
Where you
Want me

When I Went - My Life's A Mess - Love

2012-04-29T15:40:00.001-07:00

When I went
To see you
I saw a girl
In your arms
You will never
Know
Know the love
You could have
Had
It's too late
For I have gone
It's too late
No one has
Won

My life's a mess
I don't like chess
I want a Cabriolet
One where it's already paid
I want to color my hair black
It'll be very chak
I hate school
I'm also a fool
No one loves me
I want it back, the key
The key to a life
Where there's no strife
I want to leave
I want to die
I want to go
Even without a pie
In my own way I'm a rebel
I shave my hair
I don't think
Anyone would care
I need a friend
One who'll care
Someone who'll
Always be there

Love
What does it mean
Does it mean a heart
A rose
A bond between two people
I still haven't found out
I'm sure I will
I don't know when
Maybe I'm too young
Maybe I'm too old
Love
What does it mean
Does it mean animals
Children
Or even a mate
I still haven't found it
It's nowhere in sight
Maybe I'll find it
Maybe by tonight
Maybe in a couple of years
Love
What does it mean
I still haven't found out
I'm sure I will
I'm sure I will

Where Am I Going - She Ached For His Love - My Life Is A Wreck

2012-04-19T17:28:00.000-07:00

Where am I going
Where where where
What's that in my way
What what what
How can I believe
How how how
Why am I me
Why why why

She ached for his love
She knew she couldn't
Have that love
He was thinking of
Someone
Else
She grew more and more
Desperate as the years
Passed

My life is a wreck
Like a car crashing
A turtle
I have no direction
No emphasis
Nothing
I've been drained
Of everything
Of caring
Of hating
All I want is
Music; music
That's loud and
Can take me away
Away from
Everyday things
I just have
No life
In me
I'm just a
Body
A body that
Does things
Goes places
I'm nothing
No body
I feel like....nothing

What Is There To You - I'm Dying - I Want To Get Out Of This Jail

2012-04-03T18:24:00.000-07:00

What is there to you?
What is there to me?
We are lost in a world of our own
Where we can run
And we can hide
But we will always be found
I can not fathom our bodies
Of being
Being separated
If we were
We would die somehow, somewhere
Just like Romeo and Juliet

I'm dying
I'm falling
I want some help
I have my heart calling
I need someone
I need a friend
If I don't get one
My soul's gonna end
I need some love
I need some care
If there isn't anyone
I'm gonna shave my hair
Come quick
Come fast
Otherwise my life
Will have past
I'm going down the drain
I'm standing in the rain

I want to get out of this jail
I want to get up and move
I want to leave here right now because
I can't find any thing called love

Be Gentle - What's Life - It's Been A Year Since I Last Saw You

2012-03-24T19:58:00.001-07:00

Be gentle
I have a world to give
Be soft
I have a world to live

What's life
What's it for
I'm so lost
And confused
I can't go anywhere
I can't take anything
Why am I here

It's been a year since I last saw you
We used to be stuck with glue
Until one day
You had your way
And looked for someone new
I could never face you again
Even when I counted to ten
So now you're gone
And now there's no fun
(Now) I live in the den
I miss you
Everyday and night
I cry for you
With all my might

There Once Was A Girl Named Becky - My Love For You Can Never End - My Head Is Light

2012-03-04T17:35:00.000-08:00

There once was a girl named Becky
She was so hecky
Then one day
A boy came to say
May I take your hand
She said yea
And blessed were they
With children to understand

My love for you can never end
Your love to me you'll never send
I think of you day and night
And I hope with all my might
One day
One day soon
We will fall in love
Under the moon
Then I'll wish with all my heart
That we will never part
But this is only a dream
For me to see
So go away
And let me be

My head is light
But my heart is full
Full with love for you
My legs go all over
From turning weak
When I look at you
My feet turn to stone
And I can't move
I end up staring at you
I never meant to fall
Fall in love with
You

My Love For You - I Hate You - There Once Was

2012-02-25T15:19:00.000-08:00

My love for you
Is unthinkable
So now you're
Gone, I don't know
What to do
How can I tell
You what I felt
When I never saw
You or heard from
You

I hate you
With all my might
Let's go outside
And together we'll fight
I'll punch you down
Til you're bleeding all over
You'll be crying out
For your mother
Someday you're going to learn
Not to deal with me
When I'm finished with you
Your mouth will have no teeth
Leave me be
Or you will die
For I'll punch out
Both of your eyes
I'll punch you down
Til you're bleeding all over
You'll be crying out
For your mother

There once was
Electricity between
Us
Now there is only
Dead Silence
There once was
Passion between
Us
Now there is only
Old Rust
When I came to you
To ask what had
Gone wrong
You said
There once was
Beauty between
Us
Now there is only....
(Nothing)

May I - Pop Goes The Weasel - Why Are People - Here I Am

2012-02-13T19:06:00.000-08:00

May I
Oh, please may I
Be your bride today
Surely I
Oh yes, surely I
Will mend your shirt today

Pop goes the weasel
He's such a teasel
And a very naughty boy
He got in so much trouble
He suddenly became a bubble
And a child's (little) toy

Why are people
So cruel?
I don't understand
Why
Is there something
They don't like?
Is it something
That someone did?
Please help me
Understand

Here I am
There you are
Our minds are
Straying too far
You say I'm jealous
I say you cheat
We both want
Each other to defeat
We fight
You hit
I say we've
Fallen in a pit

My Eyes Are Red - When There's Joy

2012-01-29T13:58:00.000-08:00

My eyes are red
They start to swell
They're huge enough
So I can't see
I start to dream
I see puppies dancing
Kittens barking
Pink horses
Brown elephants
The alarm goes off
And I have to get up
For another day
Of school
The hours pass on
And my stomach
Tells me, Feed me!
I say be quiet and
Go to sleep
I wish I could do
The same

When there's joy
There's happiness
It's in the air
Grab it
Put it in your
Soul
You will never
Be desolate of'
This wonderful
Thing
Pass it around
To your friends
Your family
You will see
How happy you
Can always
Be

Why Is Life Hard - Take Me Away - Seems Like - There Was A Girl -

2012-01-19T16:27:00.000-08:00

Why is life hard
Why is life contentious
Why does everyone
Have to be pretentious
In my heart I know
I don't know who
Else does
There are so few
We come and go
Never finding
Never knowing
I could be asking

Take me away
Take me away
From this state of mind
Where can I go
To get away from
This state of mind

Seems like
You have
Gone and
Left me
Never to
Be seen
Again

There was a girl
She didn't know
Who to pick
So one day
She picked Rick

Heart To Heart - Guys - Love Is - What Are We To Do? - We Go Walking

2012-01-11T13:26:00.000-08:00

Heart to heart
We speak

Guys
"R"
Everywhere
But "R"
Not "4"
Me

Love is
Never where
It ought to
Be

What are we to do?
What are we to do?
I don't know about you
I'm going to listen
To the breezes of
The wind
The rush of the
Ocean

We go walking
When the wind blows
Your hair flaps
I close my jacket
Trying to get warm
You see me struggle
With what?
My life or jacket?
We go walking
When the wind blows

Voices Rendered - I Once Had You To Lean On - A Woman Is Sitting - I'm Lost In A World

2011-12-27T18:27:00.000-08:00

Voices rendered
Headache

I once had you to lean on
And now you are gone
What am I to do
Now that I miss you
I had a problem
You came to me
I tore you apart
And now you are gone

A woman is sitting
By her door waiting
Waiting for someone
Who took her heart
And loved her all
Through the years
Of their marriage
She will see him soon
Sooner than she
Thinks; Knows
They will be
Together again

I'm lost in a world
All of my own
No one can understand
No one can be confused
I'm trapped in a world
All of my own
No one can enter
No one can leave
I'm caught
I'm surrounded
By people who
Don't know what's
Going on in
My mind
Sometimes I feel
Like killing myself
There's only one thing
Holding me back
The Celestial
Kingdom

There Was A Man - Where Are You? - I See Your Light Shine

2011-12-11T20:42:00.001-08:00

There was a man
This man had a shoe
The shoe had a hand
The hand held mine
Mine held yours
Yours held the mans
Now it's Saturn's turn

Where are you?
Not with me
I wish you could see
All I've gone through
What is love anyway?
It's just a word you wanted
Me to say
My heart broke that day
I have nothing to say

I see your light shine
I see your face glow
There's something about you
I want to know
You have a smile
That brightens your face
You can see it
In every place
You say it's from
The gospel you teach
You tell everyone
Who is within reach
There's the baptism
And conversion
But first of all
There are the discussions
Now I have the glow on my face
You can see in every place

My Eyes - I Walk Down The Beach - What

2011-11-29T19:53:00.001-08:00

My eyes
See you
In her
Arms
You don't
Know how
Much that
Hurts
I could
Crawl into
My skin and
Hide

I walk down the
Beach
I feel the sand
Beneath
It feels good to
Escape
If only for a little
While
I see long time
Friends
I see long time
Relatives
They start to fade
Away
And I'm brought back
To reality

What
Can
We
Do
To
Enjoy
This
Night
Of
Our
Youth
Under
The
Stars?

I'm Sitting Next - My Life - I Can't Fall

2011-11-12T15:01:00.001-08:00

I'm sitting next
To you
You are sitting
Next to me
In a room
Full of people
All of a sudden
They are gone
You face me
I face you
What are we
To do?
Then out of
Nowhere
I scream

My life
What's it for
What am I to do
I'm confused
About everything
There's no confidence
There's no esteem
Why do I have
To be like this
Why can't I
Do anything
Why am I scared
I need a push, but
I push it away
I don't have
A life
I feel I shouldn't
This doesn't make
Any sense
Should it
Why should I care
Why care
About anything

I can't fall
In love with
You
You know the
Reason for
That
People would
Talk
Your girlfriend
Would beat
Me to a
Pulp

Do You Love Me - We Were Separated - My Name

2011-10-31T14:18:00.000-07:00

Do you love me
Are you true
Do you cheer me up
When I'm blue
Are you a friend
Do you ignore me
Do you say "Hi" to me
And not throw me on the floor
Do you love me
(Or) Will you leave
And tell your friends
I'm your pet peeve
Am I your sister
Do you comfort me
No, you just say,
"Let her be"
I'm ending my (mental) life
Right here and now
Because you always say
"You look like a cow"
So here's my farewell
To you and friends
So I guess this is
My life to end
(So) Please be kind to me
And save me from dying

We were separated
Now we're together
Forever

My name
Your name
Everyone's name

Your Fingers Touched Mine - She Couldn't Stand - Will I Dance

2011-10-18T13:53:00.000-07:00

Your fingers touched mine
As we danced
We talked for a while
I think I saw you smile
My head went in a whirl
Do you see me as
A pretty girl?
My hands were sweaty (I hope you didn't mind)
I want you for my teddy (bear)
The song came to a close
Only heaven knows what
The future holds
As you said my name it was as if
No one was around; I didn't want
To come back to
The ground
For joy my heart leaped
My bones, they went weak
I wish for you
My heart to keep
Please don't break it

She couldn't stand
To lose him
So she agreed
For he knew
He was what
She needs

Will I dance
This lonely
My whole life
Through

For Once In My Life - We Looked At Each Other - I Like You - I Get Scared

2011-10-04T20:10:00.000-07:00

For once in my life

Let me get what I want

I love you so dear

I don't know what to do

You probably wouldn't want me

You probably don't care

I want you

You've broken my heart

Once, twice, or more

I can't keep on counting

I need to know

What your feelings are

Should we go for it or no

Do you love me

Do you care

I need you so much

I wish I knew

Should I try

Tell me what to do

I can't live

Without you

We looked at each other

Not knowing what

To do

He knew she knew

She wished it wasn't

You

They came so far

From opposite worlds

She was due

He decided to leave

Though it's him

She needs

I like you

You like me

We are as

Happy as can

I get scared

Thinking

Something could happen

Between us

For Once, Just Once - Hope Someone - In A Mirror

2011-09-20T22:05:00.000-07:00

For once, just once
Let me say what I want
I hurt when you leave
But it's you that I need
I need to know where I stand
Should I go
Should I stay
Do you want me
Or out of your way
Why am I here
I ask myself
There's no love
There's no caring
On my shoulders
It's you that I'm bearing
It's time to go
I hear you say
Have a very happy
Happy day

Hope someone
Will save
My day
And show
Me the
Way

In a mirror
I see myself
I'm tall
That day on the
Beach with him
Is all I recall
We were splendid
Had time on our side
Then one day
Our relationship died
I don't know
What happened
Why he changed his mind
I do know that
All day and night
I cried

Why'd You Go - My Last Wish - Familiar Means Knowing

2011-09-11T13:29:00.000-07:00

Why'd you go
Why'd you leave
I need you
I need to be
Loved
You were my life
My every thing
I'm nothing now
Why
I cry lakes
Streams
Oceans
Rivers
My heart's in pieces
Pieces
Over the floor
Earth
All of my life
I've been waiting
You came
You left when I
Needed
You
Most
Why why why
How am I to
Live
Without you

My last wish
Would be
For someone
To truly
Love me

Familiar means knowing
Do I know you
You've been gone too long
Don't seem familiar
To me
Shake my memory
Til I hurt
I need a band-aid

This Sure Is A Confusing Life - Two Strangers - I'm Face To Face

2011-08-26T22:20:00.000-07:00

This sure is a confusing life
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to say
I don't know
What's
My own way
I try to be myself
But it just doesn't work
When I do try
People might
Think I'm a dork
I am always too shy
I am always too quiet
I always think that
Inside
There is always a fight

Two strangers
In a room
They can't
Know what's
To happen
They stare
At each
Other waiting
For someone
To move
He does
She starts
To shake
They meet
And kiss

I'm face to face
With your face
I see the twinkle
In your eye
The smirk on your
Lovely lips
What do you
See on mine