Sure, I sometimes dream about a nice wedding where all my friends and family are attending, and I am the CENTER of attention for once. I am a GIRL after all, even though sometimes i might as well be a mann. But thats just not who I AM. Who I am is not known to many people, not even my own family. I do believe I have been likened as “crazy, weird, eccentric, and freaky.” My word? Unique, and Eccentric. Heh heh.

But you know what? I’d like to be married in VEGAS by ELVIS! My sister aunt Jo could be one of the witnesses since Elvis is her passion. I wonder what the cost would be to be married in the US when we’re solid Canadians?

But whatever, can you imagine? The honeymoon could take place there as well, considering the Him and I have never seen Vegas.

Hunka Hunka Burning Love? Sounds like an STD problem

Oh sure, wedding snobs will scoff at the small price tag of the wedding but who the hell cares? I sure don’t. It’s my wedding, not theirs. If they don’t like it, the DON’T COME TO IT!

Besides, Less money on a wedding, more money for a down payment on a ratty ghetto Simpson Street house in our old city. Yeah baby, I think big. Woot!

Images:

May Bride by http://www.flickr.com/photos/peagreenchick/

Las Vegas Elvis Weddings by http://www.flickr.com/photos/8446715@N02/

Hopefully by the time winter rears its frozen ugly head, my family will have a connection and of course with every connection I MUST have wireless!

Once that happens, I can update my blogs whenever i want! woohoo.
For now, I have wordpress installed locally, so I can type up my posts then upload them onto this blog whenever I get the chance.

well, im out again. I’ll try to return again soon!

But im curious, WHY are you coming to my site? It’s not like I have the awesome, glamorous life of a city girl or starlet. I’m just an ordinary woman living in a rinkydink First Nations reserve with no prospects of gaining the future that I want. So seriously? Why are you here?

ANYWAYS, today was better then most days. I took part in the truck rally with my Auntie, grandmother, and cousin. It was fun, even if i didn’t win anything. Apparently, they’re doing radio games for those of us that can’t take part in the Aboriginal Mating Season aka the First Nations All-Bands hockey tournament.

My cousin won some money though, so i guess I’ll rob her later. Naw, I’m just joking, I wouldn’t do that….or would I?

Anyways. another boring post, on another boring day. So if you still find my lack of a life interesting, come back soon or better yet, SUBSCRIBE.

So, I had a lot of good and bad happening to me. I have a job as a Drop in Center worker, but my contract ends on March 26. The only place that I get any internet access is at work, but even then i never had time to update my blogs. I am thinking of just keeping this one going, and letting the others fall to the wayside, at least until I either get a new job that allows me some personal time on the Internet or get a more reliable source of Internet.

I just turned 22 years old, and am starting to feel the pull to do things like marriage and children and what not. But I don’t have time for that because I am still working on my education!

Anyways, I will leave it at that until I have the chance to come back and say something a little more interesting. As if, I’d get any raw material in this rinkydink town. But i love it.

I quit because im flying home, at long last! My man got offered a job back in our hometown so we’re going back in a couple of weeks. I don’t know if we’ll ever venture out of our little town again (i mean to live somewhere else) and i secretly hope we don’t.

I love our tiny community. everyone knows each other, and while it is a isolated community (fly-in only) it isn’t so isolated because everyone knows everyone else.

It’s going to suck having to pay more for food though. Food in thunder bay is cheaper then it is back home since things back home are priced higher to help offset the freight charges.

I probably wont have or even need a job over there so I’m going to work on my websites more often. I havent been that serious about them but now I’m going to focus on making them at least a bit profitable. I’d be happy if my websites were able to at least able to pay their own hosting.

If this band can come back after 10 YEARS then so can some of the other bands i loved from the 80′s and 90′s. Now to wait, petition and find out which bands still have live members.

On that note, I’ll leave you with one of Sin With Sebastians new songs, “”Fuck You! (I Am In Love)”.

httpvh://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6Xl936G5E4

I am dealing with it best as I can but I wish my husband was here. I wish he hadn’t taken that out of town job. At leats he’ll be back in a few days.We’re going to try again after this pain and greif pass. One good thing is that we always thought we were infertile, but this shows we weren’t. Just slow.

I hope I dont have to wait two years to conceive again and I hope to God that a miscarriage doesn’t happen again.

On Saturday, which was yesterday, I remembered that I hadn’t paid my rent yet. I called around and found out that the closest Shopper’s Drug Mart had a post office in it that was open on weekends. I decided to down and get the money order made, listened to my music while walking along the street. Said Good Morning to a few strangers just because I felt content with the way the day was going.

I reached my destination, purchased my money order and walked by the home pregnancy test aisle. I decided that I should buy one to check if that was why my period was missing. I bought one and went walking home, I walked down the street and got offered a ride by an old man. He made me feel creepy so I declined and kept walking. I walked by the future City Hall building, where I got hit on by the construction workers (How cliche of them, BTW) and continued my journey.

I came into my apartment, locked the door, put the money order into a safe place so that i could deliver it on Monday. I waltzed into the washroom, read the instructions just so I wouldn’t fuck up. Sat down, pissed on the stick, capped the stick, and went to go get my cigarettes. After finding my cigarette and lighter, I came into the bathroom, put the cigarette into my mouth, picked up the test and spit out the cigarette because the test said “Pregnant”

My man wasn’t home and I had no way to reach him but I needed to tell someone. So I called my Grandma, who is legally my mother, and told her the news. She was half asleep but she was WIDE awake pretty quick! After the call, I spent hours waiting for my man to get home from work and when 7PM rolled around, I heard him coming up the steps, and knocking. I unlocked the door and practically assaulted him with the piss stick.

He stared at it for awhile, until he saw that it said Pregnant. After which, he did a lot of babbling, smiling and hugging but not before nearly falling down the stairs.

So yesterday was a hectic day for me, and I imagine that the next 8+ months will be hectic as well.

I don’t imagine that anyone really gives a shit, but its my blog, and I wanted to share the news with people who happen to give a shit.

So now, I have quit smoking, as well as drinking pepsi & coke. They say drinking pepsi&coke is fine if done in moderation but I have no clue what that means.

1. When my cat wakes me up at 4 AM. My kitten insists on waking me up at odd intervals at night. It is even tougher because I sleep on a matress on the floor so she always has access to my face. She’ll meow in my ear, lick my face, and bump her cute furry head into mine. It gets me cranky but her loud purrs take the edge off. I wouldn’t be so annoyed if it was because she needed something but when I get up to check, her food bowl is full, her water bowl is full, and her litter box is clean!
2. When my cat goes nuts for no apparent reason. My cat has a crazy session every evening where she will run around, and jump on everything. Which sucks because I usually wear shorts in the evenings and she’ll jump on my leg which results in her claws sinking into my flesh. I don’t believe in declawing, but her appointment at the grooming center keeps getting postponed! I bought softclaws but I need to wait until she gets her nails trimmed.
3. When my boyfriend insists on eating dairy products even though he is lactose-intolerant! One word: P.U!
4. When people talk while other people are giving a presentation or anything similar. In college, people would always be yakking while a group/person was trying to give a presentation or ask the professor a question. I find it disrespectful and it drives me nuts! I have also experienced this at work, during the training sessions.
5. The long wait when contacting customer service by phone! I especially hate it when it makes you go through hoops to contact someone and in the end you only had to press 0! Say it on the first menu, for pete’s sake!

I was thinking of going with the income breakdown of “Save 10%, Use 20% for debt payments, Live on 70%” guideline that I found while purusing the Internet. (I can’t remember which site it was)

My debt is currently over $900, but has manageable payments so 20% of my monthly income would suit that fine. Does anyone have a better way to save?

I am looking to have a home by the next year or two, but I am worried that the housing prices will increase again. Currently, houses in our area start at $43000 and are pretty decent starter homes.

I wish there was some type of funding available for off-reserve first nations people to buy a house. I know there’s a down payment assistance program out there but I would hate to run up more debt.