Simple Aesthetic

Moved

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 01:44:00 +0000

I decided to close this blog and move to a new one.

http://aooeepharrharr.blogspot.com

Sunshine - All-American Rejects Guitar Chords

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Sun, 17 May 2009 01:15:00 +0000

Intro: G Em C D

Verse I
G
It's a new day
Em
It's a bright day
C------------------------------------D
Even when you stand in the dark
It's just that
G
You've been broken
Em
fifty pieces
C------D-Em
Today is gone
Em
I'm the only light that you see
G------------C------D
You need someone
D
I know all you needed was me

Chorus
G----------------D
Everyday we wake if it takes too long
Em
Just tell me something new
C-----------------------------------------------G
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone

Verse II
G
Another pale moon
Em
Shines like high noon
C-----------------------------------D
Midnight never felt so cold alone
It's just that
F
you're uneasy
Em
When you need me
C-------D--Em
Today is gone
Em
I'm the only light that you see
F------------C-----D
You need someone
D
I know all you needed was me

Chorus:
G---------------D
Everyday we wake if it takes too long
Em
Just tell me something new
C-----------------------------------------------G
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone
G --------------------D-----------------------Em
You can say it's right, but it feels so wrong
Em
Just show me something true
C
Forget about the sunshine
C-----------------------------------------------G
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone

G D Em C x2

C-----D--Em
Today is gone
Em
I'm the only light that you see
F------------C------D
You need someone
D
I know all you needed was me

Chorus:
G----------------D
Everyday we wake if it takes too long
Em
Just tell me something new
C-----------------------------------------------G
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone
G -------------------D-----------------------Em
You can say it's right, but it feels so wrong
Em
Just show me something true
C
Forget about the sunshine

G---------------D
Everyday we wake if it takes too long
Em
Just tell me something new
C-----------------------------------------------G
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone
G -------------------D-------------------------Em
You can say it's right, but it feels so wrong
Em
Just show me something true
C-----------------------------------------------G
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone

Flashing Lights

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Tue, 05 May 2009 17:19:00 +0000

My bestfriend Leanna composed this song not while ago, and this Sunday I spent the night over her house and worked on this song. I wrote the tabs and chords of the song, and I played the guitar while she sang. Hope you like it.

Cerulean Iris Youtube Channel
Leanna's Blog - Glass Melodies

Reality < Fantasy

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Wed, 15 Apr 2009 03:06:00 +0000

Made this a while back, just thought to finally scan it and share it. Yes, very

random.

Death Note's L/Lawliet

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 01:35:00 +0000

Avatars of L.

I made these while back, just hunted them down from DeviantArt

I personally like the second one. =]

Adorable Bookmarks

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 01:13:00 +0000

I bought these in Borders, and I thought they were adorable. The characters were nicely done.

Maybe I should check out the other bookmarks in Borders... Harhar.

Sunday|041209 Playlist

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 05:04:00 +0000

I'll be posting the songs I listen to whenever I'm on. For tonight, my Easter playlist is composed of:

Northern Downpour - Panic At The Disco
[Bonus Track]/[Untitled] - All American Rejects
20 Dollars Nose Bleed - Fall Out Boy

City of Glass

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 04:47:00 +0000

I finally got the book. 7174 bought it for me as my Easter present.

I am excited to read it, as well as share my thoughts about it.

Hopefully, if I'm not too busy I can get it done by Wednesday. =]

Easter: Devil Eggs

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 03:42:00 +0000

Devil Eggs are good. =]

Just with the simplest ingredients: Boiled eggs, Mayonaise, Relish, and Paprika, and voila! You've got delicious Devil Eggs.

Vampire Knight: Avatar and Signatures

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Sun, 12 Apr 2009 18:03:00 +0000

I haven’t logged in in my DeviantArt account for a while, and I decided that it should be a good idea to check it out today. I realized that there are many photoshop-ed images in my gallery that I haven’t posted in here. These are the most popular ones I had in DeviantArt. It’s rather amazing how I had about 160 messages waiting for me after months of neglected visit. Vampire Knight is rather amazing anyway. To visit my gallery click here.

I made some of the banner for my self, and I am using them in Enzeru Forum. I need to visit that too.

These images are about closely to a year old. I haven't messed around with photoshop in a while. I should do it more often

I'm not into Yaoi or anything, but I really like Ichiru and Zero's childhood relationship. Most definitely inspirational.

This is the first image I've ever used with C4Ds. I am pretty proud of myself, because it came out pretty well. This is the most popular in all of my other works in DeviantArt. I also used some ~~feminine~~ brushes. =]]
This was a request from someone I was close to online, (aparently, we haven't talk for about a year now). I really liked it. She chose the images she wanted me to use for her banner, and I searched for nice C4Ds to go with it, + some effects.
This was not as good as the rest. No C4D or brushes, it was just a texture.

I played around with the lighting effects on this one, came out alright.

Manga Review: Honey Hunt

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Sat, 11 Apr 2009 15:16:00 +0000

Manga: Honey Hunt
Creator: Miki Aihara
English Adoption: Liz Forbes
Publisher: Viz Media
Released: April 7, 2009

WARNING: SPOILERS AHEAD

If you haven’t read this manga, and would like to read it, BUT wants to preserve the excitement, you must read carefully. I don’t jump right ahead to spoilers, but for warning, I will place an [X] when the spoiler begins and ends the similar way.

Honey Hunt is a story & art by Miki Aihara. For most, we know that Miki Aihara is the creator of the popular manga, Hot Gimmick. And now, her new project finally came out in a volume series 4 days go. Shojo Beat Magazine released its first chapter on September 2008 issue, and they’ve been running a new chapter every month since then. That was when I first came across with it.

I personally like Aihara’s art style, because of its body coordination, facial expressions (adorable exaltations, blushes, smiles), and the proper balance at any given angles. However, does the story have an appeal? Well, for readers who enjoyed Hot Gimmick, because of its twisted romance, many revelations, dramatic scenes, and humor, might end up liking Honey Hunt. I honestly don’t see a character or personality change in Aihara’s heroine (Hatsumi in Hot Gimmick, and Yura). But I may not be the judge of this, because I haven’t read her other mangas other than those two so far. I describe Yura as a naïve, introverted, frail, but strong minded (if chooses to) 17 year old girl. Now does this sound familiar, or at least recognized a similarity to that of Hatsumi? Of course, I think for Aihara, her heroine must always come out to be helpless, and submissive. But don’t let this throw you off, I liked Hot Gimmick (but I prefer Hot Gimmick S =]), and I’m liking Honey Hunt so far, and who knows if Yura will able to break out of this.

[X] Chapter 1 introduces an average girl named Yura, whose parents are widely known all over Japan, and in some cases, the world. Her father is a world-famous musician, while her mother is a downright-gorgeous actress. However, none of their talents passed on to Yura, or so they think, because I’m sure we’ll learn more about Yura in the next following chapters. Her family is portrayed as the “perfect family,” but what nobody knows is that the family is not even close to perfection. It was all a pretend, and maintained their nasty little lies for the sake of their image. Both of her parents are having an affair, and well knew that, but kept their marriage. But it was somewhat discovered, and so they are finally getting a divorce. The sad thing is that Yura, their own daughter, was unaware of any of this. She had no idea, and cries, “They dumped me first.”

Her mother is known as the “#1 best mom.” It’s not surprising that she’s a really good actress when she got everyone fooled. Yura knows it’s deception, but respected her mom, even though she treats her like a housekeeper. None of what she says on the TV about loving her daughter were true. Yura is looking forward on going college, and one day depart from her parents. Yura’s only friend, Shin, who’s also her neighbor, tutor, and her secret crush, betrays her, as she stumbles on him and her mother in a passionate position. Shin treated her as a person, not an item or a property, but that crumples down when Yura found the real reason for his intentions.

Revenge Time!
Throughout the next chapters, we’ll learn more about the characters, and discover some new ones. Of course, the story could not get any more exciting without cute celebrity male characters (Squee for FanGirls??), who’s all over the heroine, as she searches a way to stardom without the image of her very famous parents. She decides to become a celebrity and beat her mom, and prove to her that she is capable of living her life without her help or her image. The perfect male celebrities add spices when they decide to get their interests on a simple, average girl; needless to say they are TWINS. Well, I see another Shinogu vs. Ryoki situation here. It’s not coincidental that one has to have a rude demeanor, (Ahem, Ahem, Ryoki) but could be nice and sweet, while the other is outgoing and corny, but only likes the heroine because her father is his hero. Who knows, there could be some changes. This is only Volume 1 after all. [X]

This is my own copy that I purchased in Borders yesterday.

DISCLAIMER: Images that I did not specify that are mine, ARE NOT MINE.

Borders: Shadowlake Towne Center

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Sat, 11 Apr 2009 07:13:00 +0000

Went to Borders with Rodney yesterday, after his practice. It has been for sometime now since the last time I went. I usually go there about once a week. It is my favorite place, after all. Got photos, but they are limited.

This is only a section of the Mangas, there's like 4 other sections.

I thought this was really cool. It's one of those Watchmen cardboard things where they sell the posters. I haven't seen the movie so I'm not sure what's he suppose to be. He looks like a villian.

I like how the clothes looked real in this photo, or someone put on a costume. The head looks flat though. It's just a piece of cardboard afterall.

These are cute, didn't purchased it though.

This is actually a guy. Not familiar with the magazine so I can't really say anything about it.

Pockies are soo good. Sadly, didn't buy any.

These have the weirdest emotic titles. Well, I think that's the whole point.

This is the book I really wanted. Scottie/Jynx hasn't let me borrow his yet since Rachel/Jijo have it during the spring break. Why don't I buy my own? I'm broke... I've got no money, or a job. So I guess, I have to live with what my guardians give me. =]]

I was watching out of my window, and saw these men. Well, for the past 2 weeks I've been living next to the golf course, I learned one thing, golfers could be funny when they think nobody is watching them. A little twist of the head, and a drop of a second ball and yell out "IT'S HERE!"

Well, not really sure how to play the sport, so tell me if I'm wrong, but I'm sure they wouldn't look suspicious.

Images turned to cross process

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 06:54:00 +0000

Extraordinare Fun Night With Mr. Photoshopee

I’ve been playing my guitar a lot lately. I finished “Bizarre Love Triangle” by Frente (mostly inspired by Amber Kuo). Just the matter of posting it soon… ehh.. I’m too lazy… and I don’t sing… and if I do, I suck at it. Oh well. But I might do it just for the heck of it. Possibly. =]]

Anyways, I photoshop-ed them… because I was bored, and I miss photoshop-ing.

I have developed my Cross Processing in photoshop. This turned out better than I thought.

AHH~~ Sayonora~=]

My Spring Break...so far. =]

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 05:23:00 +0000

So here’s what has been going on lately. I didn’t include any annoying house work, and my stupid cousin. I’d like to keep this cleeeeeean.

A month ago… I planned to study for the upcoming ACT. However, I was either too busy or loved procrastinating, or I'm just freaking lazy.. that I crammed the night before the test (The test was April 4) That literally made everything worse… I knew I shouldn’t have crammed that night, but I wanted to get at least some review, or practice. My WHOLE PLAN OF STUDYING WAS POINTLESS. I planned to study like at least 30-an hour everyday before the test, but no, I only studied for like 20 minutes within that month. I won’t be surprise when I get lower than 25…. I was literally falling asleep during the test, and I guessed like ½ of it…. I felt sick after… I brought this on my self…. Well… hopefully I didn’t do too bad.

Also, FINALLY GOT A NEW BED, after sleeping on the floor for about a month. It feelsss so nice. Lali! My theme is Nature-ish Under the Moon. No, that doesn’t make sense. Haha! Sounds so cheesy too. Let’s just say it’s Danielle’s theme. Woo! Works better. I still got a lot of mess on my desk… and hopefully, I can find a place to put them away.

Gave my guitar a niceeee tattoo. I’m so creative. Lol like how I self-praise?? Yeah.. I’m lame. Haha

I decided to post sticky notes on my wall because I’m weird like that. This photo was a week ago… it expanded somehow.. hoho!(ps. The cow one was Chelsea’s. X] Cows are cool, just not obsessed with them)

GOT MY PROM DRESS!!!! LALI!! Hehe, it’s really nice too. Pssst… a secret to tell you… the original price was 200+ but I only paid 6% of it. Hehe. I was thrilled!! lalala~~

Tuesday, I hung out with Alex in Village Pointe. That was really niiiiccceeeee. X] I’m always in a blissful mood when I’m with him. Surprise surprise??? Nahhhhh hehe. I love hanging out with him. Learned something about him that day, ahem ahem, quoting him: “Everything has to be perfect.” (He was talking about the Macs when he said that. X]) One thing I like about him, is that he has goals, and he will keep on reaching for it until he’s there. He’s a hard worker, I know that, and I’m really proud of him and what he had accomplished over the past year or so. One thing for sure, I’ll always be there for him, for help, for support, for company, anytime he needs someone, and so on . =]

Glittered with Allie, Wednesday. It was for Prom Committee. Wow, well, usually, glittering a card would take us half an hour. But then, we decided to time ourselves and see how fast we could go. The Aces were finished before I even got to help out with it, the Queen was the one I helped her out with and didn’t find the “fast” method sooner, So it was the King and the Jack cards we timed to glitter. Haha, well, For the King, our first record was 3:40, which was a definite record since it took us about half an hour on most of them, then the second record went to 3:24, then 3:10, 3:09. That was only for the King, the first record for the Jack was over our first record, which was like 4+ minutes. Then the rest went from 3:50, 3:06, 2:42, 2:09, then 1:51. Woo!! I didn’t have pictures, but I’ll make sure to take some photos during prom. But a minute and 51 seconds??? Wow, that was great!!!

Today, hung out with Chrissy, since the last time we hung out was last year… wait, that doesn’t even count because it’s for our AP Gov. project… It has been a while.. WAYYYY back in October... or so. I need to find time to hang out with Leanna this week. HAVE TO.

I shaved my dog today too… ahhhhhh I failed at life!! Well, 7174 helped me. Hoho! But she now looks like grammy wolf… with the stupid dress. (Chelsea let her wore it). But she looks like a big squirrel, or a fox without it.. Most likely fitting rather than that loose dress she’s wearing. Lame. But I let her wear it, because I’m nice, and I don’t want her to be cold.

Princess….. is like the weirdest…. Princess ever?? Yeah… but I love her. Hehe

Food is the next big thing to her after nap. =]

I FOUND OLD LETTERS. Haha, they were from my old friends back in the Philippines. Reading them again made me feel nostalgic. I do miss them a lot. Well, I guess, personal handwritten letters are more significant than e-mails, because they were made just for you, and the writer took time to write to you. That’s why these letters are so important to me. These are just pieces of letters from some of them. Sometimes…they’re just too funny!!!

Since I went in the basement to take a photo of my dress, I got this shot. Yeah, the house is improving. Woo!! I’ll take more photos sometimes, once we’re all set.

Lately, I’ve been having problems searching for hairstyle/haircut ideas… I wanna have a new one… well, I’m thinking of having a mullet, but my hair is too short for it, or might not look suitable for me. I’m still looking around for good hairstyles. So if you know any websites for nice modern hairstyles (LOL) please help me out. XP *puppy eyes* Here are what I thought so far… If you have any suggestions, you can share!!! So long as you don’t tell me to SHAVE MY HEAD! Lol I heard that a lot, specially from the tech guys. Master Waldo knows… or so. Haha ><

Do you still remember my dogs… when they were…. This??

…now they’re this…… fluffiness…. Gone!

LOL Princess’ face looks like she’s threatening. Ahaha “FEED ME OR ELSE!!”

P.S.

Photoshop-ed some of the images. You'll see the differences. =]]

Le Projec De Francaise - CAR Project

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 04:40:00 +0000

We had our French project due before Spring Break, (basically last week Friday was the deadline) and we had about, I wanna say roughly 5-6 weeks to work on it. Last semester, since we knew we’ll have this project, my bestfriend Leanna, who is in French III, and I wanted to do something with music, (or I think it was just me). I had to play the guitar, while she sings in French in Front of the whole class. However, that didn’t work, because David, one of our friends, wanted to do the project with us. So we decided to go to a French restaurant and eat. This was about 4 weeks before the project is due. Although, again, that didn’t work out well, because I had to be home by 6PM and Leanna and David had to attend symphony concert at 8 that Friday, we didn’t have time really. So we just went to Whole Foods, since World Market shut down, and took pictures of us and the products. Sadly, I don’t have the photos, so can’t really show them. Weeks later, we realized that the whole thing wouldn’t work out with our project, because it says in the criteria that we had to purchase a product of the target culture (which is French for us) and show their labels…. Or something like that. Apparently, none of us read it thoroughly, so we failed. >< style="mso-spacerun:yes"> David went to the French Café, so he wasn’t with us. Since my house is unavailable, we cooked in Leanna’s house. We did the cooking 2 nights before the project was due. So we were 1/3 done with our project.

Dinner

French Onion Soup
Croque-Monsieur
Mousse Chocolat

French Onion Soup

I know... It looks disgusting, but it was surprisingly goooooooood!!! =]]

Croque-Monsieur

Mousse Chocolat

I made a mistake making the mousse chocolat... and I didn't get to taste it because I had to leave then. But I heard it was good... but rubber... RUBBER?? wtf?

And dinner is served!!

The next night, which was Thursday, I made our poster and spent my whole night on them. I was proud of my self with the results. Hehe 2/3 done.

For the last piece, we had to write an essay, and that went well for me. Fast actually. I think I’m getting used to rush nights. So that was last week

AvOiR!

The Move

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Fri, 03 Apr 2009 17:44:00 +0000

Well, it has been closely to three weeks since I last posted. This is the first part of my post, and I'll be writing the others to a different post, a recap. School has been ridiculously piling crap on me. (honestly, I say that almost every time I post right?? XP) actually, part of it is that blogger won’t let me upload photos faster than a turtle, they have to make things more easier, so I had this post on hold for about a week now. Anyway, last week and the week before that, left me twitching with frustration and annoyance. Luckily, that was avoided with someone's company. =]]

2 weeks ago, we've been preparing to move for the whole time. We boxed everything there were to box, and cleaned whatever there were to clean. On Wednesday, March 25, they allowed us to start dropping off our items in the new house. This was because, the new house's closing date was Friday, March 27, and our old house's closing date was the same day as well, but we have another 24 hours to take our stuff away. It was a rush.

So you know how I messed up on cutting my dog's lovely blonde coat? Yeah... well... it's fixed now... I believe. 7174 shaved her, not completely, but short enough that the chilly air outside makes her shiver, which is not so often considering her hair is usually thick.

Here's the lovely dog. Princessyyy

Anyways, ehh, the moving day. I got to skip school that Friday, which was “supposedly” a “YaY” thing for me, but I wished I went to school instead. It was tiring! I woke up at about 6:30-ish and began moving stuff into our garage, then began driving back and forth from the old house to the new house. I honestly didn’t like driving that day… but I got to take some pictures on my Friday adventure.. lali!

Here are the photos I took, and our last day in the house. I miss it a lot..

Here’s one of the trip (back and forth), and a tour to the new house. Yes it is empty, I’ll take photos again once it’s filled in. =]]

After that, we went back to work... and then went to Target and buy stuff. Yum for gooddrinks. HARHAR!

sAlUt!!

HAPPY WEEK!

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 23:25:00 +0000

So… I haven’t posted in a while. I was planning on posting earlier this week, but time got the better of me. So many things happened, and it’s definitely incredible. In translation: for once I’m enjoying life! =DD ~~

Okay, here’s a recap on the past weeks. Haha, really, it would have been more exciting if I wrote a post on each day. I probably would have told the whole story! But this is pretty long too... I guess. =]

Thursday – 031209
I was asked to prom!! Guess who?? The guy I unexpectedly fell for, and conflicted over my feelings for some weeks, and made me decided I should forget all about him, but then made it more impossible for me to forget him, because he asked me to prom. His name is Alex. =]](So where did all of those troubles I had over the course of time our friendship was down? Just washed away. XP) That night, I believe we talked in Facebook until midnight, and talking made us closer. =]

Friday – 031309
It was Friday the thirteenth, and Pi day. This day was definitely special. No, bad luck did not fall on me, but much more on the happiness side. Haha. Alex said we could be more than friends, and does not mind it at all. OHHH HappyLand!! Nooope, I’m not high at all. LOL I was also excited for the next day, because it would be our first date! hehe

Saturday - 031409
Saturday was incredibly fun! I was with Alex at 1:30pm to 4pm. It was a short time for us, but it was absolutely worth it. I drove to his house, and left my car there while I rode with him. =] We originally planned to go to a water park near his home, but then we thought 2h30m would not be enough for us, but we went anyway, haha. First thing first, since we didn’t have swimsuits, because he outgrew his, and mine is packed somewhere, we had to go and buy them. Soooo KOHL’S was our first stop! Well, I was really glad I brought enough money with me because I ended up spending $52 for swimsuits. Haha! At first I thought it would be easy to find them, and get some, then leave. But gosh… who would have thought it would be the opposite? I became more frantic when he came over and check on me. Well, I tried to hide it, but I ended up telling him to wait for me somewhere while I chose what to buy… He gave me 10 minutes to choose. Eventually, I was able to pick some. They weren't that bad.. but it was something I usually don't wear.

I was still fidgety throughout our way to the water park. Specially when I was in the changing room. GAH! Well… after a while I got used to it. I told myself to enjoy, and not to fret about anything else. I was with him. That was all that mattered.

I certainly had a great time with him even if it was only for 2h30m. We both wanted to prolong our time together but it was impossible at that day. So we decided that since the next Friday is our off from school, we’ll go back and spend more time together.

So we are officially dating. =]

Sunday – 031509
I had a work day at home, packing up whatever there was to pack. I also did some of my homework, which took me great effort because my concentration was almost… nil… when it came to what was I suppose to be doing. I really couldn’t blame 7170 for getting ticked off, because I wasn’t paying attention much. That night, I talked to Alex more in Facebook. That was the only satisfying I did that Sunday. =]

Monday – 031609
It was really nice seeing him again. He walked me to my French class that morning. The sad thing is that we don’t have any classes together, and we hardly see each other during the day. I do see him in some of my passing periods, but our classes are like opposite of each other. If I have class on the second floor, he has his on the first floor, or vise versa, and it goes on. The only time we could actually talk and walk together is during before school, after lunch, and after school. If we do see each other in passing periods, we don’t really have time to stop and talk, so we just wave or greet each other. =]

After school, I usually wait for Rodney to be done with track until 5:30pm, or at times it goes until 6pm. So I have 2-2h30m to kill in school. However, Alex and Leanna, my bestfriend, stayed after school that Monday, so we hung out. I spent most of my time with Alex that afternoon, because Leanna decided to be considerate (I think) and took her time searching for a specific food from the vending machines all over the school. It took her about 40 minutes, =] and when she did come back, she got her food, and her “target” partner-to-be for prom. It was totally coincidental, so I thought it was cute, but funny at the same time.

I was so glad the complications and awkwardness about… everything was over. =] Now, I’m happy!!

Tuesday – 031709
Nah, I didn’t drive to school, so I couldn’t stay after school with Alex or Leanna, but I did talk to Alex in Facebook until midnight. =] I’m not going to deny that I love talking to him… (and hanging out with him).

Wednesday – 031809
After school, I spent the first (about) 40 minutes with Alex, Natalie, and Rachel. That was fun!! I had a lot of fun. However, when will I get used to Rachel’s perverted-ness? I’ve been friends with her since 8th grade, and I still have a hard time applying to my mind that Rachel has her “special” moments… and she DOESN’T hesitate telling me anything about it. Maybe because she never really showed her inner self until last year… or so. I usually just tune her out, but at times, they’re just too sharp, they burst my invisible shield. I usually end up cringing at the words… gah…

Natalie is always fun to be with. She’s really funny! She dragged Alex’s 300 pound backpack to the girl’s restroom while he was drinking from the water fountain. LOL I thought that was funny! Well before that, Rachel threw my keys inside the guy’s restroom, and Alex, who I thought would be helpful, added in my backpack. Luckily, there was nobody around to witness my 2 feet adventure in the male’s restroom. Not that it was something very exciting to go into. I would like to avoid that as much as possible, thank you very much.

I was supposed to meet Leanna in the band room, but I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go in there alone, since I am not part of band whatsoever. So she came and met us in the hallway playing around, remembering me, and my helplessness without her with my AP Language quiz. =] I love her. After Natalie left, Alex and I hung out, alone. Leanna, had a quiz or test to study for. But, I got the feeling, she didn’t want to interfere. She smiled at me mischievously after she left. Hm…

Thursday – 031909
A very special day. And definitely one of the days I would always remember. =] I really do love being with him. There are so many things I want to say to him… but sometimes, I just can’t bring myself to do so. But I guess… sometimes… he knows what they are, as I sometimes do as well.

Friday – 032009
Our second date! As we planned, we wanted to go back to the water park, because we found it very enjoyable and we wanted more time together. I was allowed to spend 5 hours in there. However… I told 7174 that I was with a group instead of him alone. I know… I should be honest to them, but I just… don’t want to let any of these go. Because I know, that once I told them about our relationship, it would be over, and needless to say it’ll give me a whole lot of hell to worry about. (Not only that I had to stop my relationship with him, but also the fact that I was dishonest, and distrustful… please to the Heaven, don’t let them stumble to this blog…) However… to be honest, I’m not guilty as I know I should be, because Alex is the only one who makes me happy, and I’m not going to end that just because of their expectations toward me. Happiness always runs away from me, and now that it halted, I’m not going to turn my back from it; I’m going to keep on holding on to it. I want to be with him for as long as he wants me to…

I was supposed to meet him at noon, so I had some time to do stuff around the house that morning. So, I decided to give my dogs a bath… because it has been months since they’d been clean and fresh, and they love sleeping with me, or chilling with me in the room whenever they’re bored. I just couldn’t stand the smell anymore. Well… along the way, after Phoebe’s annoying pleas from the water… I held the scissors to cut Princess’ coat… and ended up cutting her skin instead of her tangles… I felt so bad, I wanted to cry! However, she only yelped once and then stared at me… she looked at me in a what-have-you-done?! way, then resumed looking bored…. I wasn’t sure if she was okay or not. If she was not… I couldn’t tell. But I was glad she was not bleeding hard. Phew! Since I injured Princess, I decided to give her a bath the next day or so when her wound is better. I felt so scared!

Spending time with Alex is what I want to do! Friday was GREAT!!! Lol, we got in trouble towards the end though, and I broke one of our ‘rules’… yeah… I should have known better. GAH! But, I’m really glad it wasn’t a big deal to him. But I was worried when he was quite and seems like he was thinking hard… Later, it turned out to be just something we shouldn’t be bothering ourselves too much about. =] but, we do still have to be careful. I’m really glad.

7174 was suppose to take me somewhere to go dress shopping after she picked me up at 4:25, but I kinda felt bad because she hasn’t gotten any sleep since that night before. She worked at 10 at night until 6 in the morning, and she didn’t sleep that morning at all, then she went with Chelsea and Rodney for some kind of shopping. So I didn’t want to keep her exhausted. We’ll just go when we can.

Saturday – 032109
GAH! THE EXHAUSTING DAY!!! Rodney was gone all day for track, and so Chelsea and I were left to help out with all the boxing, carrying the boxes from all over the place to the garage, digging out some plants, carrying those plants to the front, shoveling, raking, and driving to the store, and so on. I was ridiculously drained! In between breaks, I called Alex. Haha, that’s what I pretty much do actually with my breaks… that night, I fell asleep right away, and I didn’t wake up until quarter to 9 this morning. Which is usually pretty late for me because everyone in this house are early risers… 7170 wakes up at 6 during the weekends, and at about between 7-8 he makes weird noises to wake us up. I can’t help pulling my hair. It’s really annoying.

Sunday - 032209
First, we went walking to our nearby park. I end up chasing after the dogs, because we were trying to train them follow us without their leash, but they abused their temporary freedom. Sometimes they’re good at following, but at times they love being chased. After staying in the park for about 40 minutes, 7170 decided that he wanted to go walking in the Duck Park… well, we got there, without the dogs, and walked around the area. It’s pretty sad… there were no ducks at all. Well, I blame it all to the weather. So we spent about 1h30m or I think almost 2h… in there. I’m sorry but really… I’m not having fun with all of those what they call “family bonding.” Not when I always feel so indifferent… especially with this family. That’s why I only rely on myself. I CAN’T WAIT TO BE EIGHTEEN!!

When we got home I got about 1h free time. I ate, and then called Alex. However, he had to go somewhere so I didn’t talk to him that much. So, I decided I’ll call Leanna and chit chat for a little bit, because she has that Forte thing that was going on. (So sorry, I couldn’t go! *bows*) When she left, I called Chrissy next, because I was WAY TOO BORED. Turned out, she wasn’t home. I kept on scrolling on my contacts and stumbled on Andrew’s number, so I called him. Haha! He didn’t know my number so he was like “Who’s this? Are you sure you got the right number?” Dang! I could have totally messed around with him! Something like, I kidnapped your dog, give me your money. LOL! But I was too nice. He had to go too, because of Forte, so I didn’t talk to him that much. There was nobody else to talk to… so I just resumed giving Princess a bath from two days before. Luckily, that turned out well, but it took me like 3 hours to fix her! Her hair was just too messy and so many tangles, I had to keep on cutting her hair. I was slow and careful this time too, because I was afraid I’d cut her skin again. Fortunately, I didn’t. YaY! Also, I still feel bad I couldn’t go to Forte. =[

I’m really horrible at fixing the dogs… so I pretty much just ruined Princess fur… so I asked help from 7174. =]

So that was my week. It made it all less tiring when I got to talk to Alex in Facebook tonight. =] I’m just soo happy!! This Friday we’ll be moving to our new house! I’ll be living in Alex’s neighborhood and I’m really EXCITED! I get my own room (YaY! PRIVACY! FINALLY!). Also, I’m getting off that Friday, to actually “not” carry out boxes or anything like that, but follow around men from DirectTV because apparently nobody else can do it. My grandma could not understand English when spoken at a normal speed whatsoever. It has to be slow and clean diction! Haha… well… that’ll be fun. Hoho!

Loving This Week!

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 18:08:00 +0000

I love this week, and I’m only wishing for it to never end. I’ve been in a really good mood lately, and it’s all because my worries were washed away by simple happiness. There are so many things I wanted to say to him, but could not explain it in words. All I could say is
I’m Happy
I found these images, and they somewhat reflect my feelings. =]

We Love Macs!! <3

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:46:00 +0000

Last week definitely drained me to the max. Labor work was endless! 7170 altered our old carpet to the new ones, three rooms in one loooonnnnggg week. Well, the good thing is that the rooms looked completely clean! Lali!

After a school has been great also, or in some cases, classes that my friends and I felt like “not attending.” No.. not skipping. =] That’ll be a different story. We played with the Mac and completely love it! I want one soo bad!! ><

Those are the original photos from the Macs. However, Adobe CS4 is just installed in my school computer soooo I’m going to mess around with it! Yay!! I saw the gist of it, and it was incredibly new to me once again. Not literally, there were new options and tools. So I’ll be editing those photos during my lunch today. Lali!

Words are meaningful =]

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Mon, 02 Mar 2009 19:58:00 +0000

Well, each carpet has its own “unique” name. I want to share some of them.

I think all of these are interesting. =]

Sunday event being written in a Monday

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Mon, 02 Mar 2009 18:31:00 +0000

I’ve been really busy lately. Again and again and again and again. It’s ENDLESS!
Anyway, yesterday we went to Sam’s Club for some groceries, and to Menards to buy carpets. For the next 3-4 weeks, there’s no doubt we’ll going to start on taking our old carpets and throw the new ones in. I’m not feeling very well today. I feel like crap…. It’s a Monday. That should answer it.

So here’s my 4-hour adventure. The camera died on me when it was time to go home, so I wasn’t able to get a photo of the muscle men putting the carpet in the back of the car. =]
BTW, on top of everything, I’m sooo relieve. I don’t worry as much anymore. At least, it makes sense now. =]

Colorful stuff makes me Happy. =]
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Yeah, we still have a lot of snow from a couple of days ago.

More snow. Now that I realize it, my place is really desolated.

Here goes to Iowa. I love this bridge!

On my way in to Sam's Club, I found this little thing... I still have it, and I can't figure out what it was.

Gahh, this was flavored water is so much better than the other one.

Trust me, 100% better.

I got to taste some mini pizzas too. I thought it was deliciuos.

There was like a random telephone on a pole. It looks nice and pretty here though. =]

There's me. Checking on the chickens.

This reminded me of Katy Perry's song "Hot N Cold"

Fruits.

There were some pretty flowers decorated on the very edge. They were actually real bamboos but the flowers were plastics. It was really creative.

Those looked so comfy.

Anything cinammon is great! It was too bad we didn't get them. =[

Strawberry cheesecakes are yum too!! But again... we didn't get them.

Tito didn't find it to his liking, so we got the Italian Cheesecake instead. It wasn't that bad.

I am not a fan of anything outdoor really, but I thought this was really nice.

Hehe, they are sooo cute!WOO! I got to eat some calorie bars!

Real teas are disgusting when you haven't drank them in a while.

And off we go!!

We left Sam's Club then went to its neighboor...

Menards!

Look behind me... It's says so in the reflection.
Upon my entrance I was greeted with

COLOFUL LIGHTS!

They are so pretty!

Vessel Sinks. XD

Pretty Colorful Carpets. =]

Rodney and Tita were deciding. Hm....

MORE COLORFUL CARPETS!

carpets.......

Something random

CUTTING THE CARPET!

MORE CUTTING! ~ that sounded a little different.....

circles....?

MORE COLORFUL CARPETS!

Some interesting display. =] I want to go up there!

And there's the pickup!

what's a good title for Wednesday?

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 02:02:00 +0000

Today… was pathetic. Let me correct that, Today… I was pathetic. That sounded more correct. Anyways, I feel so much better today, especially after clearing out some of my stress, but that was only after school (where was it when I needed it the most?). Wednesday was definitely not my day though. GAHHH…. Very long story… but I’ll highlight some of them anyway. It’s for my sake afterall. It always makes me feel better and feel less strained. =]]]

I didn’t like how I acted this morning. I found it really unnecessary and a bit of nuisance. But, I did it anyway, because I couldn’t help it. Like that made sense. I pretty much attracted attention, and earned stares because I was crying. But let’s not get into that… I failed my Chemistry worksheet today… due to the fact that 1) I copied the wrong numbers, but, my answers were correct, and 2) Mr. S decided that even if my answers were right, he’ll count them wrong because I miswritten my numbers wrong. That, I found aggravating, and very unfair. So I ripped the paper in front of the class. They didn’t care. That should have told them something. I also took a quiz (kind of) in AP Language today, about the philosophical essay we just read. Which, by the way, I had trouble reading for it was very complex, and too high for my standard. I was falling asleep between pages. In the quiz she wanted us to write a “college level” analytical and philosophical response to the quotes that were given. It made my head spin… it made everything worse. But, there’s nothing more worse compare to Medical Modules. I hate that class. I despise that class. I completely want to pull my hair, whenever I’m in that class. Why did I take the class? I didn’t have a choice. It was because a) to please 7174, because she absolutely wanted me to take part in the medical field, and b) one of my best friends were there. She joined the class because she heard that her old time crush would be there. Ironically, we learned that he moved to a different hour that ours, the hour before ours actually. Which definitely sucked, because the whole reason for my reason why I was there was not there. Get it? Yeah…. But for short, I have a vocabulary quiz today, about Cardiac stuff. But because I find myself unprepared and the quiz difficult, I skipped it and did not take it. I’ll take it tomorrow though.

I spoke to him on the phone today, after school. We haven’t been speaking for the last couple of days… and I found that a real complex situation. For myself, at least. I learned that he was busy due to the usual mastermind for creating stress to adolescence like me, school. That was understandable. I’ve been busy lately too, and I am only glad I find the time to write this post. I need to do something for myself, to help me get over him. I’m glad he understood my whole situation. It was definitely reassuring. However… it was difficult to tell him, how I could not possibly just eliminate him from my mind, the way he wanted me to. I am hurting, yes… but at the same time, because I do like him a lot, I’d be happy to obey what he wanted me to do. It’s what will make us feel better.

I deeply long for our previous friendship. Where we could talk just about anything, and laugh at everything. My carefree moments with him, and the jokes that brightens the atmosphere, would always make everything feel better. At least, I was not having difficulties at how I feel toward him then. OH SCREW HORMONES! They injure me in the most painful way by making me fall for a guy. Needless to say, someone it is impossible to like me back, and one of my best friends. That’s beside the case, I was being honest when I said I do not care if he likes me or not. I just wanted his presence and his company.

I will keep on working on what I promised my self. To forget about him. However, if at some point, I failed to do so… I guess I’ll be doomed? I am not entirely sure what would happen to me. I only hope for the best for the both of us….

No, I did not buy that nasty flavored water today. I still have that Water Lime in the room, and I didn’t want to spend money on such nasty stuff. But I was curious on the other drinks. Maybe I should get one tomorrow.

I took some photos in school today using the school's camera. I'm really enjoying myself with photography. =] It sucks though since I wasn't able to get much. But some works, I guess.

This is the inside of the "restricted" Tech Office.

But I am special so I'm allowed to be in.

I have the key so I usually hang out in here. =]

That is one of the hallways, outside the Tech Office.

This was yesterday. I didn't drive so I rode the bus instead. =]

I have a special seat in the back too. =X

That is the back of school, I took it while passing by.

Salut!

monday was my happy day... but...

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 19:10:00 +0000

For the past couple of weeks, I've been experiencing some odd feelings and emotions toward one of my good friends. I didn’t know what it was, but it was definitely different. Keeping them only to my self made everything worse. My chest either felt like it was going to burst, or a big rock dropped on it. I was down and anxious when he was not around. When he was… I wanted to hide, and go somewhere where he could not see me. I was deeply bothered, and unable to concentrate. I ignored him many times when I see him, which was very unusual of me. I began to worry about our friendship. By ignoring him, I was destroying it. What was I suppose to do? I felt this deep… feelings toward him, and it didn’t fit. It felt so right… but at the same time… it wasn’t okay. Because I was dumb and naïve, I told him about these feelings I began to feel. Everything was so messed up… but I made… things… more complex for my self.

Then it struck me… I like him. How do I react to that? How do I deal with that? I didn’t know what to do. He makes me happy just by talking to me… and being with me, but I know… that’s only about it. He doesn’t like me… and I have no intention of having him liking me. Liking him…. and letting me like him… was enough. I just want him to let me… be.

He told me… that I’ll forget about it. Why did that hurt so much? I was losing it, I couldn’t hold my tears from my eyes. He was the first guy I’ve actually like… haha… who was I kidding? This was why it was not okay. He doesn’t like it. I knew I should have kept it… it would have save me from all of these… pain. I like him…

I like him a lot.

I was not thinking of relationship when I confessed my feelings, I was only thinking of my self, and the fact that I want to feel better by letting things out of my chest. He said it was okay… that everything will be alright. He wanted to help me… help me feel better. To be specific, he wanted me to forget about him. How could I? I seldomly think of what was in front of me, because he would snatch my mind, and I’d completely absorbed. It just completely destroyed me… when he said that I should just forget about it. However, in the back of my mind… I know it’s what I should do.

Haha… life… I could never understand what it means. Soo, that is what I decided. Life must go on. =]

Tuesday was Mardi Gras and Chelsea's Birthday. I bought her the simple book called "Baby Mouse," it's really interesting actually. We didn't have a party or anything. We decided we'll just do something when we finally moved, since we are so busy with clearing up the house. Not to mention, school and work as well.

BTW, I just bought the most... distasteful water I've ever drank. But I drank half of it anyway because otherwise I'll be thirsty. I really don't recommend it. It's bitter... however, i can't deny that I got used to it after a while. =] but, it's still disgusting.

Bulba was glaring at it.

Warm in the Afternoon

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 01:19:00 +0000

Wow, this is my third post today. Well, the more there are the better anyway. =] I played around with Chelsea's camera today too again. I don't have my own since I don't have the money to buy some. If I do, I'd probably use it to buy mangas, and if I earned some, I'd definitely use the money for an iTouch. So... basically, it'll be a while untill I do get my own. I took some photos in between "labor work." But here are some of the photos that I liked. I'm not very good at photography, and I don't really know how to adjust the camera to my liking to get a better image. Of course, these are no way near professional's. But I wish to have some really nice photographs one day. =] I think I can be a novelist and a photographer at the same time. Just the matter of getting the job done. I'll try to edit these photos in photoshop sometimes... when I find the time. Lately, I've been tormenting my mind with stuff I shouldn't be thinking about. But I can't help it you know, I'm just like every other girl. Anyway, to the end, here are the photos. I've got to wake up early tomorrow and drive Rodney to school. YAY for me! =]

Sunday = Busy Day

noreply@blogger.com (Closed Zero) — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 00:18:00 +0000

We worked on our house all day today. And yes, I am beat. =]
But, in between work, I managed to take some photos using Chelsea's camera. I really think I need those professional ones. They do come in handy at times. The photos are really random, some of them were taken by Chelsea. =]

This is the house we were selling. On the first day of showing, it was immediately sold. It was incredible! That means we didn't have to work harder than we already are on fixing some stuff in the house. Yay for me!

Everyweek, we've got these whole stash of trash piled on top of each other from cleaning the house. Sometimes, not all of them are taken by the helpful waste collectors, because we've got soo many, and we just throw in rubbishly. So I decided to do something about it. Chelsea put it up for me. =]

"PLEASE TAKE US AWAY. Thank you."

Yep, all the boxes full of stuff. Tita did most of it though

Those were the woods waiting to be trashed. So much work.

YEAHH!!! WOODS!!!!

Tita works hard a lot

Rodney smashed the bricks, and yelled at me for taking random pictures afterwards

We got so many woods, we decided to give them to Mr. Romeo, my grandma's friend.

We passed by the park.

No, we did not take the way to Omaha

Princess came with us, and she looked so bored.

Way to home

So that was my day. I haven't have time to hang out with my friends lately. I wish once we finally moved I'll be able to, more often.=] YAY!