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JUST HOW BAD WE HANDLE THE PANDEMIC? IT'S WORST!

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Fri, 19 Jun 2020 12:57:00 +0000

Let me begin by saying, I'm not a Dilawan because my color is brown and I don't have hepatitis. I don't have plans of becoming a politician so don't ask me to run. Never ask me what I have contributed to the country because there's a lot. Being a good citizen is one example and there's more on my plate. And please don't do shit on me using Ad hominem, Ad Misericordia, etc. Not with me, do it with other people. Or better yet, don't do it at all.

Why I am saying? Because there's a lot of douchebag lurking around social media waiting for their prey. These are paid trolls trying to malign the people, spreading fake news and attacking those who are critical of the government. But I don't mind them, engaging with them means more money to them. The hell I care. What is important now is the problem this society is facing and how this government is trying to win over it. I guess winning isn't manifesting that much, what is more prevalent is the incompetencies we see. Yes, incompetency by this Government is becoming more and more obvious. If you don't see this kind of incompetencies then better have your eyes checked, most probably you are suffering from false obedience. If not, then maybe becoming as such, is your bread and butter.

It's pretty obvious that I hate this current Administration, but don't get me wrong on this. It doesn't mean that the previous is better or the future administration will be good. This is not a competition, and we should not think of it that way. Nobody should compete.

My point here is, right now, we haven't flattened curve, In fact, the number of people got infected with Covid19 is continuously growing. It's all true that no country is ever prepared for this but that should not be an alibi for not doing your job because a lot of countries are winning again this pandemic.

The country has been too complacent. When we first heard the news and eventually when we record the first few cases of Covid19 in the Philippines, nobody took it seriously. Others already have an early initiative to have restrictions and emergency measures like that of Taiwan, Hongkong, Vietnam, and Singapore, we, on the other hand, made an appeal not to hurt China's feeling. The Philippines is remarkably late to follow suit.

The lead agency, DOH which is headed by our incompetent Sec. Duque even mentioned "nothing really to be scared of". His tone simply tells us the lack of urgency and the lack of foresight of what could happen in the coming days or months.

The Senate even conducted a hearing on how ready we are and from that alone reveal how ill-prepared we are in combating this pandemic. During that time, I can remember that we only have 2000 test kits available. I guess the DOH has no idea that in the coming days they need to secure masks, PPE's, ventilators, more isolation room/wards for the hospital, etc. And that they need to secure more testing kits, approved more laboratories within and outside Metro Manila, that they need to be efficient in gathering data of the patients, to hire more contact tracers, nurses, doctors, med techs, etc. That they need to provide the frontliners a decent temporary shelter to stay or free transportation to ease their in coming to an from the hospitals. It was only late-March that we slowly see improvements on the said essentials that the DOH has to secure or provide. Why is this happening? Why the lack of urgency? I can only surmise that captain of the DOH shipped isn't really concern to the people. Isn't really serving the people but rather serving only one person, "serves at the pleasure of the President" We are doomed.

Here comes the quarantine which started last March 16, 2020. This has been long overdue, a month and a half after the Philippines have recorded the first COVID 19 case on January 30, 2020. And after they announced it, there was chaos everywhere. Transportation was halted, work stopped. the economy freezes. Later was found out that no clear protocol has been drafted. It's like trial and error. We heard a lot of versions of the quarantine, Enhance, Modified, General, name it. These brought about confusion and disappointment by the majority of the people because there are no clear guidelines as to what will happen or what should be done. We see a familiar scenario, just like how ill-prepared DOH is. There were no clear guidelines for redistribution of help from the government down to the barangays. Because of this ill-preparedness, people started to panic and be frustrated with the Government. The sad reality is, the incompetencies of the government was blamed on the people, Branding them as people with a lack of discipline. But isn't it true that if there are clear cut policies, communication, coordination, preparedness from the government, the people will follow? Why blame the people while in fact, those who are in the government are the ones violating the quarantine protocols? There is Mocha, the fake news queen. Koko, who didn't use his kokote. The famous Sinas, about his mañanita party. Those who are hopeless were killed, like that of the retired army, and thousands of alleged offenders of quarantine. While those who are in the government are laughing to those who got killed and imprisoned.

Adding insult to the injury that we have, is making the Anti-Terror Bill an urgent matter that needs to be passed into law by the legislators immediately. Really? At this point in time where we don't even know if we can survive this Pandemic? How do I describe it? It's awful. Don't get me wrong, we need a law that punishes the terrorists but at the expense of our basic laws? There's a lot of commentaries by the expert, law schools siding their position against the bill. Individuals who expressed their concerns like Dean Mel Sta. Mari who explained in detail the danger of the said bill. One day, if you make a comment about the government or the people in power, there's a chance you'll have your quarantine in jail. Political dissent can be very dangerous. I was thinking that perhaps this is one way of silencing the people about the incompetence of the government in handling the crisis. Or perhaps this is an advanced tool for the coming 2022 election? This is not the prime time to give the government much power to do whatever they can at the expense of the common people's rights to express themselves. The rush and the urgency of this is stupid. The only terror on all of this is the bill itself. This bill is spreading terror.

Latest the we have right is the conviction or Maria Ressa, The CEO of Rappler. Other said it has nothing to do with Freedom of Press, Freedom of speech because it was filed by a private individual, name Wilfredo Keng, who facilitated or became the contact person between the Government and the Chinese philanthropist Huang Rulun who donated worth Billion pesos for the drug rehabilitation facility. And, by the way, Keng's daughter was appointed member of the Philippines Commission on Women for the youth sector.

To be honest, I'm getting tired of the news I read every day regarding how being incompetent is the new normal. Why can't the government just do their job to protect us? Why can't they just have compassion for the people especially the poor ones? Please stop blaming the people, because most of them doesn't have a choice. Look at Michelle who dies waiting for the bus going home to his children? Look at the so-called Modern-day Heroes who were neglected and treated as nobody? Where is the Trillion pesos fund which most came from borrowing? We are the one and our children who's going to pay for it in the long run.

If we are going to be critical with the Government, we're not trying to topple it. We are just trying to remind them of the job they have to do. They owe it to us. They are public servants and they should serve the public. It's their choice and they should live by that. Stop being a blind follower. As a Filipino, your loyalty must be with your fellow Filipino.

Going Back to Blogging

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Mon, 08 Jun 2020 15:51:00 +0000

I started blogging since 2007 and as the years go by I started to feel like not writing at all. Sometimes if not always, I feel lazy in-between years and so maintaining this blog wasn't plausible and I wasn't really consistent, except for laziness. I was never a writer, nor aiming to be one. I did this blogging just to express my feelings. I am an introvert person. I love to be on my own, where I don't have to worry about people around me. Blogging is one way of communicating to the outside world, outside of myself. I would rather have a quality time with a dog than to spend a lot of time with people. I used to have one and I would love to have a dog right now but in my current situation, I find it hard to get one. So sad.

And so I decided to write again because there is a need for me to somehow express how I feel. It's been quite a time since all the feelings have been kept inside of me. Perhaps this longing to be heard is somewhat brought by the pandemic and the quarantine measures implemented by the government. I get tired of it and I wanted to have that kind of freedom to do whatever you want and to go places wherever you wish to see. I miss going to a coffee shop and just spend your whole afternoon enjoying a cup of coffee or two. The aroma was just amazing that it tickles every neuron in your head and it allows my poor brain to work a notch higher from its mediocre capacity. But seriously I need to have a dialogue with myself and to know how's my life and how is it going lately.

Now here comes the idea of going back to blogging. I think this is a good way to always remind me of the things that I want to do, to be always attuned to my feelings. In this way, I can monitor where I am at in terms of my goals and my and plans and what's ahead of me. Hopefully, this will also be a venue for me to grow as a person and as a human being. And to make this even more interesting, I will also be reading all my reflections on my podcast. That is available on all major platforms nowadays. I'm looking forward to this and hopefully, I will be able to express myself truly as a person through writings and as well as through speaking. I have more things in my mind but I guess this all for now. Chao!

WHY US LORD?: A Reflection On The Typhoon Yolanda Calamity.

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sat, 30 Nov 2013 14:42:00 +0000

With the recent Yolanda typhoon calamity, one question stands out - "Why?" Why do we have to suffer like this? Why the death of my beloved ones? Why us Lord? Why…? Why…? Why…?

I will not attempt to know how these victims of calamity formulated their questions because I was not there when the typhoon strike nor try to answer their question because I’m not God. I would rather see the process of communication between a God and His people.

Pope Francis encouraged us to ask why to God. He simply explains how this question would draw God’s attention to his children. He likened the situation to a child asking his parents about almost anything with a “why”. The pope said "the child does not wait for an answer from his father or mother." rather the child will add-up more and will never stops asking and asking. This is one way of seeking attention from his/her parents – and with our brothers and sisters who were affected by the recent typhoon, an attention from God. But, are these people only wants attention from God? Or are they looking for answers?

For me, they asked the question “why” mainly because they want answers from God and in doing so they want God to focus on them when they ask. If we are going to think about it plainly and in human nature, it’s unfair. Can they really find answers immediately? Or can they really have the answers? They lost their loved ones in an instant and in a most implausible manner I should say but they never find answers as to why things happened, or perhaps an explanation. This will draw more questions and even more daring questions to God.

We can find a lot of other words/phrases that can be attached to this simple yet vague question word “Why” for us to be able to create a very valid inquiry about us and to the situation we are into. The mere fact that a question is formulated it exhibits or portrays a person whose eagerness to know something is astounding. After all, we ask question because there are things we don’t know – this makes a question valid. However, what if you can’t find answers to your questions or what if there are no answers? Would you still ask?

A Person asks because he wants to know something and that something somehow gives explanation in which may be beneficial or non-beneficial to him. This is expressed in a communicative way to a person or to a certain situation where the one asking can extract information. "A certain situation" because sometimes you ask questions to yourself since the one whom you want to ask the question with is no around. Sometimes you want to get an answer from a phenomenon, scenario, circumstances. In the case of the victims, they know whom to address the question but can they really hear the answer from that person, from God? This leads me to think that their questions are not only addressed to God but to the very person who ask the question itself. They ask the question for themselves as well.

They are inquiring something to the things ambivalent to them. And by way of trying to throw these questions to themselves, I believe they are capable of answering and discovering what seems to be unclear to them. They can never find that answer overnight for sure. It would even go down to the very core of their being and their relationship to God. Moreover, not all the time you can always find the answers. That is why you keep on asking and asking until you ran out of questions and even get tired of it. However, after you ran out of questions, this is where God comes in. When life turns out to be so unfair of the things you may want to know - there you will find the wisdom of the things you ought not to know. When situation grabs you with the knowledge which leads you to liberation - there you will find the freedom of innocence. When circumstances exhaust you of everything you can have - there you will see the richness of nothingness.

I am not saying that we have to stop asking, because if we do, it is also like depriving us of who we really are. This is what differentiates us from any other creatures. This only show, however, how limited we are and yet can be limitless at the same time. After all, we have a limitless God. We may not be able to know all the answers to our questions but God is clearly communicating to us. I am convinced that they will wake up one day bearing all the answers in their hearts.

~melskiens~

A Cipher I Wish To Become.

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Tue, 19 Nov 2013 14:45:00 +0000

A Cipher I Wish To Become.

I wish I was more of a fool,
Whose only happiness is to make folly my desires;
Nonsense to which I assented my ego,
To err the only decency I fondled.

I wish I was more of a coward,
Whose only dismay is I myself being a hero;
A morsel of gallantry is scattered,
Losing the identity of a knight errant.

I hate it when I become so enthused,
With the thing most of the people hate;
Or perhaps I am just so fond of pretensions,
Candidly spoiling the inceptive of sanity.

I hate it when the heart's debacle is unmasked,
Becoming too mundane to obscure;
Dragging me to the abyss of deception,
Desperately seeking for my lost soul.

What can I be to you? A scoundrel perhaps?
A naught would be much appalling too;
It gives me no option for bliss,
Nor the dire longing for a kiss.

I walk leaving with no trace.
Head held up like a king with no crown;
Wide enough my kingdom it may seem,
My queen I lost, my treasure I wasted.

How can I get up from below,
Deserting the future it may offer;
I can only do a little with what I have,
Constantly waning from what is left inside.

I wish of my own stupidity, bragging it loosely,
Claiming my own ardor in disdain;
The desolation was never in my mind,
Until I lost my fervor, my amity, my love.

Who will be the next Pope?

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Wed, 13 Mar 2013 09:08:00 +0000

This is not anymore the question of who will be the next Bishop of Rome (although a i love the see Fr. Chito in the balcony of St. Peter giving his blessings after the Cardinal Protodeacon announces the famous "habemus Papam") but rather the question of the capability of the chosen Pope to address the issues that the Church is facing nowadays: Growing secularism and apathy especially in Europe and America; Sex abuse issues; Religious persecutions especially in non-christian nation; Declining number of priests and faithfuls; Rising clamor for women ordination and priest allowing to be married; and the famous Vatileaks (divisiveness, corruption, etc. in the Curia) and so on and so forth. Let's see what the Holy Spirit has to offer on the Second day of the conclave and the following days to come (although, most likely the white smoke will be illusive on the second day and even on the third day). My Prayers...

-melskiens-

Welcome 2013!!!

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sat, 19 Jan 2013 11:36:00 +0000

Lazy blogger here. I only posted just one entry last year. Can't seem to find a good experience worthy of sharing here in my blog. I can't find a single event which i considered the most unforgettable one for 2012. Yes, another year have passed and all I can say is that i'm getting older and older (my age is still in the calendar, though). I just recently celebrated my birthday this week. And looking back at my life, I am trying to sort out the things happened to me.

2009 when I started my life outside. I envisioned myself then that i will be successful and will be able to conquer my fears and eventually would become a better person that is mature and ready to stand whatever lifetime decisions i will be making. Now, year 2013, I don't know where I am, or I don't know if i failed. Was my vision feasible or was I dreaming too much of myself then? Yes, I was dreaming of becoming one of the performers in an orchestra playing my violin, having a Managerial position in an international NGO. I'm dreaming of learning three or even more foreign languages. Having my Masteral Degree outside the country. Able to built a House, and many more. And looking at these dreams, i would say i'm like a bat in the bellfry!

Yeah, call me one. It's OK. Anyway, it's true. Crazy because didn't do to make those things a fact of reality. I have a violin but i didn't pratice. I want to work in an NGO (international) but i didn't applied. I enrolled myself in a Korean language school at Korean Cultural Center but i didn't continue. Now i'm currently studying Spanish but sometimes I'm sluggish and skip my classes. I've searched scholarship grants in the internet but no lap of luxury. I'm also skeptical because academically, i'm just a so-so. All the scholarships i've searched on the web are looking only for those Einstein-brainlike students and individuals or those who-made-significant-contributions-to-society can get the scholarships. Hindrances, name it, not to mention, my lack of time, money and resources. I'm also tide-up with my family who is asking for my support financially. Blah, blah, blah. I don't even have time for LOVE! hmmm, what is love, anyway?

I'm already at the stage of Young Adulthood that's according to Erikson's stages of psychosocial development (ages bet. 20-24, or 20-40 years). It is about Intimacy vs. Isolation. And if you asked me right now to choose between Intimacy vs Isolation, I would prefer Isolation. Now, does this makes me immature? Nah, leave it to Erikson.
Currently i'm becoming familiar with isolation. This maybe delineate as negative as oppose to intimacy but it is not about branding your life but rather on how you create your own life according to your heart's fervor. Intimacy is important, but i guess time won't allow me or maybe there is this desire still in my heart to embrace a different vocation, an Intimacy with God. Who knows?

At present, I'm setting some short term goals. As i mentioned, I'm currently studying Spanish at Instituto Cervantes. I'm now at level seven. Ahora puedo hablar y entender a español un poco pero nesecito studiar mucho. I still hate it when laziness calls my attention. I know that learning a language will open you to a wider horizon and this should push me through. I'm hoping that this year, i will be able to get a new job with the new learning i will have. I'm into trading at Stock Market as well. You probably think i'm already rich since I'm into stock trading/investing but you are wrong. This is also my concept before that whenever I hear or encounter the word Stock Market, then you must be very rich/a millionaire or you own a company. I was actually looking for a scheme where in I can maximize my money and will have a better returns. I was thinking of putting up a business but it didn't work. I came across at a forum about Stock Market and based on what I've discovered, you don't have to be a millionaire for you to be able to play in Stock Market. There i started my research and studied about its nature. After I gained confidence, I decided to venture into buying and selling shares. Eventually, I opened an account with an online stoke broker (COL FINANCIAL) with a minimum of 5000PhP. Right now i already have a 25% increase/gain in my portfolio. It entails high risk but you can actually minimize it by constantly educating yourself and openly learning the ups and downs of the market. Hopefully i can earn my first million and when it comes, expect me to resign at my job effective immediately.

My 2013 Chinese zodiac sign prediction told me that I am really not that lucky compared to those who were born in the year of the Dog and the Dragon. However, I am still optimistic this year of the Water Snake and hopefully i can sustain this positive attitude. Still i'm recognizing my shortcomings and this should not hold me back, but rather will psych me up in attaining what i want to accomplish.

I guess i should write more often here this year. I miss writting. I'm not a type of person who share openly with someone face to face. Whenever i want to express my feelings, I sometimes draw, paint, sing, play instrument, write a poem and blog. And i haven't done these things lately. And now is the right time to open myself again. It's good to breathe new life into yourself. It's good to be back in blogging.
It's good to welcome the year 2013 positively!

-melskiens-

I'm writing again...the hard way.

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 26 Aug 2012 15:03:00 +0000

Almost forgot i have a blog here. Its been months since my last entry was. There hasn't been any significant event I've experienced lately but only dullness. So this was probably the reason why i can't find even a single thought in my barren mind to start with. I was living my life one day at a time just like any other ordinary man consuming his life on earth. To describe my feelings, here are some of my musings that deeply reflect where i am and what i have become these days. There isn't much glow in-between the lines, only bleakness and blahs. Kinda related to the last entry i have. (Don't you think this is the best way to start writing again in my blog?)

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(On love...)

It pains me knowing i can't have her, not in my time. However, it is even worst than pain knowing she's becoming indifferent for unknown reason. It is like stripping me of a little smile left in my heart. ------ I can't just have her. And it can never be happened unless i can stop my time running.

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(On self)

Lately i am obsessed with my aspirations and then here comes the inhibitions, these two most oddly jumbled in my head that sometimes ending up me having to compensate by imagining for what i am not. Eventually isolating my instinct. Seriously, I need a Sense of Humor. ------- I know i can do great things but there is something that holding me from dosing so. I know what it is but i am just plainly stupid.

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(On conviction)

What is more disheartening is when you are able to give good advises to other people yet you failed to practice it to yourself. Stems from within is your insistent on your own abhorrence on change. ------ This is why I sometimes hate myself.

And to sum-up all...

It is like a comedy where one portrays a character in melancholy which is more interesting than the opposite. People will watch and perhaps amaze by the plot. But would they believe the portrayal in the first place? - Yeah, really, but what's more arduous is on how you conceal your pain so openly, to the very obvious... numbing oneself in absurdity of sadness - fiercest agonies... Damn!

- melskiens -

Random Musings

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Fri, 11 Nov 2011 05:25:00 +0000

On life...

We only see the opposites in the ironies of life, we seldom acknowledge the "in-betweens" which is the sanctuary of maturity that which eventually bears the fruit of wisdom...

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On loosing faith on oneself...

Lately I become cynical over things I'm painfully sarcastic about, ostentatious on circumstances complementing on what i perceive to be imperative. Like a leaf wavering in the air after it fell from a tree, the wind perceptively becoming my captain bringing me to ambiguity, transparently loosing my ground.

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On uncertainties

The oblivion lingers my head. Trudging a voyager to wander about in the abyss of wisdom. Wondering how this incurable insanity appearing in a lucid dream becomes an existence which is apparently an illusion.

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On helplessness...

Murmuring inside is an emphaty to heed the call of the mute, each word subdues his own propinquity, inexplicably desiring to pierce the adversary not known to his prudence.

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On Solitude...

Venturing into the waves that roll between loneliness and solitude. Sometimes thinking of drowning my own sublime truth.

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On fear of Love...

Where to find this Love in whose yearning tends to diminish? Or perhaps fear is just lingering to the mere absence of fortitude? This might just be playing in my mind. So then please take my wisdom and buried it to the deepest chamber of love's sanctuary, never known to man unless exhausted by ecstasy.

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On finding Love...

In solitude on that which my soul is in salutary, i constantly finding my peace which are invisible and intangible. However, it remains as it is until such love surpasses my being. For love alone can unite and fulfill two individuals at the very core - Where are you then my love?

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On loneliness...

It's hard when i see it's raining, dark as the world of man. Yet into each life some rain must fall. I have played in rain before, in which i played with my tears as well, hiding it together with the raindrops.

Wala sa Mood!

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 18 Sep 2011 15:19:00 +0000

photo credit

Hay naku, nakalimutan ko nang magblog. Last post ko dito noong May pa. Wala lang akong ganang magsulat. Mahirap kasi situasyon ko ngayon, maraming iniisip. May mga bagay na gustong mong gawin pero hindi mo magawa-gawa kasi may mga bagay pa na mas importante dito. Minsan nagtatanong narin ako kung importante ba talaga ang mga bagay na pinagtutuunan ko ng pansin. Pero napagtanto ko naman na importante ito - ang isipin muna ang iba bago ang sarili. Konting tiis lang siguro. Napaka unfair naman ng Dios kung mananatali nalang ako sa ganitong sitwasyon panghabang-buhay e halos buong buhay namin eh nasa katayuang sapat na o minsan ay salat talaga.
Minsan nagtatampo narin ako sa Kanya. Kahit wala akong karapatang magtampo pero ginagawa ko narin. Wala syang magagawa kasi eto ang feelings ko sa Kanya. At alam ko na naiintindihan Nya ako - sana nga.
Hanggang dito nalang at ako'y walang ganang magsulat.

Blessed Pope John Paul II

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 01 May 2011 14:07:00 +0000

“Santo Subito!” (Saint Now!)This was the loud cry of the people at the funeral of the late Pope John Paul II last April 8, 2005 6 days after his death on April 2. Six years later, Pope John Paul II is beatified - the third of the four steps to sainthood.

The First step is the initial investigation of the person's life after he/she is considered for sainthood. It will be in the Diocesan level. After being confirmed, the Vatican will acknowledge a "Nihil Obstat." A Latin for "nothing hinders." In this stage, the person is called "the Servant of God." The second step is the establishing of the heroic act of the person. This will be led by a Postulator who coordinates the causes for beatification or canonization through the judicial processes which includes conducting thorough investigations into the life of the candidate, his works (writings) and deeds. It will be presented to the Congregation for the Causes of Saints in Rome. In this stage, the person is called "Venerable." The third is the Beatification. One requirement here is the miracle through the person's intercession. On JP II's case, it was a French nun named Sister Marie Simon-Pierre who was "miraculously" cured of the incurable Parkinson's disease. This was officially declared by the Vatican to have an "intercession" of Pope John Paul II. This time the person will be addressed as "Blessed." The last stage is the Canonization. This stage requires another miracle after the beatification. After thorough investigation, the Pope will declare the person as "Saint."

I'm one of the millions of people around the world celebrating with this great event! Hope this will draw inspirations to many.

Hahay, Ang kinabuhi sa tao - Istoryaheee!

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 03 Apr 2011 16:00:00 +0000

Hahay, kuyaw gyud ning kinabuhi, usahay dili ka kasabot. Lisod tugkaron. Daghang mga pangutana. Daghan kaayong mga panghitabo nga makapalibog. Bisag ako nakapangutana na sa akong kaugalingon. Daghan kaayo ko ug pangandoy sa akong kaugalingon ug sa akong pamilya. Pero mura man dili mi magkasinabot sa akong pangandoy. Sa tinuod lang, usahay makapangutana ko sa Ginoo kung ngano ingon ini man ang akong/among kapalaran. Kitang tanan gusto nga mahimong maayo ang kahimtang sa kinabuhi. Gusto nato nga himsog atong panglawas, walay sakit, naay maayong panimalay, maayo ang pamilya, walay gubot, nakapahuman ug eskwela ang mga anak, malinawon ug haruhay nga pagpuyo. Basta ang basic needs makab-ot lang, pwede na. So far makaingon ko nga maayo man among pamilya, although dili mi open sa among mga gibati sa usa't-usa pero makasulti ko nga ang gugma nagpatigbabaw gyud. Bisag pobre ra mi pero maayo man among relasyon sa usag-usa ug sa ubang tao. Pero lagi, aduna pud baya miy mga butang nga gikinahanglan. Lisod-lisoron pud lagi ta usahay usa pa makab-ot bisan ang mga basic nga panginahanglan sa tao. Pero proud baya ko nga bisan sa among kapobrehon, daghan baya mi natabangan sa among mga paryente ug sa ubang tao. Pero mas makatabang pa unta mi ug dako-dako kung abunda pud mi.

Bitaw, wala mo kabantay? Katong mga ngil-ad ug mga kinaiya or batasan, katong mga kurap, hakog, killer, mangtas, mga dili mutoo sa Ginoo, katong mga demonyo sa atong panahon mao pa hinuon ang nakatagamtam ug kaharuhay sa kinabuhi. Ingon sa Bibliya, "Blessed is the Poor (in spirit or materially)because theirs is the Kingdom of God." Pero unsaon man nimo ang Kingdom of God kung gutom ang tao? Unya moingon kita nga "sige lang, ana jud ng pobre, antus lang usa kay sure naman ka sa langit inig kamatay nimo." Toinks! Estoryaheeee!!! Dili ba pwede paboran pud ta sa Ginoo? Usahay, walay mahimo ang tao kung dili mag romanticize nalang, we appeal to our emotions. Dili ko muingon nga maayo na jud kong tao pero kung ikompara nato sa uban - sus! ambot lang. Usahay i-justify nalang nato ang mga butang nga nahitabo. Ihapon nalang daw nato ang mga blessings nga gihatag sa atoa without the monetary value like - kinabuhi, ginhawa, maayong panglawas, pangsinabtanay, walay kaaway, malinawong pagpuyo, mga higala, ang kinaiyahan ang simpleng katawa ug uban pa (by the way, mutuo ko ani) Well, acknowledged, even those who are not entitled aning mga butanga natagamtaman man pud ni nila - so what's the difference? To answer this, dili usa nato iapil ang out of this world notions, diri usa ta sa unsay nahitabo sa adlaw-adlaw - ang karon. The difference is --- sila busog, ug ang mga buotan - GUTOM. Hahay ang kinabuhi gyud. Pero sa laing bahin, Maayo nalang pud nga ingon ani ang nahitabo kay siguro lisod pud ang kahimtang nila kung buot hunahunaon. Ikaw, gusto nimo mahimong killer? Di ba dili? Libuga nako noh? hehe..Pero usahay makahuna-huna baya ko nga magbinugoy, basin pa diay,hehe. Bitaw, ang ako lang hangyo sa Ginoo ba, (kung makabasa man gani ka ani akong blog) nga unta, ayaw lang palabii ang pag-antus sa uban. Dili ba pwede nga abunda ka unya maayo pa jud kang tao? Unsa na sila nga category? - the middle force? Mga pinili? Mao ba ni sila ang makaadto sa purgatoryo? good for them.

Ingon nila, ang pobre kuno kay nahimong pobre kay mga tapulan man sila. Pero kung muadto ka sa mga bukid, ang mga farmers nato, mumata na sila ug alas 4 sa kaadlawon para magandam sa ilahang umahan, mapabulad sa adlaw sa udtong tutok, unya magtugway sa kabaw, mouli na sa ilaha gabii na sa alas otso -- karon, tapulan ba na sila? bahala namo mangutana kung nganong igon ani man ang nahitabo. Ug usahay sudlan dayon ni siya sa rebolusyonaryong panghuna-huna, tungod ang gobyerno nato kay dili makatarunagnon, adunay inhustisya, mao mga ang pobre musamot kapobre ug ang mga datu musamot kadatu, ug dapat atong isalikway ang Gobyerno ug atong ibarog ang tinuod nga Gobyerno sa mga Tao. Well, tinuod ni sya pero usahay we become so idealistic pud nga usahay mahimong idea nalang pud ang tanan --- Waaaaahhhh ambot! galibog nako. Pero usa lang akong masulti. Bisan pa man sa mga panghitabo nga dili maayo, padayon gihapon ta sa atong kinabuhi. Paglaum. No choice pero maglaum nalang jud ta, wala tay mahimo, free man ni sya. Kung duna gihapon kay paglaum, mutuo gihapon ka nga mahimong paborable ang tanan sa imoha, diri sa kalibutan ug sa laing kalibutan... Dili ka mutuo? Hala, Pagminatay diha ug hilak sa kilid, tan-awon nato kung naa bay mahitabo sa imoha, hehehe... Bitaw, naa man Siya kanunay namati sa atoa, muduol lang gyud ta sa Iyaha.

wala lang...

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 03 Apr 2011 13:40:00 +0000

kapag nananatiling bulag ang puso sa kalayaan na nais nitong matamasa, at pilit mo itong nililinlang sa mga kasinungalingan ng pagka-imbot, pagbabalatkayo at pagkagahaman, hinding-hindi mo makakamit ang ninanais mong kaligayahan...magparaya ka...maging bukas ka...

Confused religious brother?

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Thu, 31 Mar 2011 16:28:00 +0000

A friend of mine who just graduated from a theological school here in Manila sent a message on my mobile phone asking me to pray for him for his final decision to embrace a religious life perpetually.

"Bro pls pray 4 me. yes or no ba me sa buhay relihiyoso."

What can i say? I believe religious life is a gift. It is something that is given to you by God just like any other vocations - single blessedness and married life. None of these vocations supersede the other, these are equal calling from God. And this guy is responding to the call of becoming a priest. Was the text expressing his confusion? Can he make that decision? Or maybe he just want my prayer.

I would be happy if he's confused. It only shows how serious he is in whatever life ahead of him. This will make him think over and over to a lifetime decision he has to make. We need priests right now, and not just priests, but good priests. And i just hope he will be able to go over and reflect his vocation story. It is God who initiated the calling, and it's up to us to respond to that calling. I just hope he will go back to the very first encounter where in he felt he was first called by God. Hopefully i can find time to talk with him the matter. For the meantime, all i can offer right now is also a text message replied to him:

" Try to reflect what makes you think otherwise and identify those things. Kaya ba nimo i-let go? Can you also picture out yourself 30 years from now? Would you be happy by that time then to whatever decision you will make today? "

-melskiens-

4 Seasons of Loneliness - captivates my heart ever since.

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Tue, 22 Mar 2011 12:29:00 +0000

When can I hear the music again?

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sat, 19 Mar 2011 10:56:00 +0000

Am I running out of passion on music? I guess not and hopefully not. But every time i pick up "eng2x" (my violin) and think of practicing the piece composed by Pachelbel that I promised to master this year, my hands are suddenly tied up and loosing its grip on the fingerboard. I've always wanted to be a good instrumentalist to my favorite stringed instrument but I failed. It's been three years since i bought it and until now i can't even finished book II of the Suzuki method, too bad. Poor "Mr. Time," he always falls prey to my conventional scape goat which is "i don't have time to practice."

Ever since I was a child, the typical sound of this instrument have always been like a lullaby for me. I like its music because it feels like the notes are physically coming out from within every time you play it. It's dredging up those emotions that have been long hidden from uncertainties and letting it soar as if everything else is freedom. The real me is engaging, communicating, giving, speaking and loving. Not that I am living a bogus life all these years although I have reservations on my own, consuming my appetite for individuality. Not that I'm boring or a paranoid of some kind because I"m not. I can be jolly, funny and a clown. You can even have me sing (R&B, Boys II Men)type of songs, and dance. I can be nice, wild and serious as well. Did I mentioned being holy?. Yeah, I can be, maybe, perhaps, i guess so.

People are coming to me to tell their stories, may it be the happy and the not-so-happy one. I don't know why but what I only noticed is that I listen. A very good trait for a musician. You have to be a good listener to have a good grasp on music. However, I find it hard to do otherwise in terms of telling stories. It is refreshing that you were able to put smile on faces of other people that are drench in tears. However, there is also this emptiness while seeing yourself deprived of that same happiness you gave to them. I not the type of person who tell stories, especial my own story to others - personally. I can write it, though sometimes I'm lazy and I'm not good at writing I should say. It's better to keep it myself. I am more attuned to it and more comfortable and in time like this, music fills in. I always consider Music as the best alternative way in expressing myself. I've done sketching and went to painting. But the ink only runs in my veins once in a while and i can't just fit my image on a canvass. But lately I felt the need to revitalize my inclination to music. I guess this is the right time to be in touch again with eng2x. I have a good grip this time, maybe?. Inspirations are there waiting to be discovered. Or perhaps all i need is an open heart. Now, it's not anymore all about mastering a piece or becoming a very good instrumentalist, technically speaking. What is important rather, is the language and its message that is conveying to you as the one who plays and that you are able to perceptibly transcend that connectivity between your being and the music beyond your limited horizon. There certainly, i can beautifully hear the music.

Japan 8.9 earthquake and Tsunami Photos

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Fri, 11 Mar 2011 12:07:00 +0000

I THANK GOD FOR MY SECOND LIFE!

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 06 Mar 2011 09:08:00 +0000

I was on my way going home from my work that usually ends at 11:30 PM. I arrived at the tricycle terminal station and then i took the next tricycle bound for Bagong Silangan, the place where I live. I really don't like to be seated at the extension seat inside the sidecar of the tricycle for the place is to narrow. But i have no option since the seat at the back of the driver was already occupied. For me it was just a normal night, I do this routine every night except during my day off. I was tired that time and almost fell asleep when suddenly the tricycle stopped. I don't know what exactly happened in front of us since i was inside and facing the entrance of the sidecar. Then suddenly i heard gun shots. At first i thought it was just a firecracker, but who could have done that this month? Suddenly i got outside the tricycle to see what happened. And what i saw was several young men running away and a man holding a gun going to the place where i was standing trying to hide(later i found out that he was a policeman). He was also one of the passengers behind the tricycle driver. It was then i realized that i was in the middle of the gun fire and that those running were the young men who are trying to rob us. I was so afraid especially when i saw "sumpak," an improvised gun and a wounded man lying in the street (who eventually died later on). I also saw a car behind us trying to get away from the scene. What i did was to ran away, afraid that those young men might get back to us. I started to touch my body to check if i got wounded and thank God I was safe but not the one passenger. I heard the tricycle driver saying that the dead man was the passenger seated behind him. I just walk away from the place where the robbery took place, trying to calm myself and also reflecting that It could have been me who's lying dead on the street. I felt sorry for the dead passenger but thankful that I'm alive. I rode a tricycle going to my place and there were already policemen and media from TV 5 covering the incident. I arrived home safe this time. Fresh from my mind about what happened - i reflected about life. I prayed and thank God for the second life He gave me.

Medal eyed for cop who foiled robbery
By JEFFREY DAMICOG
March 6, 2011, 3:22pm

(Report from Manila Bulletin)

MANILA, Philippines - A 16-year-old robber and a passenger were killed while an off-duty policeman was wounded during a foiled hold-up conducted by a group of youths on the passengers of a tricycle in Quezon City before dawn yesterday.

Meanwhile, Chief Inspector Ariel Capocao, deputy chief of the Quezon City Police District’s Criminal Inves-tigation and Detection Unit (QCPD-CIDU), said that recommendations have been made to give PO1 Santos Osorio a medal for his actions.

Capocao said that Osorio, who is assigned to the Regional Mobile Group of the National Capital Re¬gion Police Office (NCRPO-RMG), managed to kill one of the robbers despite being shot and hurt.

The police official identified the young dead robber as Rey Joseph Bartolome, 16, a resident of No. 8 Sampaguita St., Dama de Noche, Barangay Payatas, Quezon City.

Capocao said that Bartolome was the only one armed with an improvised shotgun among seven other male youths during an attempted holdup of a tricycle at around 1 a.m. yesterday along Sampaguita St., Dama de Noche, Barangay Payatas.

Bartolome shot Osorio as well as killed a passenger identified as Agosto Violata, a resident of Barangay Bagong Silangan, Quezon City. Violata died on the spot.

Capocao said that Osorio was already off-duty in civilian clothes and was on his way home at No. 98 Springfield St., in Payatas A, Quezon City.

Osorio and Violata were both riding behind the tricycle driver while three other passengers were aboard the sidecar when the robbery took place.

Capocao said that a group of youths blocked the path of the tricycle and declared a holdup.

For no reason, Bartolome suddenly fired a shot at the direction of Osorio and Violata. Violata sustained multiple gunshot wounds while the policeman sustained gunshot wounds in left leg and left side of his torso.

2 patay, 1 sugatan sa Payatas hold-up
(News from REMATE)

PATAY ang dalawa katao, habang isa ang sugatan sa panghoholdap sa isang tricycle sa Payatas Quezon City.

Sinabi ni Senior Police Officer (SPO) 1 Remo Duro ng Quezon City Police Station Six na bandang 1:00 ng madaling-araw nang harangin ng pitong kabataang lalaki na armado ng sumpak ang tricycle na may mga pasahero, papunta ng Barangay Bagong Silangan.

Nang malaman umano ng mga suspek na pulis ang isa sa mga pasahero ng tricycle ay agad nagpaputok ang mga ito na ikinamatay ng pasaherong si Agusto Vilota.

Gumanti naman ng putok ang pulis na si Police Officer 1 Osorio Santos ng National Capital Region Police Office (NCRPO) Regional Mobile Group at napatay ang isa sa mga suspek na si Rey Joseph Bartolome.

Nagtamo naman ng tama ng bala sa binti si Santos ngunit ligtas ang ibang pasahero ng tricycle at driver nito. Remate Online

2 killed, cop hurt in QC robbery try
Report from Dennis Datu, dzMM TeleRadyo: ABS-CBN NEWS

QUEZON CITY, Philippines – Two people were killed while a police officer was wounded when armed men tried to rob tricycle passengers in Quezon City early Sunday morning, police said.

Seven men armed with homemade guns blocked a tricycle carrying several passengers around 1 a.m. in Payatas, according to Senior Police Officer 1 Remo Duro.

One of the passengers, however, was a police officer.

The robbers apparently panicked and fired their guns, killing passenger Agusto Vilota.

PO1 Osorio Santos, who was one of the passengers, immediately returned fire and killed one of the suspects, identified as Rey Joseph Bartolome.

Santos himself was hit in the leg by gunfire while the other passengers and the driver were unharmed.

The robbers, who have yet to be identified, escaped, according to police investigators.

-melskiens-

The Irony...

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 27 Feb 2011 08:03:00 +0000

They say that those people who are tough, strong, sturdy, are people who are actually weak, vulnerable - only looking for affection and love... they hush up or conceal themselves to a pseudo-narcissism. Why can't they just be true to themselves to save the hassle of deceiving their ego? A pity! - just a thought though...

-melskiens-

Question about Question...

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 06 Feb 2011 06:50:00 +0000

"Spiritually speaking, what do you do when questions no longer inspire you?" I quote this one from one of the contributors of Yahoo Answer named "Just Be."

It's just a simple question - not inspiring, though, thought-provoking. Somehow if one will think of it, you will really ponder what if, indeed, questions will no longer inspire you? /Ms./Mrs./Mr. Just Be is only asking this in the context of how he indulges himself/herself in answering or posting questions on Yahoo Answers. However, on my part, this question also hovers to my own individual deeds as i try to venture on my own life's exploration. I usually go to this web site just to scan questions of no-where-to-be-found, none sense, not-so-nonsense, and sensible ones. Maybe because I'm a type of person who has a lot of questions to offer "to my own consumption," that's why this question poses chastisement on my kinda bewildered (in the sense of leaving the formation i had) but exhilarating journey of life.

Pondering... what if indeed, questions will no longer give impression on you? Questions like... What is my purpose in life? Is there God? What am i living for? Is there life after death? Why is there no Justice? Why is there no Peace? Is there salvation? Why i have to suffer? Why the death of my beloved ones? Why ...why ...and why...?

A Person asks because he wants to know something. And that something somehow gives explanation in which may be beneficial or non-beneficial to himself. This is expressed in a communicative way to a person or to a certain situation where the one asking can extract information. "A certain situation" because sometimes you ask question to yourself without the presence other person/s, or to a certain phenomenon, scenario, circumstances. You are inquiring something to the things ambivalent to you. And by way of trying to throw these questions to yourself, that means you are capable of answering and discovering what seems to be unclear. But not all the time you can always find answers. That is why you keep on asking and asking until you ran out of questions. And if i may say, after you ran out of questions, this is where the role of Spirituality comes in. When life turns out to be so unfair of the things you may want to know - there you will find the wisdom of the things you ought to know not. When situation grabs you of the knowledge which leads you to liberation - there you will find the freedom of innocence. When circumstances exhaust you of everything you can have - there you will see the richness of nothingness.

I am not saying that we have to stop asking, because if we do, it is also like depriving us of who we really are. This is what differs us from any other creatures. This only shows, however, how limited we are and yet can be limitless at the same time.

Health and Blessings

-melskiens-

Alone at the Office...

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Fri, 04 Feb 2011 09:15:00 +0000

I'm all alone right now at the office. My office mate wasn't around. I heard from her yesterday that she needs to be with her family for some urgent reason. I don't know if she got a permission to take a day of absent or just took it her way. I was scheduled to have a day shift (Manila time)for the 24/7 operation of our eBay account. The usual operations with some other departments will start at around 9PM Manila time which is 5AM US Pacific time. While writing this, it is already 4AM eastern time or 1AM Pacific time. No calls coming in since I clocked in and I'm just here sitting at my station browsing some online news reading some current events. By the way, I was 10 minutes late because i went to Tandang Sora with my friend, who is a priest, before heading to work. I was rushing to be on time but i failed. I guess I have to settle that concern later on and bear the consequences. Every minute and even seconds in this kind of job counts, that's the thing.

Anyways, I had with me my mug which i bought at SM during my first months in this job. Price tag is still sticking on it. It's a good mug for a price of 179.75 PhP. I just had my 15 minute break and went to pee and opened my FB account as well. There i saw my Bunso wrote something on her wall. She was talking about the unbearable feelings she had. I thought she was sick and so i asked her what happened. Later i noticed that this has nothing to do with some kind of a sickness but rather a kind of a feeling bursting inside. I guess this has something to do with relationship. Since i don't have much time to discuss it with her, i just told her to write what happened and send it to me so i could say something about the situation. I love my Bunso and i don't want to see her sad. I don't have a biological sister and so after i met her at Escalante during my assignment there, i became close to her immediately. She is already at her first year in high school. She is a promising student with beauty, intelligence and talent (playing chess - she even won in different tournaments in the province) to be proud of, not to mentioned her being a good person. I just hope she is fine and will be fine.

It's getting dark as i see it beyond the glass wall of the building. Our office is at the 10th floor and we occupy the whole floor. I can only see very few people from the different department adjacent to our stations at eBay. I can see manong guard few meters away from me at the main entrance to the stations. I can also see from my vantage point a maintenance personnel cleaning the pipes and the lights using a ladder. It's very quite and you can only hear the sound of the air condition. People will start coming in at the office at around 8 PM Manila time - 2 hours from now. I haven't taken my lunch break yet. People not working in a call center might wonder why lunch break at the early hours of the evening. It just that I'm on a different shift and my 1 hour break for me to eat falls between 5-7 PM Manila time. Now it's totally dark. Street lights are already on. Streets are starting to get busy because of the people going home from work, while I'm here in the middle of my shift. This will be the scenario for the next months to come unless changes occur along the way.

It's quite unusual seeing very few people in the office but i like it this way. I can have time to think and observe my life at the moment different from what i used to have. To some point, there comes a time where I long to go back to the quite place where in you can reflect and see your inner being. A place where in you only see the grass, the leaves, the trees and feel the air touching your being. There you can have time to talk to the person who loved you first and also listen to what He is telling you. I know that it will happened again but not this time. There are things that i need to settle first. Besides, I want to be sure of any decisions i am making especially if it will entails a lifetime commitment. This decision once have been made is not like a job where in you can just file a resignation and look for another one as you wish or you can just leave without a trace. It's not a race. After all, I'm not only answerable to my own decision but also to the people, like my office mates and Bunso, whom i will be promising to be of service, and especially to Him who initiated first this journey. And if indeed that will happened, there will be no turning back and i can own that decision with a happy face and a happy heart.

Health and Blessings!

-melskiens-

Naguguluhan po Ako!

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Thu, 03 Feb 2011 09:02:00 +0000

Hay naku! Naguguluhan ako kung ano ang isusulat ko. Andyan yung pagcecelebrate sa Chinese New Year, Kurapsyon sa AFP, Rebolusyon sa Egypt, Valentines day, Love story nila Piolo at ang crush na crush kung si KC Concepcion. Ewan ko ba!. Sya nga pala, hindi ako nakakain ng Tikoy (Nián gāo) sa Chinese New year na ito . Sabi pa naman nila na swe-swertehin ka kapag kumain ka ng tikoy, eh paano ngayon yan, hindi ako nakakain ng tikoy, ibig bang sabihin hindi ako magiging swerte sa taong ito? Gustuhin ko mang isanguni sa aking sodiac sign pero mas lalong magulo - ang dating pinakamamahal kong Capricorn ay napalitan na ng Sagitarrius, tsk,tsk. Pumasok-pasok pa kasi sa eksena ang Ophiuchus. Kung sabagay kasali naman talaga sya. At ngayon, naguguluhan narin ang mga taong nagbibigay kahulugan sa mga sodiac signs, goodluck sa kanila. Pero ito lang ang masasabi ko, hindi man ako Capricorn pero gusto ko parin and papaitan, kalderetang kambing, at kilawin - hmmmm sarap!..tulo laway!

Nakakatulo laway din ang mga kaganapan sa ating lipunan ngayon, lalo na sa AFP. Nakakainis talaga, parang gusto kung pagbubugbugin sila. Pero sa kabilang dako, ngayon ko lang din nalaman na delikado pala ang maging AFP chief kasi may tendency na magkaroon ka ng amnesia, tsk,tsk. "Pababaunan" ko nalang si Reyes at tatlo pang dating AFP chiefs ng mani - kasi brain food daw ang mani. At least may maalala man lang sila kahit konti noong sila pa ang AFP chief. In fairness kina Army Col. George Rabusa, Col. Antonio Ramon Lim at isama narin natin si Mrs. Heidi Mendoza, matapang silang humarap sa Senado para ibulgar ang kanilang mga nalalaman - Kudos!! pababaunan ko rin kayo ng aking panalangin! Amen!

Speaking of panalangin, ito ang nanaig noong 1986 Edsa people power. Naalala ko pa noon habang naglalaro ako sa kalsada eh may naririnig akong ingay ng mga tora-torang lumulipad, yun pala may kaguluhan na sa Metro Manila may rebulusyon ng nangyayari. Maliit palang ako noon pero may malay narin ako nun (ayan medyo pinapahalata ko na sa inyo ang aking edad). Ito rin ngayon ang nangyayari sa Egypt. January 25 ng nag simulang magprotesta ang mga tao. Nainspire sila sa matagumpay na rebolusyon sa Tunisia. Akalain ninyong namuno si President Hosni Mubarak sa Egypt bilang presidente sa loob ng 30 years! Talo pa si Marcos! Ininireklamo ng mga tao sa Egypt ang katiwalian, kawalan ng trabaho, kahirapan at otokratikong pamamalakad. pinagbawalan din ang mga tao sa Ehipto na gumamit ng Twitter(meron po pala akong twitter account kaso nakalimutan ko ang password,hehe)pati na ang internet providers - dito kasi inilalabas ng mga tao ang saloobin nila. Marami narin ang namatay at patuloy parin ang pagproprotesta ng mga tao doon. Dito sa atin, mabuti naman at umaksyon na ang Gobyerno sa pagpapalikas ng mga kababayan natin na naipit sa kaguluhan sa Egypt.

Sa ngayon, wala akong nakikitang aksyon sa darating na Valentines day. Maliban sa mangyayaring pagbabaril ng mga firing squad sa mga taong walang ka-date! Aray ko po! Isa na ho yata ako roon sa mga mababaril. Strict kasi ang parents ko eh. Goodluck nalang sa mga may kadate. Ako neto ay magsasarili at maghahanap ng wala ring kadate sa tabi-tabi, hehe. Eto pala ang mga tips ko para maging memorable ang date nyo: 1. magpahabol sa aso - (ang cute nyo tingnan kung magka-holding hands kayong tumatakbo papalayo sa aso.) 2.) kumain ng street foods ex. isaw, kwek2x, atbp (tipid to the max - mahal sa resto) 3. maghiking sa gilid ng edsa (naglalakad habang tinatakpan mo ng panyo ang ilong ng kadate mo dahil sa usok - diba ang sweet?) 4. kissing under the rain: (pumunta sa northern mindanao o eastern visayas - kasalukuyang inuulan at patuloy ang pagbaha doon -) 5. magmovie-marathon sa bahay - (maagang magpunta sa quiapo at bumili ng 30-in-1 DVD 30 pesos lang - murang-mura na!)Ito po ay gabay lamang, patnubay ng magulang ay kailangan.

Kailangan kong mapag-isa ngayon sa kadahilanang nalaman ko na sila na pala ni KC Concepcion at Piolo. Masakit iyon para sa akin. Wala na akong pag-asa kay KC, ang aking long time crush. Una ko syang nakita noong 9 years old pa lamang sya sa concert ng kanyang mommy. Mula noon, ako ay nahumali sa angking ganda ni KC. Eh ngayon na taken na sya, i have no choice but to look for someone other than KC. Ayoko ring maubos ang aking panahon sa kakaisip sa kanya. Well, andyan naman sila Sam Pinto at si Georgina Wilson. Ibabaling ko nalang ang aking atention sa kanila. (gisingin nyo po ako!)

Hahay, wala talaga me maisulat. Heto at matatapos narin ang aking shift. Pauwi narin me maya-maya sa aking tahanan. Buti at nakapag-blog pa ako habang nasa work, hehe. Wala na talagang pumapasok sa utak ko. Kailangan ko nang mag break muna. 'till next time!

Health and Blessings!

-melskiens-

Back to Blogging!!!!

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 00:04:00 +0000

Magandang Araw, Magandang Buwan, Magandang Bituin, Magandang Ulap, at Magandang Langit! (kasi parati nalang si Araw ang bida, at least mapagbigyan din natin ng pagkakataon ang ibang bagay na nakikita sa langit at pati ang langit mismo, toinks!) A beautiful day to everyone! it's been a long while since i haven't posted here on my blog. The reason being is that i ran out of things to right - and to simply explain that- Katamaran! hehe..

With my new schedule sa work- hopefully i can go back to my blogging activity. i missed so many things worth writing on my blog. And so i missed so many opportunities expressing my being in the web world. i don't want to share with somebody the things that are happening to me. i better express it in a different way. for one, i have with "eng2x" accompanying me though i haven't spent so much time eng2x lately. i sometimes left myself alone, wandering things inside my head - reflecting, thinking, daydreaming? nah - whatsoever! the thing is, there should always be a way to express yourself in a manner suited for you. writing, though not my kind of craft (is there any?), is one of the many ways in which one can bring oneself out of his own hidings. So much of these - i'll write something in the following days, hopefully! - hopefully because i might ran out of things again to write, weeeh!!!

health and blessings for all!!!

-melskiens-

LIFE...

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 20:48:00 +0000

Life is unfolding realities each day. And as i go into the details of it, i started getting into a deeper sense of knowing what my purpose is... indeed, everybody is asking what's life to offer. hmmm...would you know? this is a classic question and there are countless attempts to answer it. those attempts though would only reach in philosophical books and discourses and if your are not enrolled to any of the universities, or have enough luxuries of time and money, to read or buy books. you wouldn't be able to access those profound words of wisdom. nevertheless, these are just mere cognitive and only in the form of intellectual masturbation. real answers on the question would differ on one's life experience and perspective within the context of what environment each person is into. this doesn't mean we stop asking questions because it seems that we don't have access on those proposals written on papers. however, if we quit on asking, there's no sense in what we are doing. there's no sense of direction. there's a danger in becoming just a mere player in this world. we should rather ask valid questions that would trigger the innate being we have. questions that can be found in ordinary circumstances - formulating extraordinary inquiries of life. to be continued...

-melskiens-

REST IN PEACE BROTHER!

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Thu, 10 Jun 2010 15:44:00 +0000

REV. FR. CHRISTOPHER "TOPI" LAO EXALA, O.CARM.
February 27, 1967 - June 6, 2010

Fr. Topi died last June 6 due to fatal accident (road mishap) happened on his way to Sto. Tomas (Tibal-og), Davao del Norte for an early morning Corpus Christi mass in the parish. He is 43 years old. He was my first formator in the college formation and he was the one who responded to my 3 application letters i sent to the Carmelites. He played a big role in my vocation story.

You will always be remembered.

Condolence to the Carmelites Family

Brother, May You Rest In Peace

-melskiens-

just a thought

noreply@blogger.com (-melskiens-) — Fri, 28 May 2010 16:03:00 +0000

being independent isn't about getting away with your family of friends, it's the other way around..it's rather making you see the connection in a perspective where you seem alone and far from them. - you live not because of yourself, you live because someone needs you for them to live..